If a miracle happens before a years span and I’m magically stable and no longer suicidal. I plan on adopting him.
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My life hasn’t been easy. I lost my family in a car crash when i was 2. I get beat, starved and sexually assauled by my adopted family. I cut and attempted suicide 5 times. My stepdad even uses me for sex. I will get tied down and he gets paid for perverts to come in and use me. Ive moved around so much in my life, the longest ive been somewhere was a month 1/2. Ive tried to tell teachers, cops, parents etc. but no one would beilve me because of my ADHD and being in the psych center as much as i have.
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I’ve told you her story now I’ll tell you mine. I’m Angel and I’m 13, I’ve gone through so much though so don’t judge me on my age. I’ve been raped and beaten, I’ve been hated on and abused, both physically and mental, I’m suicidal and IÂ cut. I’ve gone through so much and I don’t understand why I’m here anymore. Why do I have to live on this earth full of haters? Anyway, when I was 10 I was put up for adoption and I was taken in by a family in Louisiana. They were okay, for the first week. They had 5 other kids […]
Over the years of my life people have trusted me with their secrets. Their own stories. Just holding them can put stress on a person, so I decided to share them with whoever is willing to read. I will not use names nor describe the physival apearance of that person.
First, a friend of mine had told me that her mother had been raped during the summer of 2012. She told me it was by someone very close and she is still going to therapy. Although she is recovering from the whole experience, she is making progress. She was not afraid of speaking up (which is […]
When I was born my mother abandoned my father & I. She put me up for adoption because she claimed that she cheated on my father & that I wasn’t his. So she gave me to this family & my dad got blood tests & proved that I was his & he took me back. So 5 years later my mother came back into my life & all I said was “You won’t play with me, you’re just like all of daddies other girlfriends” & she walked out of course I was too young to realize it but I still carry guilt over my shoulders […]
I honestly dont know what Im doing here…..sharing my story with strangers. But I guess I really have nowhere else to turn….I really dont even know dif anyone reads these things anymore.
Anyway, here goes nothing. I am 26 with 3children. My oldest was born handcapped and lives with her father. My boys have been in foster care since October 2011. Here in Canada, if a child is under the age of 6 and in foster carefor more then a year, they lookto putting them up for adoption. To know me is to know my children are my world and the only reason they were removed […]
I’m one of those ‘bad luck’ kind of girls. It’s easier to point to my LiveJournal, but I don’t know that it’s allowed since it’s adult-related. You can skip the story with this synopsis: I have  no family, my friends are in other states, my luck with men is horrible, I survived (if you really want to call it that) extreme childhood abuse that turned into finding jerks to replay it.
I spent several years of my teens homeless on the streets of Los Angeles dodging hookers, pimps, and all manner of foul person. I’ve never been arrested and got my stupid drug using years over […]
I am at the lowest i have ever been in my life. Sad to say, but i am starting to understand why people kill themselves. I am so depressed and can’t seem to shake it off. Im 27, a broken engagement sent me over the edge. I let any relationship im in consume my entire life and im never happy anyway because i cant seem to trust any man and end up being a crazy ***** for my insecurities. Im in love with a drug addict/alcoholic. He is a horrible person. He lies, steals, embarrasses me and doesnt work, but yet im completely addicted to […]
Hey! This letter is for Mary Ann(Marika)in Finland.
I hope your reading this.
So much has change since i met you here around a year ago.
I understand your reasons and motives very well, but i feel you asked the wrong person for advice. Then again so did Alex from Scotland.
But ultimately Marika you were right. We all at the end of the day do want to be “free” to decide our of destiny. I say “free” in caps, because in reality we do not have any REAL freedom. All is under the controll of god.
And Marika as much as i hate to say this, you may […]
… ive been cutting since i was 12….when i was little….my hole family got torn apart…my sister died…i was a year old thats when everything fell apart my dad got aressted and my mom left a year later to go run off with a guy and do drugs…year after that my sister was born and then a fews later taken away and put up for adoption…ive been living with my grandma since i was two…and then…my being picked on…really started about say…1st grade i got called ugly and stupid and frizzy haired freak….all names you can think of…and i belived them…i used to say i […]
Sometimes I feel like I’m pretty and smart but then I look in the mirror and every name I’ve ever been called just comes flashing back to me and I try to be strong but I can’t. I just can’t. I don’t want to deal with this anymore, I don’t want to be me anymore. I tried reaching out to someone in real life but she thought I was kidding and she doesn’t understand. She’s never felt like this for a day in her life. I understand that I’m not the only one to feel like this, but I’m the only one here, where I […]
I can’t share with anyone how I feel. None of my “friends” come from a broken home. I haven’t talked to my mother since Christmas and I can’t trust to tell my grandmother anything in fear of her telling my mom. My dad ignores me all the time and acts like “sorry son I didn’t hear you” and he try’s to cover up how he resents me. Seeing as I was an accident you would think he would have just put me up for adoption as a baby. My brother to. We just found out recently who my brothers real dad was and our mom […]
Coming from a religion heavy city and family abortion is not a choice for them.
And very few of them believe in adoption because they feel like if a person has a child that person should have no option at all but to raise the child despite the circumstances. Their philosophy is “God will provide.”
Seems like reality in some cases is a bit different. On sites like this and in RL there are so many children who are neglected and abused by their parents. Which of course does not doom them but does give them a more difficult start than children without that problem.
To the point […]
As the title says nothing beats everything I am dealing with now. My babies are all split up and their hearts are shattered. In turn their pain rings so loudly to me. I had to rock my crying 6 year old little girl to sleep in a hotel room before I took her back to her father. I am disabled and incapable of providing a stable home for my children. I am going to an online university and I find it mundane and pointless. Feeling guilty is something that runs rampant in my heart and the feeling of complete inadequacy fills me to the brim […]
I haven’t really been feling well. Which isn’t out of the ordinary for me. Last night it got back and I was in a lot of pain. So I went to the ER. I brought to the doctors attention that I might be pregnant.
I am on birth control. I am sexually active. Even with birth control I still use condoms. Well one night the guy that I have been sleeping with, didn’t use a condom. And all it took was that one time.
Well they ran tests. The only that came back positive was my pregancy test. The pain I was in was due to the […]
People used to tell me not to cry for someone, for they are not worth your tears. The one who was worth your tears would have never made you cry. I didn’t believe in that sh*t. I met this person, and fell madly in love with him because of how kind and caring he was. I was certain we would always be together, because we always talked about getting married and having kids. Mind you, I’m 16, and he’s 18. So yes, we were young. But I loved him. While we were together, I was constantly getting bombed by my all too perfect stepmother about […]