i know this is suicide help but im caught on running away;
my boyfriend that i love so much and been with for the longest through THE MOST (me cheating, arguing daily, thinking im pregnant, my bulimia & anorexia, self inflicting, and self esteem) may be going to jail because of my mom; we may argue a lot but in the end were more in love than anything you could imagine; i was raped by my moms ex boyfriend and touched by her 2nd ex husband; all of this is coming out as once; and its sooo much pressure and i dont want my boyfriend […]
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After doing a lot of research trying to help myself, i came to the conclusion that maybe i just need to start talking to anyone. I came across this website and thought an unbiased opinion might help. I’m going to try to summarize everything that’s been weighing heavily on me so please bare with me because i could use a strangers ears to listen. I have never wanted to be an unhappy person, even writing this right now feels somewhat like a cop out to me because im unable to handle it all on my own. The very beginning of my life started out in […]
I’ve started out with a terrible life. When I was 2 my real dad tried murdering me. When I was three he choked me to death but the emt brought me to life again. I wish I could of just died then so I wouldn’t have to go thru this pain any longer. My lifes falling apart at the seams again…. I’m 14 and tried suicide 5 times! But each time at the end when I’m about to die someone saves me even when I try fighting them. At this exact moment I feel unwated unloved and depressed. I’m thinking of suicide because who would […]
I’ve been depressed for years and I@m starting to realise that it’s because i never felt loved growing up. My brohter bullied me by beating me and puttin gme down and making me feel like a loser all the time. He raped me when I was 9 years old. The problem is so complicated though because I never felt like I could go to my parents because they never seemed to give a sh*t about me… I loved them and my brother so much but they just treated me like dirt. When my parents split up, my dad just moved out and didn’t even think […]
I’m so tired of life. My dad is abusive he treats me like shit. No one is there for me not even my family…they think.its wrong for me to also be bisexual. I lost everything no friends.. they taunt me saying its wrong and its sinning I cry every night. Is it wrong? Shouldnt it just be people loving another regardless of gender. I failed a grade my parents call me stupid. I have no friends or anyone to turn to. I’ve been beaten and yelled at. I want to end life now. No one ever cared… I just need help. My plea is stupid. […]
I just started dating my REALLY good friend-known each other for almost nine months now- and he lives in Egypt. He’s really sweet, kind, and I absolutely love his smile, but the problem-for us- is we have to date online. My family doesn’t really like it when I do that-date over the internet. Especially my sister.
The things that she doesn’t like? Well, to start off, his age. He’s really turning 20 in May. Saying that, I know everyone is going to care about that the most, just like Tiff-since ALL boys at 19 think of only one thing- but please just let me keep going.
Things […]
So I haven’t writen in a while.. mom n dad got a devorcie and my boy friend left me for my best friend. I feel so unwanted and just wana die. Bleh
Dear Gloria,
It’s your favorite niece writing. I’ve been thinking, and this summer I would really like to come visit you. I’m so sick of this fucking family with their fucking up tight opinions and suburb attitudes. Every single one of them just pisses me off. I’m serious, just looking at one of them makes me want to take a bullet to the head. Today your little sister and I got in a fight….again. I figured as much would happen, it always does when schoolwork becomes a requirement. Apparently “we don’t communicate like we used to” well how the fuck am I supposed to “communicate” when […]
How can i feel wanted and loved by my family?
When my real dad walked out on my mom when she was pregnant with. He has a kid 3 months younger than me and is happily married with his other kids mom. My mom doesnt want me. I am so far behind in school. I have been cutting since i was 9. My friends walked out on me because i cut.
I dont know about life anymore :/
Don’t you hate it when you take a dump and ur dick falls asleep along with ur leg? Happenes to me all the time, probably poor blood circulation for a 17 year old…
I wrote this 3 days ago and since wordpress doesn’t let me write on my iphone without lag, I just copy and paste it which is easier.
My dad pissed me off a bit. Between the facts I know and the facts he knows, we are both ignorant of each other. I tell him what I heard and he tells me that he’s older and therefore he has all the brains and […]
i did not die, which I assume a few of you thought since I never ended up getting back on this site until now. Â I was deceived and betrayed.
To make a long story short, I called jackie’s house, she told me she wanted to be best friends with me and that she truly cared about me. Â My parents and jackie’s parents both told me that nothing bad was going to happen, that everything was going to get fixed, that me and jackie would get to be friends again. Â They said the police would not be waiting for me, that I was not going to be […]
I wish i had the courage to die, i wish i werent such a wimp and would just do the deed. I honestly can’t find a reason to live anymore. Any help i get is just a waste, any ‘hope’ story is just depressing. Everything is depressing. I just can’t take it. I can’t be honest with my therapist because she has proven how fast she’ll go and tell my dad. My dad is getting tired of taking me to therapy, i can tell he wants it to end but he doesnt get how bady i still need to go. my friends dont know the […]
Well geez…. i dont even know where to start. My parents fought since i was little. My sister would cover my ears so i wouldnt hear it. We moved to ohio in the 4th grade from Sacramento and i attended a private school. I was made fun of for being hyper as well as colorblind, being asked if i was retarded or gothic because i like black so i quickly learned to shut the fuck up and keep out of the spotlight. I transferred to public school in 7th grade and it was better but still not good but I guess all the suicide nonsense […]
Hello, well if you haven’t read my other post my name is bree, I’m 16 yrs old & I lost my dad & a brother to suicide within 2 year after their deaths I droppes outta school & didn’t do anything but sleep up to 20 hours a day i gave up on life.
Its been 2 months now that I’ve gone back to school & learned how to cope with my depression, all I gave myself was time& now I’ve got a job interview on Monday & I have the opportunity to graduate on time. Life is falling back into place I thought id […]
I tried to kill myself two nights ago. Not seriously, I suppose.
I got preposterously drunk and slit my wrists. But I woke up, and now I’m not so sure if I’m alive or not.
This is a test, sort of. A form of existential validation, my fingerprint against the window.
So don’t say that you love me. Don’t hold me.
I’m an alcoholic. I’m lonely as fuck. I don’t have a job. I barely have a mind.
My mum tried to drown me in the bath when I was a kid. My dad left when I was six. But I’ve never seen war, I’ve never lost a limb or […]
I want to die , But im to much of a fucking ***** to do anything. My parents fight a lot , I stick up for my mom when my dad hits her but the next day she just tells me she hates me. They hear me crying but the dont fucking care! I lock my door sometimes and my mom says how shes going to hurt me when i get out. I didnt know you do this to the people you love? I dont know anything. Ive never felt like this , i feel like nothing matters. Nothing.
Hi. My life story? I’m fourteen years old. My parents are divorcing, and I know it’s because of me, I was their mistake. My dad wanted kids at first, but my mom didn’t, now neither of them really want me. I have friends, and I seem like a normal crazy teenager. But hey, a smile can’t hide everything. My uncle committed suicide. I’ve thought about it many times. The only thing holding is my best friend, her brother died a few years ago. She has thoughts of suicide too. My words have always stopped her, I just wish that I could believe them myself. I’m […]
A lot of people I know say that they are there for me. Â That they will listen to what I say and not make their own assumptions. Â But they are never there, and they never listen. Â They make their assumptions, and state their opinions as if they are the facts of the world. Â The counselors ask me questions that I mainly can’t answer, because it would give some secret away. Â And when I do answer, they say I’m lying, give their own answer, and decide that they are right. Â Even thought they don’t know the things they say about me. Â They are supposed to be […]
I just cant take it anymore.My dad was an alcoholic and died from it about a year and a half ago.Please don’t ask why but I cant see my mom until I am 18.My friends don’t know anything but if I told them they might laugh or even worse.Only 1 person knows and I begin to regret that.I consider suicide more and more often.Most nights I cry myself to sleep.But noone not even family knows what I am going :through because if I told them they would send me to a therapist and that wouldn’t help me.Sometimes I think was I put on this earth […]
So. There is nothing holding me back. There is no one who loves me, no one who cares about me. The last one who existed on this earth, my father, got run over by a truck a year ago next month. I am a single woman in my 40’s who grew up in an abusive household and will never have a mate or children or a loving home. I want to die more than anything in this world. Each night i lie sobbing on the floor, pulling the side of one hand down the wrist of the other, feeling the cool, smooth sensation of a […]