Well- this is harder than initially thought.
How do you attempt to explain something you’re not sure of ?
If I were to guess at what stage triggered my feelings today, I would say childhood. I don’t remember a lot of my childhood, maybe a handful of events all in all. Why this is I don’t know, repressed memories, perhaps ? Bad memory, more likely?
I am in no way saying I had a bad childhood. I know my parents loved me, although I don’t think my mother was ready for children, still don’t.Â
I am 20 years old and deeply confused. When I was around 12 […]
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I’m 41 yo female, I don’t have any kids. My family don’t talk to me. I have been formally diagnosed with aspergers. I have a low grade glioma in my brain stem (superior colliculus). I have a chiari 1 malformation. Both the tumour and chiari cause migraines, nausea and anxiety. I’m depressed, and everyone I speak to says that is understandable given my situation. I havent any friends – thanks to a combination of my aspergers and terminal illness. People walk away as if it’s catching or something. I’ve tried phoning helplines but all they […]
I’m finding myself praying for death. My son is an addict, who treats everyone horrible. My family is ashamed as am I. My relationships have been one freakin disaster after another….I just work to pay my bills and support losers who won’t get jobs and take, take take.
How did I end up like this? Why do I honestly want to disappear and leave this horrible life behind. I fake a smile, I show my caring side..yet my emotional bank has been withdrawn for years now. Someone out there has to understand how I feel? I go to psychologist and they listen..but hell….the problem is me…I […]
this is my first post so if i jibber-jabber to much i do apologize. im new at this the thought of a bunch of strangers reading this is still kind of weird but one of you might be or have been in the position im in and i would actually like to know the thoughts of someone that i guess can somewhat understand me. so here goes a bit of whats on my mind right now….
i get suicidal thoughts a lot lately. a couple days ago, i guess you can say i had a bit of a melt down. i was texting one of […]
Depression slowly crept up on me 2.5 years ago. Â I had a feeling of being unwanted. Â I felt like my friends were ignoring me, and it seemed like no one cared about me. Â The depression kept getting worse and worse everyday. Â I am the type of person that keeps my emotions to myself, so I’d try to put on a happy face whenever I was around people. Â Recently, I noticed that I’m not depressed 100% of the time. Â I looked up why that might be, and my symptoms matched the bipolar disorder symptoms. Â I finally decided I needed help, so I scheduled an appointment with […]
Well, my “manic”(happy) mood was short lived, now i am anxious. I need someone to give me tips on,For lack of a better word, how to not give a ****I just have to emphasize how serious I am. I just can’t convince myself to realize that I am overreacting and I am irrational.
{let me quickly summarize this for those who don’t want to read all my complaints:Â I want to be able maybe speak my mind, and not feel embarressed about it, tell me how to not care so much}
I AM JUST SO PARANOID>
No matter how hard I try I get paranoid and think that […]
I feel barely alive, like the world itself feels unreal. I just feel nothing anymore. Nothing comes through to my heart and it’s in so much pain. Not my parent’s love, nothing does.
I’m so alone, my whole life I have been. I’ve been informally diagnosed a schizoid/avoidant by a psychologist. The only girl I’ve felt much of anything for I met years ago in sunday school but after so many tries I don’t seem to be able to get through to her. I could live if my life was being together with her, but that’s not possible it seems. She has […]
just feeling so down today……….. hae been seeing a psychologist and my thoughts of self mutilation and suicide went away for a while but the past couple days ive just felt terrible and hae been thinkin of so many ways to just make everything stop. anyone know any tactics to help get back into a good mindset or to stop the saddness??
well i feel good right now from the concerta maybe a bit to stimulated, mild euphoria? or maybe just what i’m supposed to feel like when im not totally hopeless, i dont wanna come down from it i wanna stay this way. I have a psychologist appoitnment with a new dr. which I’m really scared for, I don’t wnana be judged and I don’t wanna cry and get all sensitive, I don’t like discussing myfeelings because I always feel bad and pathetic after.
I’m almost 17 and I’ve had social problems my whole life. I BELIEVE I might have a personality disorder, although I don’t really know. The problem with getting diagnosed, treated, etc is that I’ve grown accustomed to faking a lot of interaction with people. I’ve seen four or five psychologists and stuff now, with no real results. Most of them just sent me off saying I was fine after five or six visits. I know I’m not ‘fine’. I used to have anger management when I was really young, like 8 or something. Then later on (still age eight) my mother tried to kill herself. […]
Here I am. In bed. Listening to music. Hoping I get some thought I can keep going on with that hopefully doesn’t involve incest, joining the Army, or anything else that may cause an argument. I just don’t need to argue, I’m ignorant. I just don’t feel that it’s worth it.
I feel bad that my cousin is using me as a role model and I’m in love with her, yet she allows me to remind her constantly and she seems willing to do as I please. I understand I shouldn’t take advantage. I’m merely dwelling on it, no need to talk about that.
I […]
i wanna become an actor/ err maybe an astronaut/ psychologist….eventually when i get better
I have ADD, severe social anxiety issues, i’m scared of people I’m a high school dipout due to loosing friends/paranoia (i have one close friend)from depression due to selective mutism, Im paranoid, some OCD, I’ve had a past some mild sexual abuse…I’m a loner, use to be suicidal, use to think of it everyday but now im better.(i’ve attempted it),I might have avdp, and maybe social ptsd I can be really sensitive but I always bounce back. I’m a mad genius, usually a step or two ahead. I am kind of random, […]
i can’t do anything right, ever since i was a little kid, i was always picked on because my sisters and never fit in, im always depressed and no body will send me to a psychologist, i cant handle it though all i do is try and get nowhere, 🙁 and all the picking on from when i was little made me insecure and now it caused me to lose the best thing i had in my life, i dont know what to do i seriously want to jump off a bridge.
And boy, BOY am I doing it wrong.
I have no traumatic past, troubling future (at least in anyone else’s view), or any of these other socially acceptable reasons for despair. I grew up with a normal family, normal income, normal everything. I really have nothing to complain about in my past. But, holy shit that’s what sucks. I am fucking bored out of my mind with everything. Everything is so bland, unappealing, status quo, daily grind.
So, obviously it’s not particularly anybody’s fault for my current predicament, except for myself. But that’s the funny thing. I readily accept the fact that I have driven my […]
I tried to invest my 401k myself (some say gambled) and lost allot and now I cannot retire. I lost my job and my wife diagnosed with cancer could not get healthcare except Cobra which ends soon. I did get a job recently and my wife should get healthcare if all goes well. My son has two DUI”s with drugs will go to jail at a young age. I am having terrible depression anxiety coping over the 401k money loss as I could end up penniless if the new job does not go well whereas I could have retired today or just had […]
My psychologist says that use of escape mechanisms and mental painkillers makes me dependent on them and sensitive to pain, just the like people who use aspirins and conventional analgesics to deal with everyday pains become even more sensitive to the everyday pains of life. His recommendation is that “you just have to feel it sometimes”.
But mental painkillers are just so addictive. Thoughts of suicide are just sooo addictive, and comforting…well here is one of my painkillers, a cover of a popular Chinese song.
I am a shy eighteen year old girl, and have been a victim of bullying for the past nine years.
It first started when I was in the 5th grade and had moved to a new school. I was allocated a new friend to help me find my feet, but instead I had someone who would emotionally abuse me for the next three years. I told my mom in the 7th grade – she said she was mad at my “friend”, but she never did anything about it. All she could say was, “It’s a phase; it’ll pass.” I never told her about the other girl […]
Tired of the same thing. Every day. Feeling like garbage, wishing I was normal. Â
Sick of feeling sorry for myself, thinking about my problems instead of helping myself or others.  I recognize that I am self absorbed, but I can’t stop these thoughts. I want them to go away, but they don’t. I’ve tried Diazepam, Ativan, Effexor. They didn’t help me feel better, they just made me feel like a zombie; Neither good nor bad. I spoke to a medical doctor, a therapist, a psychologist, a parent, and a friend. They helped me hang on. Told me pleasant lies to subdue my anxiety and placate my mood, at least for those moments I was with them. But […]
I think I am suicidal. Â I’m not really sure, because I’m not sure of anything anymore. Â I don’t want to hurt myself or be in pain or punish myself. Â I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. Â It is getting increasingly unbearable, and I don’t know what to do.
I was almost murdered in October by gun violence (it was a very close call), and I have since been diagnosed with depression and PTSD. Â I have never been a depressed person in my life, ever. Â I just read on a website I found that PTSD can cause suicidal feelings, and I do feel a tiny […]
I dont know what to do. I am 13 years old and I dont know if I can take it anymore. My parents are divorced, my dad has anger issues and yells a lot. I feel like I have to protect my step brother and step sister because my step mom doesn’t do anything. My step mom gets stressed and takes her anger out on me. My mom is also stressed and takes her anger out on me. At school I try to be friends with everyone but everyone just ignores me and whispers behind my back about how I smell and how ugly I […]
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