The birds must think we’re all a bunch of idiots. We have this wonderful little planet all to ourselves, and we’ve divided it into little sections. We build walls and fences, and we draw lines in the sand. We build little cages around ourselves. We use all of our energy trying to keep Them out, and trying to keep Us in. It’s a waste of time. We waste much of our time trying to make temporal things eternal. We try to fight our own mortality by constructing things that we hope will last forever. But after we die, our creations turn to dust. Birds know […]
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its coming closer. every day i find myself pushing the boundaries of what i can live through. Every night i want to die; every night i wish i wont wake up tomorrow; i just want to take my sword and drive it through whats left of my heart. i dont care about pain. i dont care about anyone else. All anyone ever does is lie to me. Even the people i used to trust. Everyone else breaks their promises to me. why cant i break mine? i promised that i would keep my heart beating. Its time to break that promise.
Up, up, up she climbed the mountainside
A wanderer ever tattered and forlorn
Pausing a moment as she arrived
At her edge of the world
Having travelled far and wide
Paths trodden once and never again
Gazing over the graceful cliffside
With which no beauty could contend
Her soul emitted a spent cry
For she had passed a life
Simply alone, completely untied
To anything in the realm of Time
Yearning for a peaceful culmination
For her broken body, if not her broken mind
During this regretful lamentation
Sharp weathered eyes suddenly spied
The wispy smoke of a village down below
Floating up into her cloudless starry night
Down […]
Does anyone hate the term “man up” as much as I do? I mean no one can really measure how much physical or emotional pain another human being is in and so all they say as advice and support when you’re in pain is “man up” like the pain isn’t real, like we’re not trying to feel better. Why can’t people just say nothing instead of saying potentially harmful things like “man up”. Don’t you think I’d pull myself out of this darkness and despair that I’m feeling if I could? All I’m asking for is a little help and the advice that gets thrown […]
Well, I was supposed to die exactly a year and two months ago. Ever since, I feel like I have been in a rut. I don’t know what to do. I’m 14 year old girl. I do have a boyfriend that I love and talk about all the time because I love him so much. I just can’t get out of this rut. I know he is scared for me in more ways than one. First, I can’t help it but I cut myself. Second, I am so depressed and I can’t open up to people that easily so I have a hard time telling […]
exactly when i need someone, everyone goes, i hate every moment of this pain called life. how am i supposed to move on when people tie me to the same place?
I don’t think I can live for a few more years. What’s the point anyway? I’m tired of being in this war of life and death. I’ll just let death win soon. You know what would be cool? If someone decided to just kill me. If I were to die right now, I’m ready. People die everyday, what’s one more? Sure I might hurt a couple of feelings but I’m sure they’d forget about me. Most people do already and I’m still alive. Ha. I’m practically invisible. Oh man, life sucks.
This is my story, just need to share.
I was raped (sodomized, whatever you want to call it) a few times when I was a kid by my uncle, my grandpa knew but didn’t say anything about it. Grew up with that hanging over my head, told a few friends but all they said was, “man, that sucks.” I didn’t really expect them to say much, but nothing would be better than that. It’s the reason I don’t have a gf, I’m afraid that that abuse will carry over. My parents got divorced when I was 7, dad remarried shortly after that to a […]
Well I’m done with myself. I quite literally give up on myself. I can’t stand the shame, and guilt that I keep carrying. So I give up. I see people saying well I got this figured out this death of mine will succeed or not. Well now I’m one of those people. I love this site soooo much. Seeing other stories. But I guess when your own stories just add on. You get sick of it. Knowing the other things you done to people- The faults. It starts to hurt. I got nothing anymore. That’s it.
So ya, maybe talk later. I don’t know yet. I’ve […]
better off without , me. yeah that`s pretty much it. i mean, i have no one. of course , everyone says `oh sweetie im here for you ` but its not like that. its never like that, it`s pretty much just polite i guess. because, everyone says that. including myself. but anyways, i dont even know why im righting this. well, maybe for help . but recently that has seemed like such a long un-reachable road. i can`t tell anyone though, i mean. wtf are you supposed to do. just be like oh , hey. guess what. im suicidal, i hate myself and want to […]
I never understood why people write letters before killing themselves. It always seemed sort of unnecessary and selfish to put the ones that stay under a letter apologizing why they did what they did because why did they do it in the first place? So I never understood why, until now. They write because it’s the last goodbye, it’s their last attempt to say they love who’s staying and they are sorry they couldn’t find a way out… They know it’s gonna hurt who’s reading it, they do, but they have to write it. It’s like when an old man decides to reveal his last […]
And if you could talk to me, Tell me if it’s so, That all the good girls go to heaven, Well, Heaven knows….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
I’ve had enough. I want to do it, sooner rather than later. I woke up today and started crying at the thought of school and OCD and life, I kinda get the feeling that I won’t be waiting for my ‘date’.
What i don’t really understand is that when you tell someone you’re suicidal, they nearly always say ‘Don’t do it, I don’t want you to’ To some people this doesn’t matter because we are so far along in our state of depression that it goes in one ear and out the other, We don’t understand what we are doing to people. It’s like some form […]
its strange. im depressed i know that, my family knows that. at school nobody knows cuz i come across as happy, positive, never sad, and no way depressed. yet i carry around suicide notes and one of my friends saw and didnt believe it..shows im either a good actress or i should just shout it to the people around me..cuz now it looks like im a liar…oh god i made a problem if i tell some of my friends will force me to get help (been there already) if i dont i look like a liar.. my life would make a great show just cuz […]
I still have feelings of getting revenge on those people who hurted me. Because of them i’m stuck in homeschool, away from society. Is there anyway to stop the feeling of revenge? In all honesty, I had to watch porn and masturbate alot to feel better…please help.
There’s this hate in me that I do not understand, I usually hate myself and all the people around me. I am a nice person but people see otherwise. I am 26 and have reached nothing, when I was younger I thought I’d be someone great, important and happy. I moved out of my parents house 5 years ago and since then lived with my boyfriend. I am gay, and my parents doesn’t know (if they did they’ll tell me that I will burn in hell for the whole eternity). Life seems so dark and empty, my boyfriend is no longer attracted to me and […]
I apologize in advance: this is going to be very unorganized.
I tried to kill myself a little over a year ago, but I was taken to the hospital. I dropped out of college. Around the beginning of the school year, I had been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and I withdrew from school for a few months. The details are more complicated than that, but that’s not important right now. I got a job this past August, which I lost in January. Since then I’ve been moping around my parents’ house, pretending to look for a job or be interested in going back to school. Going […]
At The end of the world, Or the last thing I see, You are, Never coming home, Never coming home….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
Damn. That song brings back so many memories. Happy-ish Memories from happier times.
Basically, I’m thinking of doing ‘it’. I don’t want to be around anymore… I’m sick of life and all it has to throw at me. It’s not going to get better like everyone keeps telling me. I want it to stop. I think… My mental health is also getting worse… I don’t want to be the crazy one. I did want to stick around for my nephews, watch them grow up… be happy with them. Looks like that isn’t going to happen. They will be ok without me. I know it. And sure, […]
I chose this to be my username for a reason. I’m out of options. Everyone says I’m not allowed to kill myself or self injure or smoke or drink or do drugs but at the same time they say I don’t need therapy. They say I’m not allowed to die but I can’t stand living another day. I’m living my life for other people, cuz I sure as hell don’t want to be here. If I’m living just so someone can see my face one more time, why bother? I’m dead on the inside. I might as well make the outside match. I’m tiered […]
Why live a life where people mock you?
All,their,ridicules and rudeness drives,me insane
A person can only stand so much
They say its just a phase
Trust me its not
They say time will heal allthings but
It really doesnt……
I’m so tired of life. My dad is abusive he treats me like shit. No one is there for me not even my family…they think.its wrong for me to also be bisexual. I lost everything no friends.. they taunt me saying its wrong and its sinning I cry every night. Is it wrong? Shouldnt it just be people loving another regardless of gender. I failed a grade my parents call me stupid. I have no friends or anyone to turn to. I’ve been beaten and yelled at. I want to end life now. No one ever cared… I just need help. My plea is stupid. […]