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Life or death?

July 30th, 2010by lansVL

What kind of world has been created? It is the exact opposite of the stupid hedonistic Utopias that the old reformers imagined. A world of fear and treachery and torment, a world of trampling and being trampled upon, a world which will grow not less but more merciless as it refines itself. Progress in our world will be progress toward more pain.

A glittering world of steel and concrete, of monstrous machines and terrifying weapons—a nation of warriors and fanatics, marching forward in perfect unity, all thinking the same thoughts and shouting the same slogans, perpetually working, fighting, triumphing, persecuting—three hundred million people all with the …

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numb

July 30th, 2010by thegirlwhostoppedtheworld

he left me last night with a giant hole in  my chest, after months of silence the hole was numbed, i had let myself forget how much pain he causes when he is not there, and how much happiness he brings me when he is there.

It was as if i had been starving myself, the hunger pains soon became but a soft annoyance in the back of my mind and with the smallest taste of him i had to start from the beginning all over again, i lay curled in a ball clenching my stomach… the numbed feeling could not come soon enough.

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Apathy

July 30th, 2010by Skullmiser

I’m not really “in pain,” or anything, but I do think about killing myself an awful lot.  I’m not really interested in anything, there’s nobody that I love, and everyone that loves or cares about me will also be dead in about 100 years anyway, and I don’t believe in an afterlife. There really is nothing that I want to live for, so whenever a small problem comes up in college, or wherever , I always think about how much easier it would be to just kill myself, than to go through the trouble of finding a solution.

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My Story

July 30th, 2010by WNT2DIE

To Whom It May Concern;

Hi, this is my story

I have been diagnosed as having borderline personality disorder, manic depressed, anxiety attacks, and panic attacks. i do not like to leave my house if i don’t have to. i have committed suicide 12 times, with no affect.    my father died Feb 97. we were close but not as close as people would think. his death has hit me hard and it still bothers me. i blame myself and i cannot “let it go” as people would per

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The way to select Hajj Packages

July 29th, 2010by fryderykaw80

Hajj packages differ amongst totally different operators of tours. Each package is unique and you will definitely get confused trying to find essentially the most excellent and affordable package. Normally, most Hajj packages will comprise of quite a few things.
This contains meals during all of your rites of Hajj, home and worldwide return flights and lectures to improve your understanding of Hajj. These lectures are often undertaken by people who are highly certified and who have a lot of expertise in issues to do with Hajj and on most of the other associated subjects.

It doesn’t matter which nation you come from, it’s doable to …

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Decay–Desire–Death

July 29th, 2010by Lola79

For over six years, I have fought to live through a special person who has stood by me. But now, I am unemployed and I cannot find any jobs in the city where he lives. And, I cannot move there because I am not a citizen of that country. And, he had a job offer in my city, but he decided against it, and now he says I should have convinced him to take it. He wrote that he will regret turning down the job forever. So now, so now, I am dead…dead. And I am dead. I am 31 soon and cannot take this …

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Suicide

July 29th, 2010by normajean

hi anyone who were unsuccessful comitting suicide using helium method then they must read an article about SARAH CHERRY who used to live in Preston,England and she followed the method from the book THE FINAL EXIT and she trie dit first time and she was dead so i hope there is hope for everyone of us.

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Suicide runs in the family… How can I stop it???

July 29th, 2010by Bride to Be 2012

Back on August 28, 2003, two weeks after I get into school for my 7th grade year in middle school, my Grandpa Jon (Whom I’ve called Grumpy ever since I’ve met him) committed suicide by BB Gun in Mema’s (my great-grandmother) kitchen. My dad was depressed for some time before threatening mine and my little sisters lives. Mom made the right decision by telling him that she was filing for divorce. I almost lost my dad to suicide and now, about 7 years later, I almost took my life with drugs. I’ve tried overdosing with Asprin and Tylenol but it just made me feel all …

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Guilt

July 29th, 2010by mess

I live an uncomfortable life under my own roof. I am a 21 yr old indian girl who feels like there is nothing left to live for anymore. Everyday I hold the guilt of committing a big sin, hating my family! They aren’t the worst family around but neither the best. I hate them for not understanding me and giving me the love and support I always needed. They have this complete wrong image of me, continuously negative towards me. I am always in trouble and constantly get told off! I feel like I cant breathe when I want to, how I want to! I …

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you idiots

July 29th, 2010by cs30

you think you know how we feel? you come in here and try to make us feel better and give us false confidence. you dont know what its like to be the living dead. until you do. leave us alone.

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on mostly good people kill themselves

July 29th, 2010by cs30

I never doubted in my mind that I am a good person. Someone bumps into me, I say sorry. Someone needs my help, I go and help them to the point of being abused. All my life, I have tried to be responsible. I used to have it all. A happy family, a successful career, and man that loved me very much. Now, I am 4 months pregnant with this man. This man who hurts me physically and screams at me everytime, and looks at me like I am disguting. I am so stupid, I cant leave. I tried, but I keep returning. That I can handle, but …

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July 29th, 2010by lost_soul

everyone is lucky in their own right, but why do we all only think of the negatives in our lives? why do we complain about the rain when we know it’ll provide us with food to eat and water to drink? why do we yell at the guy who cut us off on the highway when we’re lucky we didn’t crash? why do we want to kill ourselves because we’re “alone” when there are others who actually know the pain we are feeling?

I mean no disrespect to those who take offense. It was just a thought.

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Methods to select Hajj Packages

July 28th, 2010by annabuczy2

Hajj is perhaps some of the important pillars of the Islamic religion. It offers a really distinctive alternative that you need to use as a way to reconcile with Allah and to seek His forgiveness. This will help you make a new and recent start in life. Hajj can be an expertise of a lifetime since not everybody can afford to interact in it.

If you are planning to affix the tens of millions of pilgrims who undertake tours every year beginning at Hajj and ending up at Mecca, you will want to find the perfect Hajj packages around. There are a number of …

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I believe mostly good people kill themselves

July 28th, 2010by berndt2010

For some reason, since I was 16 (I’m now 39), I have been fascinated with death. Not in a morbid sense, in fact, I am anything but morbid. For reasons unbeknown to myself, I always saw death as something beautiful and extremely exciting, and not the upsetting and dark thing that most people feel about it. As a child I was thought of as weird to not get upset, or be fearful, of death.

As I got older, I began to feel that suicide seems to be the solution for mostly ‘good’ people (I mean, you don’t hear of as many pedophiles, rapists and murderers committing …

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have you ever had a very strong urge to…

July 28th, 2010by imreadytogo

Just walk into your kitchen and grab your chef knife, hold it tightly in both hands and in one force stab, pierce your aorta? Right now it sounds pretty damn appealing.

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Feeling

July 28th, 2010by Kieylee102

I haven’t written here in a long time but I think I might need help. When I started to write I either wanted to feel something or wanted to stop feeling all together. But this time I don’t know whether if I want to feel something or nothing at all. On one hand I want to go back to cutting to see what’s real but on the other hand I’m so terrified that I keep having a nightmare that I end up almost die. So I don’t know how to feel. As well I have no one here to talk to or even understand why …

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Falling apart

July 28th, 2010by Kieylee102

I’m just a mess and can’t fix it. Every time I think I’ve got something right there is something that I forgot and I keep getting yelled at for it. I just can’t take it. And does anyone else get in trouble or yelled at; NO. I just keep getting pounded on and I always take the heat. What else is there to do the other person is younger than me so I feel that I should protect them. But then when I do they never try to help me.

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Helium hood method

July 28th, 2010by robbieinman

I only just found this site, which is pretty weird seen as I have been searching and studying suicide methods for 3 years.

Just briefly: I have known that I would take my own life for about ten years (I’m 37), and for 3 years I knew that the time was near and I started to study methods. the past year has been detailed planning.

Since I was 15 I have taken many overdoses, some of them massive (280 paracetamol, 80 sleeping pills and alcohol). Each and every time I have survived, obviously. But I warn you now, recovery is horrible, absolutely horrible, I can’t stress that …

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despair

July 28th, 2010by grudney

shame and loss and misery lead me to my dads old gun -will the 50 year old ammunition work ? i hope so and that i will have the courage

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I…

July 28th, 2010by bghb

Just want one chance to get this out without any judgement or anyone trying to stop me. It’s long… so you don’t have to read it if you don’t want to. If you do.. you aren’t going to help so keep your comments to yourself.
I’ve been suicidal for a long time now. I’m not even sure what started these feelings I have. All I know is that I have an intense hatred of me. I constantly shut myself down and consider myself “not good enough” or “undeserving of this life”. I feel like I’m a waste on the worlds resources and life would have been …

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