someone please help me.. i need someone to talk to
Never again will I be happy
Never again will I have a friend
Never again will I go through the day without crying
Never again will you care about me
Never again will I heal from this pain
Never again will I heal fron this lonliness
Never again will I live, for I will end this life very soon.
Just another random poem by me. As for my suicide date, mabye on Christmas. What better Christmas gift for the world than the death of someone who everybody hates?
-End
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XH4s0XaNyak&list=LLuFm-KvVjwrUTPYni50dMcA&feature=mh_lolz
i’m living but my nights are full of death.
i’m sleeping but my dreams tire me.
i’m running but my legs keep moving slower.
i’m breathing but my lungs ache with fatigue.
i’m screaming but there is no one to hear.
i’m burning but i won’t catch fire.
i’m bleeding but the pain no longer numbs.
Suicide plagues my mind every day and I feel like i’m going insane.
Do Animals Commit Suicide ? Interesting read.
maybe that’s good thing when i go and sign the paper work and have to face the man who raped me and my first born who was told I don’t want him or love him
All day
I wish you were here.
All day
I cry because of this day, this year.
All day
I think about how better life would be if you were here and my life was shared.
All day
I remind myself that you did it because you were scared.
Right now
I want my Uncle to be alive not dead.
Right now
I wish you were my dad.
Right now
I want to die.
Right now
I cry.
Is there anybody on this site who has been raped? I want to talk to someone.
Is it bad that the first thing I do when I get home from school every day is pop open a beer?
Is it bad that I smoke weed once a week?
Is it bad that every-night I cut myself?
Is it bad that I cry for hours every day?
Is it bad that I dream of death?
Is it bad that I am never happy?
Is it bad that I regret everything I do?
Is it bad that I want to kill myself?
Its Kinda weird how, even when you know its gonna be a fairly good day you still wish to die.
I know that at anytime I could just let it go, for the simple reason of not caring but, i cannot die today.
I hate how people think that you are to afraid to kill yourself so they just torment you about it god. Im not afraid Im just planning, very precisely planning. how it will happen how i will do it. It will be great. I want to go out with style. With Grace.
I hope this train fucking crashes and I burn.
Life is very interesting. When it seems that i got up from shit – bang! New challenges!
I bought tickets to Italy. Spent adorable days there with my bf, sister, friends. Sister is that only one who really cared about me all my life. I trust her 1000%.
Of course, good things never last forever. I landed to my cold dark country. Was missing my job so much.. Couldn’t wait!
And bang ! Got sick. Well, thought i can miss it a week more.
Bang bang! two more diseases!
Bang bang bang!!! Bank blocked my bank account! So now im laying all alone here, can’t […]
So it was my 21st birthday. At least I can now buy all the alcohol I want/need. We went to the only club that played industrial music on a wednesday night. It was a nice place, K___ would have loved it. But no one talked to me. Of course, maybe hanging out with people several decades older than you doesn’t really help. But still, I was totally hoping to get laid.
Of course, I’m not sure if my desire to get laid is mostly out of desire for sex or simply desire for any kind of social interaction. I find myself wishing that my pet rat […]
Jan 12 , 2011 – the love of my life took his life. Its been the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. And I have had my share of bull to deal with in my life. From being gang-raped at the age of 17, and a single mom of 2 children. Supporting them by carrying different jobs including escorting. This past year has taken its toll on me. About a month ago I wanted to end my life. I am 37 years old and I would be lying to say it was my first attempt. My first was when I was about […]
Pain and emptiness.
Most people just don’t get it. They don’t understand how someone could possibly want to die. Some of them will post stupid articles or rants about how “dying is totally and utterly dumb and your a jerk if you desire to die” but they lack the understanding. Not everyone is lucky enough to be given a happy life. In a world that is falling apart; a place of immense darkness and corruption, not everyone is so lucky. Many of us find ourselves in the most unfair and worst of situations.
My first friend, lost himself to lust and depression, gave up his dreams, […]
What am i doing wrong? Is it the words i say? The prescene of me being here? What! What! What is going on? This been an horrible week. Had an arugement with one of my friends. Then today i had to more and now i dont know whats gonna happen to me and my bf. And my friend whom i had the horrible arugement left. He left me just like my best friend did. Now we are just two complete strangers. I know now of them. I never seen them in my life. I never commuicate with them. I have no memories of them. What […]
90 xanax and 60 zoloft
All i get is 3days of uninterupted sleeo.
God i hate this world
I was ready to DIE yet. You keep me here
Why? Why? Why?
What i wouldnt do to no longer be apart of it.
All i want is away out of this horrible place is that so wrong???
It’s said to be a painful way to attempt suicide.
If you did survive, what where the side effects, ruined liver ? Kidneys ? What ?