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Miami…. really? is it THAT great?

by sleeplessinSTL 2/1/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

Im excited.

No, really I am.

I’m going to Miami in a couple of days. It’s for my dad’s work and my cousins wedding. I’m going to see me family. im going to get out of this cold weather. Im going to see my cousin have the best day of her life.

Buuut, I’m also going to have to wear a swimsuit.

And, see my grandmas face fall when I walk in.

She doesnt like me that much. I’ve heard her say so. She doesnt approve of my “lifestyle”. She says Im a slutty, skater, who has no self control. I’m also a mess, bad example, and a future druggie.

Thanks […]

2/1/2013 2 comments

I don’t know what to do

by strength1126 1/29/2013

written by strength1126

I’m scared to get help for my depression. Â I know I should but I hate asking for help, especially when I know it will disappoint my friends and family. Â Barely anyone knows about my depression and those who do don’t ever mention it–as if it’s the plague–or are no longer in my life. Â I’ve posted my story in it’s entirety on this website before, but since that night I’ve been struggling with whether or not to get help.

1/29/2013 8 comments

I want to write and don’t know what to say…

by bbbaron 1/26/2013

written by bbbaron

I like contributing to this site. I don’t think I help anyone. I feel like I only share. I relate. I feel normal here.

That being said, I am tired of being so sad. I don’t think I can be any other way. Not for the long haul. The thought of being like “this” another 30 some odd years makes me feel nauseous. The thought of doing that alone or around people I despise… I just shudder to think about being stuck in that way.

Over the years I have heard so many mantras, tips, and tricks that make my head spin. They don’t work for me. […]

1/26/2013 4 comments

Stranger of Cancer

by Miss.Mayhem 1/20/2013

written by Miss.Mayhem

You know what would be wonderful? If I got Cancer and died. See I wouldÂ rejectÂ ChemotherapyÂ and then I’d die sooner or latter. Then everyone would talk about me after I died like I was such a wonderful person.

“She fought so hard”

“There was always a smile on her face”

“She could always make me laugh!”

Maybe my dad wouldÂ finallyÂ show his face at my funeral…first time in almost 10 years…Or maybe my mom wouldn’t even tell him about it…My teachers would probably come. I was a very loved student. IÂ hardlyÂ ever did my homework and I was failing most of my classes but they’d come…I’m sure of it. My reading teacher […]

1/20/2013 0 comment

I’m not alone

by dirtylaundry 1/19/2013

written by dirtylaundry

Wow. Typing the words “I want to kill myself” into google made me feel both desperate and immature all at once. But stumbling upon this page has helped so much in the tiny amount of time I’ve been reading. I feel like a loser because I should be able to reach out to someone other than the Internet…yet I am alone in my life full of friends and family who love me. Â It’s a mesh between not wanting to worry them and getting the old “you’re hormonal” when I say that I’m depressed. I have had these issues as far back as I can remember. […]

1/19/2013 3 comments

I Know a Girl

by RobynsRose 1/19/2013

written by RobynsRose

I know a girl. She always had two sides to her.

The Outside; She was pretty, happy, loving. She always put her friends first, did everything she could to help them, always had a smile and a hug set aside for anyone who needed it. She had hopes and dreams for a future, she had a loving boyfriend, who was dedicated to her. She always told the truth when it came to other people, even when she knew it would hurt. She always found the brighter side of everything. She had good grades, she had every talent, she was amazing.

The Inside: She hurt. SheÂ couldn’tÂ cry, so she […]

1/19/2013 2 comments

Not sure what to do.

by JustABrat 12/31/2012

written by JustABrat

Um, hi. I suppose I should just go ahead since this is what this site is for. I feel like my depression is constantly worsening. Life keeps looking less and less appealing and I’m not sure what to feel. I’d like very much to die. I’ve actually resolved to end it when I’m 35 or so. Â That way my family won’t have completely wasted their money and maybe I can find something to interest me. I have no interest in starting a family, but as stupid as it sounds I adore the idea of finding a woman that I love. Unfortunately, that conflicts with my […]

12/31/2012 7 comments

Imagine the peace

by sb123 12/30/2012

written by sb123

Hello, I am a 16 heats old boy from norway. I have during the past year been wondering on wether or not my life is worth living. I have all my life been interested and engaged inÂ looks and beautyÂ stuff (I am 100% straight). i just care how i look. lately, the last year i have been bothered with my looks. i wont go into specifics because that is not relevant. I simply cant imagine myself living a life as the person I am. when i look around i can hardly find anyone id rather not be. im not extremely ugly, many or some might find […]

12/30/2012 1 comment

Twats

by Runningtostandstill 12/27/2012

written by Runningtostandstill

Erggghhh! Why the fuck am i still here?! I’m sorry but i need to get this out, and it won’t be the same if I dont swear.

Im going to admit this now, I’ve told No one this ever. But fuck it, let’s tell a bunch of strangers! I’ve been screwed up since birth. I was born witha type of arthritis in my joints, so walking, crawling, sports, all of it was painful. Eventually people noticed I wasnt like everyone else. I’ve been bullied ever since I entered those school gates. But i was too nice, and no innocent […]

12/27/2012 4 comments

A Girl Can Dream

by nolove14 12/27/2012

written by nolove14

Sometimes I wish I could go back to 2010/: yeah, there was drama.. but not as bad as now. I miss old friends, and family. I miss all living together in one house and not worrying about who I’ll be spending Christmas. When friends were forever, or even just a day. and there was really not alot that could depress me… my life now… -complete opposite-

12/27/2012 3 comments

They don’t know..

by secrets98 12/15/2012

written by secrets98

Life’s complicated, yes, we all know that. That’s not the only reason we want to do or even try to do what we do.

I feel worthless, stupid, ugly, fat, I feel like a loser, you name it. I felt it all. Being a teenager is a lot more complicated than adults think, especially nowadays. Classes are harder, technology makes it hard to get away from those people we want to get away from, and people are just a lot more cruel. And to those kids who have to do sports and keep grades up, it’s a lot harder than it sounds. Having the responsibilities we […]

12/15/2012 3 comments

Dont like life…

by Kyle Hampshire 11/29/2012

written by Kyle Hampshire

Life to me is just unhappiness i dont like being here really… Nobody has done anything to make me feel this way i just dont see the point in a meaningless unhappy life full of anger and depression… Im 14 and most people just say to me that i will be fine its just school and its stressful but school isnt a problem at all. I have friends and family that care about me but i never seek help from them because i dont like contact with other people, i like being alone by myself so i lock myself away.

I constantly question myself about my […]

11/29/2012 4 comments

Why I should end this fucking mess

by PoundurPancakez 11/15/2012

written by PoundurPancakez

I got kicked out of my moms house a year ago, and the day since my life hasn’t been the same. I’ve been out for a year now because I called her a ***** because she was being one. That’s it…kicked out for over a year for saying “stop being a ***** for 2 minutes”. I moved in with my grandma (worst fucking decision I could ever make). Day after day of being out in the country away from my friends and family, it hasn’t been the same. I lost all of my friends, and since she’s 5 miles away its a hassel going to […]

11/15/2012 2 comments

I dont want to live

by charlie5246 11/3/2012

written by charlie5246

i dont have anything going for me and i never will. Everyone always says life sucks, so why even bother. It is universaly agreed that life is a ***** and then you die and for some reason everyone justs accepts that and moves on. Well why the fuck would we even bother, if life sucks then why keep living it. Its like a crappy movie, you know its crap so you stop. Well life is crap so why not stop. People say its selfish and you will be hurting your friends and family. If your friends and family really fucking cared about you they would […]

11/3/2012 1 comment

good-bye min kjÃ¦rlighet.

by Isa 10/29/2012

written by Isa

I’ve lost everyone. My friends are dead or they’ve left me. I have no one.

My family doesn’t exist anymore. It fell apart decades ago.

I feel like a broken record repeating my mistakes and skipping towards the end. I fall and I use all my strength to get up. Always. Now, I feel as though its time for me to not get up.

Everyday I sat alone. I could be in a room with hundreds of people. I would still be alone.

I was always there…for anyone. I didnt care if I hated them, no one deserves to be in pain ever no matter who they are. I […]

10/29/2012 2 comments

My Secrets.

by hope333 10/16/2012

written by hope333

I’m 16 and a junior atÂ high school. Â I have been suicidal for a long time and I have yet to talk to anyone about it. I used to do terrible things to my friends and family. I would lie, cheat, and steal from them. IÂ don’tÂ know why i did it but i did. I realized that it was bad and I stopped. I’m better and happier.

Just recently I heard my friends talking about themselves and saying that their fat and that they need to lose weight. ItÂ didn’tÂ used to affect me but I started toÂ believeÂ it. Me Â being a thicker and wider person i thought ” well if […]

10/16/2012 3 comments

What is the point?IDK

by Christa Cruel 10/12/2012

written by Christa Cruel

I have been feeling really low for years I am a 5’11Â AfricanÂ american 22 year old fat girl I intimidate people so I can understand why some people turn their faces up when I enter the room or when I do somethingÂ embarrassing whyÂ they judge me with their eyes sometimesÂ I want to Â take myself out of this world so as to not burden my family. My shameful trying face is my problem its fake to me That face of Â mine that tries at life the me that is happy feel like all an actÂ to work for an empty place thatÂ neverÂ existsÂ andÂ I’mÂ starting to feel like even strangers can […]

10/12/2012 1 comment

I’ve lost too many to suicide…

by YetAnotherPunkRocker 10/10/2012

written by YetAnotherPunkRocker

I can no longer count the number of friends and family that have committed suicide on one hand.

The pain in knowing i’ll never see these people again is the biggest emotional hurt. I can no longer see their beautiful smiles or hear their voices. I’d like to share one particular suicide which I learned a lot from.

I was 15 at the time. Only 15. We stayed over at a friends house after a party along with many other people. I woke up in the morning to find one of my gorgeous, lovely and amazing friends having hung herself off the deck. To this day the […]

10/10/2012 0 comment

When is enough, enough?

by my/st 10/7/2012

written by my/st

I know I will end my own life, I have known it for many years. Â The thing I have been debating is when, I only delay because my parents are religious and it will cause them extra grief.Â I was going to try to wait for them to pass, but after 5 tough years of health decline I know I will never be able to last that long.

I always wanted to do a final trip before I did do it but I have waited too long.Â My health has declined to much and I don’t have the energy anymore to do it.Â I’m ok […]

10/7/2012 1 comment

Die with honor

by frenchy 9/25/2012

written by frenchy

I do not fit to this world. This is my conclusion after over 25 years. Everyone sees me laughing, doing stupid things to be the funny guy in the band, always a joke to say. But nothing of this is real, i don’t care of people, of things, of life.

All my life I thought making other people laugh will make me happy but it’s not even close. I am popular, yes, got friends calling me every days to discuss of their super lifes, and I keep saying “nothing new on my side, it’s all cool, the bloody routine”. I am tired of this, tired […]

9/25/2012 4 comments

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