From my last post I the comments I guess it’s clear that some understood and some took their spin on it. Oh well :3 I think I will post something on here every day. With no one I want to listen due to overbearing and unreasonable care this is perfect vent. I want to say that I love my girlfriend so much. She loves me. We don’t fight, and we have the occasional argument along with disagreements. Today, sigh, like many days… My parents are gone and were alone, “locked” outside but alone. It seems that she will tease me to no end. I shall. […]
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I always fight with my parents for stupid reasons like food, using computer, using the air conditioner etc. When I prove they are wrong, they yell and shout at me and say that I misbehave! Then, I become extremely aggressive by throwing things everywhere: pillows, blankets, remotes… are all on the floor or broken, I cannot control my anger; sometimes, my father tries to beat me but luckily I run fast to my room and lock myself up to avoid the fight…
When I’m alone in my room, I just want to commit suicide, I just want to write a farewell letter and say goodbye […]
I feel like i’m a failure at life. No one likes me. I annoy every single person I talk to and no one wants me here. I already thought about commiting suicide multiple times, but my best friend talked me out of it every time, showing me videos, talking to me, asking me to stay for her. But i’m not sure I can do it anymore. I just don’t want to live anymore. My life sucks and my parents aren’t doing anything about it. It’s like they also don’t want me here, so they’re not doing anything about it so I can kill myself and […]
My mom just gave birth to a baby girl which means i now have 4 sisters. I’m afraid that she’ll end up to hate the world,to feel unwanted and to feel like she needs to be perfect like the other 3. I want this baby to be positive about everything,to believe,to hope,to think that everything isn’t based on appearance and that everyone should be excepted. I want her to be open minded and open hearted like i am. Me as the first born watched as my mother attempted to raise us all in hate but i was the only one able to wake up and […]
Its not even like I’d care .. Almost everythings gone anyway . I had my parents taken away when I was 2 because of drug addiction . All my biggest hopes and wishes were taken away when I was 8 and I realized “mommy” & “daddy” don’t think I’m any more important than their drugs and new boyfriends/girlfriends . When I was 11 , leuchemia took my grandma from me . This past winter my past caught up with me . All my memories started rushing back and I started acting differently . Because I’d changed so much , all my friends were taken from […]
Ever heard that song about teddy bears in the woods having a picnic…?
‘If you go out in the woods today, You’re sure of a big surprise, If you go out into the woods today, You’d better go in disguise’.
I have no idea what that song has to do with this post or even my thoughts, but the song came into my head yesterday evening and has buzzing through my head like a constant bird’s song. And for the minority of the majority of you that are wondering whether or not i still want to kill myself, the answer is yes, i do.
Fuck.
I really want to […]
It started when I was 11, the bullying. It was simple at first; called fat and ugly. It started to excel though, through out the year. I was a heavy set child, short and pudgy. But not obese. I told my mum, she said I just wanted attention. I let it keep happening for a couple months, then it got out of hand. I started being followed home by a couple of boys. They rode bikes usually, sometimes skateboards. I didn’t know what they wanted with me. A couple weeks after, a brick broke my window in the middle of the night. There was a […]
Sometimes I feel like I’m pretty and smart but then I look in the mirror and every name I’ve ever been called just comes flashing back to me and I try to be strong but I can’t. I just can’t. I don’t want to deal with this anymore, I don’t want to be me anymore. I tried reaching out to someone in real life but she thought I was kidding and she doesn’t understand. She’s never felt like this for a day in her life. I understand that I’m not the only one to feel like this, but I’m the only one here, where I […]
I can’t take it anymore. I feel like dying. School is just so much pressure, and I’m so clumsy, that I lose things. My parents yell at me for losing things that cost money. I feel like they care about money more than me. I’ve been suicidal since I was eight. Eight! I felt too much pressure and stess too often. None of my friends and family know about this at all. The only reason I don’t suicide is because it hurts. I don’t want to feel the pain. I’m thinking, “If I have lots of pain, why add more?”
I know I’m young, and I […]
To un-explain the unforgivable, Drain all the blood and give the kids a show….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
Today.. was interesting. It was parents evening, so my dad got to meet my teachers :D… Haha… No. It was going alright until we came to my english teacher, Which started off good. She cracked a few jokes, kept making me laugh. Then she turned serious, Saying that she had 2 things she wanted to bring up. 1. I was writing lyrics in the back of my book instead of doing the work… And number 2… Well she turned around and took my book off the window sill saying that she had seen something that was worrying her, at this point I had started to […]
1st of all i would like to say thanks to the almighty who gave a chance to me.i am thankful to my parents for giving birth to me.but am not happy with this life.from childhood onwards no one likes me.ever 1 hates me.am not beautiful an ugly face ever 1 hates me.from childhood i had grew in lonely.i studied well got job but still ever 1 hates me.none of my relatives like me.even my parents are saying the same.no one in this world likes me..if i want some one they reject me…why??????
I go to a public school but it is a very high-standards school. We take both highschool and college classes at the same time. No, they’re not AP, we actually take them at the local community college. This school is SO stressful, I am just a freshman and almost killed myself in December. Almost all of the juniors are potheads, to deal with their stress. The school is also stereotypical for socially awkward kids but really, we just don’t give a fuck about drama and the social scene. There are about 400 kids total (all of the grade levels 9-12) where the other schools in […]
This is my story, just need to share.
I was raped (sodomized, whatever you want to call it) a few times when I was a kid by my uncle, my grandpa knew but didn’t say anything about it. Grew up with that hanging over my head, told a few friends but all they said was, “man, that sucks.” I didn’t really expect them to say much, but nothing would be better than that. It’s the reason I don’t have a gf, I’m afraid that that abuse will carry over. My parents got divorced when I was 7, dad remarried shortly after that to a […]
is it weird that all of my past will never leave my mind… my childhoood was horrible being bullied. parents fighting….. trying to be happy. my grades are really good like always.. … and then there is him. mr. flirty-shy guy … he doesnt flirt alot. but .. yeaa. idk wat i did wrong. we dnt talk like we used too.. Â ehh.
I still cut tho… unfortunately ive tried to stop but its too addicting… its beeen almossttt 3 yeaarss. that ive been cutting… sometimes i stop for a week. or 2 months but it comes back.. Â any remedies to get over a crush?? Â ANY?????? Â any […]
Hey guys,
The last time i post on this site was thursday i think. I was trying to make a fresh start but things kinda changed the next day when a girl from my school died from a burst appendix. Today i was at her funeral and it was very sad. She did’nt have many friends sadly and was an only child i could hardly keep my tears away today at the funeral. Why was’nt it me? since i want to die.
I did’nt even know her well but i was still depressed as it should’ve been me and she did’nt deserve to die […]
This is all bull shit. Life in general is bull shit. I had the worst weekend ever and all I got out of it is that life is bull shit. I was tackled to the floor by my parents, I ran away from home, and was threatened to have the cops called on me. All for nothing. My family doesn’t understand me. They understand what I do. I’m soo sick and tired of all this. I’m tired of waking up everyday feeling the same old way and being able to do nothing about it.
I tried killing myself this weekend. Tried hanging myself for the first […]
i used to believe in so many things. i believed in happiness. i believed in happy endings. i believed in miracles. i even believed in destiny. but now i don’t even know what the word ” believe ” means. my parents are divorcing and i’m realizing that no one actually really cared about me. not even a little bit. not even at all. because they don’t know understand how much it hurts to be the messed up one. the mistake. the failure. i’ve got no reason to be watched. i’ve got nothing special. i’m just .. broken. i don’t think it’s even possible to […]
my name is matt, I live in new jersey. i started off with depression when i was 3. at that time my father began beating me i would estimate once a week, as well as my father having somewhat severe fights with my mother which often hurt me because she would be emotionally unavailable and I obviously was very distant from my father which made me feel alone. this feeling of being alone has always embodied me. i now am 19. i started off in middle school acting out and made a lot of “friends” but got myself in a lot of trouble just because […]
i know this is suicide help but im caught on running away;
my boyfriend that i love so much and been with for the longest through THE MOST (me cheating, arguing daily, thinking im pregnant, my bulimia & anorexia, self inflicting, and self esteem) may be going to jail because of my mom; we may argue a lot but in the end were more in love than anything you could imagine; i was raped by my moms ex boyfriend and touched by her 2nd ex husband; all of this is coming out as once; and its sooo much pressure and i dont want my boyfriend […]
Right now I feel like I should just get rid of myself, not only for my sake, but for everyone else’s. My parents are pressuring me into studying law, and I hate it. I’ve had to move from my home city to study it, and there is so much pressure on me to pass everything that I feel like my mind is going to explode. I’ve tried talking to my parents about how much I don’t want to be in this city and about how much I hate law, but they just keep telling me that I’m “wasting the opportunities in front of me”, and […]