Being asked to take care of your 19 year old cousin’s kids because she abandons them, friends drama and my mother getting on my last nerves! please someone help me ! Any advice ? I really need it ! 🙁
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When i read suicide stories online. I allways read reactions like, don’t worry, one day everything will get better. It will all be allright. You might feel sad at the moment but your future will get brighter.
Well, stop lying, it’s not going to happen. I take my pills daily, pills to reduce my depression but also pills to reduce my pain. My nerves are damaged and i have chronical pain.
It’s going on for 2 years now, and no. It won’t get better, it won’t restore, i’ve lost all hope.
I shouldn’t even be drinking with my medication, but i do. I drink even more […]
The constant movement, struggle, and rotation of the world sets my mind ablaze. The constant parade of our society shouting demands from all people of all ages to look like this, talk like this, dress like this, believe in this, support this; if not, you’re nothing. How sweet is that…?
The neverending battle between good and evil, which has an invisible origin, kills my nerves every day. It’s like it makes me paranoid, asking myself constantly, “Am I believing in the right God?”, “Am I acting like I’m supposed to in order to be a member of this spiritual group/organization?”…..thoughts of ‘not being good enough’ or […]
It’s been one week since I’ve broken up with my first boyfriend and I still can’t seem to let him go…
It all started like this:
About 4 weeks ago, me and my friend were very bored on Facebook and decided to start a fake fight. We started commenting really mean things to each other (for the fun of it) and I get a friend request (actually 2) from this guy that just wanted to see and comment on our “fight.” Of course, me and my friend were Skyping with each other and I told her everything, and I accepted his request.
After 20 minutes or so, we […]
In a constant tension. Things getting worse and worse. Can’t stop it. Nerves. Want to just get out of this trembling place, and go nowhere further. Tired of thinking, suppressing emotions. Frightened. Can not stand it. No more. Throughout my childhood I felt it, waves of strong pity and fright.Nerves. It all deepening, thickening inside myself…No hope. No soul power anymore.
Do not know why am I writing those meaningless words, shivering. Mechanically writing … wherever.
Of course, I want to like Trevor. But there’s always something in the back of my mind that says I shouldn’t. Oh well. Said voice can find a new hobby. I mean, I’ve realized that Trevor is pretty awesome. But if he doesn’t like me, then good for him. I’m not saying that I’ll be completely mad and thinking that I’m better than him, ’cause I’m not. All humans are equal, except in their acts. I mean, you can’t say that you’re equal to Hitler in acts unless you did the same things he did. But Trevor hasn’t done anything bad that I know of, […]
if your with someone and you find out they were talking to a crap ton of others girl for a while, when do you draw the line? he hasn’t talked to any of them in about three weeks but I’m constantly afraid he is going to start up again and then decide he likes one of those girls better. he has done it before, broke up with me for someone he just met an hour before breaking up with me. and I just found out he was watching one of the girls via web cam when she was horny. why does he do these things […]
I woke up a little earlier than normal today considering how late I went to sleep last night, I didn’t feel angry or frustrated today but I definitely felt how normally do during school which is like I won’t be able to think or work on anything because I’ve got so much going through my mind like a storm of nerves. I feel that every person with depression(maybe not all) can relate to the shame and the loneliness it brings, for me I’ve been wanting to be understood more than anything. I’ve felt very small and impressionable because I hear things like you should do […]
i am being bullied at school for being bisexual all because this one girl i thought i trusted told everyone… so much for thinking she was a good friend i am living at my friends house because my mom and i just can not live together and my friends dad is always telling me too smile and too be happy… he doesn’t know i am sad and it is getting on my nerves when he does that because it is all the time and honestly telling me all that and is not really helping i just ignore and tune out must of the time… I […]
Since I was born my dad has beat me for everthing!! He has made me a baseball player and anytime I would mess up he would probably leave me at the place I messed up and always hit me and tell me horrible stuff ! He even hit me hard if I just got on his nerves. He told me that alot of people are better than me at a lot of things and that i’m not his son. And since 8th grade my grades have dropped by a lot and he tells me that im worthless. My mom barely talks to me.i have […]
Well.. time to write something… One more fucked up story isn’t gonna make a difference here, so..
You know when you’re young, you’re always told to obey the rules, respect your elders, do some good, expect nothing in return, be faithful, be honest, get a degree, don’t lie, work hard, respect your gf, satisfy her every need, marry her,buy a house, have kids.. and that’s what you call a happy and full life. If you live according to this, people will call you a happy man (i can’t speak for the women, sorry).
In such a state of mind i got to know her in high school. […]
Im not sure if this is the right place or time for this but here we go:
For the past years ive been struggling with my sexuality. Its literally been eating me alive since I finally realized that I was different from most guys. It consistently brings me down in a sense that the people that i love and surround myself with truly do not love me, but the shell i expose. Ive been able to calm my nerves for what seems like forever but as i enter college ive been exposed to new struggles that i honestly cannot deal with anymore. I cannot come […]
I’m terrified. And I feel completely alone.
I have not hurt myself since January and I have been on the right path not to, but I somehow can’t seem to hold it together lately. My anxiety has increased. My insomnia has increased. Even my fucking smoking has increased. Chainsmoking. Bad. But I use all of these things – my nerves, my lack of sleep, my bad habits – as scapegoats to escape what’s really bothering me. And the thing is, I think I know what’s bothering me but I’d rather not even say it out loud or even think about it, so I store it somewhere […]
I am. I’m just so unbelievably tired. I’m tired physically, I’m tired mentally, I’m tired emotionally. I don’t know why I’m here, I’m not sure I’ve ever known why I’m here. There doesn’t seem to be one person who honestly could not live without me. I have no friends. I had one. She was like a sister to me. She got on my nerves, she drove me crazy, but she was always there for me. She kept me grounded. And now, she’s moving on, and it’s obvious she’s moving on without me. She got a new job, she has a new boyfriend.. I want to […]
I have had 16 years of anxiety ridden life. The social phobia has gotten the best of me, I have no friends and am not in school. I stopped going last year in October.. After I ran away.
I was living in a dilapidated house. The ceilings leaked, the water pipes didn’t work, there was no heat. It had been less than a month that we lived there and we loved there due to transitions of homes. We were waiting for things to go through with the house we would be renting. Anyways, I was dealing with that and then school. I have no friends, […]
Everything today has gone to shit….
My brother just waking up and going to watch tv somehow got on my nerves
I had a credit card company call and leave a message
I had a bike stolen a while ago which was given to me by my landlord and she just asked where it was…. (least of my problems)
I lost a friend and I don’t know why… I just woke up and all of the sudden shes unfriended me…. 🙁 this one hurts the most…
I ruined my plant – I was trying to change the cycle to make it bud, covering it with a garbage bag, and now […]
Over a year a go, I went to a doctor just to talk to someone. I was just having one of those of days, that was all. I was never depressed. Anyway, she gave me these tablets that were citalopram without explaining what they were, how long I should take them for or when it would be reviewed. She didn’t even explain why she thought I should be on them in the first place. All she said was if it was me, i would take them. I had been taking these tablets from October 2010-November 2011 without knowing what they were. This was a trainee […]
It’s laying late in bed. There’s a thousand & one reasons to hate yourself. I’ve given up on myself 6 times. The most severe time that I do remember was on February 2, 2012.
I stayed home from school (my senior year). I don’t like going to school when I feel really depressed. I usually just told my mom that I was sick. MY mind played tricks on me & my nerves made me sick. There was a full bottle of NyQuil & full bottle of Extra Strength Tylenol. I took both. I chugged & swallowed. Things shouldn’t have gotten this bad. I called my friend […]
I haven’t posted for a while,
Not a lot has changed I’ve began to see a psychologist again. But the reasons for that boil down to the decision I made on last weekend.
I couldn’t cope anymore, as my last post states.. I didn’t know if I would attempt again.. But something set me off on Friday.
At first I tried to squash the thought out of my head..
But it kept coming back. It felt just like any other day lately.. Dull, boring and grey. I walked into the pharmacy at the end of my street, placed my script on the bench and nodded at […]
I don’t really see what else there is for me to do. I feel like all I ever do internally and out is apologize for the kind of person I am and the choices I’ve made. I feel like I should apologize for not being successful the last three times I tried to commit suicide, both to myself and to everyone who’s had to deal with me since those points.
It’s been made pretty much abundantly clear that I am the thing standing between my mother and her relationship. Her **** of a boyfriend is so pre-occupied with how much of a disappointment I am that […]
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