I just found this website and saw that many people write on here and I decided to do the same. Unlike most of you guys here, I’m a freshman, in high school. When I was small I was born with a defect to my eyes and I realized that this little boy in second grade? was an asshole to me. I also realized that one of my teacher I thought was one of my best teachers also treated me unfairly. In fifth grade, my classmates would always call me ugly and some talked about my eyes. They didn’t really bully me but yea. In seventh […]
Lately, been wondering about different lives that could be here, so i want you guys to share why you here…i’ll tell mine too as well.
Everyone on here seems to be at point break right now isit because it’s the start of a new month ? I don’t no but I feel like shit right now your not alone guys new month new demons when dose the pain end ?!!!!
Oh, I have reached my boiling point. My mood is so damn dynamic, yet it never graces a joyful moment or happiness in any capacity. I can mildly entertain myself, but it’s coupled with an anhedonia that leaves me feeling bland and unnatural. I am sick of my meds, seems they only worked for roughly a week, and due to diminished returns eventually my brain chemistry adapted leaving me with raw shitty emotions. I get endless anger; I am a ball of nerves. I desperately want stability, yet every damned minute my mood fluctuates. So exhausted right now.
What do you do to get yourselves out of […]
Just…all of it. This song. This video. Hope you guys dig it as much as I do.
…right now I might feel as bad. I’ve been suicidal before, but for some reason I am not right now. Even though I’m not suicidal, I feel just about as bad as I did in the past when I did. Guess this means I’m getting stronger? Hope so. In any case, the feeling still feels bad in any context.
Anyways, what’s a suicide project post without a little sob story? We all got them, but I’ll spare you the details since it’s pretty cut and paste. I met a girl 3 weeks ago that literally met every quality I look for in a girl that also […]
How can we all be so sad? Do you guys actually feel connected ? I see some old and some new, do we really help, or prolong doomed options?
I’m a drifter I’m come and go. . .
Cause I one day I find hope and the next dispair…
Which I believe is worse, my duel personalites are tearing me apart…
Where are you? Deep in your hole climbing or looking down?
hey guys..for a few months i’ve been very depressed,i have no job and can’t find one because i have no exp,my girlfriend left me after 3 years,i have no friends only fake friends that care only about themselves,and i don’t know what to do…i tried everything possible,i looked for jobs,go to interviews,got busy all day,get out,think positive,read books to help with depression,nothing helps..my last choice is to kill myself but i don’t have the courage,i’m afraid i can’t do it and mess my life even more…i really need some advice..please
I know, I know, big fuckin’ surprise coming from me. Not like I’ve posted stuff about a few different girls a few billion times the past year or so. Honestly it’s getting stale isn’t it? ‘Course I spice it up with a bit of shitty writing chucked in there too, but mostly it’s girls, girls, girls. Where’s the depression, the suicide, the goddamn anxiety!? If I felt like being a smartass I’d say it’s all in my head, and that’d be true enough, but on the subject of me being slightly off topic of what this site has set out to do, it’s hidden in […]
Hello again,
This post is different from what I usually see on here but I am hoping that it can help me to share it with you guys. I’m baring my soul here: This is a diary entry from a few weeks ago, I am quoting straight from my diary because after hearing opposing opinions on the story, I do not know what to believe anymore and I wrote this right after it happened so this is exactly how I remember it.
“Friday I drank way too much. Puked 3 times? I wanted to go somewhere to chill, last year I always went to the guys’ dorm to hang, […]
I’ve lived anything but a normal life & I just turned 20. My parents were both abused. My dad was physically beaten by his father. My mother was raped many times during her childhood by her step dad. My parents hooked up (drunk) at a party & 9 months later I was born. I am a bastard. My parents got married when I was 3. My mom was addicted to crack until I was in kindergarten. My dad physically & emotionally abused her until she left him (moved out) when I was in 7th grade. My mom stayed with him that long because she wanted […]
Life was starting to be fine for me after a while. Then I meet you and feel in love. Life was really looking up.
Then we started having problems. Found out you were a paid escort. Slept with thousands of guys. Found out you had been in the mental ward. Had autism along with some other fine side effects such as depression, bi polar and other things.
I tried to work past all of that even knowing you had been married 5 times before. Sorry to say I did not leave and stay gone when I should have.
No I […]
Past few days were mentally challenging.
But I am feeling okay now.
I am glad, I did nothing stupid.
Thank you guys for your generous support.
Happiness & Peace for all of you guys. 🙂
This is by far the best song that I listen too through my daily struggle in this world I listen to it when I’m speeding in the highway. At work everywhere you guys will love it especially the drop at 2:09, 2:52, 4:20 & 5:05 that beat is ridiculous this is the song I’ll never be able to post a better one than this DRAGONFLY that’s exactly what I see especially when I drive. Fastest I ever went with this song was 198mph on a 2am night of Christmas 2015 yes 198mph is the fastest I ever went in my life I won’t say where […]
https://youtu.be/md0RKUjtuZQ
Do you guys feel the same vibe this song hits hard especially the way I feel at 0:30 the lyrics hit hard it’s an incomplete sentence
“afraid I’m not afraid if you can die, afraid I’m not afraid if you…”
But it has a lot of feel. Very relaxing but sad at the same time. This is also my first time ever posting here hope this was a good post to start with
For me : My love cares for me alot, alot.
But before she came, I also used to think that no one cares which lot of you guys think and feel.
And I know this for certain that we(SP) care. We(SP) care when any member of our family feel low or go thru any horrible situation. So don’t ever think that no one cares.
How ironically hopeful and beautiful, it is ? 🙂
My depression took a break, I think. I didn’t go anywhere or see anyone but I had a moment of happiness when I heard one of my favorite songs . Then I drew a little and actually enjoyed it.
I’m not sure this is SP material but I thought maybe this is hope for some of you.
Either way today was a win. I wish for all of you to have a victory tomorrow 🙂
It’s my birthday today. And I’m more likely at work, or sleeping for my birthday. I’m 22 today. I made It another year guys. Yay.. I might drink tonight and make an appearance on SP. So I appoligize in advance. What else am I going to do on my birthday? At least I technically won’t be alone on my birthday if I come here.
I hope you three held up this long. You three were in my mind the most. Let me know how you have been, if you are able to view this. I miss you guys and I bet we all have much to share.