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Failure

What if I’m not meant to be happy?

by BrazilianGuy 9/10/2013

written by BrazilianGuy

I think I’m meant just to survive for so much time, and I’m running of time already. People dislike me out of nowhere, I don’t do anything bad at anyone at all, but they just look down on me. I already tried to die from rat poison… no effects! So I gave up before trying again. Now I’m thinking of Helium Exit Bag, I’m just not sure if it will work, I don’t want to deal with another failure.

I don’t have any friends at all, I don’t have no one to talk to. People think I’m just okay, they don’t know how I feel deep […]

9/10/2013 3 comments

I don’t even know anymore…

by heyitstaylee 9/10/2013

written by heyitstaylee

I can’t stand anything anymore. I’m so bitter about everything. i hate my job, my friends are awful, I am stuck in a town that I have lived in my whole life, i didn’t bother applying for any colleges because my grades always sucked and now I’m stuck going to a stupid community college and I don’t want to go to college right now. I am not mentally stable enough to pass any courses and I have to pay out of pocket because I don’t qualify for any financial aid. But I have to go or else I have to pay my parents rent because […]

9/10/2013 3 comments

how can I get out from between Life k death?

by Lon3-Spartan 8/24/2013

written by Lon3-Spartan

I made another mistake. Again another mistake. All the stress, disappointment, failure, wasted finances I dont have, problems at work, added to my already deterioratking career, empty Â savings account, disappointed family and friends, car and motorcycle thay need to be rebuilt, jeez the list goes on. Just when you thought it was piled high or you feel youc’re making baby steps toward improvement THEN you get kicked all the way back into a crawl.

I dont get itk? All these other people are so successful, almost with out even trying. While I try my ass off s succeed Â then FALL! I fall twice as far as […]

8/24/2013 5 comments

Why live when nothing makes me happy?

by raziel535 8/22/2013

written by raziel535

So my depression started when i was bullied severely in middle school and summer camp, people really don’t know how much this messes up a person. I became introverted and started thinking of my own death constantly at a young age , to the people that say it gets better i just have to laugh. Because now that I am older I found out that I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, and not to mention I am a 30 year old unsuccessful virgin that also has erectile dysfunction. It seems that God is just laughing at me just like the builles did when I was a […]

8/22/2013 3 comments

I have lost all hope

by Ken T 8/20/2013

written by Ken T

I am a failure in all ways that matter to me i cant stay away from drugs and they no longer even numb my pain the one i love with all my heart is to afraid what it would mean to love me to be gay even tho he has said if he was he would marry me and has considered it…..he claims he cares and that i am a good man but he was raised to hate gays even tho he does not hate me??? yet his ex he hates and is always fighting with but uses for a booty call will spend a […]

8/20/2013 0 comment

Fucked up.

by yugi 8/18/2013

written by yugi

The title sums this up very well “Fucked UP” that is how I see my self and how my family and others view me a lot of the time, but we will get to that later. So im new to the site and just out of luck today before I made my final choice I decided to post a small post on here. For both advice and to see what others think. Im a 17 year old male who is: failing school (for two main reasons: one im lazy and two I view myself as stupid or dumb) I also have no job, no car, […]

8/18/2013 1 comment

this is my story

by blood lusting freak 8/14/2013

written by blood lusting freak

I’m the kind of person who had a great childhood. I wasn’t abused or molested. My family loved me and even though I was kind of weird, I had friends. I was content with my life. But, then, in sixth grade, I discovered that I had a gluten intolerance. Then, everything went downhill.

I discovered self-harm as a seventh grader. I started scratching myself with paperclips. I thought it was normal because it seemed that that was how everyone else dealt with their problems. It was “cool.”

I don’t really remember eighth grade, but about halfway through my freshman […]

8/14/2013 5 comments

I wish I had died!

by sibyl8 8/11/2013

written by sibyl8

Can’t take it!! I feel like a constant failure all the time, everybody tells me that I’m great, that I’m awesome, brilliant, smart… My family loves me, my brother cares more about me that I do, my friends always bring me back up, but I just had lost it…
I suffer from anxiety and depression, I went to therapy when I used to cry every single time at any hour the second I got up my bed, it helped a little, but to be honest I never told her my truth feelings, then things at home got bad, my thoughts about family went from ‘amazing’ […]

8/11/2013 2 comments

cant take it anymore

by tarko 8/10/2013

written by tarko

dont know how to start this so here we go:

(sory for spelling/grammar. english isnt my best language)

IM tired of living. dont know what to do anymore

it just feels like i shouldnt exist.

nobody likes me.

it feels like im a burden to my family.

i cant do fucking anything right

im a failure

(do have a couple of friends i met trough WOW. but havent met them IRL)

every night i pray to god(if he exist) that i dont want to wake up anymore as its pointless
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why cant i feel happy?
why cant i have friends?
why cant i have a girlfriend?
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why cant i simply wake up in the morning and not feel […]

8/10/2013 1 comment

Where do I go from here

by conrad 8/5/2013

written by conrad

I have a good life but since elementary school I was always determined to kill myself before I grew up. In September I turn 20. I still sleep with my baby blanket and have never been kissed and here I am turning 20. In May I told my parents I was planning on killing myself. Summer is almost over and my councilor is trying to make me promise to forget suicide but I can only imagine postponing it till December. I was to kill myself when the weather isn’t 100 degrees outside but at the same time I don’t want to spend 6,000 dollars going […]

8/5/2013 6 comments

why not

by jeroen steeman 8/1/2013

written by jeroen steeman

so some guy Â told me to put my story up here and wait for reactions on it before i do anything.

why not.

here’s my fucked story:

i am Jeroen Steeman. i am currently 17 years old, and i live in a small village in the netherlands. my life is garbage.

i used to have a happy life tough. lots of friends i hung out with. two awesome older brothers. a happy mom and dad. then my mother got multiple scerose (that’s the dutch name for it anyway) and lost her shit. all the joy that once exsisted in our family life just got destroyed. both my brothers moved […]

8/1/2013 1 comment

leaving.

by see.need. 7/30/2013

written by see.need.

i’m male and in my mid-twenties, and have lived long enough now to have seen friends, family members, and others around me make something of themselves, but i never did. i attended college on and off for years after high school, but never attained a degree. i dated pretty and nice girls, but can’t say any relationship i’ve been in lasted long or was meaningful. i’m lonely and have been for a long time. if i try to meet girls, i worry about being hurt again and doom myself to failure. i want to finish my degree, but feel that the only way to do […]

7/30/2013 2 comments

Too Much Loss

by hogpotter 7/27/2013

written by hogpotter

It had been half a year since I came here on SP. Since then,I have found my true meaning of life. My life,my pain was the same; but I decided to fight and chase my dreams,and that has made all the difference. I have found my happiness and destination in life. There is no place in this world for those who refuse to fight, I say.

Last night my kitty died. I was playing and laughing with him even at sunset, but at night I found him lying lifeless on the street in front of my house. He must have been hit. It all happened so, […]

7/27/2013 1 comment

I hung myself this morning

by MaxBlaise 7/22/2013

written by MaxBlaise

For a long time now I’ve been subconsciously planning my suicide. My main reason for this is this ever growing sensation of “weltschmerz” – feeling the pain of the world and the uselessness of existence and living.
I have a good job that pays well. I am married to a woman that loves me, I have two beautiful and adorable children and still these aren’t good enough reasons for me to keep on living.

For as long that I can remember, I’ve been trying to live life, but never really knowing how. On the outside I’m am successful, but on the inside there is only this […]

7/22/2013 4 comments

avoiding the inevitable

by PainNlife 7/17/2013

written by PainNlife

Each day that I wake up I am just adding time onto my pain. I distract myself with T.V , this website and the internet to keep from killing myself. The urge is there. Sometimes I feel this deep rage inside me and a voice screams in my head “YOU NEED TO FUCKIN KILL YOURSELF” and I have to convince myself that the time isnt right now. Why am I lying to myself? I think is just the will to live. My heart, mind and spirit are all at war within me. My heart and mind says its over and this is the end but […]

7/17/2013 3 comments

I don’t know what to put here…

by theoneforgottenkid 7/17/2013

written by theoneforgottenkid

I am scared that I will kill myself one of these days.

I am a Christian. I was raised in an environment that told me suicide is a sin (the whole suicide is the murder of oneself, and murder is a no-no).

I am an immigrant. My parents emigrated from their birth place so I could have a better future. I’m tired of being such a failure to them. I know that I’ve fallen way short from their expectations and I feel like I’ve failed them when they’ve placed so much hope in me. I feel like I’m a waste of space, a financial drain on them. […]

7/17/2013 2 comments

Reasons for suicide and Reasons to live

by PainNlife 7/15/2013

written by PainNlife

Reasons to commit suicide

IÂ don’tÂ love myself or self hatred
I have low self esteem
I lost all my friends
irreversibly damaged reputation and social standing with family
future is bleak
No ambition or motivation to set goals
So much regret for pass choices and decisions
inability to forgive myself and move on
credit score is in the trash
hard to get and keep a job and contribute financially to household
burden on family members
I hate living day to day repeating the same shit (eat,shit,sleep,wake-up,repeat)
I hate being weak
I am fearful of what my future will most likely become (homeless,broke,ostracized,lonely etc)
Pain of remembering the past and unable to return
I hate knowing I am a failure in life
To get […]

7/15/2013 33 comments

Fighting to stay sane

by to be or not to be 7/15/2013

written by to be or not to be

The worst fear in my life is not that i will lead a lonely life but that the loneliness will drive me insane.

Even when I am in the midst of a huge crowd, a familiar crowd of friends and relatives, that feeling of loneliness creeps in and sometimes pushes me into that unholy pool of madness… where the first impulse is to hide from everyone, the second is a strong desire to run away from everythingÂ and everyone,and then i get caught up in a feeling of despair… at how helpless and useless i am and then the doubts about why i am here to […]

7/15/2013 10 comments

one more failure

by leahlost206 7/10/2013

written by leahlost206

I don’t know anymore.
I don’t even want to know.
Knowledge is painful.
Ignorance is bliss.
Its an ugly truth that I’m too

7/10/2013 0 comment

by kissnm10 6/29/2013

written by kissnm10

I have no future, and therefore, I have no choice. I don’t want to die, but I can’t stand to live and be a failure and burden.

6/29/2013 2 comments

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