i should be happy. i’ve got a great girlfriend, i’ve got a few good friends, i’ve got my cat..
i’m not alone, so why do i feel this way?
no matter how many times someone will tell me i’m worth it or that suicide is never an option, i can’t help but think, fuck you. seriously though, fuck you, to everybody who thinks they understand, to everybody who won’t listen when i tell them they don’t understand. i feel so alone because nobody really knows me, only i can know myself, who of which i can’t even fully comprehend. so yea, people can tell me i’m worth […]
Pfft, the last post I made was a lie. I said I’ve ‘hit my lowest point’ but that’s more like now or the near future. I tried to literally run away from my problems, and I was naïve to think it would help anything. I got 57 miles on foot before a cop started questioning me, and he eventually arrested me (since running away where I live illegal). That’s the only reason I’m still in this tiny little hellhole of mine where as much as the people around me may have good intentions, I can’t take it. I’d run away again, even though as I […]
I only shall his once today, i didnt go any where near the cafeteria and chilled in the liabary all morning. I took really odd and out of the way routes to all my classes to make it easier on myself, i only shall him once after school. It was the only way out of the science building and there he stood waiting for his girlfriend i bit my lip as i walked past his friend cody spotting me grabbing my arm saying something i couldnt understand. I shook his arm off quickly and ran off, looking long enough to see tanner looking at me […]
I found my dadas vodaks and i drunk it drunk it all up. Like the bigger man supossed to be. Hahahahhha, what a *****. he deruves it for lying to me. Don mess with da drugs. i think i did it to stop he from drinking it heself but i cant really focus right mow. meow meow meow. i ment to say now. you know what? being drunk isnt as great as people say. i knocked my lamp over and it cut me. cutting is waaaay butter. and i don know hich site im on but it seems kind of nice. its all purple. I think i […]
i now have a girlfriend and yes she’s great. i think we started things too fast though, i don’t feel she knows enough about me to actually love me, although that’s kinda how i’d rather keep it. i mean, if she knew everything about me i know she wouldn’t ever want me the way she wants me now.
she has tried to make me promise i’ll stop hurting myself, i’ll start eating, i’ll smile more, and i promised her i’d try. but to be honest i think i’m addicted to this life. i’m comfortable with the feelings of self hatred and loathing, no matter how bad i’d like […]
I just can’t do anything right. My life is just one big downward spiral right now.
I made myself sick today just because I didn’t want to go to school and face my debate squad because I don’t have the work I’m supposed to have done done. Debate has just added a level of stress in my life I don’t need and I can’t quit because I made a commitment to it. It’s ruining me though.
It doesn’t help that I can’t talk to my girlfriend about this. She lives in a different state so I can’t ask her to come over and talk, and […]
Hello! They say writing and sharing your experiences can be therapeutic, and in my case that is especially true. So, today I thought I’d take a moment to sit down and have a little chat with all of you.
My story really begins about 8-9 months ago. I was going through a rough time, I had just found out I have a lump in my spine. In the past years I have been diagnosed with:
Reynauds Disease
Fibromyalgia
Osteoporosis (in my neck)
Osteoarthritis (neck, again)
Heart Arrhythmia
Severe Insomnia […]
My name is Luke, and I want to share my suicide experience with you, for any chance of reading and really making you think about the decisions you are about to make.
Before I begin, remember that I do not know you, and it is your choice and yours only to take your life. It is a natural feeling to feel like this, and don’t let people tell you otherwise…they’re either in a shock state or they’ve missed a dose of their anxiety pills.
Anyways, now to start…
I had just started senior year, I was 17, had the girl of my dreams, was playing in a band, […]
I am so hurt and lost. For the past few months my life has been crashing down around me. My mom is in jail for 5 years. Living with a dad I never met before because my grandparents didn’t want me. In ten days I have to go to a bootcamp for a crime I didn’t commit. After 16 months my girlfriend left my for my cousin. I lost my job. I don’t know what to do. I hate this world. I’m lost and alone in a big city. I need help. I get drunk almost everynight. I’ve been to rehab fir it already. I […]
I feel like I’m slowly going crazy. I’m not sure how to explain it, but my mind feels different. I look at things differently. I don’t feel the urge to hurt anyone, not yet, but I feel like everyone would be better off.. gone. Sometimes, in public, I become so engulfed in my thoughts that I don’t notice the people around me. I try talking to close friends and my girlfriend about it, but no one seems to take me seriously. I have these dreams.. I’m walking down a street and it’s like the world is in my hands. It’s revolving around me and I’m […]
Ugh, God. The past few months have been hell, even with all of the nice comments people’ve put on my posts. I’m stressed out beyond belief, I haven’t slept in 3 days, literally. I haven’t eaten in… fuck, I can’t remember the last time I ate. My dad’s threatened to punch me in the face multiple times, he’s yelled and screamed at me, telling me I’m not good enough. My grades, as hard as I’ve tried, have plummeted. From A’s and B’s last year, to C’s, D’s, and a few F’s. My girlfriend is possibly going to prison, and I could go too. My best […]
I have no real reason to kill myself. I guess I’m being really selfish and unreasonable. My boyfriend left me oh..about month and a half ago. I really loved him..no..I was obsessed with him. I still am. After he left me I threatened to kill myself and his mother found out. He still really cares about me, he only left in the first place because he thought I could do better. It really destroyed me inside. I’ve done awful things. I’ve cut, I’ve lied, I’ve threatened to kill myself, I’ve tried to blackmail him and I’ve used other people. I feel worthless, unattractive, unable to […]
Hey
This is my first time doing something like this. Not sure why I’m doing it, but yeah.
I’m 20 and live in England. Ever since I was young I’ve been different. I’ve always had a different outlook on life, and people, and so on. I try to be a nice guy, just like everybody else, but people never seem to do the same. I’m quite an anti-social person, so there’s that, but I always have time for people if they need me and never close the door on anyone – until they walk all over or something equally depressing.
Like most people on here (I imagine), I’ve […]
Oka’y, now shes my ex’s friend. She is also friends with my Ex’s girlfriend and I just need some feedback on our conversation
Me: Hey, Im bored
Her: Well, get a life
Me: I have a life, Im just bored right now
Her: Im sorry youre a loser
Wanna go to the movies with me sometime?
Me: LMAO WHAT
Her: Cant you read?
Me: No I just feel like your fucking with me so Im laughing
Her: Why would I do that?
Me: Because It sounds like you duh?
Her: So its a no then?
Me: What movie…LOL
Her: IDC what movie
Me: Cant we just […]
So, my crush, and I have been talking, and hanging out, we just told each other how we feel about each other, but one problem, he has a girlfriend. -_- . But last night, we kissed. He is a really sweet guy, and is always there for me, we were best friends, but falling in love with your best friend just mixes things up. I don’t know what to do, he said he will be the “dad” of my baby. But he is still with, her. I want to call him mine, but maybe he doesnt even care. i’m stuck.
As hard as I tried to convince my dad that the woman I love so much isn’t some pedophile, he still wouldn’t believe me. He wouldn’t let me explain all of what I had to say. Here’s what my dad threatened to do. “If you send so much as one more message to her, I will send your psp, your phone, your mother’s laptop, your stepdad’s laptop, and my laptop into the police as evidence against that disgusting pedo so that the police will track their location down and arrest them. I am NOT F****** kidding, I will send you to juvy too if you […]
i let everyone down everyday. i feel like i always say i live only to keep the people around me happy but everyone says i have to do things for myself. ive gotten caught up in drugs and i feel like a complete failure. everyone says i need to quit for myself but i dont know how. they wont let me quit unless it is just for me. i got into a fight with my parents the other night and i broke down then came to my other house to get away. i cant help but feel guilty for the pain i put people through […]
Girlfriend: love me
Parents: be proud of me
Friends: like me
Brother: trust me
Best friend: laugh with me
Please just help me. I couldn’t walk to bed without crying. My leg was numb…and now I just feel this odd pain. The pain 100 cuts in twenty minutes :/ epic job of mine was to
A. Tell someone, who wouldn’t even help me (I don’t blame them)
B. Hit a wall. Fuck.
I am a 31yo male, clinically diagnosed (smoke and mirrors) as having major depressioen when I was five. I’ve seen therapists and counselors for years and currently i’m seeing one for an hour each week. It does nothing. When I was younger, all I wanted was to grow up. I thought that if I were an adult, kids wouldn’t make fun of me.. i’d have a respectable job. A wife.
Nothing can be further from the truth. I’m a 31yo loser who is forced to live in his parents basement after having been dumped by his girlfriend of 8 years for a woman. I have no […]
my girlfriend left for america months ago and we had a long distance relationship and we were talking over skype and then she told me that we can no longer be together because I am very far. I can’t stand this it has been 4 months we aren’t talking. I have spended a year with her and I can’t move on. I have decided that I want to suicide so I will be with her and I ordered painkillers and I am gonna take alot of them.