Home Tags Posts tagged with "Mask"
Tag:

Mask

When the last petal falls.. in short

by Cruella
written by Cruella

Tear after the other, I failed to finish crying….

Keeping this mask on is draining my last bit of sanity..

Why is it when your sad you are always alone? Why is it that only I find pleasure in being there among those  who pretend to care?

Where is everyone now, when I am the one in need?

Been strong for so long, but loneliness has taken its toll on me, I dared to seek care… I dared to ask for tenderness.. I dared to imagine being loved.. But time after time, the nightmare kicked me in the guts, with phantoms of beings which never gave any of such …

Until..

I met […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

Can’t find my way home

by TarotXIII
written by TarotXIII

I’ve done it.I think I finaly got rid of the only two “friends” that still talked to me.I kept rejecting their proposal to hang out.It’s been about 2 weeks that I haven’t seen them.

No more stupid talk

No more going along those stupid talk

No more people trying to change me at all cost

No more fake smile

I am 100% alone now.

Man it just feels so stupid to write this for everyone to see.I wish I could burn my mask but I’m too much of a coward to do so.I’ve goten so affraid of being rejected by people that I’ll surely use it forever on…My mother started noticing […]

Continue Reading
3 comments
0 Email

Please hear what I’m not saying….cnt’d

by sbkstep43
written by sbkstep43

I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.

That’s why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,

a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,

to sheild me from the glance that knows.

But such a glance is precisely my salvation.

My only hope, and I know it.

That is, if it’s followed by acceptance,

if it’s followed by love.

It’s the only thing that can liberate me from myself,

from my own self-built prison walls,

from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.

It’s the only thing that will assure me

of what I can’t assure myself,

that I’m really worth something.

I don’t like to hide.

I don’t like to play superfical phony games.

I […]

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email

Please hear what i’m not saying

by sbkstep43
written by sbkstep43

Don’t be fool by me.

Don’t be fooled by the face I wear.

For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,

masks that I’m afraid to take off,

and none of them is me.

Pretending is an art that’s second nature to me,

but don’t be fooled.

For God’s sake don’t be fooled.

I give you the impression that I’m secure,

that confidence is my name and coolness is my gane,

that the water’s calm and I’m in command,

and that I need no one.

But don’t believe me.

My surface may seem smooth but my surface

is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.

Beneath lies no complacence.

Beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness.

But I hide this. I don’t want anybody to […]

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email

Monster

by TarotXIII
written by TarotXIII

Why is it so hard to accept me the way I am…

I’m awkward,weird and have the strangest of haircut.I didn’t know that was so unforgivable.I’m just tired of putting on that fake personality,that fake smile.It’s almost a natural reflexe now.Every time I’m finaly able to be myself(wich is a RARE occurence),people just avoid me.It’s been like that since kindergarden.Am I that repulsing?

I’m tired of speacking to myself.

Tired of crying alone.

Tired of feeling like I was a shadow.

I feel so worthless,alone in this sea of people just passing by me unless I say what they want.I’ve never been able to find the place I can call […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

Screams

by lostchild445
written by lostchild445

Screams

Screams no one can hear
In the darkness there is silence and fear
The shouts uttered by a madman
Heard throughout the ward

He is the forgotten one
The one whose lost all hope
There’s nothing anyone can do
To help him cope with his pain

He talks to himself
His brain and body taking sides
Of his split personality:
One to live. One to die. 

The voices in his head
Tell him he should be dead
And half his will wishes to oblige
Yet the memories of his friends
Keep him moving to mend his life
And live another day. 

He’s got nothing left
Nothing left to hide

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email

the apparition of these faces in the crowd

by madmansgayscience
written by madmansgayscience

I am not the only one. There are others, multiple hordes, some of whom are people I know, people I even see regularly. Though I am slowly emerging into admitting my illness, they must do so too. Until this happens we are all alone here and we are dead.

There are no similes and there are no metaphors; everything can only be explained and delineated in exact terms. There are continual pressures applied from other people, wherever I turn. I try to escape, yet someone inevitably & invariably lurks around the next mental vista. There is truly nowhere to go when the thoughts inside your head […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

i dont what it is anymore with inside me

by teendude225
written by teendude225

i dont know how i can go through days anymore the friends i suposily know are all smart goodlookin talented at somethin they always have a girl chattin em up and shit sendin them calls texts while  i have barly any girls who would even look at me in the hallway iv left my phone on for few days to see the loser who i really am not one single female texted me or “friend” calld me. i used to be great at sports was startin linebacker got respect from fellow men around me and varsity wrestling and used to be outgoin wouldnt care then  […]

Continue Reading
3 comments
0 Email

This story has to begin somewhere.. and end here

by Cruella
written by Cruella

Since i was a kid, i was taught to always treat everyone nice, be helpful, and loving. That true joy comes from making others happy, that if you are good and nice, good things will reflect back on you, that the harder things are the better chance you got to prove how strong you are in fighting against the evilness of the world, i was trying to be the super hero which will spread love and care.

Myself always came second, didnt matter, as long as i can make those who i can happy, I can stand against those who hurt me.. The pain began ever […]

Continue Reading
4 comments
0 Email

nutso random

by truthbetold
written by truthbetold

truthbetold is a jaded individual

urban dictionary says:

a) the end result of having a steady flow of negative experiences,disappointment, and unfulfillment fed into a person
where they get to the point where their anger circuits just sort of burn out and they accept disillusionment.
b) emotionally numb. having been through so much pain that you simply give up and decide unconciously not to feel anymore. mental suicide.

I also have dormant hatred for humanity, which is awaken when people do or say things that remind me how compassionate us humans can be ..

my friend depression tends to find its way inside my mind during the fall and usually leaves […]

Continue Reading
3 comments
0 Email

being alone

by noexception
written by noexception

im so sick of people thinking they know me,
how can anyone know me if i dont really know myself?cause im not the main sorce of information for my own life?soon wen you let every body in, and they all hurt you, this mask doesnt do know good, it becomes to late, it can protect me from other people, but it cant protect me from myself,.has anyone ever felt like they wanna die,or even more wen you thiink of certain people?and its hard not to wen thats all u have,i try to be strong for 21 years, and the only thing iv accomplished is […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

Why ?

by asg
written by asg

Why did God chose me ? It is not fair. I didint ask for this, all this pain.

I am not strong. I cry my self to sleep every night.

I hide all my feelings behind this mask, so everyone will think i am a happy 13 years old girl. But i am not.

But I believe there is hope for a better life in the future. So i got to stay as strong as i can to make it.

Continue Reading
5 comments
0 Email

about me?

by nana123456
written by nana123456

look, i know that my “problems” is’nt really important like the problems of other people, but i need someone who listen to me… and this page probably can help me to change the way that im feeling

it maybe sound foolish that a person like me, that never think about cutting or commited suicide, make a post in the “suicide project”… but i dont know whats happening to me… i dont know who i really am and that scares me a lot…

i am a happy person, i like to be with my friends.. but i think that i have a giant mask in my face…. i […]

Continue Reading
4 comments
0 Email

the mask is off…but

by NotReallyHereAtAll
written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I’m writing this on my phone because I am in school and it is lunchtime and I feelunbelievably depressed and there is nobody here I can talk to in this way… Anyway, I feel possessed with the desire to jump from a top floor window, to cut myself all the way up my arm and to just curl up in a ball for hours and scream. I want to scream and shout and just cry for a long time, but I can’t. I can’t do these things because I am at school and nobody here knows how deeply depressed I feel a lot if the […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

have you considered WHY?

by NotReallyHereAtAll
written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I have this one so-called friend who’s always calling me pessimistic and way too negative. She’s one of those intensely annoying types, unbelievably selfish but able to hide that trait under a mask of caring before backstabbing for her own enjoyment. The kind of girl who asks how much work you’ve been doing just so she can brag about how hardworking she is before starting on at you and making you feel like crap… Basically, she’s poisonous.

But yeah, she likes to call me a pessimist which I am not. I’m not a pessimist at all, I’m simply a realist who’s tired of bullshit and doesn’t […]

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email

Hiding

by bluetear
written by bluetear

I have been hiding how I feel for so long, it’s overwhelming I put on a persona go through life as a stable person but it’s all lie. I would love to cut myself and tear a hole through my chest. How stupid are people do they think those jokes are funny, it’s a cry for help how ignorant can everybody be, it’s a mask y can’t anybody see through it. When I try to tell my wife she doesn’t understand, what could I possibly be deppresed about, how about the insignificance of the human life there is no other purpose rather than to die… […]

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email

I Don’t Belong

by endless_sorrows
written by endless_sorrows

i dont feel like i belong anywhere in this society. im struggling with my art and life… i practically dont even have a love life… when im with my friends i feel left out like a lost my connections with them like im in a different world… i already know im not apart of my family… im what you would call the black sheep in the heard… my dad despises me because im nothing like him…. just today we got into a fight because i said i was not commuting all the way to wounderland andi told him.. well more like reminded him im alergic […]

Continue Reading
3 comments
0 Email

Porcalin

by Nothin2Live4
written by Nothin2Live4

And into the world stared these gleaming blue eyes

Which she saw past its dimension and only despised

This beauty she portrayed everyone had seen

But disguised sadness she made it serene

The greatest flaw that had filled her heart

Perfection only the beginning, just the start

With blonde fine long hair hit right beneath her
waist

Glass mirror she had feared she now turned to face

The pale white skin was now deep within her reflection

And enemy she had seen, with this girl had no
connection

Tears streamed down and began to hit the sink

Matched the blood that seeped now combining to
pink

Cutting she thought was her only escape

From the horrid memories of […]

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email

Suicidal Babblings

by tytygaga7
written by tytygaga7

The thought and feelings crept back in. I was depressed and suicidal before, but got through it. I learned to live and be happy. I mean, I thought I was happy. I never really know how I feel. It seems that I see how I should feel rather than having feelings. It’s all a mask to cover up the gaping void within me. I’m an empty vessel. I function within the world as anyone would, but I am no one. And I don’t mean I want to be appreciated because people make me feel like no one. Just, I’m inside my brain, and I can […]

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email

Lost and alone

by leiha63
written by leiha63

I once had a great life and now I feel like I’m living another persons life. I am lost and so want to regain some of the life I once had. I had a good high paying job, great children, fantastic family. Not a lot to complain about. Then I had a problem with my back and then multiple surgeries, 9 to be exact. Then a brutal assault after a back surgery. After the assault the merry go  round of depression started and has been a spiral down turn ever since.  Most days start with not wanting to be here, then all the […]

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email
Newer Posts
Older Posts