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Hold me down

by Cro0kedYoung 10/18/2015

written by Cro0kedYoung

The guy I like asked me to be his.

I said yes.

I don’t know what I’ve gotten myself into though.

What if hes like most other guys? If he doesn’t really like me and just wants a fling?

Ill just end up hurt in the end, but for now hes making me smile even when I’m in the worst of moods.

I was with him yesterday. I saw scars on his arms. I wasn’t going to mention it to him, that would be insensitive of me, but maybe if he sees my scars he will understand? I’m not openly going to show him though, I don’t know if I […]

10/18/2015 2 comments

Biding my time

by PineBapple 10/17/2015

written by PineBapple

If all goes well this may be my last post here. I think I finally found someone, we’re talking about a plan of action.

I’m writing this to thank everyone here and give some constructive criticism. You are all good people from what I can tell, helping random anonymous strangers through there roughest times while going through rough times yourselves in some cases. I see this as a place that welcomes the strange, and the lonely, and the scared, with open arms. My only criticism for this community would be the people who only offer support that encourages survival. I will admit that in most cases […]

10/17/2015 1 comment

suicide season

by melodychild 10/16/2015

written by melodychild

I live in a pretty rural area I guess you’d call it. In the last few months 4 people around here have committed suicide. I knew one of them vaguely from school long ago. I feel like this is a sign telling me it’s ok if I go too. One of them killed himself on my planned death day, the day after my birthday. I wasn’t able to go through with it because my dad had decided to stay home. I know that might be a sign too. The thing is, I could go on, maybe. I don’t think it’d be worth it and I […]

10/16/2015 4 comments

Day 11?

by Alex 10/16/2015

written by Alex

I’ve been meaning to post more often but most of the time I try to keep myself busy and try not to either cut or kill myself. Everyday.

Lately I’ve been feeling really, REALLY lonely and really wanting to find a boyfriend, but with my personality and me being very introverted and shy …. It’s really hard for me to approach really any guy or let any guy approach me … I’m just such a fail idk why I haven’t even attempted once more. Maybe this time it’ll work. Maybe I’ll fuck up myself even more. Who knows?

10/16/2015 1 comment

I feel nothing

by maddie_kay 10/14/2015

written by maddie_kay

I thought maybe over time I could forget about him. Just distract myself until I forgot. But it’s not even been 3 months since he left and now I’m just empty.
I feel nothing for anyone or anything. I don’t get irritated when customers complain at work . I don’t get mad over things that I’d usually be pissed off at.
I can’t even cry. I mean, I do the motions, but no tears come. I finally told my best friend this, just to let her know what was going on. Then she tells me that she had been hospitalized a year ago for trying […]

10/14/2015 4 comments

Good on paper

by themap 10/14/2015

written by themap

I am an insult to depression. I am a living effrontery to depressed people.

I make a LOT of money doing a fairly easy job.

I live in a beautiful house that has been in commercials and magazines.

I bought a new car last week because I was bored with my bmw.

I am constantly surrounded by family and friends who tell me how great I am, and can’t tell you how many people I’ve had fall in love with me.

My best friend lets me dogsit his amazing black lab who is the embodiment of love whenever I want because he knows it helps me.

Despite all this, I am […]

10/14/2015 6 comments

My story

by eeixleinad1 10/13/2015

written by eeixleinad1

In short i have a crazy mother no one can get to her when shes angry…
my mother doesnt care about anything else other than numbers….
i want to talk to her but i never could….
she doesnt care….
so why should i?….
i dont know what to do i am literally in a life or death limbo right now…
i will admit i really want attention but not from everyone but maybe just one friend?

10/13/2015 4 comments

Protected: Some memories and thoughts

by Tristeza 10/13/2015

written by Tristeza

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

10/13/2015 26 comments

It’s Been Almost A Year

by JiminyCrispies 10/9/2015

written by JiminyCrispies

It’s been almost a year since I last made a post on here, and, in all honesty, it’s because I’ve been gradually getting worse. I thought time away from any sort of socialisation would better improve my mental health. Well, that backfired entirely. For the past few months I’ve rarely gone online, with the exception of college research, and it’s just given me more time to dwell on everything.

The voices are worse, I hear them all day, everyday now. No, they’re not voices at all. They’re Angels. I know that now, they’d finally said. The Angels are deafening. I used to have some breaks between […]

10/9/2015 9 comments

Reaching out

by TenTiki 10/7/2015

written by TenTiki

Hi, i’ve never really posted on anywhere like this before but i don’t really know what else to do.

I’ve contemplated suicide so many times throughout my life and recently everyone feels like it’s finally coming to a climax, as if ive already accepted that i’m going to die soon, and i want to go out on my own terms.

I’ve been struggling with multiple health issues which make everyday life horrendous, i’m constantly spaced out and in pain almost every waking minute, it’s too much to take.

I’m also incredibly lonely, not even my family speaks to me unless it’s to start an argument or take out […]

10/7/2015 8 comments

Random thought

by Wanttogiveup 10/5/2015

written by Wanttogiveup

So the thought came to me today that I’ve posted 3 things about my problems but I haven’t done anything to try to help others. So I decided that I’m gonna help someone today, i’m gonna try to help a persons problems seem easier to manage. And…I couldn’t. I scrolled through a lot of posts but couldn’t think of what go say…maybe what I said was actually good and i am just being too hard on myself, or maybe what I said was actually pretty poor advice. We’ll never know. But I figured this would be a good alternative. So, what I want […]

10/5/2015 38 comments

Met Someone New Today

by Royal_Styles1 10/1/2015

written by Royal_Styles1

I use my Instagram account for posting all my poems, quotes, and writings. And so in my post today, I asked whether I should publish the book I’m working on, then this account who had the same theme commented for me to do it and she just started to compliment all my works and I thanked her. Then, she asked me if I wanted to be her internet friend, and I couldn’t be more ecstatic, I’ve finally gained something out of a loss. We just started to share things about ourselves till’ we wrote each other poems about meeting each other. Then she asked me […]

10/1/2015 8 comments

Leaving your tattoo in your will

by theWhispersOfMySins 10/1/2015

written by theWhispersOfMySins

I was reading the news and came across an article in the Huffington Post about leaving your tattoo to your loved ones after you die. Yes, you read that right. Quote: “NAPSA — the National Association for the Preservation of Skin Art — launched earlier this month with the aim of helping you pass down your tattoos to your kids, grandkids, and loved ones. It’s no longer a morbid dream. You can have your tattoos removed, preserved and turned into fine art.”

It goes on to say that after you die they need to be notified within 18 hours and a kit is sent out […]

10/1/2015 24 comments

Alone

by Royal_Styles1 10/1/2015

written by Royal_Styles1

I wish I was alone. To have nothing to hold on to. To no longer have a reason to exist. It would be so easy then. To just let the grip my hands have been struggling to hold go. To feel the world’s darkness eat me as a whole. They think it’s a phase, that it’s just something I’ve been going through, that I’ll get over it after a short period of time. They don’t understand. They think I’m doing this to myself for things that don’t matter to them. But they never thought that maybe they’re the reason why I’m struggling to live. Why […]

10/1/2015 5 comments

by Mark_1981 9/27/2015

written by Mark_1981

After having spent the last 20 or so years struggling to figure myself out, I feel as though I have a crystal clear understanding of myself. I guess you could say that I spent these past 20 years looking into my abyss. I found myself there.

People always say that suicide is not the answer. But what if it genuinely is? The human mind can only take so much and I feel as though I’ve lived through an eternity already and I’m 34. I struggled through a very isolated childhood as I’ve posted before and seen horrors that no child should […]

9/27/2015 4 comments

You are Loved

by jrmeador94 9/27/2015

written by jrmeador94

I’m still getting through my depression. It’s almost a daily battle here at college, but I’m surviving somehow. I heard this music one day with my therapist, and I couldn’t stop crying.

This song has kept me through some of the hard days. I play it when I fall asleep. I wake up better.

You are Loved (Don’t Give up) by Josh Groban

9/27/2015 3 comments

Day … 9?

by Alex 9/26/2015

written by Alex

So much has happened since the last time I posted. I haven’t been able to actually log in and write about it, but I thought, “I have to keep on writing and just let it all out, before this pot is ready to explode and suicide becomes the next and only option available.”

I mean suicide is always an option that tries to crawl out of the darkest depths of my mind and there are times that I just let it. I let it consume me and my thoughts because that’s easier than having to deal with reality. But then there are times that I’m just […]

9/26/2015 1 comment

my daughter and i

by v.c.333 9/26/2015

written by v.c.333

so my daughter also has depression, maybe other things, but she is only 13 and really just started her journey. i feel like i have no room to breathe. no room for me. i know it sounds selfish, but i have struggled since 8 or 9 as she has.i have threats and attempts of suicide in my life. she posts all this stuff on facebook, everybody calls me. what am i doing?…do more…do this…what about this. i have had to put all my treatment for my depression and fibromyalgia and neuropathy on hold because i am disabled and don’t work. all gas in car, […]

9/26/2015 10 comments

I’m not supposed to be here

by OddOneOut 9/23/2015

written by OddOneOut

Just a rant…
Living in South Korea right now, and one thing I noticed is that this place will literally suck the ambition, desire – any sort of force that drives me forward in life – out of me. I hate this place, and I have to stay here another 3 months before I can even think of moving to another place.

I used to have dreams, have a heart full of things I wanted to do. Plans to do those things, the WILL to do those things…
But…it’s something about this country. The lifestyle here…Maybe it’s just me that can’t get used to it or, […]

9/23/2015 2 comments

red and black

by sadsadist 9/22/2015

written by sadsadist

Red for my rage black for my depression I believe if red wins others will have great harm done to them if the black wins I’ll have great harm to me I noticed many have very harsh opinions of the red route maybe you can’t understand

( c+c dont worry tho)

9/22/2015 0 comment

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