It’s retarded. It’s retarded that no one sees. I don’t need therapy. I don’t need meds. I just need someone to genuinely care about me. Someone who smiles every time they see me. I want people to point and say “See that girl? She’s a good friend of mine. She’s pretty awesome. She means a lot to me.”

Instead, I keep getting friends who want me for my brains, who want me to edit their papers and help them with their math homework because I’m the freaking nerd, in all those AP classes, who’s too nice to turn anyone down.

I’m so desperate to succeed at something. […]

Hey,

My story is probably just like yours…just a little different i guess. My story isn’t long but it’s something at least… In short, I can’t be myself. My mother is against my sexuality and the person that I’m involved with and I am now home schooled in the hope of keeping me away from this person…it doesn’t make since. Everyone wants me back at school even the people that are against me and yet still my mother does these things. I can’t do any of the coping skills that I’ve been taught to do because she doesn’t like them apparently…

In one year i will be […]

oaky…here it is…the unabridged truth…
i hate this world. i hate everything about it. i hate that it hurt me in ways i cannot even begin to describe. i hate that the damage the world’s screwed up people have had on me have left scars that don’t show…they don’t make me look crazy…but i am…those scars make me impossible to live with, and impossible to love. i didn’t cause this…i survived that…yet i bear the damage and it’s impossible to change enough to ever live in a happy life like so many other people do. i want off this planet. […]

I’m tired of having to fight to survive, fight what I want to keep other people happy. I have wanted to die since I was 12, back then I had to protect my younger sister, so she wouldn’t go through what Ive been through…
The only reason I am alive right now and typing this instead of ending the fight is that I dont want to hurt the ones I love….but why should I suffer?

My point will be to keep this short, I hope I can stick to that.

I’m a cutter and I’m sick of being ashamed. I’m sick of hiding it and convincingly covering up my suicide attempts. I honestly just want the desire to kill myself to go away. I’ve felt happiness and I want it more and more. I’m having a hard time getting that because of my relationship with myself mostly, with my family, and the fact I can’t stop failing school.

Anyone have any advice? I’ve been in this same rut for about 5 years, and I feel like I’m 12 years old again, cutting […]

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]

from the age of 9 to 16, i was bashed and raped constantly.

my first suicide attempt was at 13 when I was caught by my mum. I have been suicidal ever since to varying degrees. I have had several half hearted attempts but normally conceal them in reckless behavior. Recently my memories of what happened resurfaced and I have been devastated. I am seeing a councilor and am on medication.  I just need the memories to stop and i can’t see any other way of guaranteeing that. I Have 2 lovely nieces and that is what has stopped me so far but I need it […]

i lost my best friend who was 18 to suicide on november 5th, 2009. To read some of the things people have wrote breaks my heart. I wish there was something i could do to save you, to keep those thoughts away, to let you know somebody cares and loves you so much, i promise you. I wish more then ever i could bring her back to me, I wish i was with her that night and stopped her, talked her out of it, said to her Krissy, i love you. You are my best friend and i couldnt possibly write in words how much […]

IM 47 years old and have wanted to die for years

Im going to keep this short.
Today was the worst of my entire being. What do you do when someone comes up to you, happens to see your scars and blurts out infront of everyone, ARE YOU EMO? WHATS DEPRESSING YOU EMO KID?.
It kills like hell.
I tried to be calm, not let the water fall over my eye lids. I just looked down and said my cat scratched me. She just looked at my and was like, “you’re a homo right?”
That sent me over the edge. I cocked back my fist and punched her. Im so tired of everyone judging me, either […]

This makes my third attempt in total.
all my life i’ve been told i’m a fuck up and i can’t end up life because i never try but the truth is i try my hardest.
i’m only 15 years old in 10th grade but the feelings are getting the best of me.
i feel like i never do anything and never will, so there would be no point to living or loving
my parents and brothers fail to show me the attention that i so despirately need. I don’t try to feel this way, i don’t want to to feel this way, but i do […]

I have never really had a good part of my life. Yes I have children, and they used to complete me. As the years have flown by, they have left my home, saying I am a horrible mother. I am strict. I want my children to have good lives. They have only one shot, and I want them to take it. It just happened that two of my children decided to move into thier father’s house this year. After 11 years with me and they are gone. My oldest daughter is almost 18, she dropped out of school, and I can not get her interest […]

Help, please…

I’m depressed and suicidal…

I’m miserable and need help…

Help me…

please…

I’m tired of fighting this battle, I’ve been here before and don’t have the strength to do it again.  I thought I had put this behind me but I’m back in the depths again and have no desire to fight it all again.  I fought tooth and nail to survive this last time and now I know I’m never going to beat it…I’m done.

I f*cking give up…

I’m done…

I’m reaching out because I need somebody to help me, but I’m not sure theres anything that can be done anymore…

I’m past wanting to fight, it hurts too  much and […]

I hate myself   and want to die

I’m going to ask you all to bear with me for the forthcoming bullshit. It’s nothing more, or less, honestly.

I sincerely, truly, unfathomably, hate myself. As I sit here trying to think of words that appropriately describe my self-hatred, my mind is completely blank. The word ‘hate’ doesn’t even seem fitting anymore. I’m beyond that at this point. What I think about myself is documented on my forearms and my stomach, red slashes that I create robotically these days. The sight of my body in pain doesn’t give me satisfaction anymore. Nothing does. What could make someone loathe themselves so much? Besides my obvious hideous appearance […]

So, it’s just about December… and just about that time. On December 4th 2008, (Last year) my mother died. She’d been sick for like….7 years etc. I’ve mentioned this before, but now as the time where her pain was greatest creeps by i find it hard to breathe. I feel numb everywhere and i don’t feel anything. It’s almost christmas… but i feel no joy for the season, i love the snow and yet all it brings is sadness to my heart. I love singing christmas carols and drinking hot chocolate but now it makes me want to vomit. All the happy merry faces and […]

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]

Let me first say im just sad, not depressed or suicidal

just sad

alright here goes

my ex bf of 1.5 yr broke up with me a month ago, and it broke my heart, u see i really love this guy, more than anyone else, and my friend helped me through it. and we became very close.

a few weeks ago me and my ex got back together, i kne that he didnt love me any more or feel the same way ect. but he said he missed me, alot, and i really missed him, so we got back together.

Unfortunately for me i got alittle deeper in him and […]