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hitting the hurdles

by tphg 1/13/2015

written by tphg

I used to be so good at the charade of living (going to work, paying my bills, staying fed, keeping up appearances etc). Now, every moment is a fight. I have no will to maintain my life anymore. Being at work feels like a joke. I want to jump in front of a train, but instead, I ride it to the office everyday. Why? So that I can maintain my lifestyle until I die.

I frigging hate living! Oh my god! Every moment feels like gravel in my bloodstream. I spend most of my waking hours doing things I’d rather not be doing, and the rest […]

1/13/2015 4 comments

What’s the point?

by HighlySensitive 1/12/2015

written by HighlySensitive

What’s the point of life? All you do is struggle and live, and eventually die. Why do we study hard? What’s the point of living if you don’t want to? I feel like life is a cruel joke thrust upon us even when we don’t want to live. Everyone suffers, for no reason at all. It is completely pointless. Life sucks and it always has. There is no point at all to it.

1/12/2015 1 comment

Can You Like, Open The Book

by Bisban 1/12/2015

written by Bisban

At least tell me if you can’t help

Can you help toward guide me

You know that we’re still, friends

Forever, I don’t know what’s you delio

Living in the dog-house, the monkey

Doesn’t walk-around anymore is me

Goddamned, don’t let me curse, anymore

What about, your other pal, then

I need the collaboration to termination

Of a, of, of a, reptilian

And I am, the ancient, living, now I know

Of the existence through, this pain that none a soul

I will conquer, I’m talking, out of this blue

Retribution is not a vengeance

Why does it say, see a snake, do you still follow

In the detail, I’m talking about, out of this blue

On to another, hey, you […]

1/12/2015 12 comments

Masquerade

by Ntennis37 1/8/2015

written by Ntennis37

I don’t think there can be many feelings as bad as living in an absolute hell. But I’m not sure what’s hell about it. Living with people I love but – think I got it.

Living a miserable life, so bad that all my effort and will power goes into making me look slightly gloomy at the best of times. My head pounds and my bones ache from the pressure.

I value the people around me more than anything – but sometimes I don’t think they even care about me – what’s behind the façade.

The only time I can have a decent conversation with one of my […]

1/8/2015 0 comment

Why.

by unbrokenangel 1/7/2015

written by unbrokenangel

Why am I still here? All I do is fuck everything up. I’m a home wrecking whore who should just die. I fucking hate myself and I hate living. I want to die.

1/7/2015 7 comments

Tired of living in this world

by blooder 1/7/2015

written by blooder

I’am tired of everything, of the night, of the day, of myself, of other people, of things that I have to do, I just wanna end my life, but I fear the pain, I want to find a way to die at minimum pain, I find that there’s nothing in this world that interests my anymore, I’ve seen much things if not all, anyway inside my(in my soul) I feel a void, an emptyness, I can’t feel emoutions anymore, I feel like a zombie, I don’t understand what I’am doing here on this planet earth, I think that it was an error that I was […]

1/7/2015 1 comment

by HereticBlood 1/5/2015

written by HereticBlood

Funny how everyone in this world even the ones you think are “close” to you can never read the fake smile… Funny how everyone thinks everything is peachy when really it’s all a living hell!!

1/5/2015 3 comments

Failure + Fraud

by internethandle 1/4/2015

written by internethandle

I have always been a failure. For most of my life I have been successful at convincing others that I have things together and know where I’m trying to go and what I’m trying to do, but I have never known. Any successes I have had have stemmed purely from luck and circumstance and any situations that I have been deprived of either of these has led to certain failure and a complete inability to function like a human being. And in many of those circumstances where I did get lucky, I was either discovered a fraud or imploded the situation myself out of fear […]

1/4/2015 12 comments

Live, ye awesome motherfuckers!

by Procel 12/29/2014

written by Procel

With a new year approaching I can never help but to ponder. Ponder the years gone by and the year to come. I’ve gotta admit for the most part looking back I feel three emotions above all others. Pride, embarrassment and sadness. Pride at coming this far, despite picking out a go date, more than once, despite getting hold of method after method, most painless and most sure fire. Despite every descision I took that screwed my life up I somehow stayed with it. I’m gonna be proud about that if ye don’t mind. And embarrassed at the way I usto be, way back when. […]

12/29/2014 10 comments

Illusions

by quaero 12/28/2014

written by quaero

I… What do i want? What exactly is it that would like to do or pursue? I had the full complete chance of running away, but i stayed. I stayed because i knew what i wanted to seek can be sought anywhere and my running away, in that regard, is a hypocritical move. But now that i’ve stayed, even my seeking seems to have stopped. I couldn’t imagine my life without seeking, and now I’m living it. Or am i? I think deep down i still do crave for seeking. How to get fulfillment? What is it that will fulfill me? There must be something, […]

12/28/2014 0 comment

My heart is broken……

by jcanida56 12/25/2014

written by jcanida56

I’m just super lonely this Christmas and need a shoulder to cry on…..to vent……I’m 18, turn 19 in 5 days, I basically have no friends or family……I’ve attempted suicided many times and have suffered with depression most of my life. I’m miserable. I’ve tried to keep my sanity and make myself better- recently, I drove my new car out in front of a semi……I miraculously lived, tore my car to hell….I just wanted to die and didn’t care how selfish I was being involving a random person. It eats at me and I regret it, but I’m angry that I didn’t die. The bashing from […]

12/25/2014 13 comments

I hate today and I’ll hate tomorrow.

by boyblue 12/14/2014

written by boyblue

I hate the feelings I have. Its the worst. Everyday is the same lonely day. I don’t trust people their all the same. Everyone is ether boring or uninterested and no one is the same anymore. I feel so different from everyone else. Sometimes it feels like I’m the only one who’s alive and everyone else is dead, and sometimes it feels like I’m dead and everyone else is living. Should I exist at all? I feel like I really shouldn’t at times. I don’t feel like I should even be here anymore I’m so sick of the same people and the same conversation, I just […]

12/14/2014 2 comments

Before or after Christmas?

by MrPorkchop 12/11/2014

written by MrPorkchop

I’m fairly certain I’m going to kill myself before the new year. I’ve just had enough of living and not being happy. I’ve never done heroin before but I bought some about a year and a half ago just for when I decide to kill myself. I plan on OD’ing so I’ll atleast go out with a false sense of happiness. Should I do this before or after Christmas? I’m supposed to go home Christmas Day to visit all of my family.

12/11/2014 12 comments

trolls

by tc13 12/9/2014

written by tc13

dear sp, just a warning. their is a troll on the loose. this one is really nasty. she was using the tag HAYTRED, but is now using GOD. do not bite her hooks. do not read her words, do not take her advice. she has nothing to offer. like all of us, i desire to find that peace, that one thing that will let us enjoy living. myth, maybe. her desire is death, destruction and misery. dont know about all of you, but ive had more than enough of that shit. so avoid her. good luck, peace to ya and keep trying.

12/9/2014 5 comments

Just my thinkin

by daonenonly 12/3/2014

written by daonenonly

Should I live or die tonight? Whats the point in living? What’s the point in stayin alive when u know nothin good is going to happen. What’s the point in stayin here in this world. I’m just sick and tired of having to live like this..but I’ll believe that one day something will change my
life. I’ll wait until I can’t wait no more.

12/3/2014 2 comments

Can I Escape?

by shatteredsoul1350 12/3/2014

written by shatteredsoul1350

Was life meant to be painful
I thought i was a precious gift from your parents
Its suppose to be joyful
Happy
Pure
Exciting
But its actually a living nightmare
I didn’t know i could despise people so much
Even the ones i love
Im letting them down
Including myself
I just want to get better
Thats all
I don’t want to fall in this massive abyss of sadness
But it feels like i’ve been tumbling
I want to change
But can i escape this depression?

12/3/2014 3 comments

Enough is Enough

by Jumper97 12/3/2014

written by Jumper97

I’ve tried to not give up and started living again, but I come back to my dark side. Fuck this, fuck all of this, it’s not gonna get better, no signs of improvement are showing. I’m destined to be alone and a failure, everybody ignores or leaves me and I’m gonna be a fuck up, I have no hopes, no dreams,they all died along time ago, why am I even pushing further, when I don’t have the will or effort to even do it. Enough is enough, I’m gonna kill myself.

12/3/2014 5 comments

by All_Time_Low 12/1/2014

written by All_Time_Low

I’m a very musical person. I listen to alot of music. Its what keeps me going. I also play nine instruments, guitar being my main.

So I listen to alot of music and I have song lyrics that I love. I sometimes write them on my arms. People make funbof me for liking music. I don’t care to be honest. I just love what I love and live how I live. I wish I wasn’t living though

So in short. People make fun of me when I write song lyrics on my arm and it sometimes gets to me. Other times, I let it slide

12/1/2014 1 comment

What is your purpose for living?

by TakingBackMyUsedRomance 11/30/2014

written by TakingBackMyUsedRomance

This question has been really eating at me for many years now. I can remember myself way younger in 3rd grade asking myself the very question. I don’t talk about my thoughts or feelings to anyone, I have tried and been met with many different counter perspectives, but never one that actually saw what I see. I have had all the conversations already and know exactly how those around me feel, so I tend to keep my mouth shut as I don’t want to talk about it again and again.

But this morning I asked my dad what his purpose for living is. I’ve been thinking […]

11/30/2014 7 comments

What is the point

by SylviaPlathIsMyHero 11/26/2014

written by SylviaPlathIsMyHero

What is the point of living anymore?

I will never reach any of my goals. I will forever be stupid, fat, and unwanted. No one I like will ever return the feelings. I will never have friends who truly care, not even enough to learn trivial things like my birthday.

What is the point of living, if my father will still deny that he abuses me, and that I have depression that has been diagnosed by my many therapists. What is the point of living if my mother will blame the disasters in her life on me, and threaten to walk out on me.

What is the point […]

11/26/2014 9 comments

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