I can’t take life anymore i just need to die now, I’m new to this site just wanna express myself.
Ive suffered from depression for a year and half now, i used to be on 100ml anti depressants but they did nothing for me just made me lifeless and made me think more. Which made me worse, I used to have to go and see a Psychologist but he wasn’t helping at all so i just stopped attending.  I have tried suicide before through Severely cutting my wrists a lot with a scalpel, which actually hurt alot. Ever since i thought that i couldn’t kill myself… Didn’t have the […]
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The new me… thats what im hearing from everyone. Thats what i see when i look in the mirror. I have been depressed for the past 5 to 6 months… yes its taken that long for them to give a crap. My gp wants to put me on anti depressants. Go figure. I hate all these people that think they are so helpful and supportive. Youre not me… you never will be so please leave me alone. You have NO idea what im going through or what it feels like so LEAVE ME ALONE! Stop pretending to understand and care coz lets face it … […]
People always say things would be better in the morning. They aren’t. I wake up and feel the same way and have the same problems. I wish i was dead. I wanted to die last night, and realized that I threw my pills down the toilet a few months ago. I stopped the meds the doctors gave me, so, I had nothing to take. They were anti depressants. I can’t even cut myself, because, I can’t stand the smell of blood. There isn’t a tall enough building around to jump off, and getting transport now is a *****. I can’t get into any of the […]
I still don’t understand why…. Why did you do it? How could you? Why does it seem to affect me so much yet you’re fine? Why does it hurt me so much but sound so stupid to others? Why am I going crazy like this? What triggered it? And why? I don’t know. And it bothers me. Too many fucking questions and absolutely NO answers.. What the fuck am I to do? what the fuck am I to think? Why am I so fucking anxious? I can’t think straight, i’m nervous, shakey, I feel like if I am tweaked the fuck out or something.. Restless, […]
Hello, I’ve been gone a while.
but I’m back.
I’ve set a date. I’m going to go April 10th.
Yes, It’s a while away, but I still need to plan. Get everything together, have enough time to say goodbye and such.
I’m going to go by pills.
I’ve decided.
I’m tired of always being in pain, physically or emotionally, I’m very tired of it. And yes, I’ve tried therapy, I’ve tried anti-depressants, I’ve tried to have someone to depend on, but nothing’s working. I believe this is my destiny.
And I’m going to fulfill my destiny.
I know this is permanent, I’m aware.
And I feel empty. I feel okay […]
I’m 28 years old. Â I’ve been what I’d call a depressive since I was probably 14. Â I tried to kill myself when I was 16 by overdosing on my anti-depressants. Â I haven’t tried since, mainly because I saw what the first attempt did to my parents. Â I was very fortunate in my parents; they’re loving and supportive, and I probably wouldn’t be writing this if it wasn’t for them. Â I swore on my Grandmother’s grave that I would never try again. Â That vow has also helped stopped me. Â But it’s losing its effectiveness. Â I don’t see the point anymore. Â Why should […]
Every now and then I catch myself getting lost in my thoughts. I know Im not the only one, but at times I feel that I do it more than some. My paranoia will kick in, I start getting lost in the thoughts, and ideas that it brings. I catch myself thinking that this and that are true, but deep down I KNOW that they are NOT true. This has gotten worse within the past couple of years. I know that the thoughts I have are not true, but I often think what if that is, what if that will happen? When this first occured […]
It seems on this web site I am in good company as the comments I have read here I can relate to and it’s been so long since I could relate to anything. Â I have been on anti depressants for 10 years. The last few weeks I have hit the end of my rope. Â I cannot cope. Â I am now planning my suicide which will most likely be an overdose and it is the only thought I can gleam comfort from, the knowledge that my destiny is in my control and that all the fighting will soon be over. Â I have 3 children and they […]
I don’t know what to do guys, everytime i get upset i get suicidal thoughts. I know I have depression but accepting it and trying to treat it isn’t helping me. The thought of anti depressants make me more upset. I hate that I can go around and see so many people normal and then there’s me. Half the people around me are clueless of what I have and sometimes I wish they know so maybe they could talk me out of the thoughts I have. But as if i’d go up to someone and ask for help? I just can’t. I’ve tried telling people […]
You’re probably not interested in what I have to say but I’ve been reading these forums for about a week after stumbling across them. I just want somewhere to leave my thoughts so I figured this would do.
As the subject line says…. I failed. Pretty badly. I look back at what could have been and compare it to what I am now and think ‘oops, I kinda screwed that up’. I won’t bore you all with the details but if you are reading this then you are reading the writings of a once talented sportsman, who moved to America to pursue his dream, had a […]
I’ve never been afraid of anything in my life, but I’m afraid of committing suicide… I’ve bunjee jumped, sky dived, scuba dived, been cage sharking etc. etc. but I always felt with those things that whatever the risk, the likelihood is nothing bad is going to happen… But with suicide I know that obviously something bad is going to happen to me…. That probably doesn’t make sense, but basically I can’t live my life because of the mental anguish I suffer and have suffered for over ten years, but the physcial act of killing myself scares teh living sh*t out of me….. I’ve got all […]
….i wonder what if i OD on my happy pills/ anti-depressants if  i’ll die happy:) lets find out shall we! maybe i finally wont have to fake it HORRAY!! its about time im happy with something in my life….<—-or would i be happy with something in my death??….o well:)
After a few months I grew tired of feeling sorry for myself so I started developing a website to help myself keep busy in my spare time, but to also inform others of the dangers of spending money foolishly without thinking. Econochristian.com is my website. As you can see, I somehow discovered a path to religion when all of humanity seemed to have failed me. I guess this happens quite often, but it does help to rely on a religion with many followers to help you get back on your feet.
I’ve had it with life. I’ve tried and tried to make it work but time and time again, it’s failed me. It’s taken me almost 6 years to graduate college, I have A.d.d, I have a father whom is almost never around and when he is, he’s nothing more than an arrogant asshole. He thinks he can just buy my affection because he’s an executive. Well he’s wrong. My mother suffers from a severe anxiety disorder and is constantly taking it out on me and my sisters. I am broke with no job, no girlfriend. My 17yr old sister has more money than I do […]
This will be my first post here. Hello.
A couple years ago I attempted to overdose on sleeping pills. I was on anti-depressants that I had been taking irregularly because I had just moved into a new, very tiny, apartment with my new girlfriend. We had been together for a little under a year. In addition to anti-depressants I had some perscription sleep meds, and one night after weeks and weeks of worsening depression, I decided I would take them all.
I sat on the bathroom floor for an hour, and just stared at the walls. After that I went outside and stared at the sky for […]
I have been thinking deeply about suicide for the last few years. To be honest I hate the term depression, even my doctor said it is such a loose term that it is extremely hard to treat due to our own individualities. I don’t just get depression for no reason it’s a side effect of something else.
I have a very severe form of IBS that has been plagueing me for the last five years making my life instantly turn from fine to a complete mightmare almost overnight. Everyday, every hour of every days I am supressed by my symptoms, it drives me insane. I could […]
I realized I could kill myself at a young age. When I grew older, I realized that being suicidal brought attention. Even more older, I realized being suicidal would eventually alienate people. Eventually I realized, My feelings of suicide, were real, and instead of providing help, people would rather compare and challenge my problems with theirs, just to justify they were a bit more troubled than I was. I suppose that’s how my friends justified ignoring me.
I found that when my “symptoms” didn’t fit textbook examples of typical suicidal people, that psychiatrists started shortening my visits, yet still wrote out prescriptions. I found that only […]
I don’t know how to live the “right” type of life. To me, living hurts. Dying is simple. To die, all you have to do is stop. To live, you have to do everything. Somebody told me that every breath you take is a choice. If that’s the case, I’m going to stop breathing. That’s my choice. To be or not to be? I choose to not. I’m tired of living. I have chosen how I want to go; I just need a place and a time. I’m waiting but we’ll see. I know that nobody should want to die, but I do. That’s what […]
In June of 2008, I was a stoner, and an alcoholic. I tried comiting suicide by taking at least a full bottle of pain killers. because my mom grounded me. I wrote about it in my journal of course. I believe my words were:
“I wish my mom would understand what im going though, i dont know if i really want to die, i just wanns scare her”
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i fell asleep, then woke up with this incredibly uncomfortable feeling. I was burning, like my blood felt weird. and i was getting hives everywhere. my mom came home. I told her i ate bad food and felt a little sick. […]
can anyone help me.  I took an overdose a few months ago and wish I had died. I keep thinking about killing myself and then give myself more time hoping it will all be ok soon.
My husband got the sack from his job through something really stupid and he wrote a statement admitting it (foolishly) and I can’t get this out of my head that he would still have a job. I told him not to do it but he wouldn’t listen. I think about this every day and the only way I can see to rid myself of these thoughts is to kill myself […]