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SOS

by maybye 6/9/2019

written by maybye

hi everyone, im new on here.

just wondering if anyone knows what is my problem because i feel like theres an issue with me but then again its as if i dont have an issue.

anyways i have no problems making friends, i just can’t keep them. i cant open up to anyone, about how fucking superficial i think literally everyone is, and im just afraid to trust and be vulnerable. but then again sometimes i just open up about everything and anything, people think im an extremely open and cool person. yet i wonder if they truly know me? i feel like a psychopath, and if […]

6/9/2019 8 comments

Sun Rises

by Imaginary Girl 9/28/2018

written by Imaginary Girl

[A suicide note draft from my notebook]

At the time I am writing this, the sun is rising. I’ve always kind of had a soft spot for the sunrise. Especially when you stay up all night to watch it. Waking up just to see the sunrise is nice too, however, I think it’s a lot harder to wake up than stay up.

I have good memories of sunsets, but a part of me likes sunrises more because I don’t have as many memories tied to them.

The night sky is also extremely calming, but it has the ability to fill you up with adrenaline.

At one of my old […]

9/28/2018 6 comments

Idk what i feel

by MissDysphoria 3/28/2016

written by MissDysphoria

I dont really feel..at least not the way I would expect myself to, especially after breaking up with my best friend. I feel calm like something bad is about to happen…and when I do feel its super annoying, cuz ill be happy with tons of energy and super outgoing, and then the next day i’ll be tired and sad and extremely antisocial…on repeat.

3/28/2016 4 comments

Idk

by MissDysphoria 3/19/2016

written by MissDysphoria

Just feeling very alone and scared and sad.

3/19/2016 3 comments

Idk

by HatedGirl 2/24/2016

written by HatedGirl

If ur bf\gf was in a pych ward would u call them n how many time a day? I called him today but the convo was not great told him i love him n miss him i feel like caling again

2/24/2016 8 comments

Idk why but i feel like crying

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 2/21/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

It started when at the gym about 90 mins ago. I just got the sudden urge to cry. I was able to not do it and i could have it was empty at the time. Ive since finished my workout come home walked the dogs taken a shower and its back. Could be all of the deaths the past week. Could be seeing a recent pic of * when i considered emailing her. Could be all the “self-help” exercises ive been doing. Ut i just want to cry. I hope it doesn’t symbolize anything unless it is tears of joy for some reason. This ever […]

2/21/2016 6 comments

IDK why but i still love you.

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 1/19/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

Im not going to give up on you. Im hurt i feel abandoned but i still love you. I don’t want you to be alone. I don’t want you to cut off your support. Im going to give you and anyone else some veteran advice. Dont assume death when planning suicide. People survive gunshots and trips off the golden gate bridge. Rare but true. No method is 100 percent. To destroy things in order to make it easier on your suicide only makes your life worse in the high likelihood of you living. I say that to say this. You’re already alive longer […]

1/19/2016 3 comments

Idk

by Chaucer 1/6/2016

written by Chaucer

Wanna know something I’ve never admitted before now? I’m not scared of the darkness inside me. It’s comfortable, familiar, but I’m terrified of the pure. It’s in there somewhere and I swear it’s so bright It washes over everything else until it’s all I can see, and it it’s in love with everyone. Honestly I just want so bad to embrace it but I think it has the power to destroy the rest of me. It feels like my choices are to watch myself destroy my own life like I always do, or die in a barrage of change, and I’m too much of a […]

1/6/2016 4 comments

Idk

by Shw 1/4/2016

written by Shw

Hi. I’m french, so sorry if I make a lot of mistakes.

I don’t think that I want to end my life. I can’t say that I really hold to her, but idk.

But I hate my life, I always hated her. I hate my personality, I hate to be so irritable and so stupid. I play with my life, I’m the kind of persons who always think to do something, but never act. Then I always regret that, but I don’t do anything to change. I act as if I don’t care about what peoples think of me, but finally I need the approval of others. […]

1/4/2016 3 comments

Derealisation

by alonelybird 9/9/2015

written by alonelybird

It always messes me up. Where is everyone gone? I feel I don’t know anyone, I look at them but there’s nothing, nothing at all. I don’t remember them yet I do, there are memories but no connections??? Idk this is hard to explain. I remember the day it started, it was a strange feeling of becoming infinitely lost in what was once so familiar.

9/9/2015 5 comments

I don’t know

by jules1769 8/16/2015

written by jules1769

I’m crying. So badly right now. All alone. I’m so fucking alone. That’s all I feel loneliness. Emptiness. And sometimes I feel nothing at all. One minuet I’m fine the next I find myself shattered into a million pieces. I can’t do this. I can’t. I just can’t. I’m giving up. I don’t know anymore. Don’t know what to do. Don’t know how to be happy. Don’t know how to fix this. I’m wondering if today should be the day.

I’m giving up.

8/16/2015 3 comments

Happy/Sad

by NumbLove 7/21/2015

written by NumbLove

Does anyone else have something good happen in their life, then feel guilty for being happy? I’m so used to, and “comfortable,” with that depressed feeling that I feel bad being happy. Depression, or whatever the fuck this is, sucks. I’ve been so selfish to the people that love me. And I know it… But I can’t seem to change my mindset. I just drink and drink and drink. Idk. I’ve tried the pills, the therapy, even the suicide. My thoughts are so jumbled. I wanted to post a well thought out, analytical post… But I’m too buzzed I guess. And too jumbled :/ I […]

7/21/2015 1 comment

Idk what to do.

by Lostman101 7/19/2015

written by Lostman101

This is my first post so bear with me if i make a mistake. My name is Curtis, Im 14 year old male and this is my story. My parents split when i was 3 and i never thought much about it and when i reached Grade 4 my dad came back into my life. I was so happy i couldn’t believe it i missed him so much. After a year and a bit it was October of my Grade 5 yead and it was my weekend to see my father. When i arrived i went to my room to sleep cuz it was late […]

7/19/2015 6 comments

Blank…?

by 90sPrincess 7/10/2015

written by 90sPrincess

I’m feeling like really blank right now. Like when your not happy not sad, your mood is just blah. Idk. Anyone else feel like this…?

7/10/2015 5 comments

moments of rage

by sadsadist 7/7/2015

written by sadsadist

I am so disappointed with how everything ended I’m so hateful towards myself and everything around me so I have these moments were I cease to have any control over my rage today I got in a fight with my brother and all I could think was to make sure he never fucked with me again to seriously harm him Idk why I left Idk how i did eitherthe urge to let the rage take over was so strong (no he’s not much younger than me and no I didn’t even make him bleedi really wanted to do much worst)

7/7/2015 0 comment

Idk

by Nihilism000 6/24/2015

written by Nihilism000

To make your life better, ditch the dead weight.

People who lied to me, bye bye now. Those who left me when I needed them, don’t come back. I don’t have the time nor the energy to deal with people who do that to me. You have no place in my life, nor will you have my kindness.

6/24/2015 9 comments

My poetic ramblings. Idk.

by Nihilism000 6/11/2015

written by Nihilism000

Here I sat on a bench on a lonely night. The city is busy as it always is, millions of people going through their daily lives. Young couples walking hand in hand through. Others like me walking in solitude, sounds of a festival of some sort sounding in the distance. The stars shining their strange otherworldly glow, a perfect sight to behold. Too bad it’s spent in lonliness I thought to myself. And then she came to me, as I laid eyes on her face, I was mesmerized. Love at first sight, she asked my name and I told her. Then she said, I’m Maria, […]

6/11/2015 5 comments

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by sadsadist 6/8/2015

written by sadsadist

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6/8/2015 0 comment

Everyone crying over love

by jennjenn 5/17/2015

written by jennjenn

Everyone crys or hurts after a break up. If you don’t, than you didn’t really care anyway. If I tried to off myself after every relationship that went sour, surely it would have worked…

You really can get over these people. It just takes time, depending on the person. The boy I dated before this guy, we were together a year and a half. I thought I loved him, but I loved the idea of him. I was lonely and in a new city. He offered me free drugs, had a nice car, and put up with my drinking. The sex was awful, but what did […]

5/17/2015 5 comments

Idk what to do or feel anymore

by x0ff01 4/16/2015

written by x0ff01

well just to start i was adopted young from poland. there was alcohol and abuse, and i was in really bad shape when they got me outta there. i have ptsd from everything. that abuse. now i feel like i can do nothing right. im out of school, doing online classes instead. im severely isolated. i dont go out to exercise and im starting to put on weight. i find myself unnatractive. people have never liked me. idk why. i have a gf right now. she lives in canada. and we’ve never met. its online, but she aint a catfish cuz we have skyed and […]

4/16/2015 0 comment

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