I don’t know what to do anymore i just want to end it I’m thinking whats the point anymore…..that’s the real question Whats the Point? you know it will be so easy putting a gun to my head but the hard part would be pulling the trigger and thinking what would everyone do when I’m gone would anyone notice my best friend died yesterday he was 16 and you know what the scary part about is death was that he killed him self i miss him so much you have no clue how much i want to be with him i was in love with […]
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Hey Ya’ll, my name is Leah and I want to share with you my suicide story. I just want to go ahead and start off with the fact that I love you, and I am praying for you every single day.
So, where to begin…
Ever since I can remember I have been suicidal. I have had these thoughts for as long as I can remember. I knew it was not the right way to think, that children were supposed to be happy, and the fact that I was not made me feel as if I was doing something wrong. I had trouble coping with […]
The round colorful combination is deadly
Tomorrow this will all be through.
Finally an end to my torment
They’d understand if only they knew
Raising the glass and I open my hand…
The thoughts of loved flash through my head
I drop the pills to the floor
It’d kill tomorrow if today I was dead.
Upstairs working on the computer
An electric shock as I look at the plug
The reaction is deadly assisted with water
rising my little brother  tackles me with a hug.
I sit back down grimace him a smile.
I can’t kill myself infront of my brother
He’d be dissappointed if he knew this is all he had for a sister
I could not bear his […]
That a lot of you on here are absolutely amazing and talented people. I find it extremely strange that all of you have knack for stylistic writing. Have you seen how beautiful you write? The way you describe your shattered hopes and your distant dreams. It is so heartbreaking the way you guys describe it in an eerie yet beautiful poetic way. I think that you merely writing about how horrible and hard life has been is something that should help you persevere, as that is how I am beginning to feel. When you guys write on here, I can feel your pain, and it […]
I have attended four highschools, all completely different. With completely new teachers, new classes, and new classmates. With each school year I’ve been that girl who rarely spoke, the girl who just went to school then went back home.I had no life, because I never opened up and allowed people to get close to me.
Every new school year my mother says I’ll find some new friends who won’t stab me in the back, but every time I’m invited to hang out, my mother says no. She claims it’s because she doesn’t know these people, and I think ‘how will you ever know them if […]
Has anyone ever felt as if they are just waiting to die? I have a job, great friends who love me, and no REAL reason to not enjoy life. I just cannot seem to get past this feeling that I have accomplished all I am going to, nothing interests me, and I am just wasting time until I die. Would love to come to terms with this and possibly get past it. I have done the therapy thing but to be honest it just seems to aggrivate me, being asked the same questions over and over. Any input, from anyone, is welcome. I have edited […]
I made a few posts on here a while ago. I was in a really bad place.
Since then, I have made significant changes in the way I think and approach every situation. It hasn’t been easy, but I honestly feel like things will be okay. The posts that I read through really break my heart. I hope that you will all find a way to be okay with who you are because we all deserve to be happy.
So this is my last post. I will think of you all everyday whether I’ve spoken to you or not.
With love,
brighteyes. xx
i love my life…. wait no i dont. im far from loving my life. i have no reason that makes me happy anymore. i am dumb when it comes to school. i always get put down, people saying i will never get anywehere in life. people saying im a waste of space and air. i want to call it quits on life. i wanna call it quits on everything.
Hello guys, (edit: why is my post all written in green? its hard to read :S highlighting the text with your mouse helps)
I’ve been thinking about suicide pretty much my entire life. This is going to be quite straight up but bear with me. First, let’s talk a bit about myself so you now a little bit more about who’s writing this.
I am now 23 years old, on my last year of university here in Quebec, Canada. I’ve been studying marketing since I’ve always been really good at selling and customer service. My real passions, however, are sports, videogames and marijuana. Yes, marijuana. I won’t […]
Hello.
I think I’ll start with introducing myself so that, you know who I am and you won’t have to put it all together in confusion.
My name is James, but I like to be called Jamie. It’s more fitting and all of my friends call me that.
I’m 16 and enduring my Junior year of high school, Â so far the hardest year of my life.
There are many things that make me sad, which seems to be the case for most sincere people on this site, so I’ll just break my rant up into parts according to what’s going on.
My Brain
The thoughts that I have are so unorganized, […]
I want to die, but of course I can’t. First I’m scared of dying but I’m sick and tired of trying to live happy. My parents stalk the hell out of me whenever I try to talk to a boy and my dad and mom beat me. What am I supposed to do? My friends tell me I look weird when I don’t smile because I smile all the time. Why do I smile? Why am I completely at peace when I’m at school, but at home I dread it and want to die
I’m tired of living. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of doing […]
Hey guys, I’m completely new to this place, though I’m certainly not new to the concept of suicide and depression. I’m brought here today to get some opinions on the current situation I’m in. Some background information first:
The name’s Justin, I’m 22 and a resident of Canada. I know you’re not supposed to share your real name online, but for me, it’s far too late for anonymity. Without going in to too much detail today, I’ve struggled with depression all of my life. I don’t know what to boil it down to, but I’ve always been an anxiety-ridden, meek fellow with no motivation, drive or […]
I realize in two days from now.Its going to be as scary as hell for me.Carrying around a box cutter is going to be scary as hell.Even if you intend to only harm yourself.Authorities get involved and its not pretty cause cops dont know how to handle the mentally ill.They do that thing were they twist your arm behind your back.It hurts cause you think your arm might break off.
My hope is that i dont get shot cause there will probably be police since they dont know how to mind there own business.
The thing is i just cant please […]
Daddy don’t tell me that im disgusting and  that being like me is wrong , I want you to hug me and tell me that you are proud of me and that you love me .
Daddy don’t scream at me because i wanna die , I want you to tell me that im gonna be okay.
Daddy don’t ignore me , I want you to spend time with me
Daddy don’t sit there and get drunk , Â I want to be able to talk to you when you are sober.
Daddy don’t leave me here wanting to die… Daddy don’t
For the past two weeks almost every single night I have been standing at the very top of five flights of stairs, contemplating possibilities. Imagining my body falling. Would I face up or should I choose to face the ground? I am still afraid. That is why when I find myself there, hands gripping the railing, it takes me about an hour to move. And somehow through strength or fear, I am still here.
Last night, as I started my walk up these five flights of stairs my boyfriend called me. Instead of finishing the climb I hopped in my car and drove to his house. […]
Science say’s when you die. It’s game over. Consciousness is produced by the brain. Religion say’s we have a soul. I say youwhat.? If there is a god why would it give us soul’s. Make us immortal.? & why would he love us. Let’s face it. Human beings are a bunch of freaks. Self obsessed selfish & self absorbed. Ok there are expressions but not for most..
I think i’m a  searcher.
I dont think this world is worth it. Living in all this pain. Im bisexual, apparently “Emo” as i get called at school. Nobody accepts me for who i am.Not even my mother. She always has stuff to say about who i am and about my friends. She says she wont lower her standards for us. She doesnt know im bi. Like who the hell said she needed to lower her standards for anyone. .I dont want to live in this hell anymore. Im thinking of suicide or running away. The easiest way i can think of is just a large cocktail on pills in […]
I actually know why I’m still here… it’s because I’m really too scared to kill myself. Â But even though I have a daughter and husband and family and friends who all love me, I’m suffering. Â I’m suffering a lot and I don’t want to continue to suffer the rest of my life. Â How is it considered selfish of ME to want to end my suffering, but not of THEM to want to keep me around for no good reason other than they want me here. Â And I don’t even know why they want me. Â I’m not a great parent (she’s 3 and I can’t even […]
I’m pretty sure that the title explains everything.
I’ve hurt the woman I love, to say the least, and in my own life, I’ve done some pretty messed up things.
So why keep going? Why keep living and trying to keep going?
There’s really no reason. I’ll just keep messing up my life and other’s lives.