I’m in love with my best friend’s girlfriend. Like madly in love.
I’m also going out with his ex, but I lied to him about it and lied to my girlfriend that I told him. They know and so does his girlfriend, they are willing to give me another chance but his girlfriend has lost so much respect for me but is willing to give me a chance.
I’ve tried to commit suicide once before but I woke up the next morning throwing up.
Everyone is loved, but I really don’t feel it
pls help….i wanna die..!!
I hate mondays.
i wonder if hammy made it to the frost?
everything doesn’t make sense, you know? you think you know what you want but when you think about it again, you realise you don’t. you know alcohols bad but whats wrong if you never have to be in the state of having to think things through.. one day were all going to die,so what makes the difference of doing it now or waiting? whats so important in life, having a job, a family, a home and friends..or just simply enjoying everything you do, not giving a shit about the world, doing what you like..what makes that so fucked up? why does drinking, smoking, sleeping with […]
So I ranaway on Wednesday night. I didn’t even mean to. I. Snuck out of the house for the millionth time and when I. Came back there was a cop in front of the house I was terrified so I didn’t go home y would I’m so fukking scared of my father. It is now Sunday. And I’m still alive … I’m actually happy so it really took all this shit I’ve been through to became happy I’m with the one who makes me much more happy then he makes me mad and those people are hard to find nowadays. I’m movving with my […]
I lie
I cry and hurt
I feel pain and smile at times
I love and I lose
I wish and I fail
I’m 17 in a month
I’m a female
I’m suicidal
I cut and I take pills to make me sleep all the time
I care…
I hate myself
I hate who I am
I have been beat up
I have had boyfriends cheating on me
I have been threatened and hurt for not doing what I was told.
They taught me not to speak unless they tell me to
They taught me to do what they say
I was forced to have sex my first time and many times after
I was forced to do certain drugs
My ex’s put bruises […]
Yui- Life…
I am covered in dirt,
in a city I can not get used to
I can’t laugh in the same way
I walk past with my head down
The people who miss each other walking quickly by
“Has your dream come true?”
I’m still struggling….
rather then returning to my childhood days
I want to live the present in a better way
I was born to be scared…
I went out to the place where light shines
and spreading both my arms out
I wonder if I can fly ” I thought”
The wings for me to fly…. I don’t have them yet
since things aren’t easy
That is why I can live…..
Just holding up […]
feels like a lifetime ago that i thought everything was so nice and simple… truthfully it was more like 3 years ago.
who knew that life could be so stressful, how every tiny aspect of you life could make your hair fall out.
how you’d spend so much time on things that ‘dont matter’ that you’d forget to spend time on the things that did.
who knew there was a place where people could anonymously talk about hating life. i can tell you i didnt.
who knew that you’d reach a point where you had no great friends, and had to bottle every thought and feeling up inside.
who knew […]
What do you think of trains?
They’re somewhat reliable, travel at high speed and have a braking distance of a couple hundert meter. Sounds pretty lethal to me.
I’ve thought I would go with something like cutting my throat, but I doubt I could do that properly. Just sitting there waiting for a train sounds kinda lame compared to that. But you know where you’re at and you don’t have to do anything for it.
Again I’m not sure if I could stand still once I see the train approaching. Maybe I’d have to be drunk.
Just wanna know your opinion.
Everyone turns to me with their problems, ignoring the fact that i may have my own to worry about. Even when i feel overwhelmed i have the sense of duty that i have to solve others issues when asked of me. It’s even come so far that when my mother and i discovered my ‘step dad’ was a trifling asshat, i was the one to confront him directly and tell him that hed never see my mother again. When will someone be there to help solve my problems? not just tell me their opinion but to also be there for me throughout the whole issue? where’s […]
You can’t really help anyone who doesn’t want to be helped. The thing is, everybody wants to be helped, even if they tell themselves and everyone else differently.
I’m not exactly the poster child for accepting help, God knows I can be pretty stubborn when I make a decision, even if that decision is a really bad idea, hell, especially if it’s a bad idea.
I’ve made so many bad decisions, and I’ve messed up so many opportunities. I’ve felt completely alone, and utterly defeated. I’ve hurt myself pretty badly just to deal with the pain and self-hatred, and I’ve given up on life a […]
I love to run, cut, and hold my breath.
I love to do anything that makes me run out of breath.
And yes, cutting does make me run out of breath. Why? I don’t know.
But, the feeling of my pulse going fast and me worthless air leaving my body, and my heart running out.. Is just so thriving.
It make my crave for death even stronger.
I love it.
I feel like I’m going to end up alone for the rest of my life. No pets, no loved ones, just me, myself and I surrounded by mountains of unfeeling stuff.
I hope those mountains will bury me alive. or dead.
i’ve just been fucking up sooo much lately… me and my girlfriend just broke up not too long ago… now my fucking best friend since like 1st grade, who is also my cousin, decides that he wants to date her. and, what i feel is in an effort to hurt me, stops talking to me, and just completely cuts off all sort of communication. xbox live, facebook, even in school. i wanna strangle that weasly fucker, but if i do that, my ex won’t talk to me anymore. even though she flirted with him throughout our whole relationship, i still wanna talk to em both… […]
I really am.
Whenever I’m outside in the street i see people smiling so easily. So carefree and happy of living their lives. While i look at myself and feel like just hiding inside a dark place and never coming out.
The reason i feel this way is because ever since i was little I’ve lived almost all my life with roommates. Not having my own home. And alone with just my mom. No other family. We have ended up in the street and have ended up with people who take advantage of our kindness and steal from us. I wish i had my […]
Right now I don’t feel depressed, yet I am yearning for it.
Every time I start getting a little better I force myself right back into depression and thoughts of suicide by over-thinking life and reassuring my worthlessness.
I have set a date for suicide somewhere next month, on my 20th birthday, and even when I’m feeling cheerful and happy, like today, I look forward to the day. I have convinced myself I don’t want to live, even when I’m cheerful and full of life.
I am in constant war with myself, always putting down happiness and opportunities and successfully beating down any happy thoughts that may be […]
I have a foot fetish and I feel abnormal. I asked some of my close girl friends what they thought of it, but never was going to take it to the level of expressing it on them. Later on, I get messages and facebook IM’s from their guy friends saying how weird I am and stuff. I have lost contact with all my close friends. I feel lonely and depressed and I feel like I will always be abnormal. I would commit suicide, but my future is too bright, but what is the point if you aren’t socially acceptable?
My father bought my mother, for $50,000.
A mail order bride. A silver haired geek dating some exotic bombshell, who would have thought.
What happened to not putting a price on an individual’s life?
I have no emotional connection with either of my parents ; but my mother pretends that she loves me to death, in public.
I go to private school, I speak 4 languages, English being my third.
I have everything a girl could ever want, really.
I just text my father if I want anything, and he gets it for me.
I’m one spoiled brat.
Yet I feel empty. Cold and alone.
I’m the “go-to” girl.
I love smiling, it’s my mask.
A […]
Because death is inevitable. I will die 70 years from now or I could die tonight and in the grand scheme of things it would make no difference. Like my dad would give a fuck. My mom would be sad for awhile. But she would get over it. Cory would be sad for about a month. When he goes off to live in Idaho. Forget about me when Maria comes around. Seth would be fine. To Jesse it would be like loosing someone to mooch weed off. No girlfriend to give a fuck. Maybe I’ll make it look like a car accident. Then no one […]
I want the pain to go away.
Would 1400mg of setraline do it?
I have no motivation, I am a shit person. A shit friend. A terrible daughter. A fucked up sister. And a careless girlfriend. I want to drink until I cry. I haven’t cried for so long now. I hate myself.
Forever will I feel this way? Or will it get better? You don’t know. No one fucking knows.