Again, it’s me.
I figure I should do a re-cap just so no one gets lost.
My father abandoned my mother and I when I was five months old.
My mother met a new guy when I was four and I caught them having sex. Since that night, she made me watch and take part in sexual activities.
My mother moved me twelve hours away from my last piece of sanity and put me through hell with that new guy.
When I was eight my mother and I were out of a house so she shipped me off to my fathers.
While living with my […]
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please tell me how bad i am at writing stories please tell the truth. . . . here’s the story
by summer_guy
written by summer_guy
This story is about the girl who learned to live alone.
She used to sit alone in her classroom. She used to walk alone because nobody likes talking to her. She used to be alone all the time. She failed in almost everything in her life. She was tired of the insults and the pain she had inside. People used to laugh at her all the time, make fun of her, follow her to insult her more and more.
She was tired of the way she chooses to fight with her pain. She used to cry all night. She used to stair the walls all the time and remember her pain […]
I’m a survivor.
A few people in this world, supported a few med pros who taught me how to survive. Last wweek I wanted a dr to put a bullet through my head, over something stupid. I was having a hard time getting through some proocedures. So the dr had to spend an extra five minutes which seemed eternal for me, making certain that I wouldn’t go home and die. A family member, one of about five or six who I trust and stuff the rest of ’em, was understanding, but also disagreed with me at the same time. At least she cared and wanted to […]
hi i dont really know where to start but i guess i can start by saying im suicidal. ive been depressed for a long time and im still not sure why. i really wish i could have the courage to tell someone but i dont . im too scared they’ll make fun of me or will worry too much and i dont want that. i really know i need help but im just not sure why im so scared to tell. my dad is so understanding that he could help and my mom could help too i just dont know… i also dont know why […]
I got to me great aunt’s house yesterday, the same time that a guy who looked like he was in college was there. Apparently, he was Katelynn’s boss and best friend. He was giving Katelynn’s violin to my aunt, obviously, I was confused since Katelynn didn’t play violin. At least I didn’t think she did. She played violin. She was in 4 recitals. She had a job. And I never had any idea. I didn’t know that every time she came home late was because she’d been working part-time to buy a violin. I didn’t know she was actually a junk artist, and I don’t […]
All of these years I’ve spent trying to make everyone happy. I believed that if I could make them happy, I too could be happy. So I stopped enjoying myself for the time and began focusing on the happiness of those around me. Turns out though, I only further ruin their happiness. My very existence makes people unhappy. No one ever wants to work with me in school groups, even though I do everything for them just to make them happy. I try to be nice to people and socialize, yet I still cannot make people happy. I try to keep a happy outlook and […]
I just want to share a story, my story, for anyone that might care to read it. Â It will probably be the only thing I post on this website. Â You’ll never know who I am and I will never know who you are, but perhaps we’ll meet someday, get drunk together, and you’ll tell your story and mention a story you read on this stupid website and I’ll say “hey, that was me! Â I wrote that!”. Â And we’ll laugh about it and go build a bonfire in the woods and howl at the moon, or something. Â That’s the kinda thing I like to do, anyway, […]
And accidentally kill some other people, or end up on life support for a few months, courtesy of the American taxpayers. Â you did a wonderful service removing my post.
Im not gonna try to post something extremely witty and dark and intellectual and poetic.. i just cant sleep again and im hoping that posting this will clear my mind and i could get some advice from people who possibly feel the same way as me. I could list every terrible thing thats ever happened to me and all the times ive tried to kill myself and all the addictions ive had but thatd take too long and im tired and lazy. So basically, im depressed, im bipolar, im insecure, im lonely, and i feel like nobody cares about me apart from my immediate family. […]
And I have no idea why I’m posting it here but, I am. I’m exhausted. The only true smile that has come to my face in the past few years was just before my attempt several weeks ago – the rest of the time it has been this forced curvature which, I must say, I’ve become quite the expert at creating. The sadness. The consistent failures. The burden I’ve been to so many for so long. Iit’s just so tiring.
For almost 30 days I’ve had no contact with anyone in my personal life save three individuals one being my “brother” who lives quite literally thousands […]
People try to put us d-down
Just because we get around
http://youtu.be/uswXI4fDYrM
Things they do look awful c-c-cold
I hope I die before I get old
My boyfriend and I have had a relationship for 9 years. It has had it’s wonderful moments.. but it has had many bad ones too. I get so angry with him for his lack of care and concern. I’ve thrown him out recently and now I feel as though my entire world is gone. I have no desire to even want to wake up! EVER AGAIN! All i have ever wanted was his love. I’ve had people tell me he loves me. I’ve heard hims say it. But I have not felt it in such a very long time. […]
Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they’ve begun to question “Is this real, or is this just a ride?”
Other people have remembered, and they’ve come back to us and they say “Hey don’t worry. Don’t be afraid (ever) because this is just a ride.”
So we.. Kill those people.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMUiwTubYu0
“Shut him up.
We have a lot invested in this ride.
SHUT HIM UP!
Look at my furrows of worry.
Look at my big bank account, and my family.
This just has to be real.”
It’s just a ride.
I completely lost it. I don’t know how to get up anymore, today i did it more as a mechanism, because people do that, they get up. My hands are shaking, I am terribly afraid of myself. I can’t control my actions anymore. It seems like another person lives inside me, controling my mind, giving a false perception of reality. I think i am insane, I don’t want to be and the thought of it makes me cry. People have so many expectations of me but i just wish i can tell them who i really am. And more than anything i wish they could […]
Someday people will be able to plug themselves into their computer and ‘think’ their blog posts. That sure will make it nice for us suicidal types who have no energy to type because our depression has drained it all.
‘If wishes worked, I’d be dead. Damn, I wish they worked.’
I’m 12 years old and I don’t want to live anymore.. Today I almost got ran over 3times on my way home because I’m sick and tired of my life.. I want to just end it.. I hate my life, I always have to ruin things.. I’m really confused with life.. Is there a point living? What’s the point of us lot being alive when we’re all going to die sooner or later so for me I want to choose sooner.. I changed myself to fit in at my school but because people were starting not to like me so I changed into my proper […]
” Have you ever just laid in your bed and cried? Because you think you’re ugly, because you’re not good enough for anyone. You’ve counted your flaws from head to toe, making yourself feel worse. Cried because of all the comments that people blurt out actually hurt? Cried because your family is dysfunctional and never understands you. They tell you to stop complaining . That you have it so much better than the kids in Africa, even though they don’t understand your life either. You don’t want to feel like an attention seeker, so you bottle everything up? Around friends and family, you’ve created this […]
Has anyone played the ole “wants vs. needs” game, in therapy or elsewhere? Last year I was in a therapy group setting. Everyone got a pencil and a piece of paper. Make 2 columns for Wants and Needs, and just start listing each of our wants and needs as they came off the top of my head.
I had a few needs, like food clothing shelter and companionship. At first I couldn’t come up with any wants. So then it was time to put our pencils down. We went around the table, people were rattling off their wants and needs.
Some […]
Mindless pointless contemplation has brought me to the sudden realization that existence alone is meaningless. It lacks purpose. To merely exist gives you no meaning, no purpose, no rights. All is for nothing. And just to clarify I’m not saying life in itself is meaningless or purposeless. As being humans the believed higher evolved species we our self give our life meaning and purpose. To merely be born doesn’t give us that. All we have achieved at that point is the chance to live. As I have heard: being alive does not mean you have lived. And I believe that is true, to go about […]
people just think im so strong, and never do anything wrong…well there WRONG!!! im so weak and cant even keep my control not to cut when I have an urge. obviously no one knows im sitting here with the blades right in front of me. expecting that at any moment I will give in and the pain will start. I need it soooo bad. you guys on here get it, I feel like no one else does. well heres the time… here I go.