I love my friends with all my heart, but it really seems like they just don’t care about me. Saying they do is one thing, but doing is another. Whenever they need help, I’m there. Whenever they need anything, I’m there. It could be just a small problem and I’ll listen to them no matter what. I have picked them up in the middle of nights many times. I do things without expecting a thank you in return. But whenever I’m feel sad or hurt they just give some one-liner bullshit like “Oh, I’m sorry.” Then they move on with their day. I’ll be honest […]
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Everyday I wake up hoping it is the last day. Well wondering and thinking of ways to end it because I have lost all hope. I don’t know why I feel this way, I have no sad story to tell. I have it all. I am not dumb or really ugly I am Ok at what I do but I am not really good at anything. I am always in the middle I think it makes me more mad that I have no friends. No one bullies me or anything it’s just that I don’t like the people that want to be friends with me […]
Things I Am Feeling And Going Through That Shouldn’t Even Be Happening In The First Place
written by indierockkgirl
Okay so my kind of suicidal is more like hours of disgusting contemplation over the most gruesome way to kill myself. But I’m not always suicidal, I am usually a very happy person. This feeling is only ensued when….I even get angry typing it out…..when my parents mention marrying me off. And I’m only ******* seventeen and I’m still a junior in high school (I started school late). I get extremely angry and my head starts throbbing (I can even hear it beating), and my body starts shaking like crazy. I go to an empty room and cry my heart and eyes out. I think […]
hello. it has been so long since i have even been one here. since april actually. but i decided to come back on.
i feel done with life. im not living anymore. im just the walking dead, like a zombie. literally. i cant concentrate on anything. and ill probably be made to go to rehab soon because i couldnt stop smoking weed. well i dont really care. im planning on killing myself before that happens. i know for a fact that i can never be happy again. thats just never gonna happen. im just completely done. i dont even want to be around my best […]
Hey, I’m 21 I have no friends, no girlfriend and I have been alone my entire life idk why. Everyone who meets me says I’m the Nicest guy but no one wants to hang out with me. I’ve been depressed almost my entire life I’ve never really had any friends I’ve only had one girlfriend and she ended up cheating on me. I really have nothing to really live for the only thing I’m good at his school and I have to work really really hard to do good in it. I need help. I’m just withering away
I want to die, but of course I can’t. First I’m scared of dying but I’m sick and tired of trying to live happy. My parents stalk the hell out of me whenever I try to talk to a boy and my dad and mom beat me. What am I supposed to do? My friends tell me I look weird when I don’t smile because I smile all the time. Why do I smile? Why am I completely at peace when I’m at school, but at home I dread it and want to die
I’m tired of living. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of doing […]
I had a good day with my friends and being silly and laughing at how he was messing with another friend of mine but damn the evil thoughts of cutting are strong I found a good place to cut or well I have never cut before so yeah. I sadly wish a friend would text me. He saves me all the time with out knowing he does. I mean he’s the shit there’s no one on this earth that tell me I am pretty or makes me feel specai. I wish I could say what the hell I wanna say but I keep it in […]
the only thing that is stopping me from killing myself is my dog. i have no friends left, my family doesn’t offer any support. though my dog is the most precious thing on earth to me sometimes i wish i had never adopted her. she’s the only important responsibility i have and i would never ever just give her to a shelter. or my family…i don’t trust them to properly care for her. what should i do? it breaks my heart to imagine her suffer in any way (yeah even her not getting enough walkies or cuddles lol) but i ‘m so drained. Â i’ve struggled […]
Hi all, in a way I not to sure what led me to this site, i guess I’m just looking for a place to vent how i feel without feeling like I’m “bringing people down” or in need of “growing up”.
I don’t really now where to start, kind of like how my life feels, just lost and floating around hoping for things to change or just get easier, lately iv felt so down i don’t know how to get back to feeling “OK”, I feel like i wake up each day expecting things to change but then i lie my head down at night and […]
If one can find something each day to journal on – perhaps one can keep oneself going?
by Jemma
written by Jemma
Here is an article to read: http://www.newdaynewlesson.com/you-can-always-find-someone-worse-off-than-you-remember-to-be-grateful/
Its very true though when one feels depressed or suicidal one does not like/ want to hear such things.
I made myself read it anyway – then I forced myself to spend at least an hour thinking / writing about as many people I could who are worse off than me.
There is a lot of people – from neighbours, to friends, to people in countries at war, people who have lost limbs, partners, children. Its a good excercise to do and gets ones mind off things.
Its a real brain f* that one can […]
stufff my life it sucks and i wish i can talk to someone about it but cant find anyone :(
written by myteardrops17
i have tryed commiting suicide 4 times but none worked my parents know but they dont care , they want me to die they say i bring too much problems for them , i have tryed to talk to my friends but they told me just commit suicide so you can rest in peace i am only 16 years old and im already sick of my life , i used to live in newzealand which i loved then we moved to dubai i have no friends and everything is different . the most painfull thing is the guy i loved and cared about and would […]
I don’t want to die, but…
There are times, last night for example, when it’s all I can do to hang on to whatever I can to keep from doing something I can never take back. Those nights where the blackness has swirled up around me to grasp at my throat and just choke the life out of me.
It’s a difficult thing to explain, but I’ll do my best. Here’s how I’ve described it to my therapists.
It’s like there are two people inside of me. There’s me, and then there’s the dark me. We’ll call the ‘me’ that’s okay #1 and the dark me #2. #1 […]
Why am I here? That is the question i have been asking myself lately.  I just don’t get it.  I feel like God is just keeping me here as entertainment. My mom is pregnant and felt like she was going to have the baby early, so she was in the hospital and got to come home yesterday.  I had soccer practice, but i feel slow and tired so i haven’t been playing good.  It just feels like the world is moving without me. All my family does anymore is yell. My dad says it’s my fault we fight, but couldn’t give me any reasons why […]
I am. I’m just so unbelievably tired. I’m tired physically, I’m tired mentally, I’m tired emotionally. I don’t know why I’m here, I’m not sure I’ve ever known why I’m here. There doesn’t seem to be one person who honestly could not live without me. I have no friends. I had one. She was like a sister to me. She got on my nerves, she drove me crazy, but she was always there for me. She kept me grounded. And now, she’s moving on, and it’s obvious she’s moving on without me. She got a new job, she has a new boyfriend.. I want to […]
People have called me selfish for feeling suicidal but really I am far from it. I have just thought about it and when I die I would like my donate my body to help other people who need the help. I have done pretty pathetic things in my time in order to lets say “make up” for things I fail at in life. I sleep with a dumbell or my little dog in order to make up for that loneliness I feel in my heart. My dog though is one of the things that keeps me alive. To see her little tail wagging when she […]
Today was a very bad day, and now I wonder what’s my point on this rock, when not even my friends can find a reason to need me. I’m tired of helping those, who show no appreciation and can’t even forgive the slightest mistake. I’m tired that I can’t do better than that.
So this is probably going to sound dumb but I’m extremely depressed over my recent break up I don’t want to go into details because I feel it won’t help. After my break up things began to get worse, I found out my grandma is very sick and is getting worse each month and there’s nothing I can do for her at all, can’t even see her. I haven’t been able to make enough money to stay in school and financial aid keeps denying me, my friends just don’t seem to understand my struggles in my life and kind of seemed annoyed that I keep bringing certain things up. I also feel like […]
I don’t understand why some ex’s gives you closure and some do not. Why is that?
by sleepxdeath
written by sleepxdeath
Like with my ex boyfriend, I broke up with him a few years ago, from a 2 year long distance relationship and we decided to stay as friends. When I moved back to the same area I realized that he would always ignore me when I really wanted to at least see him… but I realized, after a few months, it was already too late. Nothing, no more hopes and no more dreams. And worse of all his parents told me to just move on. His friends, whom used to be mine, they just told me to move on as well.
Not him though. He just […]
I want help, but I want to carry on with this alone. I want my parents to realize that I’m not OK, but I don’t want them to get into my issues. I want to be with my friends, but I feel like I’m in other dimension whenever I’m with them. I want to love myself, but I have never hated me so much. I want the voices in my head to shut up, but they’re the only actual company I have. I want to die, but I want to live.
hi guys… Im Elico (I despised my real name so I use this…
Im gay… Hehe, though I people find it hard to believe I am one since thay say Im a ‘good actor’ or something…
I dont have friends… I guess Im a natural loner or whatever… But I waited and looked, no one was there… I trusted several people, but all where the same, some abandon me after myself confessign to them, some got simply tired as I was clingy… some, just… stopped.
Dont ask if I have a lover or whatever, Im ugly maybe… and somehow I lost interest in stuff liek that…
Family? Theyre all […]