Hi to all I am just new here. Im not in good in english sorry.
I just want to say that i feel so miserable :'(.
I just want that someone could  care of me reprehension me
in short i need some gf to have inspirition so i know that I exist
i mylife is so sad i feel i dong exist after all i dont have gf because im ugly.
Well.. time to write something… One more fucked up story isn’t gonna make a difference here, so..
You know when you’re young, you’re always told to obey the rules, respect your elders, do some good, expect nothing in return, be faithful, be honest, get a degree, don’t lie, work hard, respect your gf, satisfy her every need, marry her,buy a house, have kids.. and that’s what you call a happy and full life. If you live according to this, people will call you a happy man (i can’t speak for the women, sorry).
In such a state of mind i got to know her in high school. […]
So there I was, a couple days back – sitting alone thinking oncemore about how shitty my life is (I’m in my 20’s, have a university degree, but no one will give me a job, im lacking in major social skills and have never had a GF – still a virgin and havent had any friends for years). 90% of my time outside of my house has been to the Doctor or my Therapist.
To digress, I’m sitting here and decide to “take some pills” (i wont detail everything). I take a few (slightly more than Ive done before just when Ive felt bad), then I […]
The last five years of my life, atleast since i can remember back till i was about ten, my bother has been abusive to me in forms that over brother/sister fighting…. I have lived with my mother and him my whole life. My mother who is 52 years old has none of him doing this and has not done anything about it. She is very sick and is disabled so she doesn’t make much money. My brother used most of her money on weed and stupid shit. Im still in high school. He’s 19 living with us and has not tried to even look for […]
IM SERIOUS. this is NO LIE. every relationship ive ever been in, has been longdistanced and somene i met online. WHY? what the fuck is wrong with me in person???? i keep track in my mind at school whos single and who aint..well turns out in my grade? im like the only one who isnt walking beside their bf. this is so nerve wrecking like huh am i a loner? maybe. i just wish i knew why im so unappealing in person..im one of the nicest people you’ll ever meet (unless u piss me off and u will wish u never knew me) so ita […]
It’s no matter. Everything, nothing. Please somehow show me how to change myself, to make things better – because so far my efforts are merely in vain. My own mind teases me – “Oh hey, you’re good, you’re great, things are going to work now!”. Give it a few days, if that, back to: “Fuck!! I hate myself! I hate all this shit! I could give TWO FUCKING SHITS about EVERYTHING! I AM DONE!”. Release the beast, the demon, the real me from its temporary hiding place, or maybe cage. Too bad, so sad – it can’t stay there.
I really don’t know what to do […]
hi everyone.. im michael and i sometimes think about ending it.. alot.. i feel alone in this country.. and im scared to be myself.. i dont have any motivation to live for.. and i dont have a gf.. and im scared of girls and everyone.. and everyone looks at me funny and i worry what others think.. i overthink things and get depressed.. so i want to end it.. but im scared to do that i want to get away from my mom and i have no goals in life.. i cant post stuff on facebook. because they banned me.. so i want to end […]
so a few days ago. i here from my ex who ignored me for over a month. this is kinda secret since were a long distance thing, my parents say its not healthy to talk to him, well fuck u. so they took my itouch and cell away for either a looooong while or forever. so there goes private contact, so then we start e-mailing and after a week he ignores me for over a month, then wednesday im sure it was he e-mailed me. i was soo happy. then it wet to silence again. well earlier i was home for 7 hrs watching […]
All my life all I have ever wanted to do was fit in and make friends but for some reason it just could never happen. I apparently scare people with my looks. I naturally look angry but anyone who talks to me more then 5 minutes knows that I am not angry. Lately I have been sad and angry. I got my 1st kiss a few days ago but it was nothing.  There is a girl who is like my cousin but she is not (Uncle married her mom, they got divorced.) and I made a bet with her.  I won the bet and she kissed […]
Hello, this is my story.
Pre 5/5/2004 I was just a normal person, i had bipolar but i was diagnosed as a child and managed it with hardcore meditation my whole life. Other than that my life was normal. nothing traumatic ever happened to me. I never lost anyone. I was attending college. I had a beautiful girlfriend. I was smart, i had the whole world in front of me.
On the 5/5/2004 i woke up in my GF’s college house, it was cold and i was shivering. I rolled over and Jane was not there. I got up and saw here keys and phone on the […]
Me and my gf were together ffor awhile and we had planned to get married. But then a week later everything went downhill…she screamed at me “screw forever” saying I don’t love you and everything else as she walked away…I have no friends and no one to talk to, I’m too dam scared to kill myself and I just hurt everyone around me…I’m the biggest ***** ever…I wish id just die some natural way…
k, lately things have been horrible. i got contact with this one guy again who has been helping me through everything and AtTheEnd im so sorry everything i said i had no right too and i know its impossible to forgive me then my sister has been causing me so much stress with hittin, punching, biting, and choking me, i have been so fucking stress and this is where i must be crazy i was telling that guy i just contact with again bout all this and he said he doesnt want to his gf to be so sad i said im your gf? he […]
iv been unemployed for 4years plus and my gcse are rubbish and there no chanc of my life improveing iv applyed to go back to collage iam hopeing they take me back. i do jui jitsu to help me stay up but my coach is hardly there and the students are rubbish there no other gyms in my area ether. my brother younger 2 years is a marine and all my family rave on about him and my gf is an A level student and is joinin the raf as a medic she is sucsessful i get 40+ hrs a week of no human contact. […]
Life seems to be like piano keys: black & white.. black & white.. We make decisions what cause a chain of actions. We make fails, we make victories. Nobody’s fault.
Jill Bolte Taylor, scientist in this video, made me think over my life and things around… Really good stuff to watch.
These days seems great – i bought a new car, spoke with my bro (made him apologize and little peace between us), my boss in job sent me to teach kids how to make CPR – it was great expierence. Before a few days boss saw me smoking in the yard of ambulance.. Come on! She […]
I know you are all suicidal but I just have one request. I wouldn’t say I am against suicide I believe that it is fully the persons choice. I just want you to consider what your problems are becuase I see som many posts on here about people saying they are going to kill themselves over relationships and arguements and I want you to ask If: 1 in five years will this still matter or affect you? 2 Is this permanent or temporary? 3 Is there anything you can do now to get relief from it? 4 how long has this been a problem? 5 […]
This is my story, just need to share.
I was raped (sodomized, whatever you want to call it) a few times when I was a kid by my uncle, my grandpa knew but didn’t say anything about it. Grew up with that hanging over my head, told a few friends but all they said was, “man, that sucks.” I didn’t really expect them to say much, but nothing would be better than that. It’s the reason I don’t have a gf, I’m afraid that that abuse will carry over. My parents got divorced when I was 7, dad remarried shortly after that to a […]
I’m always depressed even sometimes i can really hide it from everybody -incluiding me- but within me there’s just darkness… like all the bad feelings together at the point you cant make a difference among them, in some moments i want to let me go in that darkness and just desapear, in others i want to hurt myself -even i know i can’t- to make the pain go away for a while.
I think on killing me but i know i’m not strong enough to do it, as same as hurting me, and my friends are sick of me saying once and again how bad i […]
I haven’t been on in a while. For those of you who care, yes I’m still alive. I hit a new low today. I found myself smoking out a window at 2 a.m. I was supposed to quit on march 1st. I didn’t. I can’t. It’s the only thing that calms me down anymore. My 1st family therapy session turned into a complain about how much of a problem I am session. I hate this. All of this. My girlfriend is unwilling to go any further in our relationship, my parents r suspicious of my habits, I went back to cutting after 5 days s.i. […]
Hi everyone. This is the first time I’m writing on here. I’m a 24 to man looking just for some chat and maybe some advise. Off the bat I would like it to be from someone older then myself cus with age comes wisdom. I lead a normal life. I’m in school to be a paramedic. I work a decent job and have a good home life. The only problem I’m having is my gf left me rescently. I know it shouldn’t bother me to this extreme. I’ve lost girls before, got upset and moved on. But for the first time in my life […]
Hello children, I just wanted to shed some light on one of the worst times of my life, I was not always as well adjusted and happy as i am now, i was once in the gutter. Its difficult to talk about because its a time would like to forget, but those who do not remember there mistakes are doomed to repeat them.
It was 7 years ago, the first time attended college, After my GF died, i went off the rails completely, If im perfectly honest it was mostly just a blur of alcohol and self pity, hatred for a god i didnt believe in, But mostly i […]
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