Everyone just throw to the fire things that make you feel bad. I’ll start:
helplessness
loneliness
greediness
ignorance
bad music
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bad
Dear God,
I know everyone has hard times in their life. I know people all go through different times, extents, and ways of bad. But I’m wondering why mine seems to be the worst case scenario on all accounts. I’m wondering why I can remember more bad times than good. I know there will be bad times. But there has to be good times too. I’m wondering why you took my mom away. Things seem just have gotten a different type of bad now that she’s gone. My step dad is now drinking himself to death and picking up all my moms old habits. Why […]
While being depressed, I was working on this prosthetic for a 6 year old kid. It turned out that i won the competition! I was on lots of news coverage. Here’s one of them:
Thanks for the support guys.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SxtIAQe8RC8
I want to take a dagger and stab my heart so bad, because:
My heart hurts more than I can take
It’s all my fault, I deserve it
My life is over
Sadly, I lost a great friend of mine named Andrew. He died on May 11, playing soccer. Andrew had a heart condition, and before he played that evening, he had 2 redbull. He had a really bad heart attack, and it took his life.
Andrew, was a beautiful person. He left behind friends, family and his girlfriend.
I miss him everyday so much.
When I attended his visitation, it really sunk in for me… He was dead. Gone. a little piece of blue sky, and another soul in heaven, another body in the ground.
Life is too short to not say things to people around […]
hi ..I always feel lonely and unloved Im always afraid to try new things I always feel nervous when there’s a new event in my life it feels like I will do some mistakes again ..and I can’t think of any positive things maybe because of too many bad things happened to me when I was a kid ..I’m always bullied by my classmates and there’s no one like me because they said I’m ugly. even my mother and father always saying that I’m ugly and I’m just a thrash in their lives ..that’s really hurtful when it comes to your own family that your […]
I’m happy till I sleep. Sleeping is my struggle.. Is my hell. Most of you struggle with suicide and cutting and I’m stuck with sleepless nights full of fear an torment. I’m happy. I’ve been sucked up by depression and spit out by suicide. Cutting didn’t give me the help I needed so I left. I’m not going back. I refuse to go back. My breathing shallows and I become more and more afraid of leaving this world before I complete one of my tasks. Anxiety hasn’t let go of my wrist and it hurts.. It hurts so bad. I can’t over power him.. I’m […]
I live for drugs and guitar, though that’s probably a really bad thing. All my friends always tell me off for my drug use but I don’t care, I love it. I used to live for other people but I somehow stopped caring about them as much as i did.
It is so sad I had to drink two whiskeys and a beer for breakfast in order to get to work this morning. My mood raised for a moment but now I’m just feeling sick and my mood is slowly getting worse than before drinking. I’m also afraid my colleagues noticed I drank.
I hate myself so bad.
At this point I am all alone in my own head. There’s not a single person in the world that knows how I truly feel, and I’m hurting. I have no clue what the source of these inner demons I’m struggling with is, and at this point I don’t think I’ll ever find it.
It has been six years since I started feeling depressed. I am 19 and my feelings started as a freshman in high school. At first I just thought they were normal teen angst. I felt lonely. I felt alienated from those around me. I felt so guilty about everything I did wrong, […]
Hey (goodbye).
I’m kinda messed up right now, I’m feeling pretty bad though I could probably stop feeling this way; I just don’t want to. I’m not sure why but I kind of enjoy feeling sad, I guess in the same way that I like self-harm; maybe it’s the same thing. This probably isn’t healthy but I’m not, so it might be alright. I guess I’m just fucked, I hate myself and I think I might kill myself tomorrow not that it matters.
I’ll go to the student services room at school, sign off there, catch the train home and hang myself.
I’m sure it […]
I’m thinking about taking my own life. My mom is my only family member and tonight we had a bad arguement. I said a lot of really mean things. I feel I was justified in being irritated, even angry, but I shouldn’t have been so mean. One of these arguments happened only 2 weeks ago. I have caused my mom so much pain with the mean things I’ve said over the years. I’ve also put her through so much with my mental and physical health problems. I honestly feel I should have never been born. When these […]
I truly do want to die. I feel bad for thinking it but I wonder since I reconnected with my mom if she would want to die too. She has more resources and could probably get ahold of a gun. I’m almost certain her religious beliefs keep her from any thoughts of suicide and she would never touch a gun either. I only thought of how she has nothing left the same as I have no reason to live. I can’t take the agony of being alone and never knowing what it’s like to hold someone I love. The man I love is still complaining […]
I’ve been depressed for a really long time, and I’ve been feeling alone my whole life really. People keep leaving me and now the one person who’s made me feel happy is gonna leave me too. we met in a mental hospital a year ago and we’ve gotten really close. She had really bad eating disorder and i actually got her to start eating again. And I’ve helped to not cut and eventually she did stop,=-)… she keeps asking me why i’m so nice to her and i keep telling her that she’s my best friend and that i care about her when really i have […]
So at work yesterday just before I left for my other job, my mom tries to reach me after not speaking for over a year since her mom (my grandmother) passed away. Ultimately she said she had been afraid to tell me sooner, was sorry for her mistakes, and doesn’t believe anymore that I stole anything. Her husband (not my dad btw) passed away suddenly last fall and her last dog has been sick for a year and will be put down today. I feel bad for her and she feels bad for what I’ve been through too. I also braved it and asked the […]
I don’t want to be here anymore, I’ve known this since I was very young. But only now that I’m over 40, I’m no longer living on some autopilot or “unawakened” state. I’m awake. I get it. Oneness, we are all one, the energy, the unified field, the energy of love, the veil, the illusion, the ego. Got it… I’m done now, I don’t want to force peace and happiness upon myself or others, what for? People and life keep pushing back and I want to leave now, I can’t keep this up on my own.
If I ended up here with this pitiful story, what’s […]
My name is Ashley Im 18 and I have severe deppression I dont have any friends I have my fiance and my dogs thats about it I first notticed my deppression when I was about 11 I started smoking weed when I was sad and I notticed it made me feel so much better probably because it would make me eat and go to sleep things didnt get to bad till I was 14 9th grade that was the age I began cutting my self and the age I first tried killing myself I was extremely skinny not because I cared about my weight but […]
You know that old saying “don’t surround yourself with shitty people”
I feel bad for being in someone else’s company. I feel sorry for them as they have to put up with my presence. I don’t say much, but then try to make up for it and say too much. I go on about shit and cringe in my mind, asking myself “why the fuck did you just say that just shut the fuck up”
But then I hate being left alone with my own mind. Shits pretty scary and fucked up in there.
The truth is, I don’t want to surround people with myself, because I’m a really shitty […]
so i just got cyberbullied by my friend he posted something on facebook and it was humiliating for me and the fact that he was my friend i didn’t do anything bad towards him and there’s other guy who helped him hes also a friend i did a lot for him now i dunno wht to do i am a good guy i never thought ill of anyone why did this happened to me i am crying for 2 days something i think i should die i am too innocent for this cruel world
Everyone crys or hurts after a break up. If you don’t, than you didn’t really care anyway. If I tried to off myself after every relationship that went sour, surely it would have worked…
You really can get over these people. It just takes time, depending on the person. The boy I dated before this guy, we were together a year and a half. I thought I loved him, but I loved the idea of him. I was lonely and in a new city. He offered me free drugs, had a nice car, and put up with my drinking. The sex was awful, but what did […]