Quick question how many of you guys are high school level? I’m a little on the younger side of things…
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I’ve had two serious suicide attempts:
The first time I tried to kill myself (around age 14) was after my best friend had done the same a week prior and I couldn’t stand living without him. I chose to hang myself, but the beam I used to tie the rope on ended up snapping. I fell, hit my head and was knocked unconscious. My mother heard me fall and found me up in the attic and then called the EMS. I had a huge lump on my head, which ended up being a mild concussion and my throat was all sore and messed up afterwards. I […]
After a suffering childhood with to much suicide attempts and other violence in my family i at age 5 landed in shock. Child protection came in after my sisters suicide attempt but my parents kept there dirty laundry for them self they did not explain what was happening just blamed the kids. Child protection did not see i was in shock thought i was stupid and hard to handle. At age 6 they dumped me by trick in closed house of correction for the aggressive retarded children. 5 Years there with all the torture really fucked me up for life. It was not the beatings it was […]
I really just need to vent out my problems to someone. I’m 15 and in high school, but I fucking hate my life. I hate my gender, my personality, and how i talk to people. Being on anxiety meds makes me talk more and when I talk, I say the stupidest shit. I hate being a guy and hate that people pertend that i’m not there. I swear everybody only talks to me out of pity. The only thing I can do is cut, but I’ve stop doing it as of late because it causes too many problems. I just hate myself and sometimes think […]
I don’t know what I’m doing with my life….I don’t know anything actually. I spend every minute of everyday trying to make others feel so happy about themselves and cheer them up when really I’m the one that’s needs cheering up…
I guess it all started when I was in 8th grade, and yes, I know that that is a young age to start getting depressed, but that’s what I was…no adult could understand, you all are probably thinking, “you’re so young, you have so much to live for,” or something along the lines of that, but truth is, you don’t understand…there are so many young […]
You know, when you think things are actually starting to look up and after so long the stress just piles up on you & you just want to collapse .. Over the past 2 months things were getting better, I had gotten a job, figured where I want to go to college, figured what kind of major I wanted to do, gotten a wonderful boyfriend. But just over this past week he has just. Even so angry & takes it out on me, and it just seems to be sex sex sex.. He says I always start it but I’m sleeping when I Apparently start […]
13 more days until my 60th birthday. I’ll be in San Francisco, visiting the GGB……I wonder………my heart function continues to deteriorate. There is no way the govt would put me high on a list for a transplant since I am on disability (little to no value to the US Govt). If I decide not to jump, I think I may just stop taking my heart meds and let nature take its course. I still have a nice little inheritance to blow on travel.
What do you guys think?
I feel her. Her reached is far. I remember everything about her – I am a willing hostage. She’s in the room. The flowers she loved and the electric laugh of a high voltage siren. She’s in the room. And nothing bad ever happened – the pillow is soft. She’s in the room. The child smiles and grabs her rose colored skirt. Dance she says and of course I do. She’s in the room. Yes we will live forever – we are just that solid. She’s in the room. Honey drips from the walls – I cry and she swallows my pain with her lips. […]
I always ask myself
How could this darker cloud make me stronger now.
I’ll always ask myself
When will this go away?
When will this change?
Oh! I don’t wanna, wanna wait.
All of this pain,
Oh! will it, will it go away?
I ask myself this everyday.
[Chorus:]
I just wanna leave this place behind.
Every time I see your face in mine.
I just wanna leave this place behind.
Every time I see your face in mine.
I sink and drink myself to sleep.
Of course I think I’m a lot stronger now.
I gotta catch myself
To kick this over, make it go away.
When will this change?
Oh! I don’t wanna, wanna wait.
Ohhh! of this pain!
Oh! will it, will it […]
When the narcotics… The pills. .. Anything mind altering is gone..is when I feel everything the most.. I’m 20.. I’m a addict…I had previous problems before mentally all that I already posted on it….
I’ve noticed… I still feel like dieing when I’m high and I still attempt. But I find my self sober being maybe more successful in the near future… Drugs make me feel numb.. I no that. Mind altering and blah blah. I just want to stay high all the time. To like literally keep shit off my mind. But its getting more and more intence… I can feel it coming soon. I […]
Ok, so since this is my first post, I’m not going to go into my story, but I honestly just want someone to talk to. My friends don’t care or even really talk to me, so I just feel so alone. I have so many problems and I just keep them all the myself, but I’m finally starting to break. I’m 17, a senior in high school, and this is supposed to be the best year of my life. And so far it’s been the worst. It would just be nice to finally talk to someone about all of the shit I’m going through 🙂
I think I’m going down a dark path again…………..Just when things seemed like they were gonna get better…..F***!!!…..this always happens. One problem ends and then another arises, one problem ends and then another arises!. It’s an endless cycle. I wish I could know that things were gonna get better but I just can’t see it. All I see are the 4 walls and the ceiling of my apartment everyday; nothing else besides that and school; which is barely any different. I just want something to change. The only time that I really get to truly enjoy myself is when I’m at lunch with these five other […]
Going to treatment tommorow to get help, but in my mind its just going to make it worse. We will see when i get out, but everybody keep yalls head held high, and be strong. Project simicolon ;;; !!! Draw a simicolon on your wrist. The simicolon is used in writing sentences for authors who could end their sentence but have chosen not to. Draw this on your wrist because YOU are this author who could have ended your life but have chosen not to. Stay strong!
I don’t know why they have to be so damn mean.
I’m 40 years old. It shouldn’t feel like high school at work. They say to get my shit straight so I can work full time again. I am trying my hardest. I’m sorry I’m not as “perfect” as you
I wanted to start over in life when i got out of high school but now i noticed i cant wait that long. If i want something i must fight for it, i cant just give up so easily. So today I’ve decided to put my life first for it is more important then getting messed up over things..im going to forget everything, today i am a new person no more crying, no more cutting or hurting myself…high school is where you make memories and thats what im going to do, im going to be myself and not being depressed or down. Its time for […]
I’m an intrusion and a burden to everyone I have ever knew or anyone I come into contact with… Idk why I get my hopes so high for people to just shit on it all…. It’s not worth it…. Fuck it
I am not normal… well lets face it is anyone truly “normal”? I’ve always had problems as a child with bullying I never really had any friends as well, no one I could really trust anyhow.. I was always to myself very secluded and alone… Then just as I thought things were looking up for me…. everything fell right back down with no ladder to climb out of.
It was my sophomore year of high school and I finally felt for the first time in a long time I belonged somewhere, I fitted in…
I even met these two girls, and at the time I thought they […]
loneliness is an ocean with an infinite depth, that will constantly drown you and you will loose sight of others. Popularity is an atmosphere that has an infinite height, it will get you so high such that, you will loose sight of yourself.
About two years ago, I started to realize that I was feeling very different. Being only 13, I didn’t really understand my feelings. I stayed locked up in my room when I wasn’t at school. I didn’t really talk to anyone. I wasn’t happy with my friends and I felt completely alone. I finally told my older sister that I was feeling “different” and she urged me to tell my parents but I didn’t have the guts too. I wrote them a letter explaining to them that I thought I was depressed and I wanted to go see a therapist. My parents quickly went to […]
Hey guys I decided I would just share my story before coming to a final close. I am a nineteen year old male living in Austin who has become disgustingly depressed. I grew up what you would call a “perfect child,” as school work became my entire life. My parents are high class, high expectation type of people who get on my ass about every little negative detail about me. I feel like I have grown up a robot, and now I am waking up to see how tragic my life is like. I have been to wilderness program and a therapeutic boardinig school just […]