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June-21-15-2:28 AM

by Rotted_Flesh 6/21/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

I’m not afraid of death anymore. The inevitable panic stage of dying is what scares me the most. I know if I swallow a bunch of pills, have my sweaty, shaky hand on the grip of a pistol pressing against my right temple, or if I decide to hang myself, those moments of waiting to die will be the absolute worst. All I know is that I need an escape, I need out, I need out of my body and my mind, need transcendence.

I’d like to think that reincarnation is real and maybe in another life I’ll be wiser and not make the same mistakes […]

6/21/2015 2 comments

suicide

by MaylinMaylin 6/18/2015

written by MaylinMaylin

I just want this pain and loneliness to go away. I feel trapped. My depression is getting worse. I want to be gone already but im afraid to kill myself. Everytime I try to attempt suicide I fail. I dont know what to do for all this pain to go away. I hate myself and everything in this world. Why isnt god helping me? I ask for help but my life is actually getting worse.

6/18/2015 0 comment

by Nihilism000 6/16/2015

written by Nihilism000

To all those who are suicidal and read this. Your situations vary, your reasoning for wanting to end it all are different. But, I’m not one for good advice, nor am I happy really. I’ve dealt with my share of suicidal thoughts as well. This is based on my experiences.

So you have no friends, no one likes you it seems. Why? Maybe, try to talk to people more if you don’t, it may be that they are like you, or are just apathetic and need a friend like you to talk to and hang out with. Maybe everyone truly doesn’t like you, which is unlikely, […]

6/16/2015 4 comments

This is not a poem.

by Michael_ 6/13/2015

written by Michael_

I don’t have any friends.

I don’t have anyone.

I’ve never had a girlfriend.

I’ve never had sex.

I’ve never had a job.

I’ve never kissed.

I never take risks.

I never try doing something.

I hate myself.

I despise myself.

I loathe myself.

Never asked for this.

Never wanted to be brought into this world.

I don’t wanna live.

I don’t wanna suffer.

People can be happy, just not me.

Life is beautiful, just not mine.

Life has a meaning and a purpose, I’ll just never be able to fulfil it.

I care to what people think about me.

I’m an attention whore.

I want to be accepted.

I want to fit in.

I want to be just like everyone else.

I’m a selfish bastard.

I like to compare […]

6/13/2015 7 comments

What’s the point?

by Tiredandlonely 6/13/2015

written by Tiredandlonely

I’m 23 years old still living at home with my mom. I have no goals or ambitions. Everyday I sleep, eat, work, repeat. I have no social life, never even had a girlfriend. I only have one friend and we’re drifting apart. Im suffering serious depression and anxiety everyday but have no one to talk to about it.

Sure it would hurt a couple people a lot if I killed myself but if this is all my life is, what’s the point? I’m existing for the sake of existing

6/13/2015 5 comments

Isolated

by suicidal_101 6/11/2015

written by suicidal_101

I dont know what my life has come to. I wake up every morning and struggle to find the strength to get up. The emotions just overwhelm me, i used to just be able to push it to the back of my mind but now i can hardly make it through the day without falling apart. I cry myself to sleep every night and I cut too. Its like my whole world is falling apart and I don’t know how to fix it. I seem to be pushing everyone away but i cant help it. Im not living for myself anymore im doing for my […]

6/11/2015 2 comments

please give me hope

by lexbarani 6/7/2015

written by lexbarani

For months, I have been questioning the point of life. I have had anxiety for four years now. Acute anxiety that affects my every day life. Recently, I became extremely depressed to the point where never cleaned my room (was absolutely disgusting and unlivable) cried before going to class, had to leave multiple times because of breaking down in class. I hated walking anywhere, I hated taking care of myself, I stopped talking to friends. I started abusing drugs and alcohol. I chain smoked for months. I was so sad for no reason, and felt so worthless. Now, I have moved back home with my […]

6/7/2015 2 comments

I should be content

by DarthBallsBung 6/7/2015

written by DarthBallsBung

I recently received my PhD in chemical engineering, I have a job in a good company and earn a decent salary. I’ve also been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I’ve never had a girlfriend although everybody says I’m a catch. Anyways I fell in love last week with a girl who’s way above me. She told me she loved me too. A week later she wants nothing to do with me. Now a normal dude would move on but every woman I have liked/loved had deserted me. Cold shoulder style. Is it okay if I just end it? I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of my […]

6/7/2015 3 comments

Lost somewhere.

by Nitin 6/7/2015

written by Nitin

I don’t know, what has happened to me. I was brilliant in every field, art, sports, studies, acting, leading, my passion” photography but I think life had some other plans for me. My life is completely soiled because of a serious addiction, pornography. I am honestly writing that i don’t see women as sex objects but somehow I find momentary escape in pornography, escape from my past. But because of that addiction, life seems to be ruined and there only seems one way out….suicide. I have had the best life one can imagine. Perfect girlfriend, perfect parents, best of friends but not the best of […]

6/7/2015 3 comments

Hell is me.

by sickfromthemelt 6/6/2015

written by sickfromthemelt

Hi, I’m a filthy, retarded, creepy, transgender (male-to-female) emo noob and I deserve your contempt, whether I feel I deserve it or not is completely irrelevant -_-

I’m not the only one that wakes up every morning and is quickly, and brutally, hit with the feeling that their life is not, and never will be, something they can be proud of.

It gets better, everyone around me seems to genuinely believe that living a life I can be proud of is an abomination, an affront to their ‘decency’ and ‘taste’, no one has faith in me, because no one wants me to BE me, no one needs […]

6/6/2015 4 comments

What is life?

by Sia 6/5/2015

written by Sia

I can’t control my feelings, I can’t control how worthless I think I am. I am surrounded by happy people living life and there’s me sitting in the corner drowning my sorrows. I feel useless, I can’t do anything. My so called friends don’t give a damn what I feel, my parents only care about their work and have no time to spend time or care about me. I don’t know what’s the point of living anymore, what’s the point of living if no one likes you the way you. I mean, life is meaningless, it’s a test whether you can survive or not. I can’t do […]

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Who am I?

by lycka16 6/4/2015

written by lycka16

My life has been layed out for me since I got out of middle school. “Take these classes” “Join this” “volunteer there” and I never had a say in anything. Recently I just got a tattoo. I am now a high school graduate. My mom found out and all hell broke loose. Of course being the person that I am I just sat there took all the beatings, and verbal abuse because in her mind I ruined myself. She told me to stop hanging out with everyone I’m friends with, don’t contact them anymore, and she took away my chance to go to Virginia for […]

6/4/2015 2 comments

I Want to Die But Haven’t

by jvs 6/2/2015

written by jvs

I lost everything that gave me connection, meaning, comfort and joy. That all happened in a short time frame a year and a half ago. One rug after another after another after another was pulled out from under my feet. There were so many bad turns and they were so astonishing, I can’t count them all. Life is gray. I haven’t had a second of joy for almost two years. People say, Wait it out, who knows what tomorrow will bring? I’m not getting better; it has been a nose dive for all that time. I got into therapy, and it took over a year […]

6/2/2015 2 comments

Excelsior

by polaroidnat 6/1/2015

written by polaroidnat

Ive recently been diagnosed with manic depression. I’ve been reading the posts on here for the last few months. About 2 years ago I tried to kill myself by hanging and was nearly successful. I was unconscious and found by paramedics which is unfortunate. I’ve been battling with my depression for some time now and have had a partner on and off for the last 4 years. The support I’ve received from my friends and so called partner is diabolical. I know my parents will miss me especially my mum and I am so sorry and love you with all my heart. I just can’t […]

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6/1/2015 4 comments

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by bubbles1128 6/1/2015

written by bubbles1128

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If her tears fall with no one around

Would you still be able to see it?

Somedays are hard

Others are harder

Choices are made that change her world

They can never be replaced

The love she had now fades to grey

As the passion she holds smolders to ash

All she can do is wallow and cry but,

If her tears fall with no one around

Would you still be able to see it?

The bitterness of life is unbearable

The pain that continues is crippling

She wonders if it ever subsides

The answer turns to no And everything continues

They go about their day knowing they are loved

She goes home […]

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6/1/2015 1 comment

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by silvermoon 5/31/2015

written by silvermoon

I don’t see hope. I see pain, and a lot of it. I hear voices, and I am exhausted. My life is a couch, and a walk, and sometimes I can eat, and get to places, and sometimes I can’t. No family cares, no church cares, basically, nobody cares, and so I’m saying goodbye soon. Because there has to be some place better than this filthy and disgusting planet full of chemicals and all kinds of horrific things that I can barely stand to live in anymore. The humans have made this planet a waste heap of despair and agony for too many, and I […]

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5/31/2015 3 comments

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We all lose

by justanothergirl09 5/30/2015

written by justanothergirl09

I don’t know. There’s nothing left to say.

I’m just tired. Just want to leave.

I just don’t belong here.

I’ve never really liked games and life is just a game but the only thing that makes this game different is that we all know how it ends. Everyone loses. Everyone dies.

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5/30/2015 2 comments

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Throw it all away

by Rotted_Flesh 5/29/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

It’s funny how easily humans discard one simple pleasure for another, but I guess the brain wants what it wants. They say change is good, and I suppose it is, but nobody can deny the fact that in the middle of that change lies that vulnerability that can sometimes hurt or even kill you. People are so fragile, I know lots of people that say “I’m so emotionally strong” blah blah blah. Take away their confidence, give them a disfigurement or a disability, let them lose a loved one, and see how they feel after. I want everybody to have the same afflictions and I […]

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5/29/2015 6 comments

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Memories they haunt me

by Beast 5/28/2015

written by Beast

I woke up quite early today, thought I’d grab the chance to enjoy The Witcher 3.. Turns out I should of slept away half the day instead. I dont know how but my most recent ex came into mind, its been over half a year but still.. Such happy memories, how can I possibly stop comparing what I am now, what I have now, with what I once had… Im over her, but I would like.. this kind of happiness again, with someone else.. anyway I know throughout our lifetime on this miserable planet we have our ups and downs, I’d like an elevator lift […]

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5/28/2015 4 comments

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lie

by silvermoon 5/28/2015

written by silvermoon

it is very tiring to feel like the only one, to blame yourself for everything, to see choices that you made that are set in stone in a cruel world. it is very tiring to now have physical symptoms due to stress and feel it is your fault, it is very tiring to be alone and constantly struggling to get around seen by no one in this cruel ass world

ptsd and sexual abuse and no family and loneliness and self-blame and no way to get around and no one who truly cares is a recipe for going home

god doesnt care either b/c god has never […]

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5/28/2015 3 comments

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