Throughout my whole life, there has always seemed to be one way to describe my existence. Surviving. The first ten years of our lives, we are taught to explore the world. To find knowledge, and learn how things work…to understand just how beautiful the gift of life is. But all the second half of my life has brought is death. lonliness. pain. It has been so long since I’ve been happy with the way I am. I see the world in a new light now. But the sad part is, all that is really left is darkness. Is there anyone left who can show me […]
Does anybody else not feel sorry for people in third world countries? At least they only live until their mid twenties if they are lucky.. they arent missing out on much to be honest. Id trade places with one of them in a second right now, rather than live in this commercial fucking hell they call modern society.
You were born as a simple animal such as a sheep or a cow instead of a complicated human? I mean how fucking harder can it get? those monks that isolate themselves in the  middle of nowhere are right.. life is too complicated and its fucking hell for some.. I sometimes just feel I shoudnt have been born in this time or not at all… people say people that die at age 2o die ”young”… well im 20 years old and im fucking bored.. I have friends, a loving family ect but I still feel like shit. Most of the time however I just choose […]
well if you’ve read my other post “i hurt to much” you’d know me and my boyfriend broke up… if u haven’t read it please do because i don’t want to explain it again… i feel nothing but pain. al day… all i want to do is sleep. not eat, not shower, not smile…. my parents noticed somethings up so of corse they have asked if I’m ok.. i lie and say I’m just tired… i can’t talk to them about this.. they didn’t even know i have a boyfriend…
god why must a broken heart cost so much pain!!!!!!!
i want to die. but i […]
I go see my therapist tomorrow i.realy like her she nice and understanding and is one person.to judge me i cant wait to go get some of this stuff off my chest
Jan 6th going to jail for 2months… I’m not the strong person I use to be, I suffered enough, how the fuck will I be able to get threw 2 months or jail with severe social anxiety….. fml I think I’m better off dead. end is near
Thinking about Hanging myself Makes me cry or jumping off my window or a bride. bleeding out in the bathtub. Im in a realationship but still alone. She tells me think Positive and everything gets better but its going over a year now. and i now how much longer i can go on. it hurts so much to see happy couples :,(
What do you do when all your life, all you’ve ever thought of was how to kill yourself? What do you do when everywhere you look, everyone you talk to, everything you do, was spurred by the want, the NEED to end your life? What do you do when you try to be positive, but all that does is a few months of temporary hope, before reality comes crashing down and you realize that you’ve wasted days and months on living, when you could have spent that time trying to look for a way to die?
I’m not going to lie. I know that I wasted […]
I am in high school. And ever since elem school i have been rejected from everything. I just dont fit in anywhere. Im not mean or too shy but people just dont like me because im smart. They think that im better than them. They make me ashamed of who i am. I can never stop crying every time i use the bathroom at school. when i come home. i go straight to my room and i cryy and cry. I look on facebook and twitter and the camp ground i used to go to seasonally. I see all these pictures of people that i […]
I dont know anymore what do to , what do think. My girlfriend had anoxeria and bulimia. She got over it. But the aftermath is that all the time shes somekind of sick and ill. Through the Year she chanced she started to getting annoyed by everythink. and she always say i wanna pick a fight or some shit. we still love each other but i cant go on for over a month i havent seen here and always when we wanna see us there is some problem that we cannot see eachother atm it the problem that shes annoyed and she dont want to […]
i have decieded to end my life, im ganna kill myself at 3:05 2day, if u think i shouldnt tell me before 3:05. GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don’t know where to go from here. The last year has been absolute hell for me, and in ways yes i am being selfish, everyones had their hard times, but somehow i don’t seem to handle it quite as good as they have. I have lost a good friend to suicide, another friend to an accident, and my ex boyfriend in a car crash…all before the end of the summer. Although to everyone else im this very sarcastic, bubbly, outgoing character, inside ive died a little. I paint on a smile. I hide my feelings. Even when i do break down it wont be […]
srry my little sister is crazy,im the real deathbug and im still alive, just hidin
the real deathbug was kilked by my mom but she took of HELP ME. the real deathbug died about 3 hours ago im taleyai her little sister.
I am basically a very anxious person.It’s like I am always expecting something terrrible to happen.My shrink says that I suffer from Obsessive compulsive disorder.Anxiety hurts me a lot and I sometimes feel that I really need to die in order to end this terrible miserable life.I really feel the end is near.
im deathbugs little sister,the real deathbugs was killed, by i think u can guess.
last night my boyfriend that i realized i was madly in love with dumped me becuz since it was long distance we could only talk through this app on our iPod touches.. his parents are forcing him to sell his so we can no longer talk so he broke up with me…. I’ve never hurt so much. please… i want the pain to go away!!!!!!!!
my eyes are swollen and red from crying. i don’t want to do anything. i don’t want to eat, shower, move…or sleep becuz i know i will dream of him whether its a nightmare or a good dream… i just can’t […]
slowly but surely digging myself out of the hole of depression that I’ve let my life slide into. I moved out of my moms apartment into a great and affordable apt of my own downtown, close to work, but life still feels so futile.
What’s the point in playing the game of life when my goals are unreachable? They say to get new goals but my aspirations are fundamental to my own happiness. I want a companion but it’s not working out.
I find women that stimulate me mentally and physically but they just keep me on the side, and I don’t blame them. I’m a […]
hay uttilini, im not a rep. for the site im a real person i have a facebook.
can someone tell me what to do i have to ideas 1.kill my self.or 2.live through being beat. if u have your own idea on wat i should do tell me but please hurry my mom has a butcher knife and is trying to get in the attic witch is my room and im hiding. also she just got in so HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the good thing is she might not find me. got to go shes gettin close write u later.