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Anti Depressants

I Am So Confused

by TheLostandAlone 12/27/2012

written by TheLostandAlone

Why do I keep fucking shit up? Why am I so stupid? I just… Feel like I am no good to anyone. I feel like all I do is screw shit up. I have nowhere to go, no friends that I can rant to freely without them getting annoyed and I’m left to this site. I have hit rock-bottom, and my last resort was this website.

Tell me, how pathetic does that sound? A site called The Suicide Project is where I go to when I need to vent. Yeah, most may call me lucky: I’ve been accepted into an amazing cosmetology school, I’m a model, […]

12/27/2012 5 comments

Why bother

by BluDude976 11/30/2012

written by BluDude976

If life has taught me anything, its how pointless everything is. If you aren’t rich in a capitalist society your life will most likely be a nonstop living hell until the day you die and there will be very little you can do to stop it. Some people brainwash themselves with religion, some use drugs and/or alcohol, others distract themselves by any means necessary telling themselves someday life will be worth it but that day never happens. Most people die deeply disappointed by life, those that live long enough to be elderly usually just give up and wait for death (visit an old folks home […]

11/30/2012 14 comments

Hey, everyone

by purplelife 11/23/2012

written by purplelife

Hi, I’m new to this site. I guess, I’ve kind of been looking for something like this for a while. Some where that someone who isn’t related to me, and doesn’t have a biased opinion can give me advice. I’m not suicidal at the moment. Never really have been seriously. I just want ears. So this is my story: In February, the guy I had been dating for the past eight months broke up with me because he is gay (and I am female). He claimed he dated me as a way of trying to confirm to himself of his sexuality. Don’t get me wrong, […]

11/23/2012 6 comments

Pointless family.

by supern0vaa 11/15/2012

written by supern0vaa

As of tonight, I don’t know what family is. My mom walked out on my family sept. 29th, I’m pretty sure I’m the only one still in so much pain from that. She’s off with the guy she was having an affair with, I still talk to her but she’s changed it will never be the same. My dad was doing good, he planned a trip to Toronto to visit who I thought was his family. Turns out he’s going to visit an old girlfriend… Not impressed. Why? He hasn’t told me. He hasn’t told me he booked a ticket, he didn’t tell me who […]

11/15/2012 4 comments

Just waiting

by Angelsilhouette 9/25/2012

written by Angelsilhouette

I’ve been going through the motions for a few years, now.Â Living on autopilot, mostly.Â I occasionally do something nice for myself; traveling to China and Europe and getting a new car and cool new toys.Â Sometimes that makes me forget.Â Sometimes it makes me question my decision.Â It always fades, though, and the reality always returns to embrace me and remind me why.Â I always smile and accept, too; death is a light at the end of my tunnel.Â I look forward to it, but it is something I cannot allow myself to have just yet; I am still needed.Â There is someone very […]

9/25/2012 1 comment

I just want to not be lonely

by drowninginloneliness 9/25/2012

written by drowninginloneliness

Basically I feel like I want to die most days. Some days I am ok, but I am a very depressed person, I let my depression consume me. I really need some anti-depressants, but I am still waiting for my health insurance to kick-in so I can see a psychiatrist. I believe in God, but I don’t understand why I feel bad enough to want to kill myself. I’ve been thinking about killing myself for years but something always stops me. I don’t think I will actually kill myself, but I have thought about how I would do it.
I am currently living in Philly, […]

9/25/2012 11 comments

And all these demons, they keep me up all night.

by BonesAndBloodMakeAButterflyDie 9/11/2012

written by BonesAndBloodMakeAButterflyDie

I’m so glad that I found this site. It’s perfect. Things have been really fucked up as of lately. My depression and disordered eating that began in 6th grade have crept back into my life somehow. Causing me to get in fights with friends, family, myself. I’ve had suicidal thoughts every single day, just like old times. But something new is that I see scary images. But this has been happening since summer/the end of last year. Like for an example, whenever I close my eyes I see blood or a man with anÂ axÂ in his head laying on the ground bleeding, or when I’m in […]

9/11/2012 8 comments

I’m a waste of space

by teamore 9/11/2012

written by teamore

I’ve been having depression since the end of 6th grade. I’m now in 10th. I don’t take anti- depressants anymore because they don’t help. Let’s start with the fact that- my family is fucked up. My dad used to beat my mother infront of my brothers and I, and then a few months after, he just packed his things and left us. I haven’t seen him since. He’s a stranger to me – and even though I still have this despise towards him for hurting my mum, I miss having a dad role in my life. The other thing is – I’m overweight. I’m 5’3 […]

9/11/2012 1 comment

winning…except not

by violetblonde 9/6/2012

written by violetblonde

sOO my life has gotten extremely glamorous. deferred from college on medical absence to deal with my depression. omg im so effing cool. but really, last thing my rapist said to me was i hope you kill yourself or one of your eating disorders kill you. YAY. i swear, i sound like such a trip. it’s just exasperating that i have so much baggage and i’m so young. i want to be young and free and live my prime and instead i’m back at home trying to recover from my PTSD while all my other issues reman unresolved. honestly, i dont even give a flying […]

9/6/2012 2 comments

I just want to be happy.

by sawabear 8/24/2012

written by sawabear

I’ve been battling with depression my whole life. I got on anti-depressants when I was about 13, but I caught a lot of flack from my dad’s side of the family so I stopped. I continuedÂ strugglingÂ until I was about 18 and decided to get back on the pills. It seemed better at first, then it got worse. I was contemplating suicide at least once a week. It was getting to the point where if something in my day went wrong, I would have mini breakdowns in my room. I would cry and curl into a ball and wish horrible things upon myself. I told my […]

8/24/2012 1 comment

Come here, Please hold my hand, lord now help me, I’m scared please show me how to fight this, God has a master plan and I guess, I am in his demand….

by Nat.... 8/23/2012

written by Nat....

The assessment went well. Apart from the fact that she wanted to drug me up. I have another appointment on the 4th october. All I heard her say was ‘Hopefully the anti-depressants will make the voice go away’.

Lol.

I didn’t have the heart to explain why I don’t want daniel to leave, So I just sat there and blanked out everything else she had to say. And I went for smart, But as I stood up she gave me a wierd look. :I Thanks. I needed that confidence boost.

Got my exam results as well! I passes everything, Some only just. But got an A in product […]

8/23/2012 4 comments

suicide is not painless

by Marlo 8/11/2012

written by Marlo

Do you think diving off a bridge or a building is going to be pain free? What if you change your mind on the way down? There is no easy way to kill yourself. If you take anti-depressants and still want to die, maybe what you really need is a change of environment or stop therapy altogether. They will never say you are through with therapy, but will continue to reinforce everything that is wrong with you.

8/11/2012 2 comments

The Mask

by gabe 7/29/2012

written by gabe

I posted a while back explaining a lot of what has been happening that has driven me back into a depression i had finally escaped last summer.Â I’ve been trying to figure out who i am to see if maybe i can convince myself that i actually deserve this life i’ve been given.Â But i honestly don’t know who i am, and i don’t think i ever did.Â I put a mask on when i was young so no one would see that i was slowly dying inside, and i lost whoever i was to this mask.Â I feel almost no emotions anymore, i force […]

7/29/2012 7 comments

Just Stressed..Dad I hate you.

by savemefrommyself97 7/12/2012

written by savemefrommyself97

Its been almost 2 months since my dad agreed to stay out of our lives. Ive hated every minute of it, Ive sent him messages, texts, basically anything to get him to contact. After our last arguement a few weeks ago, he said fine..I mean he didnt even fight to see me..He spent ten years away, in prison. Now its been almost 3 years since hes been out..Ive only seen him almost 2 years out of that. My mom keeps saying instead of being so rude to him, which I will admit im doing now because he wont respond at all, try asking if he`ll […]

7/12/2012 2 comments

My friends are everything…

by faith099 7/8/2012

written by faith099

I just let my two friends read my first post. They both showed me that maybe there is hope for me. N o I am not cured from this disese but they will make it better. They try to give me anti depressants and I have stop taking them cause they do no good. I have so much depression and my friends relize this and want to be there for me. I feel good knowing someone is there to be with me whn I am crying non stop.I hope that nothing ever happens to tthem. I would fall aoart and would definatly not be here […]

7/8/2012 1 comment

life hurts baldly

by woundswontheal 7/8/2012

written by woundswontheal

Today I woke up and realized how unhappy I really am. The pain I feel is so intense that it hurts to the core of my being. I sit here and look at the walls so much grief here I lost so much my home my kids my ex my life. Its all gone and I don’t have another start over in me I really don’t. Ending this life is all I have left. I simply can’t do this anymore . I have made my final plan to just end it. I can’t live without my family anymore I failed them and myself. No […]

7/8/2012 11 comments

Today

by AW92 7/4/2012

written by AW92

Today is the day to enroll in that shitty tafe course I mentioned before enrollments have to be done by 3… And it is now 11:51am
Im still in bed thinking about how I’m not going to waste 1600 on something I’m going to fail, besides I don’t ever have that money! I will never have that money with the amount of shifts I get.
I got onE shift this week for 5 hours oh that’s helpful. Not.
Hm I’ve applied for nightclub work but like usuall no ones bothered to contact me, I suppose it’s only been 2 days but hm.
I’m also dying […]

7/4/2012 0 comment

People have told me. Just wait a few years and it’ll get better. I’m waiting…

by RogueShadow1281 6/26/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

Will I suddenly feel better as soon as I’m out of high school. Is that the big change. I’m sorry, but one year is long enough.Â

I waited a while, it hasn’t changed much, or I’m too focused on one thing to see it. I, instead, have been going through shitty times (yet I may have over-exaggerated a bit) and that hasn’t really motivated me to keep going.

Please I don’t wan to wait any longer. A part of me wants to end it, it’s probably when I’m most depressed. There’s another part that wants to wait it out.Â

The problem with having 2 or more perspectives/personalities […]

6/26/2012 7 comments

Mindset

by Punkers 6/17/2012

written by Punkers

I withdrew all my money from the Bank.
I have spent the last few days giving it away.
Trying to achieve the mindset that the time has come.
I tell myself be brave you will be missed by none. The banality of my existence tells me I am making the only decision I can.
That life can be so painful. I wish for a life I was never given. So I say I no longer want this one. I have had enough. Some of the stories I have read here
resonate so loudly.
How is it some can fly so high, whilst others suffer and […]

6/17/2012 0 comment

It does get better…

by Em 6/16/2012

written by Em

Hi,

I’m new here, and I wanted to share my story. Â My name’s Em, and I’m 21. Â A year ago tomorrow, I tried to kill myself by taking the biggest overdose I’ve ever taken. Â I’d lost the will to live, I believed I had nothing to carry on for and I just wanted to end it all. Â My relationship with my partner had come to an end, I’d lost most of my friends, all of my family, I had no source of income, my work training had finished and I had nothing to hold on to. Â I was depressed anyway and having nothing good to focus […]

6/16/2012 11 comments

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