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a little update

by run rabbit run 1/26/2016

written by run rabbit run

I am dying inside and still feel like dying in the literal fashion

However I have decided, I am not to take my own life, I’m going to go back to the Militia in Syria. I was happy there. I left a life I love for a woman that emotionally tortured the shit out of me for nearly a year. If I die there then so be it.

Things were going well, her parents had talked some sense into her, She got the Christmas Presents I sent (over $2k worth) my house was getting ready for sale (I am pulling it off the market in the next […]

1/26/2016 3 comments

Life…….

by Shaggyrodgers 1/25/2016

written by Shaggyrodgers

So, im new here. Ive had manic depression since i was a child. But in the last few months ive been on a terrible low. I was thrown out of my house, due to an argument with a roomate that escalated to blows, they had a kid, they got to stay. So now im living in my parents basment, i lost my job when i lost my place. Realy the only thing keeping me sane at the moment are the chemicle kisses (drugs) and my childhood friend… But now he is trying to get clean… And i support his decision, drugs are bad…. Mkay? But […]

1/25/2016 3 comments

My faith

by teresa45 1/25/2016

written by teresa45

I tried to kill myself last Tuesday. I don’t remember anything except waking up in the hospital. This was my third attempt. How do I keep surviving? I pray so much that my prayers are me actually begging God to help me. Still no answers. Am I here to be punished? People speak of a hell after we die. Does it really exist or is this really hell and there is nothing after this. I want to believe so bad there is something good after this hell i’m in on this earth.

1/25/2016 12 comments

Cutting for no reason

by 221bb 1/24/2016

written by 221bb

I have nothing better to do so I’m cutting myself. I feel to overwhelmed and unmotivated to do anything else, like studying for exams. I think I do it for attention to a certain extent because I do it in a noticeable place.

1/24/2016 12 comments

What if?

by princeroxpa 1/21/2016

written by princeroxpa

What if I told you I was suicidal?

You would say, “Suicide is for the weak. The ones who can’t bear to live anymore.”

But I’m not weak. I’m choosing to kill myself. Does that show weakness?

What if I told you I had nothing to live for anymore?

You’d tell me the meaning of life is to be happy. What about my parents and friends?

What if I told you I had no friends?

“What friends?” I’d ask. “The ones who think I’m just a moody *****? The girls who are too immature to understand what […]

1/21/2016 4 comments

nothing

by luka 1/21/2016

written by luka

No family.

no friends.

no feelings.

no reason to keep on going.

i’m barely able to do anything.

at least i’m not depressed any more, but i sometimes miss feeling the sadness.

i spend most of my time thinking about suicide.

1/21/2016 4 comments

Rant!

by bah 1/20/2016

written by bah

Do some things just make your blood boil? This is unrelated to depression / suicide, though this is one of the many reasons why I’m pissed at how terribly run and inefficient the USPS and 99% of all companies are.

So I ordered something from Amazon. The sent it via USPS. USPS claims that they attempted delivery at 1:03pm on Monday, Jan 18. On MLK Day. Yeah, on MLK Day. What bullshit is that? USPS was CLOSED that day. They weren’t making any goddamn deliveries. Tracking says that “delivery was refused.” I assumed they’d just redeliver […]

1/20/2016 6 comments

What do you think comes after death?

by NiDDA 1/19/2016

written by NiDDA

Some will say nothing, some will say heaven/hell, reincarnation.

What would happen if you die by suicide?

A man told me once, that if it isn’t your time, and you are rejected from heaven, but your body is unable to have your soul back (exsanguinated or something), you will stuck between the membrane of the earth and heaven.

I don’t believe in heaven.

What do you believe?

1/19/2016 24 comments

It’s 5am again

by Dungeon 1/19/2016

written by Dungeon

It’s 5am , don’t want to sleep. My life is a jungle I shouldn’t have traversed and I’m stuck in the quicksand of my own errors. Things will not change for me. I will eventually be swallowed and surrounded by warm shadows. I want nothing, I want to be nothing. There’s almost nothing left of me. I switch from being numb to being in pain until once again I feel nothing, a maelstrom that I will never escape. Maybe it’s time I got off this ride.
There may be no doors for this Dungeon, but there’s still a way out.

1/19/2016 0 comment

I feel like nothing, and I can only see one way of how to get out of it

by nicole123 1/18/2016

written by nicole123

I feel like nothing . I am nothing. I don’t do anything anymore . Today I skipped my job interview because I was tired and I was scared . I never used to be like this ? I’m terrified of being judged . So I didn’t go .

I have another tomorow so I’ll try to go … But I’ve been having social anxiety for months now . People used to say I was a social butterfly.

I’ve been thinking about suicide a lot lately . There is nothing in my life that makes me remotely happy. Absolutely nothing . Probably eating. But suicide is the […]

1/18/2016 7 comments

Is there any point to life..?

by kbking6 1/17/2016

written by kbking6

I wounder everyday, for what reason have I been put on this planet, why was I born – what difference am I making to this shitty world? The struggle for everyday survival, the 9-5 deadbeat job and the same constant fucking routine; that we call everyday life.

I can’t move on, there’s nothing to look forward to anymore, nothing to smile, care, love and be happy about; Just pain, misery loneliness. I walk down the street, see happy people all around me, couples holding hand – kissing, children playing etc. The people who helped destroy my relationship, the ones who I once […]

1/17/2016 2 comments

Unbearable Loneliness

by GerbzBaby 1/16/2016

written by GerbzBaby

Everyday is the same never f*cking ending routine. I get up, eat, go to work, come home and lay around until my body succumbs to drowsiness. I do nothing in my free time anymore. My passion for art is completely dead and my friends never invite me to do anything. They don’t text me or even come close to asking if they want to hang out with a loser like me. I feel alone. I feel uncared for. I feel unappreciated. I’m rotting from the inside out. Why the hell was i born if I was meant to suffer? If I was meant to hate […]

1/16/2016 3 comments

Nihilism

by Costy 1/16/2016

written by Costy

Idk why, I lived for 20 years and always did what I wanted . The thing is, if after death is nothing,why not go into that nothing?

What could be more awesome than to return into the nothingness we came from.

1/16/2016 3 comments

Dying inside

by endlessregret 1/16/2016

written by endlessregret

I’m going to kill myself. The world would be better without me. Who would miss me? I could count the people on one hand? Suicide is not selfish. It is in fact selfish of the people around me to not let me let kill myself. I should have done this years ago. I live alone. It would take days for anyone to notice. No one would check. He wouldn’t give two shits. He’s moved on. You were unimportant to him. You really are unimportant to several people. The only people who might care are mom and dad. Everyone else will move on. That’s what people […]

1/16/2016 5 comments

I feel like a robot…

by Lawli 1/15/2016

written by Lawli

It feels like my depression isn’t as bad, but it’s only because I feel so emotionless now. I can barley have a conversation with someone, I’m not interested in having a conversation with anyone. My mind feels blank but my head is full.

I have been like this for a couple of days. I have been depressed for a long time but now I finally feel so empty, a lot of the time I’m just staring mid air thinking about nothing. I have no interest in anything and most things just seem boring to me now. I just feel so hopeless, purposeless, like nothing.

1/15/2016 5 comments

I don’t want to live…

by s1221 1/13/2016

written by s1221

But I don’t want to die? I’m so tired of feeling as depressed as I do. None of the drugs I’ve been prescribed have worked for me. Nothing makes me happy anymore. My friendships are ending one by one, and I can’t even seem to care about that anymore. I can’t…

1/13/2016 4 comments

Zoochosis.

by whiskered-fish 1/12/2016

written by whiskered-fish

The mind-numbing monotony of my life is driving me fucking insane. I feel like a dead person already.

How many days of my life have I wasted doing nothing? I don’t want to think about it.

1/12/2016 10 comments

Insomnia

by Luke 1/12/2016

written by Luke

1/12/2016 3 comments

To that point

by justanothergirl09 1/10/2016

written by justanothergirl09

On Wednesday it was Challenge Day.

I had turned in a permission slip so I was called down to the gym.

When I walked in I was terrified. I only knew one person in there and she had her own friends so it was like I was alone. Everyone sat in this big circle in the middle of the gym. I thought we would have to talk in front of everyone. I cringed every time they said we would play a game.

As time passed, (I was still scared but not as much) we were told to get in our assigned groups. In the beginning of that activity, […]

1/10/2016 2 comments

Date tonight

by brokenandbent30 1/8/2016

written by brokenandbent30

I was so done after this veteran was full of crap when I dated him. I even went out of my way to get transportation to see him. That’s how much I cared. He told me he was in love with me and other sweet things. I get too caught up in words. They mean nothing. After seeing him and not hearing from him, I went on the dating site and told him off. I told him I hope someone breaks his heart. He said he couldn’t find my number, but he could have easily found me on the dating site like I found him. […]

1/8/2016 5 comments

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