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A sad experience today

by chelle428 4/5/2016

written by chelle428

I board my horses with a horse rescue and I frequently help them out with their rescue horses and things like that.

They found a home for a horse that would have otherwise gone to slaughter, but horses in kill pens have to be kept in quarantine because there are my illnesses that get spread around in the kill pen that you don’t want spread to your other horses. This particular horse was pregnant. We went out to check on her and found that she had gone into labor a month early, but her baby was stuck and dead, with the legs and head sticking out […]

4/5/2016 7 comments

Slow descent into insanity

by nuclearbackpack 4/4/2016

written by nuclearbackpack

That is my fate. As a social misfit I live a hermit-like existence and that fcuks you up. They gave me Zoloft on Friday and guess what – within 2 hours of going to bed I was wide awake [and in a terror induced cold sweat at the thought of a long long empty day] When you are a deeply depressed deeply anxious hermit the last thing you need is more hours to kill. I already have serious trouble doing that. I expect to develop psychosis like so many other poor, socially isolated individuals. Suicidal depression is one thing, and I can kinda live with […]

4/4/2016 3 comments

I HAVE NOBODY. I GET IT. I GET IT ALREADY.

by GTSuicide_6 3/28/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

Its frustrating. I have no one.

Here I am typing furiously at a “friend,” saying how badly I wanna kil myself.

And all I get is sarcasm.

All I get is,

“Thats a tad bit too dramatic.”

Really? Really? But you know I want to kill myself. But you’ve heard me. You’ve heard me already you know this.

You know I was sent to that stupid damn hospital. You know its serious.

You know I’m not OK and I’m sad and I’m trying to fucking fight and I’m just SO. FUCKING. SAD. AND. ANGRY. AND. …

I CAN’T.

TAKE.

IT.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh.

OH FUCKING.

SORRY.

PARDON ME GUYS,

IF THIS SEEMS A TAD BIT TOO DRAMATIC.

HA HA HA 😀 😉

3/28/2016 7 comments

Nothing left

by BlondeWig 3/28/2016

written by BlondeWig

Do you ever just stay up late til like 5am and just struggle to find a reason to not kill yourself? I have done this for the past 2 weeks.

The worst feeling in the world, is being treated like a second option, and feeling unwanted. Being with someone who constantly makes up excuses for not seeing you and then wonders why I get upset so often.

My family disowned me. I have 0 hobbies. 0 friends. I do nothing with my life except go to work and be bored as fuck in my house alone.

I tried to kill myself once, obviously failed. At first I thought, […]

3/28/2016 9 comments

Ha ha

by kupo95 3/27/2016

written by kupo95

just told my huband I want to die he ask why twll me so i can help . i told im worthless he said why you worthless I said because Im am . lol he thinks he can stop it im pray for fod to kill me I want to die .

My patato salad at its best lol

3/27/2016 11 comments

On april 9th I am going to kill myslef

by kupo95 3/27/2016

written by kupo95

Im done I cant take it no more or just might slit my wrist tonight i will die i cant live in this life no more i cant i wanna die so im going to take my life and if go to hell im a theif and horrible person I take advantage of the stupid and bleed them dryvim go there anyway so I just go quicker

3/27/2016 35 comments

I DON’T CARE IF THIS IS IN CAPS!

by GTSuicide_6 3/27/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

I was supposed to do my essay.

For weeks now.

Its not done.

Its not getting done.

I’m crying.

Why am I crying? I’m supposed to be working.

No no, I’m crying.

I’m crying I’m so sad.

I’m so sad. I am so alone. I am so sad I am so sad.

I am so sad. I hate myself.

I’m going to kill myself in a week or so.

I hate myself. I want to die.

I’m going to kill myself.

I hate myself.

I am a dumb fucking piece of shit ready to die.

I’m already rotten.

Nobody cares.

3/27/2016 3 comments

I FUCKING HATE SP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by GTSuicide_6 3/27/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

>:(

Well don’t mind me.

I’m going to kill myself in 10 days.

Or less, I think. I don’t know.

Its not like anybody cares or will care.

Nobody damn cares, thats what.

I’ll kill myself and nobody will care.

Ha ha ha ha.

Oh my god I want to die.

3/27/2016 10 comments

Protected: Doublethink

by whiskered-fish 3/24/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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3/24/2016 19 comments

The Sloth Falls Again

by Zetsumei 3/22/2016

written by Zetsumei

My apathy is starting to overpower me again. The meds don’t seem to be working anymore and counseling only turns the apathy to anger. An endless abyss or a destructive wrath: what is the lesser of two evils? Sure, I want to destroy humanity but I’m not an anarchist. I’m just a realist.

Even if humanity doesn’t wipe itself out with war, environmental destruction and overpopulation, cosmic forces will do it for them. Assuming humanity could transcend age one day and become cyborgs/androids, would there still be depressed people? Wishful thinking, that is.

I’m tired but I can’t die despite my wishes… I’m not meant to be […]

3/22/2016 2 comments

People are strange.

by sickfromthemelt 3/20/2016

written by sickfromthemelt

Oh, fuck it, stop saying it gets better, just stop… it’s a bad joke.

I mean, why is it, that people genuinely don’t want me to die, “oh no, please don’t kill yourself, i mean, we’ll still hate you, you won’t accomplish anything, and even if you could, we won’t let you because we hate you, remember?”

It’s like they can smell it on me, how ‘pathetic’ and ‘retarded’ I am, fuck, even online, people seem to avoid me or stamp me out like the plague…

Really, they just don’t want to feel guilty for being a shit, and if they get a good laugh out of it, […]

3/20/2016 3 comments

Psyco

by Drowning 3/19/2016

written by Drowning

im not one really for emotions I still don’t really understand them but looking at my daughter In a room full of people knowing you would kill anyone who caused her any pain to cry or even make her sad and you would do anything for her is this love ?

Like I said before I don’t feel connected to anyone is this love ? I don’t think one can love anything more deep then a parents love I’m not a psyco am I it’s normal for a parent to want to kill for the kid right ?

is finding true love really a myth then ?

Anyways […]

3/19/2016 1 comment

Protected: dirty and corrupted

by whiskered-fish 3/14/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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3/14/2016 11 comments

Protected: Feel free to judge me, I welcome your disgust.

by whiskered-fish 3/13/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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3/13/2016 15 comments

by bnwB 3/12/2016

written by bnwB

It’s weekend, saturday night. It’s 10:54 pm and I’m in my room, in my bed. It’s dark and I have too many thoughts about everything. I think about where I’m in ten years, here? on this planet? alive?
I think back to the situation, when I was at school, my teacher told something about short storys. I thought about situations in my life, when I needed this informations. But i couldn’t find some.
I sit there, every day and waste my time for some stupid things like this. When I will kill myself, why should I go to school anymore? But I’m not sure if […]

3/12/2016 6 comments

A Quote I Think About a Lot

by chelle428 3/12/2016

written by chelle428

“The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window […]

3/12/2016 7 comments

Nonexistent

by jmc22 3/9/2016

written by jmc22

I want to disappear

I don’t want to kill myself, and I also don’t want to bring any pain to myself.

I just want to be nonexistent. Just pass on by and nobody notices a thing.

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t born. Maybe I’m just weird. I feel like I’m not supposed to be here. I don’t belong here.

Everyone else knows that I don’t belong, so why can’t I just fall into the void.

3/9/2016 2 comments

Protected: total planet kill

by whiskered-fish 3/8/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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3/8/2016 5 comments

by adopted_disaster 3/6/2016

written by adopted_disaster

They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I say that whatever doesn’t kill you makes you try harder.

3/6/2016 2 comments

question

by 4beyondhelp 3/5/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

is anyone else fascinated by death? I know it’s odd but I’ve never really been afraid of death. I mean, if someone swung a club at my head I’d duck on instinct, but when I think about death I’m just really curious. I would want to avoid pain and obviously there would be consequences, but I’m still fascinated. I’d love to see if I could make a good plan and carry it out effectively, I’d love to experience how it happens, I’d love to know if there’s an afterlife and what it’s like, or if there’s just nothing and I stop existing (not that I’d […]

3/5/2016 9 comments

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