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I’m afraid I’ll disappear.

by Unremembered 6/8/2015

written by Unremembered

I’m starting to have memory issues.

Sometimes, I forget I did simple things like brush my teeth or take a shower. After exams, I sometimes don’t remember anything about what the exam was about, and…

I’m scared. I’m afraid I’ll disappear. Fade out. Because if I forget everything about myself, am I still myself? Or am I just some empty shell, waiting to drop dead? A shadow? Because you know what happens to a shadow when it’s put in bright light, right? It disappears.

I don’t personally believe in God. Simply because if He was really all-loving and all-powerful, would He really leave us with things like misery, […]

6/8/2015 2 comments

A week in Darkness.

by sunshinestate90 6/4/2015

written by sunshinestate90

For the past week and a half, I have been walking through a tunnel of darkness, it feels. I couldn’t see and thought I wasn’t going to be able to find a way out. It was disorienting. But I kept trudging, and along the way, fears from childhood pulled at me from the darkness. They nagged at me. “Stay with us,” they pleaded. “Don’t leave us behind,” they cried. So I stayed for a while. They soothed me with their familiarity. So I stayed for a few more days. Then a voice within the darkness asked me, “Don’t you remember?” But my fears gripped me […]

6/4/2015 1 comment

Saying Hello After A Few Months

by L4Y 6/3/2015

written by L4Y

I was active on this site for a while beginning last fall, but haven’t been here in a couple of months or so. Quite a bit has happened since then, mostly on the job front. I left my workplace of eight years during the first week of April and things have been a bit of a whirlwind. People who have read my previous posts or spoke with me in the past may remember that my job was a large source of my unhappiness. I’m now working somewhere else and it’s a better job per se, but there are plusses and minuses. Strange as it is, I’ve found myself […]

6/3/2015 1 comment

Heavy

by Marianne 6/2/2015

written by Marianne

My heart is sinking. My blood feels thick, like lava, burning through my veins. I feel sick with anger and sadness. I feel hopeles. I want to lay down and sink into a peaceful death. I can’t remember anything anymore. I can’t feel anything except the agony of wanting to die but still having to be alive. How can you want something so badly and struggle everyday to reject it. I want to want to live.

6/2/2015 3 comments

Dreamer

by Terrible 6/1/2015

written by Terrible

Since I could remember, I’ve wanted to be a singer. I’ve never taken classes of singing lessons. I simply just, did it.

If you guys could check out my video, It would mean a lot.

I know that I am a big person, and I’m ugly and fat, but please just atleast listen to it and share it on facebook or twitter.. It would mean the world to me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RhXN-7pOPW8

6/1/2015 3 comments

Hollow

by Rotted_Flesh 5/30/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

I’d love to sleep in your hollowed out chest because it suits every moment i remember best.

5/30/2015 2 comments

When you feel like giving up, just remember the reason why you held on for so long

by little_fallen_angel 5/29/2015

written by little_fallen_angel

I’m here for the same reason most everyone is, I’ve given up and I thought suicide was the only way out. Just a few days ago I posted something, but since then I’ve done some thinking. If suicide is the only way to find peace, then why have we held on for so long? It’s not because we love the pain we are in, it’s because one day we hope we wake up and hope the world will treat us better. It might also be because we know if we go we will be hurting our friends and family. Things may never get much better, […]

5/29/2015 1 comment

Please read me for strength

by imperfectionist 5/25/2015

written by imperfectionist

Depression can be a likened to that of;

an insect

trapped within the web of life.

The spider, represents mortality. The spider can be particularly hungry some days, and seek to devour its prey quickly and painlessly. These are the folk who encounter the planet, and cannot bear to stick around long enough to see any more of it. They are the overwhelmed, the kindred spirits that take their lives young. Other times, the spider will toy with its victim, play with it and taunt it for days and months and years.

because that is exactly it. Isn’t it?

We depressed folk are the victims of life itself. We feel […]

5/25/2015 6 comments

I’m not sure

by justanothergirl09 5/24/2015

written by justanothergirl09

Haven’t posted anything in a few days. I just don’t even know how I feel right now. I’m so tired. Yesterday I went to the beach with my family and some friends. Today I went to the pool.

I know, it sounds like I do enjoy every minute of my life. I admit, although I hate my life, there are times when I have some fun.

But even when I was having fun this weekend, I still kept thinking about how those people would remember me after I killed myself.

5/24/2015 3 comments

my old self

by worthless_loser 73 5/24/2015

written by worthless_loser 73

Haven’t posted in a long time. Been busy making preparations for my next (hopefully last) attempt at ending it all. Lately have had time to only read a few posts and leave a comment or two.

I was thinking earlier how long it has been since the last time I can remember being myself. Not this broken down version I have become. The old me. The real me. The human me. Not the zombie I have been the last year.

Those of you that have followed my posts, know my story well. My ex-fiancée and her kids abandoned me and erased me from their lives. She went […]

5/24/2015 12 comments

Everyone crying over love

by jennjenn 5/17/2015

written by jennjenn

Everyone crys or hurts after a break up. If you don’t, than you didn’t really care anyway. If I tried to off myself after every relationship that went sour, surely it would have worked…

You really can get over these people. It just takes time, depending on the person. The boy I dated before this guy, we were together a year and a half. I thought I loved him, but I loved the idea of him. I was lonely and in a new city. He offered me free drugs, had a nice car, and put up with my drinking. The sex was awful, but what did […]

5/17/2015 5 comments

No Will to Live: Part 3

by QuietlyBleeding 5/16/2015

written by QuietlyBleeding

Enjoying the story so far? GOOD. Before i continue with this part, i will give important facts to remember because it makes the story even better. Isaiah grew up going to a christian church. I know, I know, he grew up with pious pricks, but yeah he was raised with good morals and values. And he always went to either a christian or catholic school. And he also went to summercamps after each school year and recieved the same treatment he recieved from school at summercamps and his church. Isaiah grows up not being able to trust his legal guardians, authority figures, or students. Isaiah […]

5/16/2015 3 comments

When I die.

by justanothergirl09 5/15/2015

written by justanothergirl09

When I die I don’t want anyone to cry. I want them to look at the sky and say ‘goodbye’.

When I’m long gone and they miss me I want them to whisper to the sky everything they want to tell me.

I will listen to every word they have to say because when you die people get the courage to tell you what they couldn’t tell you when you were alive.

I want to hear that they miss me.

I want to hear the words “I love you” over and over again.

I want them to talk about me even after I’m gone. I want them remember me. To […]

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5/15/2015 1 comment

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Loneliness.

by Phobia 5/15/2015

written by Phobia

I’m just so tired of being lonely, I feel like Im already dead as I don’t exist at all. People only remember me when they need something. They have my number but yet only call and text me when they want something. Everyone ignores me. I can’t take it anymore, I wish I was dead. I’m tired of this cruel and unfair world..My depression is at the point where I can’t take it anymore. There is no meaning of life to me and nobody cares about me, what’s the point. All I can say is that being lonely for several years is painful and suffering, […]

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5/15/2015 5 comments

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waiting

by insteadshesaid 5/14/2015

written by insteadshesaid

I miss the days when I felt happy. How I became so content with the idea of death I don’t remember. I try so hard to be happy but it just doesn’t seem to work for me. I’m not happy, I’m not angry, I’m not much really.

Just really really miserable.

But it’s not even that. It’s like, that feeling you get when you’re about to sneeze. You know it’s coming. You can’t wait long enough for that sneeze to be over.

I think what I’m trying to say is, I long for the feeling of not feeling anything at all. I know it’s coming, it’s just a […]

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5/14/2015 1 comment

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Depression takes every single second of my mind

by gwerg 5/13/2015

written by gwerg

Who else is with me here? I don’t just get depressed, I’m always depressed. My mind can’t think about anything else unless I am unconcious (sleeping). Nonstop pain every second of my life for years now. Every single memory I’ve ever had is gone now, I don’t remember even the biggest days of my life. It’s incredible I am still alive, when my brain doesn’t even function no longer. I just want to stop being tortued alive and be in a unconcious state forever..

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5/13/2015 2 comments

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Don’t forget

by zailodrwd 5/12/2015

written by zailodrwd

In this shaken twisted world I gradually become transparent unable to be seen. I merely don’t want to hurt you inside of a world that came out of somebody’s imagination so In the end I know I’ll corrupted as I waited for paradise. I know I won’t be the same anymore so remember the way I use to be as who I should be […]

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Excruciating

by Resuna 5/12/2015

written by Resuna

So I here I am with my first post. I’m 40 years old and think constantly of killing myself. I’m always in pain- it’s either depression, anxiety or both. I look forward to bedtime, it’s my favorite time of the day. Blessed sleep. I lost my job as a medical assistant over a year ago. I worked in neurology. I was proud of that career. I was fired. Lost too much work due to mental illness. Now I’ve tried several menial jobs and walked out on all of them. I couldn’t take them. Constant anxiety gnawing at me. Every waking moment is torture. One thing […]

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5/12/2015 2 comments

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I know it shouldn’t matter…

by brokenpottery 5/9/2015

written by brokenpottery

I know it shouldn’t matter, but seeing people around me happy, fulfilled, able to handle their finances, their relationships, their lives, it just makes me feel even worse.

I had been feeling better earlier in the year, but seeing other’s succeeding while I continue to fail has sent my back down. I had to delete my Facebook, because it only depressed me.

I have lost everyone that ever mattered to me (save for a few family members and a friend in another state). It is abundantly that others who I thought I was important to don’t care about me or need me at all.

I have long ago […]

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5/9/2015 6 comments

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blatherings in the dark

by dsmith 5/5/2015

written by dsmith

I am a married father of 3, in my mid 30’s. I’m not here for help, hope, sympathy, empathy, or support. I just need a place to chronicle this slide. I’ve been in some dark places before but I think this one has been the longest and darkest (more than a year now). There have been some short interruptions, which is why I am probably still here. These interruptions aren’t times of happiness, just times of neutrality. Speaking of happiness, I don’t know if I’ve ever had a even one true moment of happiness in my life. I’ve had moments of excitement, but I don’t […]

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5/5/2015 3 comments

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