im having a hard time keeping together one part of me wants to jump off a bridge another part of me wants to slit my wrist or starve and dehydrate myself. To bad you cant do all three. Im in a lot of pain and i dont know why just know something inside of me hurts real bad. My life is good but this feeling is not good. I just got out of the er i actually went twice one the first day then the next. They threatened to kick me out of the er the second time if i kept acting up so i […]
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i can’t do anything right, ever since i was a little kid, i was always picked on because my sisters and never fit in, im always depressed and no body will send me to a psychologist, i cant handle it though all i do is try and get nowhere, 🙁 and all the picking on from when i was little made me insecure and now it caused me to lose the best thing i had in my life, i dont know what to do i seriously want to jump off a bridge.
there’s something positive waiting for you at the corner ?
feel like you aren’t experiencing all this inner turmoil for nothing or because the universe hates or forgot about you ?
that there will be an end to the tunnel ? that you may be building inner strength without being aware of it ?
that one day, you may cross the bridge between hopeless and hopeful ?
I wonder if someone were to jump off a bridge or a building or something if they would regret it while they’re falling. You know like when you’re jumping off a diving board and halfway down you realize it wasn’t such a good idea after all because you’re about to land in the cold water. I wonder if once they jump to kill themselves they suddenly wish they hadn’t and wish they could reverse it. Maybe they don’t even think about it. idk.
Two months ago I posted on here that I was going to kill myself in my bathtub as a retirement present to my dad, so he wouldn’t have to deal w a terrible daughter any more. I tried to jump off a bridge, but I chickened out. I went home to my drunken fiancee, the kid I’m going to ruin, called my dad that resents me, and promised them and myself I’d get better.
A month later my abusive drunken fiancee decided to hurt me in front of our son. Ironically, I begged him not to kill me. I haven’t spoken to him in a month, […]
Just wondering how many others have been on the edge of attempting, but just couldn’t take that last step. I’m not really talking about swallowing ten aspirin or other “attention getting” attempts, but the real thing.
I once stood on the roof of a high-rise building for two or three hours, but couldn’t make the jump. I’ve also held a loaded gun to my head for an hour or so, but couldn’t pull the trigger. I once got my car up to 100 MPH and was going to veer into a bridge, but couldn’t do that either.
I just wish the feeling of not wanting to exist […]
This place is so familiar, this place that I always come back to. Chainsmoking my way through a lonely night, endlessly surfing the net to distract my mind. Radio, TV, Twitter, facebook, scroling scrolling, clicking clicking – only turning off the light when I know that sleep will be instantaneous.
I’ve tried blaming it on circumstance, the balance in my bank account, my parents marriage, failed relationships…but this thing, this thing is always with me. I move and it comes with me, I hide, it finds me, I embrace it and it kills me.
I don’t know what it is, restless fatigue and itchy bones […]
Ok this is it. I’m leaving in about 2 hours, it is 5:46 am over here right now, i only slept about 4 hours. I’m jumping from a bridge. I waited way too long, i should have done it a long time ago.
It’s gonna take me about 20 hours to get there because the bridge is located on the other side of my country. I really can’t  wait to break free from this world and I really hope there is no afterlife. fuck life
bye guys
all i do is, cry eat and sleep…. nothing more nothing less… I’m so empty..lifeless.. i feel this way constantly… i don’t know what to do… i find it helps when i can talk to people.. like john or aaron… I’ve been talking to john.. but aarons been busy and i miss him so much! aarons my ex boyfriend.. we had to weak up.. but I’m hopping we’ll get back together soon…
i need someone to talk to who won’t judge me.. I’m a depressed 14 year old girl…. i use to cut but stopped… i tried to kill myself twice.. well kinda.. i […]
Hiya I am a 21year old and since I was about 12 all I have felt is despair and hopelessness. I can’t remember the last time I was happy. I attempted to jump off a bridge last night but just my luck the police turned up. I feel useless I can’t even kill myself properly. They took me to the mental hospital but they didn’t even speak to me just told the police to take me home. So looks like I was right all along I can’t be helped otherwise they would help me right? So it looks like my only option is suicide at […]
Verse 1:
Surrounded by all these people
Not one of them I call by name
The occasional friend that’s never there
Yeah it’s close but not the same
Not the same as you
Not the same as us
But I guess there wasn’t anything there
I guess there never was
Never any love
Just the pain that you left behind
I guess I knew you didn’t love me
It was only a matter of time
And
Pre-Chorus:
Now I have
Something to say
Words of advice
To live by everyday
And there’s no holding back now
It’s time that you should know
Exactly what I have […]
I’m starting to really think that it would just be so much better if I was gone. I don’t have anyone, really. I mean, I guess I might, but that’s not the point of anything. I don’t care that I have no friends. That has nothing to do with why I want to end my life. I don’t know what it is. I can’t seem to figure out what has caused all of this, it started a few years ago and I thought it had gone away. I did and I was happy. Actually god damn happy, or so I thought. But, now that I […]
ive thaught alot.. like i always do .. honestly.. all the times .. they hurt me.. all those men that took me for advantage.. its not me.. its not my fault.. i may have walked the bridge but i didnt jump.. they pushed me.. they should fall not me.. FUCK THEM .. LYING FUCKING IGNORANT STUPID PERVERTED.. NO GOOD IDIOTS…THEY SHOULD ALL GO TO FUCKING HELL FOR MAKING ME FEEL THIS.. because … i did nothing rong i was just looking for somone to tell me i was beutiful and amazing.. i cant die over them.. i still hav so many years to live .. […]
i have had three attempts.
!. od on vicodin, got sick, pain for over a week following, think i did permanent liver damage
2. od on ativan/ambien, friend called 911, transport to hospital, don’t remember much, forced to drink charcoal, hospitalized in mental ward
3. strangulation, friend found me, cut tube off my neck, damaged throat & had difficulty swallowing
if i try again i am going to drink a lot of alcohol, take a bottle of of ativan & hang myself from a bridge near my house. i have the rope and i have been practicing tying noose knots. i’m pretty good at it now.
Last week my husband came to see me so that we could talk. Well he came back the next day and then stayed the nite on friday nite. He had told me we were sole mates and would be together for the rest of our lives. I had to work on saturday so he went to help his mother with yard work. He sent me a text message staing he would be to my house after i got off work at 6. He then sent another text message about two hours later that asked me if i would be upset if he didnt come over […]
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