Is anyone there?
Hollow words sent out into
A black void, it’s ok
Since I’m probably a hack, anyway.
Or nothing, those words
Carry the same meaning for me.
I was thinking, and I realized
That I can’t be lost in translation
Since I’ve never had a translator,
So where am I lost at then?
It could be my own mind,
This shadow filled place where I hide.
Or quite possibly, my heart
Where most feelings swirl around
With the insanity and destructive determination
Of a fire based hurricane,
While at the same time
Clawing out my very own inner-grave.
As logical as those answers […]

I’m always alone. Nobody cares. Life is all messed up. We live in this world, why? In the end we all just die. To leave a legacy? For who? In the end they’ll all die too. We go through life, we struggle, we fight, we stress, and we suffer. In the end we are all alone, just the way we were born, we leave the earth. ALONE!

Well I’ll be damned,

I’m still alive.

Still breathing,

Still thinking,

Still failing,

Still disappointing my family,

Still vaguely hinting few people I want to die.

Why?

Why can’t things be simple?

Why must everything I do become 200.0% more complex?

Why must I become the actor I never wanted to be,

The good kid at school you laugh with and smile,

The bad kid at home that can never be normal or happy,

The nerd that can help you with any homework or test,

The idiot that can’t do even the simpilest of tasks.

So I ask myself at the end of each day,

Wouldn’t it just be easy to leave,

In the long run, everyone would be better off without me.

Sure a […]

Everyone here has a different story.

Guess there are more reasons in this world to die than to live. Makes sence…

Happened again. I was pushed beyond the breaking point and I broke.

For breaking, I’ve been pushed, once again.

This is the same scenario God has put me into, over and over and over again.

I don’t have a choice — I have to kill myself. It’s the only way God will ever stop fighting with me.

I wish I had the guts to kill myself.

I need to write this down and try and get this off my chest. I had a relationship with someone I shouldn’t have, she had a boyfriend at the time and I guess we had an affair. I wanted to be her friend and be nice to her but I let things go to far.

Her partner found out but they have stayed together and have got engaged, also she has told me that she is pregnant with his child. The last proper communication I had with her was when I received an email on the 21st March 2011, this is the first time that we […]

You make your Owen choices in life and life is about the choices you make

                           So what’s so fucking wrong with choosing your own life to take?

Honestly with how my life has pan out and unfold  

                                       Is it that unthinkable to think i’m just not meant for this world?

There is nothing wrong with me, nothing biological

                                  This isn’t out of desperation in fact it’s quite logical

I’m not saying death is definitely the answer, and i don’t know what comes next

                               It could be happiness, nothingness, or hell, if you believe in bibles text

I don’t know what happens for sure

                                    The morning after the life before

As […]

I’m much older than the rest of you but I feel the same way….I’ve felt this way as long as I can remember. I’ve always been a loner. Others were happy and I never understood why I never was. I’m on medication for depression….though I have more bay days than good….explains why I’m on here huh? I’ve sat on my bed with a pistol in my mouth and cried many times. The only thing that stopped me was the guilt I knew I would leave behind for my family. Recently I’ve noticed that I slowly cutting myself off from my family and this scares me. […]

My child died and he was only 8. I’m heartbroken and I want despairingly at times to be with him. I tried several times today to hang myself with no success. It has been 7 months and I just am in a sickly marriage with arguements over religion… right now I’m very angry at god and my wife doesn’t get it. Life is a test… she says…. well, this kind of test sucks. I can’t imagine a loving being putting me through this just as a “test”. We argue a lot. I hate it and it makes it all worse. I don’t know what […]

I want to die and get the hell out of here
I hate my little life

Suicidial Memories
Cut
Drip
See
Blood
Knife
Pain
Anger
Depression
Emotion
Help
Me
Save
Me
Hurt
Me
Break
Me
Cut
Self
Fallen
Broken
Hearted
Cut
Up
Little
Angel
I’m
Daddys
Little
Girl
For
A
While
But
Once
You
Turn
Your
Face
There’s
Nothing
But
A
Dead
Body
In
My
Place

“You think you want to die, but you just want to be saved.” Yeah right, and that a load of crap. Nothing to live for, nothing to lose. Saved from yourself, free of the mistake you are and all the mistakes you make.

Life sucks I plan on doing it quick and easy but need something to take away the pain first what’s a good pain killer.

I’m alone in this messed up world. No home No family No where I want to go. They say being independent Is a gift that only few come by. Well they’re wrong I’m hated by my family called stupid everyday. What is there ever to live for?

I am a decently skinny sized girl, weighing 50kg at 169cm. I have been watched by my ‘family’ and some of my pain doctors very carefully because apparently my weight is border line underweight. I am not 100% sure on how this will work or how I will actually end it but one of my main concerns was that my ‘family’ would have to find my body. So my plan is to lose more weight so that they get more concerned and put me into hospital again. Sure I will be monitored fairly well but I can lock myself in the bathroom and do whatever […]

so now that title says alot well heres some more. i cant take it anymore. i was so pissed off last night that i didnt even eat dinner, im starting to skip meals and all kinds of stuff ya my parents are worried about me big deal. i wish i had a way out. im ready to give up.

anyone know what to do??? ugh:(

Give me one good reason to live.

Why me? Why is my life the way it is? First of all.. ive been assulted since the age of 5 now im 15, 10 years of assult now im harming myself. I always need a boyfriend too be happy. but i want too be loved at the same time. i always want too feel special. but it rarly happends. my boyfriend of 8 months and i broke up. it hurt me alot. the pain made me want too have visible pain and i started harming myself. i have depression and im on medication. im okay with my life though. im running away from everything […]

Will Japan ever get as bad as the inside of my head?

This chainreaction I can’t stop…

this spiral, one way trip heading for total meltdown

no power to cool the fuel inside

Day by day, a few more braincells smoke away

and so does my logic and rationality

Yet I can’t allow them to contain me

What is to happen, let it be

Im void of sense and purpose

I can be anything yet I am nothing on the inside

Oh, what will it take to prove to myself that i still exist?

Everything is worthless, this poem is worthless