Falling from the sky
Only to be hit with reality
My wings broken and torn
My soul shredded
But atleast I have my heart
The only thing you gave me
I should just let the darkness absorb my life
And Bring me to my misery</3
Falling from the sky
Only to be hit with reality
My wings broken and torn
My soul shredded
But atleast I have my heart
The only thing you gave me
I should just let the darkness absorb my life
And Bring me to my misery</3
I’m so depressed.
I can’t think.
I just want to cut.
And cry
Why does it feel so good?
Why can’t I stop?
It’s like an addiction.
A forcive habit.
So many scares.
It’s like I’m shredding my leg.
His initials carved into my leg.
Hate carved into my leg.
I can’t feel my leg.
So much pain.
I’ve turned numb.
Is this the end?
Someone please take.
Far away
From here.
From….
This….
When I walk away
I want you to grab my arm,
Kiss me
And say “don’t go”
Behind my smile,
My fake smile,
Is my soul,
Slowly fading away,
Withering away Into..
Nothing
When I’m with you
I’m reborn inside
That’s
When my smile becomes real
I look up at you
See you smile
I smile
A real smile
A smile that only happens
When I’m with you
Think about you
See you
Hug you
Kiss you
Love you
I want to cut so, so, so bad.
I would kill, to cut,
Dammit.
I was sitting here angry.
I decided that I was going to do it.
I got my pills out and put one to my lips.
Then I got a text message and I guess I was hoping for a reason to stay.
It wasn’t a reason to stay at all.
I cried and cried and cried.
I got my blade.
I cut, I cut, I cut, and cut til i couldnt see my leg through the blood.
I’m better now.
I’m not crying.
I’m just thinking about the reason why I started cutting.
I’m worthless.
i cant decide of whether or not to kill myself if i kill myelf family members will be hurt friends will miss me, but im tired of living through this pain. i want to let go i want to be free but still i cannot find the courage to do it, wat do i do if suicide or running away is the only way away from this place which should i choose? i need someone to guide me and help along the way, but yet ther is no one, no one who knws my pain is there anyone out ther willing to listen?
My birthday is June 11.
And the only thing I want is to be left alone, with some music and a knife.
My one and only birthday wish.
so it seems to me that i need to make a drastic change in my personality because i really do care too much about other people and their well being. i force myself it be the best person to everyone i meet and genuinely listen and care what other people have to say, but it seems even tho i strive to do this when i wanna kill myself constantly and struggle through every waking moment the ones who know nothing of that pain dont even lift a finger for me or even try to be good to me, everyone i have ever met has eventually turned out to be another […]
 Life can be ended so easly. Easier then what we have to go through in life. I don’t understand why we have to go through so much in this life…just to die. What’s waiting for us in the end? Do we get a prize? No. I know the way I’m going…and I choose the way I do it. Goodbye, now.
last week i had blood test and yesterday i already got the result…the doctor said that i have a irregular heart beating…i want to die now…so for now on i always eat a high cholesterol food so that my heart will be getting worst…i want u to give me an advice if i make my heart worst or i just only cut my wrist????
I’m never going to lift myself out of this. I just created a playlist of triggering songs on my iPod. I’m so pathetic…I need someone to save me from myself.
I have been trying not to kill myself for 7 years now and i cant take it anymore.My mother died when i was eight and that when i had my first suicidal thought. After that my dad would look at me and my brother avoided me because i look like my mom. They still acoid and ignore me today. So i start to escape by good to school and staying after. But i was picked on everyday for acting like a boy because i was razed by boys. I had friends though and it was better than home. Than we started moving a lot and […]
I can feel myself wasting away. The pain that sits inside me is eating me whole. It has been months since I have cried. My body feels to numb to have the energy to let tears flow down my cheeks.
I dream of the day I’ll get the courage to slit my wrists. The day I can finally look at myself in the mirror and believe myself when I say it’s going to be alright. The day I can lay down and rest forever. The day I can finally have some peace to myself. I’ll leave several notes for each person I’d like to remind I love. Then […]
why is life so demeaning
why is life so sad
why dose my life have no meaning
why do they all thank I’m so bad
why dose the world have to be trash
why didn’t my life end in that crash
it hurts… it hurts alot. i can feel it cut me up like a sharp deadly knife. Im losing everything. Even when i smile it hurts alot. i think im going to cry. no lie but i dont want anyone to see. I cant trust anyone anymore. I dont even know who to go to anymore. It hurts alot. Too painful even… I guess im ready to end it. Im ready to go far away from everyone. Who cares if they miss me or not? who cares if they love me. If they care they would had help but guess what… they didnt they didnt […]
i just realised who i am, why im maybe better off alone. im the guy you flirt with, dance with, have a night of fun with…but i’m not the guy you take home to mum. maybe if i realised this earlier i wouldn’t of got so attatched.
Okay, so a bit about me. I have mental disorders, i’ve had them since i was 8. Which means wherever i go, i hear voices in my head saying ‘ugly slut’ or ‘kill yourself’ and i think it’s the people surrounding me. I had to take meds when i was 8 up until now, 15 years old because i suffered severe depression. But now, i recently dated a girl called Megan and we’d been going out for 3 weeks, knowing her for such a short amount of time and the way she’d made me feel. I’m not a happy person at all but Megan made […]
Friendship is bullshit.
When my boyfriend lies beside me in bed at night, and tells me that he was thisclose to drinking drain cleaner that day, I believe him. I believe him because I know just how dark it is in his mind. I’m not like him. I find happiness in everyday things and comfort in friends. And all he has is me, he tells me every day. He has no education, no decent career prospects. He lives in his parents basement, smoking weed, and won’t save money to get out. He tells me he wants to save for an engagement ring, but I don’t want it–I just want […]
I know my life is empty
And I hate to face this world alone
So I’m searching for an angel
Someone who can make me whole
I can not save you, I can’t even save myself
So just save yourself
I know that we’ve been damaged
Our souls have suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you
Please don’t take pity on me
My life has been a nightmare
My soul is fractured to the bone
And if I must be lonely, I think I’d rather be alone
I think I have come undone
You can not save me
IÂ can’t even save myself
I […]
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