Good morning to all my Christmas goers. I woke up today feeling good actually. Its going to be 80 degrees in Virginia beach where I live so much m pretty sure that means a good day is waiting for me . It usually freezing this time of the year . Apparently it hasn’t been this hot since 1895. So great. I’m probably gonna head to the beach and read some of this book and walk the trails . I’m actually feeling like doing something with my self today .
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You told me to let you in.
When I did, you smashed in to me
(head first into my heart).
You took one glance at all of my broken glass,
and told me I’ve never looked more beautiful.
You wanted to see my “true colours”.
I scrubbed until the pink was gone,
And I washed away the blue,
until I was nothing more than a subtle grey hue.
You took one look at my faded flesh,
and told me I’ve never looked more beautiful.
You said we’d grow a garden together,
So I let my own flowers wilt,
and I watched as you chopped down my trees […]
No matter who you choose to be: a follower, a villain, a hero, it will all come down as blood on your head. Isn’t that comforting, to an extent?
I don’t want to try anymore. I wish I had the courage to leave everything behind and run away with someone like in the video, even if I knew it meant my downfall.
Hello loves đ So I haven’t been feeling exactly chipper lately, and I think I’ve found something helpful.
You can go somewhere you think no one will hear you, or you can just stay in your house. Grab your pillow if you want to try and muffle the sound- but I recommend just letting it out.
Now, take a deep breath (haha see what I did there) and just scream your freaking head off.
Now I don’t mean a half assed yell- I mean a fucking battlecry against everything you’ve ever faced as a challenge or a foe.
Just a suggestion
So a guy in my town killed himself recently. He spent his last days donating all of his stuff to goodwill. Cleaned his apartment top to bottom. Vaccumed, cleaned, sold his car. Layed out a tarp on the floor and wrapped himself in it. Left the key outside is apartment and called the cops. Then put a pillow over his head and shot himself. People couldn’t believe it but all I could think is what a great guy he was to think that much of others before he did it. Man I’m fucked up.
Six months ago I had everything…a great paying job and a girlfriend of six years that I think adored me and I adored her. Depression then reared its head. I took absences from work to try and deal with it and then in July got fired. I haven’t been able to find a job since. This week my girlfriend and I broke up. It had been strained for a bit but kept hoping we could work through it. Now I’m about to end up on the street due to not having money. I’m still working on my plan but really liking this website. I felt […]
After the mishaps, the trio continues their journey to find a town with several corpses in front of the main gate.
HDS: What happened here?
Zetsumei: Could it b- Zetsumei is shot in the head and its hood falls down.
Zetsumei continues to walk to the town despite the slow-healing hole in its head.
Zetsumei: I suggest both of you back up if you don’t want to die. If my suspicion is correct, you need to find some cover and quickly.
HDS and Rocketman retreat behind a tree.
As Zetsumei approaches closer to the gate, it is shot several more times.
Zetsumei: This is getting annoying. Can you please stop firing at […]
Gah I’m so tired of them! All day all night my emotions change by the minute… I though I was getting better đ But I seem to have only gotten worse. I just want to be strong for my loved ones (you guys are of course included) you know? I want you all to know that I am here to help, but if someone needs to lean on me for strength and I crumble… I couldn’t forgive myself. How do you deal with the voices in your head?
That’s nothing new… hundreds of YouTube trolls told me that long ago. Anyway, I begged and kept on about trying to hang with the guy I like and I’m at the place he’s living now and about 8 people live here. Naturally there’s not much interaction and I’ve talked more to the other friend who does graphics design for a living and we compared work and gave tips to each other. And I’m staring at him like the piece of meat he is. Like a fat kid looking into a bakery when it’s closed for the night… looking at him and being unable to deny […]
Darkness I ask you to set me free
Free me from this place where I don’t want to be
I can’t stand this suffering anymore
Give me the peace that I yearn for
Days, months and years I fought
Yet I still can’t ease my distraught
After each demon I slay
A new one arises the next day
My armor is weakening and starting to decay
Yet I pick my sword and head into the fray
 I have become lost and weary of this fight
For the victory I seek is nowhere in […]
I feel so alone and empty, dead inside, but sad and deeply hurting. I wish the guy I have lover and given everything to would value my existence even 1/10th of what little I feel I may be valued at my 2nd job. I mean, my 2nd job has just become the first place where I receive a little bit of praise and my ideas are accepted and not argued. But I wish I were worth something to him. I feel like in his ideal world, I’d be out of his life entirely and he would forget he ever met me.
Of course, he didn’t come […]
A so called ‘friend’ of mine found my blog. My blog where I have no one I know in real life on, and he called me out on it all. He called me out on things that werent what he thought, and told me to ‘stop posting about mental illnesses bc i dont have one’. Can we talk about how inconsiderate that is? Its worse now than when I last fell out with my friends and I dont know what to do anymore. I dont want to head downhill any further. I want help. Ive never said it before but I honestly want help bc […]
This is a little rant, and a bit of a description of how i imagine my mind to be. Sorry if it makes no sense, but it brings me some odd little comfort to see these thoughts exist somewhere outside my own head.
The world drifts by, just outside of my grasp. The soft floating bubbles of nothingness and confusion occlude my vision. I float in the dense waters of death, guided by the far away light of hope and life. Yet as I reach for it and feel itâs warmth, I shrink within myself. Withdraw in fear and uncertainty. Feel the cold tendrils of death tighten […]
Oh, the choices the choices. It’s like looking at a restaurant menu :)
by Rotted_Flesh
written by Rotted_Flesh
For those that discover the body of someone attempting a firearm suicide, the vision may well be traumatic. A shot to the head that has an exit hole is likely to spread blood and brain/bone fragments over a wide space. Depending on where the gun is aimed, it is also possible that bloody facial disfigurement occurs. Even a bullet not existing the head will result in blood coming out of the entry hole.
Shots to the chest or abdomen are even more likely to cause significant bleeding, with the likelihood of finding the body, possibly still alive, in a very bloody state.
For those concerned that those […]
Scared and hurt he looks around
No one moves or makes a sound
Wipes his tears away and runs so far to hide away
One fine day he sits there
On a hilltop in open air
Looking for something he can’t find anywhere
From the outside he looks fine…
When you look deep down inside
You can see the anger flaming up inside his head
From the outside he looks fine…
When you look deep down inside
You can see the anger flaming up inside his head
Scared and hurt he looked around
Looking up at us he frowned
Fought his tears away and ran so far to […]
You said you was working on learning how to do 2D video games. I’m guessing there sidescrolling ones like Mario right? That would be awesome. A 2D side scrolling game collaboration would be perfect.
I got this video game concept called Opposites Attack which will turn traditional gameplay on its head â a place were objects such as coins, places you would think are safe to walk on will actually kill you. In this game, if you hit a coin, walk on land, etc you will die. In this game you will have to walk on spikes, lava, jump though fireballs etc. I got so many […]
No, oh no, not what you think. This is just another sad girl who is going to complain about her relationship, so here goes it. My love and I have been together for years; high school sweethearts if you care to call us that. This kid knows how many attempts I have made to end my life; however, each time it seems to be another friend who picks me back up? The same thing happened tonight because of just all the bull that he promised and yet again didn’t own up to. He makes me feel like I am nothing, and when I get suicidal, […]
I haven’t posted in awhile. Probably no one even noticed. If you did, I’m sorry for not posting. Stupid asshole me for actually thinking someone would care. I think when I last posted I was manic. Ended up in the hospital for that. Don’t believe them when they say they won’t put you in the hospital for cutting. I’m getting too old for this bullshit. So they change my meds and I end up with major depression. I wouldn’t even go to the docs except I want my Klonopin and Ambien. Also, I need them to certify me so I can keep getting my disability […]
…is all I feel now. Which is ironic really seeing as its pretty much “feeling’ nothing at all.
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I Have been depressed for many years, and suicidal through periods of this time. However I now feel so close its almost like I’m not even in control anymore.Â
I was in a car accident last week (not a deliberate action might I add..) but all I could think of when I moved my car to a safer place by the side of the road was “I wish I’d died”. There had been an accident right before ours so there were ambulance and police there already who saw the […]
I got to school late today, I walked in and there were kids flooding the hallways, I just had my earbuds in and I was walking. All I could hear was my music and it’s amazing, nobody cares and that’s just the cold hard truth. They look at me and they avoid me because I am apparently “hard to approach.” It’s amazing cus I just as easily walked passed my boyfriend and all my friends, but nope not a single head turned my way. Nobody notices me. It would be like that if I were dead too cus I’m just that girl with pink hair […]