i want to be somebody els, she is so lucky, she got out of the group home and she practically made a new family with the staff and calls one of them mom,how do somepeople get so lucky? i dont have anyone i no some people that live two hours away, and i actually wish that girl would want to be my friend cause i looked up to her, im just not an exception

ive got only one last hope… i hope that death will rise upon to take me away soon…

Still breathing, yet increasingly there seems to be less of a reason to exist ( I won’t say live, because I don’t consider myself living.)
I’m existing. For now.

Im trying to take my mind off things.. Iv’e written books, essays, music, I draw, I listen to music. What/How on Earth do I do to take my mind off things?

Well I have tried killing myself. I’ve slit my wrists, arms, legs, stomach, fingertips. I don’t want an identity. I have burned off my fingerprints but they grew back, no matter how many times I burned them off.

I don’t consider myself human.

I’m an alien.

I’m a redhead that lives in a small town full of Mexicans. I don’t hate them, I love my friends. But I’m an alien. I’m from mars and other people like me (gingers) are the reason why mars is red. I had to learn to make fun of myself at a very young age in order to live in this hellhole-of-a-town.

I’ve held a […]

I read Stories here all the time, because it reminds me that I’m not alone. Some people stories are way worse than man. I feel stupid complaining about how i want to die because i have low-self esteem. But i just do. It’s something i can’t help. Last night i had my first attempt. i took so many aspirins, and fell asleep so quickly, but woke up late this morning. And felt like shit this whole entire day. But i didn’t tell anyone of course, my eyes were so red and baggy, my stomach was killing me, and i had headaches, i felt dizzy. But […]

Lawrence Egbert: The new Dr. Death

With Jack Kevorkian gone, says Manuel Roig-Franzia, this 84-year-old doctor is the new face of assisted suicide

LAWRENCE EGBERT COMES to his cramped third-story office almost every weekday, taking calls on an old white push-button phone with a handset darkened by years of smudged newsprint and perspiration. Egbert, a slightly built, genial, and energetic retired anesthesiologist, turns to his computer, content to answer an email while I sort through a pile of plastic tubing in a lumpy white garbage bag. Once I finish untangling the tubes, I hold in my hands a curious […]

GA assisted-suicide law struck down

ATLANTA, Feb. 6 (UPI) — The Georgia Supreme Court struck down the state’s assisted-suicide law, saying it violated free-speech clauses in the state and U.S. constitutions.

“As a general matter … government has no power to restrict expression because of its message, its ideas, its subject matter, or its content,” said the unanimous decision issued Monday in favor of four members the Final Exit Network. ”

The four were charged for assisting in a 2008 suicide, The Atlanta Journal Constitution said. A 1994 Georgia law made it a felony for anyone “who publicly advertises, offers or holds himself or herself out as offering […]

i called a suicide hotline to talk to someone about wantig to kill my self and my pain, i bearly started talking and she told me to hold on a minute, and i was on the phone waiting for atleast a minute till i got pissed, i realized it must have not been that important,wtf,

So, I guess i’ll tell you about myself. My name is Zoe. spelled Zoe pronounced Zoey. Iv’e always been a happy kid. or so everyone thinks so. no one really knows how i feel. they don’t bother to look past the smiles and see the constant pain and emptyness I feel. I shouldnt be complaining though, ive got a roof over my head, clothes on my back, family and friends. BUT IM NOT HAPPY!

When I was young, and id get stressed or sad, id bite myself and scream into my arm until I felt relieved. It always left a big mark.. it felt good. […]

No one can change my mind.

What do I put in a note?

I keep thinking of suicide but have never planned exactly how im going to do it… I hate planning anything, I can hardly plan what time im going to wake up at, never mind what time im going to die at.. why cant death be easy? why cant I just fall asleep and never wake up without any effort?

I suppose if I had a gun, it would require very little effort, but unlucky for me.. I live in Ireland, so getting hold of one isn’t easy. The next best thing is probably just to jump off something very high… bar the whole ”falling” part, […]

i sit here alone in my apartment, i want to just leave this town but i cant deal with being in a group home again,im sick a being thrown every where,when im done with being protectivly placed i will jump a train if i have to,im alone,i always been,i called my support staff and she was being a ***** so i broke down,people that are there to sapport you  dont, some people may think if i want to end it so bad why dont i just do it, because the pain of knowing noone would give a damb rips my heart open,but the pain of […]

Just signed up. had googled “I want to die today” and found this site. I know I won’t get the permission I ‘d like… permission to end my life. Suicide is actually only my 2nd option. If I could I’d erase all trace of my life and existence… from all records including peoples memories. I wish I didn’t exist and hadn’t been born. Wish I could just click on “delete” and be gone today. I see no way out.

So as I am sitting here thinking about all the crap I have in storage, I realize it is a lot of my childhood memories. Stuff I always dreamed I would someday have a kid of my own to give it all to. As I realize that this will never actually happen, I start to decide to give away my past, good or bad. So then I start thinking about the other stuff I own, and since I have been bouncing around between friends’s houses with no place really to call home, and no job in sight, I know I can’t get much by selling […]

Well, As it began, I was such a fool. Trying to impress the likes of you. You were sixteen years old and I was merely Thirteen. My heart was cold and my eyes were dull. My wrists were cut and my spirits were gone.  I was a zombie. Simple as that.

One day, I saw your name on the internet, and..something drove me to look. I talked to you for a month.. During which we were the best of friends.. You were hospitalized in Florida. And I was alone in Alabama. When you got out of the place, you came back to my town (where you lived) and […]

people ask me why im so angry, when theywant to know me, i tell them they cant know me,for one i dont even know myself,usualyy when i think i figured it out things go down hill, i turn my hurt into anger cause it feels better then pain to me,i dont trust anyone,i push people away cause i want to hurt them before they hurt me,cause i cant take the damage,i wear masks,i never act how i really feel,this is what life fucking did to me,if i ever become something great in life im gonna fuck everyone that has hurt me over,my rage is hidden […]

i fought through everything in my life, starvation, homeless, abandment, even times i wanted to take a bunch of pills and end it or excape for a little while,i stopt abusing pills when i was 19,i thought if u fight like u want what you see and want what you crave in life then it has to happen,my family dont give a shit about me, my dad only calls to ask if i heard from my twin and how shes doing, can somebody atleast act like they care?o i forgot ,people do, and they end up showing who they really are wen they leave you […]

i wanna know if in this web ..participate people from the hispanic countries.. A lot of information is good but is in english and i wanna talk about it in my original language.. I dont pretend change the format of this web.. is good in english.. I just want use this post to meet spanish speakers..

I have a lot of source about the helium method.

 
Quiero saber si en esta web .. participan personas de los países de habla hispana .. Una gran cantidad de información es buena, pero es en Inglés y lo que quiero hablar de eso en mi idioma original .. Yo […]

IEveryone got a rose at lunch today… guess who didn’t -_- . FML!