I don’t know what to do anymore, there is this strange part of me that wants to die, kill myself, have someone kill me, just DIE.
But .. the thought of death scares me. Where do you go ? Is there a Heaven is there a Hell ?
Where is this ‘ LORD ‘ when I need him. I want to believe, it’s just so hard .. I know the devils real. I feel like he’s everywhere. He’s the blade that cuts me, he’s the alcohol that takes over my mother. The fist of my father. He’s the urge to die.
” Now I lay me down […]
I loved him. It was two long years with him. I cared. I gave 100% everyday I was with him. And the fact that he wants nothing to do with me is the worst feeling ever.
So I heard he was cheating on me. Which turned out to be a lie. He breaks up with me. I go take him his clothes. I get there and he won’t even acknowledge me. I run after him. Trying to get some kind of closure. He won’t give me any attention. That’s when I snap. [being ignored is my biggest pet peeve and what triggers my depression is […]
I am going to try to end this in less than 10 hours
need to find a specific chemical
and also I need to inject it, IV
two hard works
I don’t know how to inject IV, I’ve read some internet guide but I don’t know how useful it would be
wish me luck guys
I wish everyone on here could all hug each other. I like hugs. We all need hugs.
Recently I decided to take matters into my own hands and end my life. I’ve set the date (New Years Eve) the time and the place. I have even decided who I want to be present. The thing is, I am not actually that suicidal. I just understand that I have no further use on this planet. More people need to come to this realization. I have been kicked out of school and have a pretty crappy future because of a lack of new options for my life. I’m far too intelligent to work at McDonald’s or Wendy’s forever and quite frankly it is beneath […]
This world is really… How should I put it? Bland? Complicated? Most of my life is spent just living like a robot doing what’s expected of me and kind of just… not really connected to my body. Like I’m not really all that there.
I don’t know what I even want to do in life or why was I even born in the first place. Honestly, I feel like I’m useless. I don’t have any skills worth talking about, a coward and I’m socially awkward. I basically just there taking up space.
I hate my current job, it pays so little, and the union itself took a […]
-the helium or ******** tank
-the pressure gauge
-the tape
-the plastic bag
-plastic tubing?
what else would I need? i am only asking for informational purposes. and am not currently trying to use it.
and how much psi has to be released from the tank for this to work.
I wish I could believe in God. I wish I could convince myself that there was some omniscient, all loving being with the power to guide me and influence my circumstances for the better. I wish I could believe that there was a perennial force looking out for me and giving ubiquitous company. I wish I could believe that everything concludes with justice, that those who commit significant transgressions receive a punishment proportional to their crime. I wish I could believe that there is meaning in suffering, that the pain endured produced a reward to make it worth it.
I wish I could believe that life […]
i wish everybody on here and everybody in the world felt nothing but happiness at all times I wish there was no such thing as mean people I feel like if you really think about it most people’s sadness has to do with other people’s actions I just need for this world to be a good place I need to not raise my kids when I’m older to live in a place so depressing and fucked up I just need happiness and I need to be better at wording my thoughts because I sound like a little girl on here who isn’t making any sense
Yes, I have been addicted. Funny how the people who talk about addictions here don’t get many responses, but hey we bring it on ourselves right? Fuck the world and the judgements passed on addicts.
When I consider the prospect of overdose it makes me laugh. Essentially it’s the same thing as hanging yourself or shooting yourself (the end result being death), but because of the stigma around it, no one really wants to hear about the person who died of an overdose. No one really cares, but I don’t know why I even care to think about it. I mean, I do want to kill […]
First, there’s no such thing as a new person saying “I don’t know where to begin.” There is no place to begin, so saying that in your post means you’re overcompensating for using a different email. Second, if you talk about things that are not real, like buying happy pills or your fucking job, then you lose all credibility here. Third, every single person on earth hears voices it’s just that some people who love to judge and label things because they are afraid of not knowing things label and judge their voices to be somehow more special than self proclaimed normal people. The voice […]
So I decided to ask my mom if I could get happy pills. And so I’m talking with my doctor sometime this week to get prescribed. I decided to wait to see if I needed therapy – well, more of “wanted” therapy. I’m going to try taking small steps first to see how much help I really need, because at this point, I just don’t know anymore. Is it a good idea to work myself into this, or should I just push myself into therapy???
I totally just realized how much of a lil ***** I’ve been lately. Things have been way worse before and I didnt break down. Need to just grow the fuck up.
/???????
I haven’t felt the need to take my life in over a month and now the thoughts are creeping in on me
Theres a great psych doctor on youtube his search name is drofmindmd and he deals with suicidal patients as well as schizophrenic and bi polar. If you need to know anything about a drug or illness thats what you should do. Good luck!
I have a sweet tooth.
Days can pass and I won’t be hungry, won’t eat, but the second someone offers me something sweet- or if I find it myself- the fast is broken; it can be an apple, a piece of candy, grapes, ice cream. Anything.
But why? Who cares?
The reason is old and sad (or pathetic, if that’s how you want to see it).
We’re not rich. We usually don’t have a lot of food.
When I was younger, we still didn’t have much to eat, but we rarely got anything sugary (or fruits, because parents just went and bought fast food for the starving masses).
“Live or die, I’d rather take the latter route
Take the ladder route
Rope around my neck and kick the ladder out
There’s no need to drag it out”
To be fair I hate my self just as much as you hate me… I don’t need a fucking reminder of why I disappoint everyone and why I am nothing but trash… Treat me like the most vile disgusting creature on the face of this universe because I have no soul left. You’ve taken the last little but I didn’t even know I had… FUCK YOU!!!!
FUCK ALL OF YOU!
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