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everybody’s looking for something

by 1298 8/29/2013

written by 1298

don’t read this

just wanted to say thattttt, well, not even feeling suicidal now, because I’m drunk, buttttt I understand how about 90% of you feel (after reading the posts as a non-member for a while) annnd i think this site is amazing. because when i was feeling these thoughts i was a lot younger (not that I don’t feel them now) but let’s face it when you’re younger you almost have to depend on your parents and it only worsens that feeling of helplessness when you can’t drive/escape because you rely on your parents’ money/support, etc. and when I was younger I didn’t have a […]

8/29/2013 0 comment

This is what I think of when I try to sleep.

by Kallian 8/29/2013

written by Kallian

It isnâ€™t my intention to hurt anyone, and I apologize in the case that I actually do. Letâ€™s just face it, Iâ€™m not cut out for living. I canâ€™t do things right, Iâ€™m useless to my parents, Iâ€™m only someone to make fun of, and Iâ€™m just hated by a lot of people.

My mom, Kathy, she constantly makes remarks proving just how useless I am. For example, we would walk into the Air Force Academy Clothing Sales store, she would see those stupid â€œMy daughter goes to the Air Force Academyâ€ bumper stickers, and she would make the comment: â€œI wish I could put that […]

8/29/2013 3 comments

Am I the only one broken?

by hogpotter 8/28/2013

written by hogpotter

Today in class we were doing an activity, we had to draw our family tree and discuss the interesting things about our family. And of course, you can guess already, it is the worst thing for someone as broken as me.

Others talked about their siblings, about what their parents do, their grandparents. Me? What is the interesting thing of my family? My grandmother attempted suicide, my father is dead, I do not regard my mother, I dont know where my cousin is brought away by her stepmother.

And people are so stupid. All of them. I hate everyone.

I feel […]

8/28/2013 2 comments

My Stories

by HunterBrown 8/28/2013

written by HunterBrown

there are an awful lot of stories on this site, but every story is different right? the base feelings of despair are mixed into all of them, but how you came to be there and what you plan to do is always different. most of us are suicidal, hence the name “the suicide project” i suppose. i am no exception. but maybe it’s time i told the whole story of how i came to be here and what i plan to do.
my story is not filled with rape or abuse or anything like that. ive never been the loner at the back of the […]

8/28/2013 2 comments

help

by tearrdr0pps 8/27/2013

written by tearrdr0pps

i’m very sad, half Â the time i don’t even know why. I feel like it’s the things i do or the things i’ve done, also that maybe it’s my parents. I want to try hard at everything Â i do but i feel like i’m incapable of doing well. People say mean stuff about me, about my hair, the way i dress, my personality, everything about me basically. I feel like no one can understand me, no one gets what i feel inside. I’ve been like this for almost 3 years, i’ve been trying so hard to fight back my urge to commit suicide, even though […]

8/27/2013 4 comments

Question about hanging yourself?

by bwhite97 8/27/2013

written by bwhite97

So in the auditorium at my school, there are all these convenient ropes hanging from the ceiling. I haven’t made any plans just yet so don’t worry, my question is what happens if you do kill yourself at school? Can the school or my parents get in trouble? What would the school do? I don’t want anyone getting in trouble. Any info would be appreciated thanks.

8/27/2013 5 comments

I don’t know what to do with myself…

by Mallory 8/27/2013

written by Mallory

I’m sitting here at 4 in the morning because I’m in too much emotional pain to sleep. I can’t stand being myself. I care too much for my best friend. I don’t understand it. I think I love her as more than a friend, even though we are the same gender. I have to force myself to support her when she tells me that she wants to be with a guy. I have to sit and pretend she isn’t sleeping with someone else. I have to pretend I don’t love her because it would ruin our friendship.Â But I love this person so much. I care […]

8/27/2013 12 comments

starving for affection

by blindaudio 8/26/2013

written by blindaudio

My home life really isn’t as bad as some here. But, I’m not going to say it is spactacular, because I would not be telling the truth.

But at home, there is always conflicts. People are always unhappy. And if I want to talk to anyone in my family about my feelings of depression or emptiness or loneliness, they get shoved asside. When I went to the mental home last year and my parents found I was suicidal, it was more like, you’re turning your back on god, or, how could you be so selfish?

I never want to be a greedy person or selfish, […]

8/26/2013 13 comments

A video I made about my SURVIVAL

by fantasiaw 8/25/2013

written by fantasiaw

It took all i had to make this. I couldn’t be any more proud. Days are still hard but I’m happy I reached this point.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kry9R8TN4pQ

8/25/2013 0 comment

What Now?

by fantasiaw 8/25/2013

written by fantasiaw

I don’t really know what else i can do anymore. Cameron died almost exactly a year ago (September 8 2013) and I am STILL not over it. I’ve gone to all the groups, I’ve been hospitalized for PTSD, I’ve got a new boyfriend who treats me like gold, I go out, I don’t talk about it all the time anymore. What else can I do to make it feel better.
The thing you have to know is Cameron and I were very much in love but […]

8/25/2013 5 comments

wristcutters.

by fcuktpyos 8/25/2013

written by fcuktpyos

hello blog.

this is my first post.

i struggle with anxiety and major depression.

i’m not sure how to cope with anything. my parents misraised me and i have no friends.

everyone hates me and bullies me and thinks i should just kill myself, so why the fuck shouldn’t i..

all of my ex boyfriends said i was worthless and should.. so.. yeah..

nothing’s alright. i constantly feel the need to cut myself.

i constantly feel the need to tie a noose and hang myself.

i constantly feel the need to die. i’ve lost everything.

i don’t have a family, i don’t have friends.

my parents gave me up 7 months ago and made it […]

8/25/2013 2 comments

Death row

by Saint Thomas 8/24/2013

written by Saint Thomas

Trust is a powerful word and most don’t even realize it but i learned through to many experiences that no one in this world can be 100% trusted. I trusted a group of people from a small town i used to live in and look where that got me…it ended up with me getting bullied day in and day out i trusted every girlfriend i have ever had and look ive been cheated on and used or the bullshit brake up lines like ” its not you its me ” and always over text or by Facebook. I know that their are other people in […]

8/24/2013 2 comments

I Want To Believe

by JiminyCrispies 8/23/2013

written by JiminyCrispies

Last night on TV, there was this show, and the parents were joking with their daughter and in the end her Mum put her arm around her. Thatâ€™s all I want. I want somebody to put their arm around me and tell me itâ€™s going to be okay. No, they donâ€™t even have to put their arm around me. I just want somebody to tell me everything will be okay. And I want to be able to believe them.

8/23/2013 2 comments

I’m very logical about my suicide

by scarredkitty 8/23/2013

written by scarredkitty

It’s weird how calculated I’m being about my own need to take my own life. The reason I’m here in the first place is because I have so many emotions I can’t control/deal with anymore. And here I am thinking of all the things I need to get in order before I go. I need to get a job and pay off my student loans so my parents aren’t left with grief AND debt. I need to leave them all my passwords. I need to get my room in order and get rid of as much stuff so they don’t have to go through everything […]

8/23/2013 7 comments

Heartless to say

by im-worthless 8/22/2013

written by im-worthless

it seeps into your heart, your mind, your soul wrecking your body everywhere it goes.
i cant take the time to stop and think where am i going? Who is gonna help me?
you wake up in the middle of the night and your dreams scare you right out of your bed.
How do i get out of this?
You take a knife and you just cut because after you do it sends shivers of warm fuzzy tingles throughout your senses.
it leaves you shivering with ecstasy
You wish someone would help you but all they can say is are you okay?
How do they […]

8/22/2013 0 comment

I’m getting closer

by mangelou 8/22/2013

written by mangelou

I’m coming closer and closer to the day when finally the pain and misery of my life is greater than my ability to be able to cope with it.

I graduated college in 2007 with a Bachelor’s degree in Economics. Since then, I have applied to 1000s of positions. I can count the amount of just interviews I’ve had on two hands. I can’t even get hired on to bag groceries or work fast food.

I sleep on my parents’ couch. The only way I will ever get out of here is by dying. I have no money and as stated before absolutely no chance of finding […]

8/22/2013 6 comments

What now

by dj47 8/21/2013

written by dj47

So now stuff was going amazing was working out found the right people and now.. I’m not living at home a few hours away living in a basement parents don’t want me back stuff was pretty shit befor I was arrested in my bedroom about 2 weeks now going to be going in to foster care if I’m not accepted in to some program and I would be there for a year then idk were I think back home but my bestfriend it feels like he s replacing me. I’ve been failing school and this was suppose to be the turn around year and none […]

8/21/2013 1 comment

Suicidal Thinking is my Safety Net

by azalea 8/20/2013

written by azalea

I have often indulged in a bit of suicidal thinking if things in my life go sour. I think of it constantly during the day – and I never really thought it to be odd until my Therapist specifically made a point of asking me if “I thought of it everyday.”

In my Â most painful moments, my mind staggers towards a bloody, morbid mess of images, as if to soothe me. They are unusually sharp and vivid, unlike when I am not experiencing emotional pain. Â And pain – it seems that I have almost come to depend upon it to tell me what’s real. I Â keep […]

8/20/2013 0 comment

I’m lucky, I know

by vhanne 8/20/2013

written by vhanne

I know there are so many things to be grateful for. We are not poor, I have a relatively high paying job, a college education, I have friends, my parents are okay, I have food everyday, I am not abused, I have talents, I do not have any major problems that could be the stuff of movies or tv shows, at times I am even considered to be physically attractive by some. On the outside, I am just normal, who have NO RIGHT TO BE DEPRESSED.

But deep inside I feel dysfunctional, I cannot stop myself from dumping negative feelings in my social media accounts, and […]

8/20/2013 3 comments

Is It Better To Have A Friend To Fall With Or A Friend To Pick You Up?

by Dez 8/20/2013

written by Dez

For about a year now I’ve yearned for suicide and I’ve dealt with my mental insanity, by myself.

But now I’ve met someone with my same problems! We talk about suicide like its not a bad thing, we talk about our hallucinations like everyone has them, we talk about our anorexia like our parents would be proud, and we talk about running away from home like it’s a normal thing to do.

Sometimes I can’t help but feel like she’s bringing me farther off the cliff, other times I think I couldn’t live life without her. She’s convinced me to set a date for us to run […]

8/20/2013 4 comments

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