I consider myself to be an Empath. You might be one too. It’s been extremely difficult to live and function in a society where people don’t really have empathy so it’s hard for them to really feel what somebody else is going through. And that’s why so many people are ruthless and cutthroat, you know. Being and Empath is like having a finely tuned ‘Bullshit’ Lie-Detector. It’s really strange to have the ability to really feel what other people are feeling because I don’t know how to handle and cope with it. Now, staying away from strangers is easy enough; I just don’t go outside […]
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I guess I’m gonna use this thing as a diary to vent about my emotions through out the day.
So here we go.
I suppose I should introduce myself. I’m Ash. 17. Genderfluid. Pansexual.
There.
Today was.. Meh. At best, okay.
My sister came home today. She was in alot of pain. I don’t like seeing her cry.
Dysphoria was a b**ch today.
I relapsed with my cutting. 13 new marks. It helped with feeling numb and empty.
Sorry this was a lame first entry.
I suck at writing.
Yours Truly,
Ash.
I’m here because I don’t want to die. I want to believe that I have something to offer this world, and that my current suffering will lead to a day where I can turn it around and use it to help others. Thing is, I’ve been depressed my whole life. I feel like from the moment I was born, I was given a cluster of psychiatric diagnoses instead of a personality. I was a problem to be solved, not a person to be loved. I was not human; I was merely human labels. Autism at first, because I’d rock endlessly in place. Then bipolar, because […]
I have Bipolar Disorder (#2), Social Anxiety and General Anxiety. Everyday my life would be ‘I shouldn’t go out somebody might talk to me.’ to ‘Yay! I’m so happy, let’s go out and celebrate!’ Although my happiness only last about five minutes.
I got depressed at a young age and had no clue what was happening, so it made me feel crazy because no one else acted like that at my age. I would usually cry myself to sleep, wondering if I would ever be normal again. When I grew up I finally figured out what was happening and got help.
That worked for awhile but soon it became worse. I […]
Hello, I am a 22-year-old male. Thank you for reading my post. February 2014, I experienced anxiety attacks due to the existential crisis I was having at the time. I couldn’t deal with torment alone and sought help. I started seeing a therapist, and things were still rough, but in my mind, I thought that at least doing something about it was better than nothing at all. After seeing a doctor, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. Both the doctor and my therapist suggested I start taking medication. I started taking anti-depressants. I was told that the drug wouldn’t take effect for a couple of weeks […]
I’m sick of this. I found someone who I love, and she’s been incredible enough to let me into her life. It’s not easy for her, because of her past, but she managed to let me become a large part of her life, before deciding she needed to focus on herself, and couldn’t sustain any sort of relationship. I’m okay with that.
What I’m not okay with is the fact that her past doesn’t stay in her past. She’s been abused since she was a child. She has PTSD and anxiety and depression because of it. She flashes back, she relives that pain constantly, she never […]
I’m crying..
Worked myself right into an anxiety attack
I’m trying to move out
The high months on rent scare me
I can barely breath
And I’m crying ..
Help!?
Hi, I don’t really know what to say, I feel like I’m going insane and more suicidal every day, No one to talk to, No one to lean on for help… It is now summer after finishing my exams which went horrible. My parents said if I failed them I would have my phone taken from me. I tried my best I really did, During the exams I tried my best but felt so anxious and paranoid during sitting the exams and when I went out for a break for lunch I would feel much happier, no one staring at me no more twitching due […]
Depression
Depression is not something easily understood. It drains the life out of you. You just fall and can’t get up. It requires so much for you to stand up, specially by yourself. People can lend you a hand but it’s just that they’re out of your reach. Depression is not funny or cute. It is something that consumes you. It takes over you and you feel like you’ve lost control.
Anxiety
Anxiety is not something you can understand just by learning about it. It is something that you have to experience in order to understand. It is fear. It prevents you from doings things. Making friends. […]
I’ve been depressed for over 9 years now. I can’t deal with this pain anymore. I have scars all over my body, and I want to add more so I can ignore my pain, just for a little bit. But, mostly, I just want it to end and the only way I know how to do that is if I kill myself. Then it will all stop! Right?
I’ve been bullied since day 1 of school, never had a good solid friend until i was about 10 years old, my mother passed away the day before I turned 12, and ever since then my depression […]
For the people who have anxiety/panic attacks;
Does anyone else feel like they are just being dramatic when they have a panic attack or get anxious? Like you are making the feeling up and it is actually nothing even if you know it really is something? Is anyone else told to,” stop being a drama queen,” Or,” …and don’t give me that anxiety or panic attack crap..” or anything else like that?
I have a fear that I am just being dramatic when I feel depressed or panicky. Because of this, I feel like I have to deal with my panic attacks alone. Which is why I […]
Anxiety is the unwelcome guest within my mind. Nay, not a guest, but the unwelcome demon that inhabits the depths of my being, not just my mind. It captures my whole body in its icy tendrils that are mistaken for its hands, it slams loud noises and makes me jump, it causes me to sweat and shiver at the same time. My heart races faster than a horse at the Kentucky Derby finish line, causes my hands to shake more than the milkshakes that bring the boys to the yard, and forces my brain to whirl in a fashion not unlike the Tasmanian Devil from […]
OK, so I really need to just talk. This isn’t a suicide note or me asking for help to die, it’s just that my emotions are overwhelming and I need to get them out. Lately I’ve been terrified and scared and anxious. This post is going to get a little out there, but…..I am a survivor of every type of abuse with the exclusion of incest. I recently started having massive trouble with PTSD. I’ve also recently been diagnosed with bipolar depression. I am massively into BDSM. So much so that I have a Master and I am a slave. My Master doesn’t know I’m […]
I can’t really suicide me because of the consequences it would have on my family, but I think about doing it about twice a day. I am 26, male.
I had a happy and funny life, it was about to get even better. Then I screwed and turned it into a hell, all by my hands. I got plenty of advice and warnings, but I couldn’t stop me from doing a long chain of mistakes and freak out. Now I calmed down but in the last 6 weeks I pushed away a girl I loved, ruined my family’s happiness and made my father get depressed too, […]
Hi. I’m new to this place but I want to get a few things off my chest, reason why I clicked on the link to this place.
I have been having struggles with public school and missing a whole lot of school. I’ve been diagnosed with moderate depression and anxiety which is a reason why I miss so much school. I have talked my parents into letting me do online school, which was good for awhile until an assignment popped up for all my courses. I had to complete a call with my teachers discussing what i’ve learned in the module. I’m not a fan of […]
I feel weird for posting on here, but I have been visiting this site for months now. This Saturday will mark one year since I was raped. I’m 20 years old and I know many would say that I am so young and I have “so much life” ahead of me. I should have so much life ahead of me, but it was taken from me on that night. I live every day in fear. I can’t be out by myself. I’m paranoid. I’m afraid of the dark to the point where I have to sleep with the lights on….I am 20 fucking years old. […]
Hi you could say Im new but not to depression, psychosis and anxiety and loneliness. Ive had it all my life dont know where it comes from, my mum and dad are normal, my bro has a bit of psychosis/anxiety but i think mines worse. I have paranoid thoughts (delusions) like im the only real person and im being watched/judged even for example scared of expressing myself like answering simple questions like what kinda music do you like, i say i dunno. Or ordering something at a restaurant or food place i feel judged for what i order or even say like they know what […]
My anxiety is taking over my life now,I’m constantly feeling anxious,at home on the street especially at school.
It’s starting to really affect me now to the point were I’m starting to feel really sick and nearly fainting.
Dose anyone know anyways I can calm myself down and stop me from thinking so much?
Which is it, I don’t even know. Both maybe. I’m 30 years old and mentally miserable with my life. I’m alone and no one understands. I was with my partner for 2 years when she decided to kick me out because she couldn’t handle my depression, anxiety, social disorders and PTSD due to so much trauma, deceit, abuse and neglect in my life. It’s been this way since I was young. I thought my world was complete with her. We did everything together and I was even starting to socialize more with her friends coming over, visiting, us hanging out on the porch together. […]
I’ve been well aware of my anxiety and depression for a while now (5 years). I am 20. I go through phases of suicidal thoughts. I’m mostly fine, but sometimes it all becomes too much and I want to die. I’ll google the painless way to kill yourself.
Last summer I started dating a guy. He is wonderful and kind and sweet and caring. He is who you dream of meeting. But. There’s always a but. I think we fell in love too soon, too fast. Because now, 8 months later, I don’t know what I want. I don’t know if I love him. But I […]