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Human’s Imagination / Humans’ Imagination / Humans Imagination is better than Reality

by niki 2/2/2017

written by niki

Human’s Imagination / Humans’ Imagination / Humans Imagination is better than Reality

Movie / movies is better than reality / real life / real world
Video game / games is better than reality / real world / real life
Novel /novels is better than reality / real-life / real-world /
Sci-fi / Science-fiction is better than reality / reallife / realworld
Fantasy is better than reality / real world / real life
Anime / manga is better than reality / realworld / reallife
Dream / dreams is better than reality / real-world / real-life

I hate reality !!!!
Reality it’s all about MONEY !!!!!!
Reality is BORING […]

2/2/2017 3 comments

Moving forward

by lifehappens 1/27/2017

written by lifehappens

The minutes are torturess. It’s as if someone is screaming inside of me. My life has become unbearable.

But suddenly now I’m at peace, with the concept of death. I’ve reached the point where I’m okay with how I feel. I accept it. I accept that my life may end with an impulsive slit to the throat. I accept that I may go on for a lifetime feeling this pain and enternal hurt.

I accept these things, but it doesn’t mean I’m no longer aching inside. Because I am. I still have this dull heavy pain in my chest but I’m no longer fighting it. […]

1/27/2017 6 comments

the problem of pain

by motherchucker 1/24/2017

written by motherchucker

Hello friends. If anyone has suggestions on how to at least cope with the persistent pain of being alive when you don’t want to be, it’d be most welcome. Or just feel free to share whatever’s on your mind. I have gotten to the point of drawing nooses in my course syllabus. You know, like an emo high school MCR fan, except I’m 22 and too old for this juvenile behavior. I’ve gotten to the point beyond tears, where all that remains is a constant dull ache in the chest. Like I’m lugging around weights. I hate going to school, but all other avenues in […]

1/24/2017 1 comment

On The Fence

by LilacSky 1/15/2017

written by LilacSky

This is my first post. Honestly, never in my life did I think I’d be on a website like this but here I am. Not that there’s anything wrong with sites like this, I’m just usually too shy to do anything like this.

But I guess this is my story?

Since elementary school, I’d been struggling with self-esteem, self-confidence, depressive feelings, anorexic tendencies, and suicidal thoughts.

As time went by, it all only got worse and worse. And now, here I am, in high school and wondering which way I should kill myself. I recently moved in with my dad after more than ten years of not living […]

1/15/2017 15 comments

I f*cked up today.

by ARegularHuman 12/23/2016

written by ARegularHuman

Hello there. I’ve been around this site for a few months now. I see people are quite nice around here, so i guess i’ll be telling a few tales regarding how i got to the point i am at now. Perhaps what i say will fall in non-deaf ears for once.

12/23/2016 4 comments

to dangerous

by passionfruit3 12/15/2016

written by passionfruit3

the days are going by so quickly.Soon my sister will be going away and all i can do is try to leave her before she leaves me.Honestly its not fair.My sister doesnt even say she loves me sometimes she treats me terribly and yet i cant live without her cause ill be alone.I have other family but theyll leave to.they always say they will.i dont want to be alone.
Theres more two days ago i realized i was evil.The voices told me when i was fourteen i was now i realize that to be true.if i dont die someone will be hurt.I dont want to […]

12/15/2016 0 comment

Contract killer

by pinkcoconut 11/28/2016

written by pinkcoconut

Hoping this doesn’t count as a ‘method’ – not my intention to break the rules.

For me, suicide is an end to pain. All the ways of ending it sound painful. I’m also spontaneous about it, so when I do have the strong urge to do it, I’m so in the throes of madness that I can’t think straight enough to end my life in a sensible way. And if I’m in a better state – just suicidal but not raging – when I think of the ways, it just exhausts me.

This pain is going to be in and out of my life forever, and […]

11/28/2016 4 comments

Last Hope Vanished

by silverComplex 11/27/2016

written by silverComplex

Hello, Ladies and Gentlemen.

How do you do? I’ve read many suicide notes and just registered an account to publish my own suicide note. Where do I start from? I guess from the beginning, eh. Well, I turned 22 this year on the November the 6th. Been severely depressed since 2. I had severe trauma and most likely resulted in brain damage which my parents aren’t telling me about. I have an intermediate stutter and I noticed I have a learning disability and throughout colleges and schools. I’ve been severely bullied on and off basis to the point I had to use deadly force and also been […]

11/27/2016 45 comments

i wish harry potter was real , i wish fantastic beasts were real , i wish magic was real , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

by niki 11/23/2016

written by niki

i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !

reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !

Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is […]

11/23/2016 6 comments

Do you feel the same?

by DepressedFilipina 11/10/2016

written by DepressedFilipina

The act of eating too much because you think that maybe it will help you ease the emptiness inside you.

The act of sleeping too much thinking that maybe somehow things will change the moment you wake up from your every sleep.

Do you feel the same?

It feels really empty, no matter how many people talk to me, be friends with me, laugh with me still at the end of the day I still feel crap and depressed. And I dont even know the fucking reason.

11/10/2016 4 comments

Somebody please give me a better option than suicide

by cripple-jo 11/5/2016

written by cripple-jo

I don’t want to die, but I can’t live like this. A year ago I had a head injury. It was just a mild concussion, and I was expected to make a full recovery. Then, the unthinkable happened: before I recovered, I got another concussion, and a neck injury. This set off a cascade of unfortunate events that have taken almost every aspect of my life away from me. I can’t work, can’t sleep, can barely walk, can’t sit for more than a few minutes due to pain, and feel like I am slowly losing control over my arms and legs. Over time, things have […]

11/5/2016 6 comments

I’m weak, and I’m finally admitting it

by orange-juice 11/3/2016

written by orange-juice

I’m 17. I can hear too many things going on in my head but at the same time I feel blank. I love life but I hate life. Everything is so confusing and I feel a lump in my throat when I try to explain what I really want, so I thought I’d type it.

I don’t want the life that everyone is told to follow. Working behind a desk, getting large sums of money for rotting away in a grey, dull workplace and consistently working for a force that marginalises freedom. I want freedom. I just wish I could run through endless green fields that […]

11/3/2016 2 comments

Maybe writing it will make me feel better, just maybe

by Koaline 10/29/2016

written by Koaline

It’s been months since I’ve started to come here to find comfort, just seeing people as eager to quit this world as me makes me feel better, I felt safe, and comfortable each time I opened up the website, so I’ve decided to create an account too.

My issue is not necessarily coming from a particular event but much more from a profoundly anchored existantial boredom. Each passing day is the same, even though I know there is so much I have not seen? Being human is such a weird experience. There are so many things I want to say I don’t know what to start […]

10/29/2016 3 comments

I hate reality ! reality is boring ! Doctor Strange , Marvel MCU , Avengers , Sword Art Online , Virtual Reality , games , movies , novels , anime manga , comics is better than reality !

by niki 10/29/2016

written by niki

I hate reality ! reality is boring !

Doctor Strange is better than reality !
Marvel MCU (Marvel Cinematic Universe) is better than reality !
Avengers is better than real world !
Sword Art Online is better than real life !
Virtual Reality is better than boring reality !
video games is better than reality real life real world !
movies is better than real-world real-life reality !
novels is better than real-life real-world reality !
anime manga is better than boring real life real world reality !
comics is better than boring real world real life reality !

Why Human’s Imagination is much better than […]

10/29/2016 4 comments

Imperfection

by mylifeisamess 10/6/2016

written by mylifeisamess

Imperfection

What is perfect to me?

I always thought that being a perfect person was to one, just be skinny. That was the main point, to be skinny. Everyone loves skinny girls, right? No one loves fat, but apparently that’s all I have. That’s my blanket around my bones.

I look at my reflection every single day and just examined myself, and my flaws. I stare at how my hips are wide and how fat covers every inch, also on how my shoulders are wide and broad. I look at my small breast and my fat thighs. […]

10/6/2016 11 comments

At this point, just looking for a peaceful exit.

by princess_switters 10/2/2016

written by princess_switters

I attempted suicide back in May, and while certainly not my first attempt (I’ve lost count) it was the most serious. I OD’d on phenobarb and diazepam, was intubated and in coma for 10 days, and 5 months later my left leg is still paralyzed from the knee down from sciatic nerve damage sustained while unconscious.

I was naïve enough to think that returning to university this Fall would make me happy and give me a renewed sense of purpose, but class started last week and since then my desire to be dead has resurfaced and intensified to the point where it’s all I think about. I […]

10/2/2016 3 comments

im so tired of everything

by peaceminusone 9/20/2016

written by peaceminusone

m so tired.like seriously tired. I have the worst family,friends,luck,everything. Ive been through physical and emotional abuse from my dad. My dad is one pain in the ass,hes an alcoholic,he yells at everyone,he doesnt respect my mom and me. Etc etc etc the list could go on and on. I hate him i hate seeing him i hate hearing him i hate everything about him and i know some people would scold me for this because no matter what hes my dad but Ive done everything to be patient and understand him but i just fucking cant. I hate how he makes my mom suffer. […]

9/20/2016 0 comment

I am a horrible human being

by Fleur fragile 9/13/2016

written by Fleur fragile

For me, it is my fault. The rest of the world sucks, yeah, but I put all of this upon myself.

You see, I did something incredibly horrible. I lied. Not a white lie, not a normal lie, not a lie that should be or could be forgiven by anyone. I am not going to tell you the lie, because this is my last safe haven and I don’t want you all to know the exact details of the horror that I committed. Just trust that I am right in my wrongness.

I don’t know how to live with myself. I don’t know what to do with […]

9/13/2016 10 comments

I’m done.

by noairtobreathe 9/4/2016

written by noairtobreathe

I don’t know how to say it nicely but I’m done. I am so tired. Tired of living a lie. It’s gotten progressively worse this summer, to the point where it’s 10x worse than it’s ever been since I developed depression several years ago. No one cares about me, I know that. I’m the one to message others, to call them, to love them, not the other way around. I know I’m unloveable. I don’t know why, I have theories, but I know it’s true, it’s been proven many times. I imagine it must be exhausting for others, my “family” and “friends” to pretend to […]

9/4/2016 1 comment

If scars could speak…

by me-inside 9/1/2016

written by me-inside

If each cut could speak. If each scar could scream. They’d tell you the reason their there. Upon my arms, legs, stomach hips…every part. They’d tell you it’s for many reasons. Memories of the abuse, the rape replays in my mind. Voices shout say it was my fault…that I should abuse myself. Maybe I’m so use to it, that it’s the one thing I know well. My reasons..are one to many. Abused, pain. anger, hate….some even a suicide attempt or two. But there are a million reasons, if only they could speak…they’d tell you

9/1/2016 2 comments

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