No matter what i do, i hurt and hurt and hurt. I’ve been in therapy for a little over a year. I’m 16, and depression has quickly taken over 10 years of my life. I was 5 years old and a sad excuse of a man risked his marriage for a pathetic “fling” with a child. I was molested for a little over a year. I dont remember a lot but i do remember tht was a year tht changed all the rest to come. I’ve had severe depression ever since. And i’ve been on medication for about 6 or 7 months. NOTHING seems to […]

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i dont knw whoyou are but i would be grateful if u could help me.  i live in india and i am a final year undergraduate student. i was googling about ways of committing suicide when i came across this site. i am helpless right now. in my 12th grade rather i wud say during my 11th and 12th grade things were horribly wrong. i mean they just went wrong. i had been a bright student throughout my schooling career. it just happened that in 11th and 12th na additional pressure of clearing the entrance exam thing.. […]

I hear my mum downstairs talking about me. How im such a disappointment, and she doesn’t want anything to do with me. just like many other people, i will get mad at my mum when she reads personal stuff, or insults me in anyway. But like any pissed off person i told my friend i wish she would die, and i hated her. But i was pissed off, i really don’t hate her. She doesn’t want anything to do with me, and i’m so upset. I want to be part of this family. And all i can do is sit upstairs and cry because she […]

Several times a week, I will try to post something (a video, a song, or something funny) that I hope will brighten someone’s day 🙂

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I am not a psychologist, or a doctor, or a social worker, or any of that. But I’ve been through enough sh*t in my life to know what it’s like when you think you have nowhere else to turn, and you think it is time everything should end.

If you want advice, or just someone to talk to, I am here. You can also email me at cutecopper19@hotmail.com, or IM me on AIM: artzygrl1919.

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Im tired of people telling to snap out of it

Im tired of people saying its just a phase

Im tired of people making fun of me

Im tired of people telling me it will get better

Im tired of people telling me to stay on my meds

Im tired of people telling me i can get through this

Im tired of people asking if im ok when they already know the answer

Im tired of seeing and hearing shit that isnt there

Im tired of not being able to cut a little bit deeper

Im tired of only having the emotions: sadness, hatred, and guilt

Im tired of life only getting worse

Im tired of […]

Pretty much all day I’ve been researching methods and LD50’s of easy-to-get poisons. My head feels like it’s gonna explode with all this information so I figured I’d ask for some help. I’ve researched loads of stuff, from eucalyptus oil to methyl salicylate, nail polish (lol…) and petrol. I checked out paracetomol but idk if i can do that again, last time i did and I failed and it wasn’t pleasant, maybe if I increased the dose it’d work. Truthfully, ODing on something won’t be the only method. I need it to work, I can’t face hospital/psych ward again. So… I plan on taking a […]

Guys,

I’m seriously hurting for some advice. Long story short: I was planning to go out using the helium method, someone found the tanks, the tanks have been taken away. I feel like such an idiot.

Lucky I kept two very well hidden. I can still pull this off if I time it right, but I’m only going to get one shot at it. Please help me. I have to make this work.

I described my setup here a week or so ago. I didn’t get much advice then so I’m begging for it now. I’ve researched this method thoroughly, but there’s one aspect of it that […]

The Blackness,
It is unsettling.
It brings upon anxiety, stress, and paranoid thoughts.
Its best friend Silence,
Tags along when Blackness needs to consume all your hope.
Silence is almost as menacing,
Because when you know Blackness is coming,
You know Silence will be there, and its presence allows you to doubt yourself with each passing second.

Light;
It is an angel from God that comforts and reassures.
When there is Light the world is bustling with people and all sorts of gadgets that can fill the Silence.
When there is Light, there is no time to think about sad or depressing things.
Rather you enjoy […]

Throughout my whole life, I have been alone and sad. I just did not realize how alone I was until recently.

Everything goes back to having a very badly drug-addicted mother. She has constantly been in and out of jail for years and constantly been off and on drugs for most of her life. I can say over and over that I am disgusted with her, but deep down inside, I’ll always wish I had some sort of relationship with her. Every time I try to have any sort of conversation with her, or when I try to convince her to stop, everything would be […]

For three years I have been told by my family and friends that I will be happy soon. After my aunt passed away to cancer, I began to do worse in school and rarely laughed. She was practically my mom and a person I strongly looked up to. Now I am nearing the third anniversary of her death and I am not sure if I can make it that long.
I have one friend who knows very little about my suicidal thoughts. My family has no idea and as much as my friend tries to help I know that this is causing a rift in […]

Bored shitless. Feel like talking? Got nothing to look forward to? Ill reply
Ill talk about anything, Argue about anything, Offer help in anything. up to you

Hi. I’m 11 years old. I cant take life anymore. Why you ask? Well, many reasons. Reason 1: no one cares about me. When I do one tiny thing wrong my mom screams at me “you fuckin little *****. ur so fucking retarded”. Today, my grandmother called me a skank. I dont know why. They probably want to disown me. My dad has basically no relationship with me. He doesnt pay child support. He never visits me. Doesnt do anything with me. Thats how I know he doesn’t care about me. He probably said he wanted a kid so he could get a good fuck […]

what can you do Life is fucking bullshit and is bound to get worse

I really have been totally burned out. I’ve had the good times when my therapist and doctor too thought that I was getting better. But all of them have ended here, even deeper in depression and suicidal thoughts and act than I started. I just can’t take another getting better, ’cause I know how hard the end of it hits.

So please, don’t ask me why I want this or why isn’t there another option. Death is the only one who’s still able to help me. Hospital, drugs, therapy or even rehabilitation house (like something between home and hospital) haven’t been able to change anything. Death […]

its been a while since i typed anything on this site. i guess im doing better. i dont expect it to last long. im still on lexipro.

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“Be the change you want to see” – Mahatma Gandhi

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” – Maria Robinson

“If there is no struggle, there is no progress. Those who profess to favor freedom and yet avoid confrontation, are people who want crops without plowing up the ground; they want rain without thunder and lightning; they want the ocean without the roar of its waters.” ~ Frederick Douglass

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My life is lacking colour,
adventure is what i seek
Nobody particularly gets me
at least,not from the words which i do speak.

Yet i myself don’t get me,
i find myself a joke,
staring aimlessly at my morning reflection
it’s what i did when i awoke.

I haven’t found true meaning
in things which i so wrongly hold dear,
no, i haven’t found my clarity
all too soon, a day, a month, a year.

I’m haunted by the shadow of myself
he’s everywhere i go,
i need answers to my endless questions
but it’s these very answers i don’t know.

Fact.

Isn’t it an odd sensation
this thing which […]