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moving on…

by munckin 4/14/2015

written by munckin

Wondering starting to date again… I like one girl more then the others she is cute and sweet. She is originally from the country that I moved too 6 years ago. But also lived in the east and southern of Europe.

She is 8 years older then me. I don’t mind. I actually quite like it as I would like children and I think she would want them too. I wonder though if it is a wise step.. in the longer run for my happiness if that path were to happen….

we click really well so I do not really for see problems in that […]

4/14/2015 2 comments

An Awkward First Date-A True Story

by Observer 3/27/2015

written by Observer

Thought I’d share this…I was extremely depressed at the time, suicidal even. But mostly I wrote this for fun.

The following is a short story I wrote just for fun. It’s a true story and it’s about myself. If you’re bored, go ahead and take a look. I think that if you’ve ever tried online dating you’ll be able to relate. This is sometimes how it feels…

I’m not used to this kinda thing, you know. Not at all. I’m pretty nervous, in fact. I’m nervous because she lives in Bolingbrook and I live in Chicago, and I’m meeting her for the first time at her house.

I’m […]

3/27/2015 4 comments

Blah

by confused31 2/15/2015

written by confused31

I know I cut,

i know I’m crying,

i hear you saying I have to keep trying,

i know what they called me,

you don’t have to save me.

i know your parents hate me,

I know no one would ever date me,

I know you think I’m exaggerating,

but you don’t understand the pain I’m feeling,

I wish I could just be dying,

I’m tired of just surviving .

2/15/2015 5 comments

Black Cloud and Sunshine

by greenlight13 1/23/2015

written by greenlight13

I’ve fought my depression alone for eight years. It was a struggle I was losing most of the time. My depression is a black cloud that covers me and strangles and poisons everything in my life. My depression has defined everything about me as a person, a few of these things being my motivation, self-confidence and social life. I hate the person I see in the mirror with such intensity it scares me. I would numb myself from the world by seeking out any distractions I can find, be it books or video games (with diminishing results, I can’t pick up a book anymore and I […]

1/23/2015 2 comments

My very first actual date

by ClairDeLune 1/19/2015

written by ClairDeLune

Meh. Not sure what I should think about it. I mean I enjoyed it, we got to know each other better and I think she had fun too. Even though there were a couple of moments where neither of us said anything and it was kinda awkward, but not as bad as the usual awkward silence I get when I’m nervous. Speaking of, I’m glad I wasn’t actually as nervous as I thought I would be. But I’m not at the point yet where I’d say the “ice is broken”. Usually when I get to know someone new I can tell pretty well when that […]

1/19/2015 14 comments

Scared of getting hurt.

by unbrokenangel 12/28/2014

written by unbrokenangel

So today I’m suppose to go on a date with this guy I think I like. But I’m freaking out. I’m terrified that he’ll turn out like my exes and try pressuring me into doing things or try to take advantage of me. There’s also the fact of what if I don’t like him as much as I think I do. And what if I screw this up. Like whenever I have a a good thing going I do something to mess it up. I’m so scared for today. It’s also my first date ever.

12/28/2014 12 comments

Suicide Date

by turtleman_2014 12/15/2014

written by turtleman_2014

Hey guys I had enough bullshit and stuff I don’t need. I have decide my suicide date. It’s on new years. But tbh I’ve been suicidal for as long as I can remember so I don’t need a reason to
Commit suicide, I need a reason not to if anybody cares they’ll try to stop me. If you do care message me on kik. My name is pleasedontgob. We’ll see from here

12/15/2014 7 comments

Rational suicide

by Stereotype 12/10/2014

written by Stereotype

I have argued against the idea of rational suicide in the past but lately… I have been thinking – I am completely rational, not really depressed or in a PTSD mode and I have thought that suicide is the best option, most sensible really and probably the better way to leave this world… By my hand, my choice. Don’t worry my date isn’t for awhile now. What do you think about suicide can it ever be a rational completely sane choice?

12/10/2014 3 comments

Location, Location, Location

by ViciousCircle 12/7/2014

written by ViciousCircle

Hi everyone – it’s been a while. Has anyone given any thought to the location when thinking about suicide. I have my method and date picked out, but I haven’t decided on a location. My method can travel anywhere with me (luckily, I have an allergy I can exploit very easily). The date is going to be my birthday (I always had some sort of weird pleasure walking around cemeteries and seeing graves where people died on their birthday… I’m weird like that). I never gave it much thought until now – I thought I would just die in my house, but now I’m thinking […]

12/7/2014 13 comments

Suicide date

by cant.fixme 11/15/2014

written by cant.fixme

Last year i decided to have a suicide date but i couldn’t really decide then i made a list, a list of thing i have and haven;t done and i have a lot of things i haven’t done and that list became like a bucket list for me, the title “Things before my suicide date”. The date i never really had a date all i knew is that i would wait till i’m 18 and that maybe by then things will be great, so i’m really hopping that things get great by then but if it doesn’t i already know what to do, it’s like […]

11/15/2014 0 comment

My friend has another clue as to who I actually am.

by lifeishorrible 11/12/2014

written by lifeishorrible

I gave my friend my tablet so he could text his girl & Instead of going to the messages he went to messeger.I looked as soon as he gave It to me & saw that It was on a conversation with an ex.When you click on It the first thing you see Is messages of her trying to stop me the day I attempted.Re-reading what I said that day Is shocking.It happened this year so If he looked at the date he must think I’m a nut.I’m so deleteding ALL my messages.I’m just In shock.

11/12/2014 0 comment

Goodbye

by leftforthedead 11/5/2014

written by leftforthedead

I have set a new termination date, and I plan to depart next week. Hopefully this time I do not screw up and end up still alive. I feel trapped, and that I have to make this decision. Although I have been depressed and suicidal for the past seven years, I feel as though my feelings have catalyzed within the past few weeks. I’m sick and tired of always being sick and tired. Sick and tired of being a stupid, worthless,and hated burden on those that are around me. I am nothing more than a failure. I don’t […]

11/5/2014 5 comments

As the date approaches…

by JustLauren 11/5/2014

written by JustLauren

…I feel less and less motivation to do anything. I’ve stopped going to classes, appointments, meetings with friends. The only thing I actually do is go to work. Normally I would proceed as usual because I’m always aware there is a possibility my suicide will fail and I will be left with the consequences of shrugging off my school work and such. But something tells me that this time will work and if it doesn’t…I might finally say “fuck it” and jump off a building even though it could potentially lead me to become a vegetable. How am I going to get my ass back […]

11/5/2014 5 comments

It’s the planning that keeps me going …

by tbd 10/28/2014

written by tbd

I know it’s crazy, but the planning keeps me going.

While I may have spontaneous impulses to end it, there are matters that only I can tie up. Considering the potential grief I might cause by my passing of “natural causes”, it seems as though I should at least leave things as up to date and sellable as possible.

While considerate timing has been important in the past, in reality, no time is a good time, but it probably would be best if I could make it through the holidays, but I’m not married to it. Late spring would be best, … but why in […]

10/28/2014 0 comment

Unwanted birthday?

by transition 10/22/2014

written by transition

Some might think of this as just exaggeratory, but I am coming up on a birthday that I consider a milestone/breaking point in life. Has anyone ever gotten to similar points where all an upcoming date reminds you of is how much hasn’t been accomplished, or happened for you? I really don’t want to see that day, and keep hoping I can get to a peace with my death because I don’t see much after that day. Anyone have similar experiences/perspectives? This song sums it up nicely for me……

10/22/2014 8 comments

Still Here

by JustLauren 10/22/2014

written by JustLauren

Hello everyone.

Yes, I’m still here.

I was about to do it but called a very important person to say goodbye. Someone I love very much. Someone I had once but do no longer. They told me that they couldn’t be with me if I was gone. So with that little bit of hope, I put the bottle away. I still have my suicide date set for the day after Thanksgiving (how ironic), but for now, I’m hanging in there.

Thank you to everyone who answered my last post. It meant a lot to me.

10/22/2014 3 comments

Loser

by kontinkatink 10/18/2014

written by kontinkatink

I always lose. No matter what the situation I will always lose. I don’t know what winning feels like. It’s destroying me. All my major life stages have been marked by serious catastrophic events. It’s soul destroying. My use by date is coming up.

10/18/2014 2 comments

Un Jour, mi amour.

by Done 10/8/2014

written by Done

Technology can be fantastic for meeting new people, and sometimes you meet the right ones. I got to. I met the man I would’ve grown old with through a stupid website then through a dumb app designed for sending nudes and talking to strangers. I don’t understand why such a fantastic man was put into my life just to be taken out of it. Thanks to Technology, I had to find out he died from a message. Not a call, not in person the day he died. No, several months later when his mother finally found my contact information. I don’t know the date of […]

10/8/2014 0 comment

date set…

by kateralia 9/23/2014

written by kateralia

As the title says, I have set the date. I am so very very tired.

I have moved with my friend & her kids into her boyfriend’s house & its not a picnic. I basically live in the garage since its a 3 bed house & her 2 kids have finally got their own room.

I keep saying ‘it’s a roof over my head’ & ‘I could be on the street’. But I think I might prefer anywhere else but here.

He wakes up at 5am to go to work, so everyone is awake, including me who gets woken by the garage door. Mind you, I have a […]

9/23/2014 7 comments

Only a month

by tupsa 9/14/2014

written by tupsa

On September 10th after what had possibly been the worst 2 months of my life, heartbroken for the 100th time in a row, alone, hopeless, I decided to give myself only one more month to live. I decided to be romantic about the date since is the first anniversary of the death of my second child.

I have to admit, a month sounded like no time at all but it has turned out to be quite long. Whit no affairs to sort, no family or friends to write to, no debts to clear (and no money to pay them if I had them) no job to […]

9/14/2014 0 comment

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