Hi. This is my first post being on here and I am sort of scared to share my story with everyone. But I will try my best to tell it in the least amount of words possible.
Well, I am 16 and I have bad thoughts almost everyday. I have hated myself for the past few years and I would say it really start when I was turning 13. I started to have feelings for my best friend, who is a girl, and I thought that I was some disgusting freak of nature. My mom was okay with it when I came out to her but […]
I know that most of you don’t know my story or what I’ve been through and what I’m going through now, the thing is, my story is a little too long, but right now…I just need help…my parents keep dragging me down and day by day my suicidal thoughts grow bigger and bigger and bigger…I’m just about ready to put on my black dress, my white floral heels, my floral black net leggings, do my hair and make-up, right a good bye note to my family and take the bottle of pills I’ve been stashing up, 197 of them 20mg each, that’s 3,940mg in me, […]
Hey guys,
I’m new here and I wanted to share my story. But I have 1 problem and that is that my memory is not as it is supposed to be. I can’t remember what happened at what age, but I guessed a little. Anyway, here’s my story:
At the age of 6 I harmed myself. I can’t remember why, but what I do remember is that I always said to myself that I should be punished. So, I always bit myself in my hand, harder and harder each time. I told my parents how I felt, I said that I feel emotionless but still sad, […]
I’m ending my life tonight. I don’t want to talk about my story or leave anything behind. I just want to go since there’s no hope of getting better. As an atheist I don’t want to cease to exist, but there’s no other option if I want to escape a lifetime of chronic pain. Despite the fear I have I’m also feeling relieved knowing that it’s almost over.
Hopefully this isn’t going to get redundant or repetitive as I type this. Basically, all I want to do is get everything out right now, it seems I can trust everyone on here.
First, I want to start by saying that I’m currently seeing a psychologist but there’s things I can’t even tell her. I found out I’ve been suffering from depression for about 5 years now, but starting last year my mind started deteriorating faster than I expected. One day I’m dreaming about the family I want to have and the next I’m dreaming of all the possible ways to die painlessly.
This scares me immensely. […]
It’s been a while since I have been on here. I consider myself a suicide survivor. My story is not anything crazy but I invite anyone to contact me, young or old, male or female, to contact me. I want to be here to be your outlet. I want to be someone to hear your story and to pass on my wisdom that things will get better. So please, please contact me before you decide to put an end to it all. I will show you the world is worth sticking around for. My email is 2sadhappy@gmail.com. If you email me I promise you a […]
I posted my story here yesterday. Someone asked me if I had ever gotten help from a mental health professional.
I have not. Honestly I’m scared. Not only of what everyone in my life will say, but about the process itself. I do not want to just be pumped full of anti-depressants and spend an hour each week talking about what makes me sad. I am also terrified of being admitted to a mental ward.
Is there anyone on here who has been to therapy/gotten mental help and would be willing to share what it’s like?
My name is Ashley Im 18 and I have severe deppression I dont have any friends I have my fiance and my dogs thats about it I first notticed my deppression when I was about 11 I started smoking weed when I was sad and I notticed it made me feel so much better probably because it would make me eat and go to sleep things didnt get to bad till I was 14 9th grade that was the age I began cutting my self and the age I first tried killing myself I was extremely skinny not because I cared about my weight but […]
So basically my dad told us the news on his birthday which sucked. This was before he left us.
Then my mum was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. She had a lot of treatments done.
What else.. My mum and dad officially got a divorce and my dad stayed at his parents’ house.
I started getting bullied, cyber and at school. I still do, it’s because I’m apparently ‘fat’.
I developed anxiety and depression. I moved out of my mum’s, but got kidnapped back by her, unwillingly. It didn’t last long. I then got a psycologist. I still have her. It sometimes helps, but hardly.
I then moved out of my […]
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the sad moments in my life
My story was sad and how my life was. I kept wanting to die, i never wanted to but there was times i did, i never wanted my life. My life had about the most horrible things in it. My mom kept staying with this person who kept wanting to kill himself. He abused me and my brother, He did drugs, and he drinked a lot of liqour. My mom cheated […]
Hello, I have gone through many things that contributed to depression. I am not asking for donations from any of you, but I am asking you to share this link so that I can hopefully share my story with millions! Thank you! <3
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after my first post i realised that as much as i hate talking about what bothers me, i have to… so here goes… this is the reason why i have lost my way, my happiness and my self..
All through high school my parents fought, as much or maybe more than every married couple does, but after a while my dads drinking had gotten worse by the day, my parents stopped sleeping in the same room, they stopped having conversations ( apart from the usual ‘whose gonna pay the bills’ argument), and we stopped being a family.
When i started university and they assumed i was now […]
Im 21 years old yet i still feel like such a useless child, that same little girl whose father wanted her aborted, whose mother sdespite this got back together with said father and stood by while he both physically and emotionally abused me. He eventually kicked me out after finding out i had been raped saying that i deserved it and was better of dead. I struggeled to find a new place to stay the night most nights, if i couldnt find a place id sleep in a stall at hyvee or a walmart. While homeless i became addicted to meth. Id spend everyday high […]
Everyday it seems like an endless struggle. Every morning seems harder. In all honesty, there are days where I close my eyes and think, well I wish this was it. To just fall asleep and never wake up. This is just a rant to let go of what I feel for now and maybe one day I will truly tell my story but for now this is what I feel & I don’t think I should be feeling it. I feel hopeless and worthless. I feel like I have failed in everything. All the people I trusted with my story have left. How am I […]
At age 6 I was raped. I covered it up, pretended to be happy. Pretended it didn’t happen. I was extremely shy and scared of people. He told me he would kill me if I told anyone.
When I was 7 my family moved. Leaving the man who raped me behind. I still miss the country side, my brother and I would go into the woods and catch animals. We had 2 begals, my dad traded them for a pig. He slautered it.
When school started I wasn’t very popular, and people bullied me. Calling me crack hills when I bent over, shoving me in the hall, […]
Im female, I’m 14 and have been self harming for 3yrs now. I was raped 5 times all by different people, beat by my step mom, ignored by my father, and I have tried to kill myself countless times. I have a few close friends that know what I’ve gone through and I have a girlfriend who is completely oblivious to the shit I’ve gone through… I just wanted to put a brief summary of my story out there so people know that sometimes it could be worst. Try and stay strong
I appreciate those who responded to my post about how I want to die from autoerotic asphyxia as there is no cure for what I am into! I was put on this Earth to share my story with as many people as I can! At least if I lose my sanity and end up taking my life because of this intense desire that I have, then I will have at least accomplished something very important by sharing my story about it!
I wish that there was someone who I could talk to about this, but I don’t trust anyone! I’ve gone to a couple of therapists […]
I guess my story can’t exactly be seen as a “suicide story”…
For a few years now I’ve been looking forward without any reason to do so. Call it survival, or monotony I don’t really know. The fact is, passion for something can only take you so far and that’s the one thing that keeps popping up in my mind.
Why do it? Why not stop? Honestly I don’t like being alive, feels more like some form of torture, I didn’t ask to be alive nor did I wanted to… Maybe I thought it was a competition so I cheated the leading sperm into second […]
Hi, this is my first post, so I thought I should tell you guys about my story…….
My parents both are a little messed up, my mother has OCD and Major Depressive Disorder. My dad has PTSD, that has made him turn to drug addiction. My parents both smoke marajuana (which is sadly, legal in our state) and that ended in my siblings and I being split up and put in different various foster homes. Since about two years ago I started self-harming (burning) and I have had two suicide attempts. After my first suicide attempt my families court case got closed and everyone returned home. […]
Hello my fellow SP users, this is your neighborhood unlicensed, untrained, and not so neighborly therapist. I hope some of you may remember my post from a while back. If not let me refresh your memory, it was an explanation of addiction and depression and other mental disorders such as OCD. I never told you all my story. The first time I can ever remember being suicidal was when I was ten years old or so, my brother and sister had been picking on me and my mom had yelled at me for it, I felt like hell and I wished desperately that the issues […]
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