hey i come to this site alot but barely write so here i go,, im 14 year old guy and i used to be really depressed and then suicidal, i cut a few times but nothing serious, my “attempt” of suicide was to keep swallowing pills till i passed out or something, i ended up taking around 30 or so but i just got sick n threw up, i tried pot and alchohol, im never doing that again. i had alot of reasons but truth is everyone has a reason to live or die happy or not but tht was b4 now i feel betterjust […]

when i was a teenager i tried to kill myself, was not really succsessful as you can tell, because my tutor noticed i am not in class again and called mum. I was at home, took a big bowl of all drugs i found in the house, including up to date and old ones, sleeping pills, everything. Because mum left work early to find me i was unconscious but ok and was sent to hospital where as you can imagine was treated with no respect as it doesnt really matter because i wanted to end my life, doesn’t it? i am in my twenties now, […]

For a long time, I thought I was getting better. I was taking my medication and remembering to breathe and taking it one day at a time – the sense of urgent noise in my skull went away, the paranoia, the suicidal depressions… gone. I had a boyfriend I loved like the day is long. He meant the world to me. I would have walked across hell for him. I met him the semester I crashed, and I got to know him as I was recovering, fell in love with him while I was getting better. He was my emotional keystone.  He symbolized everything I […]

What makes heroes? What makes people happy, who they are? What makes trust and honor and dreams? What makes friends? What keeps me from these things? Is it the feelings I have inside, the inner desire only to die? Can I find solace in a box six feet underground? Someone help me?!!!!!?

The way i see things, I am not the problem, they are. Remove the problem and you will have a solution.

If you have fibromyalgia, then you can understand the pain, the never ending pain that stalks your life. The pain that comes at night, the pain that comes when your child tells you a joke and you are unable to laugh, the pain that comes when you see that your pain prevents you from an activity with your wife or son. When the pain first came, I didn’t know what it was. I thought that I had a cramp in my left shoulder which led to my neck. From the first time I felt the pain, to when it began to immobilize me, took only […]

I thought I would die anytime.
I’m not afraid of death.

I told my husband that placed my ashes into the Columbia River if I died.
I like Columbia River and the mountains around it.
I wish I could become a fish swimming freely in the Columbia River.

If he went fishing, if he catch a yellow fish,
Please let it go back the river,
Because it maybe me.
I won’t like my next life still controlled by him.
My husband laughed.

I’m not afraid of death.
But I love my mom, my kids.
How could I leave them?!

i ethier like to go shoping or get inked or get pierced wen im depressed but lately idk bout that n stuff thats happened lately really has me thinking if i really should stick round, im hearing from my dad how much of a shity person i am, i make plans to hang out n i get ditched i wonder if neone actually wants to b nice or care bout me, my dog is the only one thats ever happy to c me n wines wen i leve the house but ppl don care, so …….idk wat to do im having lots of trouble figureing out […]

I wish I had a reason. I wish I had an excuse. I wish I had gotten molested as a child; I wish my dad beat me. I need a fucking reason – some problem that I can fix, some underlying cause that can explain my disconnect. But there’s no reason.

I cannot connect with humanity. People are strange. I don’t know what they want to hear. I don’t know how to interact with them. When I’m around people, I want to be a alone. When I’m alone, I want to be with people. I suppose there’s some primal, tribal urge that my mind cannot suppress. […]

I’m a 44 year old gay guy, with no job, no money and no friends. I live in a roach and mouse infested roomming house. I’m even watching a mouse run around my room as a I write this.  I’m diabetic and losing my teeth. I even had one fall out today. I have very bad credit so unless healthcare is free, I can do nothing about it. Which is a good thing. I’m fairly well-educated and I consider my health problems to be something good. I know for a fact that if I do nothing, I’ll get worse, first becoming disabled and then finally […]

Its over, I hate life, I hate the fact that everyday I have to put on a fake smile today is it, im over life it really does suck. noone cares and im glad because it will make everything alot easier for them to move on with there life knowing im not in it. Which is funny cause people say they care but really they dont… I hate my life i hate everything. there is no point.

reasons for suicide

Everyday i am reminded that i am ugly and i hate it the best compliments i can have is your starting to get pretty or stop pushing your mouth your just making yourself look more ugly. I was called the most ugliest girl out of my class. One time a little boy stop in the middle of the streets once he got a look of my face he looked scared like if i was a monster or something. Once it was me and my friend she asked her sister and brother if they think i am pretty out of no where she asked them […]

I am a 49 yr old woman who has had mild depression all my life. I have made a half attempt of killing myself before. My brother made a successful attempt 1 month ago tomorrow. I wanted to write here to hopefully help anyone contemplating suicide to please think about a few things before following through with this decision.

When I tried it was a cry for help. I was in a marriage  that was falling apart… I lived away from my family…I worked 3rd shift in a boring job so any friends were not accessible on any regular basis and I felt totally alone. I […]

I’m 15 years old and a girl. I’m a freshman in high school and considered one of the “very few freshman elites”. Upperclassmen hit on me and tell me I’m perfect and amazing all the time but I just am physically unable to believe a word anyone says. In 8th grade I always had a boyfriend, and I hooked up with 8 different guys. I even cheated on one. I am not a terrible person though. A few months ago I lost my best friend who I was best friends with for 4 years. She said I was always mean to her. I don’t know […]

Hi,

Can someone please just cheer me up very quickly? Within the next 10 minutes would be good. I don’t wanna talk about what’s happened… it’s one of those stupid things that you know shouldn’t get you down… can someone please just cheer me up?

im 17 and have been cutting for the last 4 years but over the last couple of months all i ever think about is killing myself, i have nothing to live for, i have no will to go on. I just want to die so i can finally be free

Dear Everyone,

       Hi. I came here…to this site, because I didn’t know what to do. I still don’t, and I don’t know what to say to keep you reading, to keep you listening. I guess, we are all united in a way aren’t we. We all write our stories, and we share them, all united in the fact that at one point, we all wanted to die. This a connection I believe is very special, I don’t know you. I can’t see in my mind what you look like at your desk, chair, or couch right now in front of your monitor, but part of […]

my name is patrick, and im 14. i think about suicide every day. i dont know why i feel this bad every day, but everybody around me at school hates me. i dont think they know i hate myself more than they possibly could. im 5 foot 6, only one hundred and 4 pounds and im not good at anything athletic or academic. every time i make a friend they end up hating me a few months later. im just genuinely pathetic and i dont know what to do i want to leave my city and never come back. im too scared to run away […]

To those who suffer and think that suicide will end the pain, I have a message for you…..