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so im not dead..

  October 20th, 2010 by 2cankeepasecret

i wrote telling that i was gonna do it.

and i did, but i failed obviously. i tried pills and ended up getting my stomach pumped and spending 3 days in the hospital. and to be honest im glad i didnt die. im lucky im alive but im still depressed. my boyfriend is worried about me and my parents think i should go to therapy. my friends wont even text me back and i wanna drop out of school. i dont know what to do anymore. im  scared and im alone in this world. it seems like this whole thing made it worse than ever.

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I’ll help you out

  October 20th, 2010 by CankerSoar

Hey, I’m a 15 year old boy and I used to think about suicide all the time. School was fine, but it was just my home life. My mother and father didn’t give a shit about anything I do. My sister was always the one they loved. The more things i did wrong the more i got scolded. It just hurts when they scold me. But what I’m here to tell you is that, if you need a friend or helping out with a problem, I’ll just let you know that i’m here for you. Every life is worth alot and i know it is. …

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Someone to talk to…

  October 20th, 2010 by rachel96


I’m a 14 year old who’s been through a lot of things. I’ve been depressed and suicidal for about a year now.

If anyone out there just wants to talk, I need someone who can understand. Please.

Skype: rachel_andress

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Helium Hood Method

  October 20th, 2010 by smcnally13

Okay, so I need a little help. I’m going to buy a disposable helium tank tomorrow from WalMart. Do I need to buy some kind of tube? If so, where could I buy one of these? Or maybe comprimise and make one or something? So from what I’ve read, you fill up the plastic bag with helium and put it over your head and tie it. You will pass out in seconds and be dead in minutes. Can someone correct me if I’m wrong? Will I be consciuous long enough to tie it? And also, would a layer of plastic grocery bags work? Please help …

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Suicidal Obsession

  October 20th, 2010 by broken forever

My first obsession in life was suicide. It still is. I’ve been contemplating and entertaining suicide

for my whole life since age 12. I have a family now with several children. I don’t want them to suffer the pain of losing there dad but sometimes the

pain of my marriage and a past broken heart that will not, no matter what, go away. I think of her EVERY day and know that we will never be together

again and that still drives me to suicidal ideation.

It has taken it’s toll this obsession has. Today was a bad one, an almost in the car. I don’t know why I …

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Stuck for what to even think anymore?

  October 20th, 2010 by LilBear

Hey… I’m not sure how to write this really, but here goes.

First things first, I’m a 14 year old girl and have been depressed for about 5 years now, though it was only around 2 years ago that I became really depressed. So I guess I’ll start from there.

2 years ago on 13th October my mood just completely fell and I felt so bad, I just wanted out. I wrote notes to my family and tried to kill myself (obviously, failing). I’ve not stopped wondering whether I regretted the attempt or not, but I don’t think I do.

I talk quite often with my head of …

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I wish I could forget.

  October 20th, 2010 by chibi

Make me forget, I can’t live with the memories anymore.
I don’t want to remember.

Is there anyone who has managed to eliminate memories so horrible that you can not live with them?
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  October 20th, 2010 by madelineanne

well, i’m 15 now. last year was probably the hardest year f0r me & my family though,

my mom went through a rough divorce. her 5th. that led to us losing our house, friends, & dog. she got a dui in the process & attempted suicide 3 times.. a month after my best friend hung himself in the bathroom & i got pregnant, i had a miscarriage & the boy left me thats when i got a cocaine addiction i asked everyone and anyone i could for help weather it was teachers, family members, doctors. no one helped, no one saw anything wrong, on the surface …

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It’s not the answer.

  October 20th, 2010 by k4ti3rocks

By committing suicide, you don’t only hurt yourself, you hurt everyone who loves and cares for you. They are left behind with the question of “why.” Why did my daughter kill herself? Why didn’t my son talk to me? I know it seems like no one cares but they do! Your never alone and there is always someone out there who will listen to you. It’s so important to talk about your feelings. When you keep things bottled up it makes it hard for you to realize what’s actually happening and it feels worse than it actually is. Your worth a lot more than you …

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Been there…done that!

  October 20th, 2010 by Eckles

For all those that are on the edge and trying one last ditched effort to hang on by being here….let me tell you what I did and why. I’m in a controlling loveless marriage…have been for 32 years now. I’ve been beaten, belittled, told I was worthless as a woman. I got so low that I just wanted to go to sleep and never wake up so that I wouldn’t have to feel this way ever again. So I took 2 bottles of benzodiazapan which I’d been saving for the moment, downed it with a bottle of wine, kissed my two little kids goodbye, climbed …

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  October 20th, 2010 by Eckles

I’ve read some of the posts here and I feel so helpless for some people. We all have our hard times I know. I’m going thru another one now but jeez guys….don’t give up. I did it once before and really feel like doing it again now. Life is shit sometimes. We get so bogged down by negativity and stupid people that sometimes we forget to have a bit of strength to stand up for ourselves. I came on here to announce to the world that I was going to do it…the saddness gets to me sometimes and I think they’ll be no way out…but …

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Will you kill what’s left of me to stop the bleeding?

  October 19th, 2010 by misunderstood

I sat here for thirty minutes trying to think of the perfect note to write. The perfect way to say my peace. I came up with nothing. There is honestly nothing left to say. I will kill myself tonight on October 19, 2010. All because of what happened October 16, 2010. I’m so sorry Monti. I love you.

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Weird Questions…

  October 19th, 2010 by SuicidePlagueRat

I’m a fourteen year old female teen. I hate doctors and counselors and people in general. I have felt depressed, hated, and like a robot- going through life only doing what I think should happen, but not feeling anything- since I can remember. I must fake happiness, and… Well, recently I’ve been asking my only two friends weird questions.
What they would do if I died, killed myself, or was killed.
What I would have to do to make them hate me more than anything else.
Things like that.
I’m so messed up, and used to being lied to- mostly from myself- by being forced to say I’m alright …

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  October 19th, 2010 by Something.

I’m feeling a sudden fear of dying lately. And I don’t like it.
One thing is to feel all the excruciating pain and wish the death. Another thing is to feel the excruciating pain and still feel the awful fear of dying.

Today the word is fear.

I want to be loved. But then I think about the awful things that could happen to the person I love including death. Would be unbearable.

Well, everything in life at some point would be unbearable. I fear the unbearable.

I don’t want to feel it. I never wanted to feel it. But now I fear death. Maybe it’s not fear, …

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People who are average.

  October 19th, 2010 by Caleb87

Don’t you think you could have found a better site if you just wanted to complain about your minor problems? (g/f break up, someone doesn’t like you, you just feel this way, who knows..) YOU are not suicidal, if you are you need therapy.
Does this piss anybody else off?? what kind of shat is that?! i take it as an insult.
For instance ‘morbid’ who i would rather rename as self centered ass’ Spams his meaningless story 4x over everyone else. I go ahead and read it (maybe it deserves 4x the attention!) No not at all infact he goes on about how he …

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  October 19th, 2010 by beon

There was a guy here who said there were two options: (i agree)

1. theres a god

2. everything just started to exsist.

It`s not very complicated then. Either start beliving in some higher power. Halleluja, and whatnot. ..I wish i had that.- Or theres that other option, ur in a circle of shit.

Me- im dust.

Fuck this.

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“I’m bored with it all”

  October 19th, 2010 by morbid

“I’m bored with it all “was winston churhill’s last words before he died, I dont need to save the world to realize how boring and sick it is, ive had my share.

you know, since the first day i remember, as far as memory stretches, not one day has passed that i didnt remind myself that tomorrow, is gonna be a better day, I’m 24 now, and I guess I finally figured, its not.

Maybe its the sense of belonging that I miss, people find it wierd, i was raised in a perfect family, in a perfect environment, good grades, good schools, good job, if you met …

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What kind of parents are these!?!

  October 19th, 2010 by Caleb87

Just a note this is not why i am suicidal but it’s just something that i haven’t told many people and it has bothered me for a really long time.

My mom and her partner (i say partner because she is a woman also) had an std apparently, this was back when i was a teenager i am 23 now but i only found out that i had an std awhile ago after seeing numerous doctors for years and them only seeing inflamed urination.

It turns out that my mother or her partner had an std when i was about 15-16 and we had shared the same …

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Our instinct to live

  October 19th, 2010 by TheQuitter

I’m like many on here in that I contemplate and plan my suicide often but don’t actually go through with it. I’ve had a couple of failed attempts and close calls but in the end my instinct to live (and some bad luck) keeps winning out. I’m thinking now about using Nike’s slogan of “Just do it” and using a shotgun in two days regardless of how I feel at the moment. I really don’t have anything worth living for (especially a rather bleak future) and just doing it even if I’m afraid or having second thoughts is the most *logical* course of action.

Does my …

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Don’t take the easy way out…

  October 18th, 2010 by hannahc123

Things are getting so hard lately. I’m only 17, and a senior in high school.
I could have it a lot worse right now. But I don’t. I could be abused and hit and unloved by people close to me but I’m not. I just feel so alone. I just have no one at all.
I feel like I will never find someone for me in the world. I lost my virginity when I was 14. I regret it so much.
Since then, I have had sex with 5 guys. All of them I had feelings for, and all of them who screwed me over and made …

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