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Rope

it is what it is

by truthbetold 8/1/2012

written by truthbetold

I bought a rope and there’s a bridge not far from where I live ..
I’ll be waiting for my intuition to tell me it’s time to go through with it

I’m tired of living just because others want and expect me to

I’m tired of living to preserve my relatives precious bubbles .. I’ve almost reached my breaking point

I’ve been trapped (1) in a body and (2) in this world for too long

I’ve lost interest in figuring out what my purpose is (assuming there’s even one)

my presence on here must be an error, I have no choice but to fix it

once I’m dead: no more struggles, […]

8/1/2012 9 comments

To Exhausted24

by kallie_jayde 8/1/2012

written by kallie_jayde

I can’t thank you enough for talking to me last night! I was on my way out! I had letters written and the rope hung and I would be gone right now.Â I don’t think you realize how much you helped me by just listening and encouraging me! I will never forget it! May sound dramatic but you saved my life! I’m doing what you told me to do I’m taking it one day at a time and if that gets to much I go to minute to minute! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8/1/2012 6 comments

FUCK IT IM DONE

by kallie_jayde 8/1/2012

written by kallie_jayde

I have had enuff of this world and all the shit it brings. I’ve had enuff of trying so hard only to be shoved down again! I’ve had enuff of not living just surviving. I’ve had enuff of crying myself to sleep. I’ve had enuff of cutting my arms and legs. I’ve had 15 years of this shit. This is my goodbye to this cruel ass fucked up universe. Deuces. This rope is my exit strategy

8/1/2012 19 comments

Is Today The Day

by caucajun 7/30/2012

written by caucajun

I have been contemplating the final act for weeks on end. My roomate just left for work so the apartment is mine if I choose to do so. The only way out is a rope, I dont have access to any pills this time. I think about the actuall moment of loosing conscieness. I have a video of a person which posted his suicide online from hanging. I’ve watched it 10 or 20 times over the last year and a half. His body isn’t completely suspended meaning he could have stood up at any point before passing out to stop his suicide. I have never […]

7/30/2012 3 comments

general

by southpark1 7/30/2012

written by southpark1

hi everyone.. im michael and i sometimes think about ending it.. alot.. i feel alone in this country.. and im scared to be myself.. i dont have any motivation to live for.. and i dont have a gf.. and im scared of girls and everyone.. and everyone looks at me funny and i worry what others think.. i overthink things and get depressed.. so i want to end it.. but im scared to do that i want to get away from my mom and i have no goals in life.. i cant post stuff on facebook. because they banned me.. so i want to end […]

7/30/2012 2 comments

cant wait to die

by over it 7/30/2012

written by over it

Ive decided to go get a rope tomorrow from the hardware shop instead of going to see my doctor. Everyday im getting worse, ive been on various types of antidepressants and they have all made me even more anxious and fucked up like i was on a pill or something. Im done trying to get better, I dont give a fuck about what happens to me anymore. Ive got a bunch of pills i plan on dropping with some alcohole before i jump.

My options are as follows :
ramming my car into a tree at high speed
taking all of these pills […]

7/30/2012 4 comments

This is the time

by Elleonil 7/30/2012

written by Elleonil

I’m realizing where’s no reason to keep indulging with procrastination. Having another week or another day of just letting time flow is meaningless.

Searching for the best method is a way to tell yourself you’re not really ready yet. I just settled for the simplest thing to put together and got a rope. Right now I’m writing notes for the only two people I care they get a note, I scrapped my idea of writing notes for everyone else, it’s not worth the hassle.

I’m giving myself 48 hours to accomplish this goal, it’s more than enough time. If you don’t read anything else it’s because I […]

7/30/2012 5 comments

I accept my situation

by nooneimportant 7/22/2012

written by nooneimportant

A week or two ago I posted here as I was slowly getting overwhelmed with depression. I was ready 2 days ago with a solid plan, rope in my backpack and everything thought through, except for the poor tree that has to be stuck with my lifeless body swaying in the cold wind. But that was easy task to accomplish as there was many trees on my journey. Quite beautiful ones. It would have been a shameful sight for the tree if I would have went through with it.

My problem, which said before, was many and one big on that kept hitting my mind repeatedly […]

7/22/2012 3 comments

this hopeless life she wanted no more

by savemefrommyself97 7/21/2012

written by savemefrommyself97

It just seems I cant get a break recently. After all the drama and problems last week, I find out I`ll possibly need another root canal, which my mom cant afford. Shes been slamming stuff around and crying, just upset in general. She keeps saying all I asked you to do is brush your teeth, my credit is maxed out, your dad isnt going to help and then she quits talking to me period.

Its just stressing me out..I feel horrible I keep adding all this pressure, with my appointments and medicine..I cant even get myself to cry anymore. Im sick of being a burden to […]

7/21/2012 0 comment

why cant i just stay asleep

by Th3darkt0w3r 7/16/2012

written by Th3darkt0w3r

every day i wake up and wonder why cant i just sleep forever?. I am 25 years old have been depressed for the last five years. Over that time i have started cutting and have on 2 Â occasions i have tried to end my life. the first time i tried to hang myself but the rope broke. The second time I took a full bottle of Vicodin then then tried to shot myself but i just was not able to pull the trigger, my mind told its ok the pain pills will kill you. I woke up 2 days later. I can see no end […]

7/16/2012 2 comments

What would happen?

by gw21 7/16/2012

written by gw21

Youâ€™re sitting at your desk, and you know itâ€™s time to go. Youâ€™ve said that to yourself over a million times, but this time you know, for sure, is real. Youâ€™re tiredâ€¦ youâ€™re just so very tired. Youâ€™re parents pissed you off, like school wasnâ€™t bad enough today. You go to get the rope, or the knife, or the gun or whatever you choose to use because youâ€™re that desperate. Youâ€™re ready. You think of it as some gameâ€¦ the first one dead is the one who wins. No ones home, itâ€™s the perfect time. Youâ€™re ready. If you donâ€™t do it, youâ€™re gonna look […]

7/16/2012 4 comments

sick and tired of being sick and tired

by k4s9b3 7/10/2012

written by k4s9b3

I’ve always wanted to die, ever since I was a child, I have no idea why. When I was a child and I believed in god, I prayed not to wake up the next day. And yet, I had a normal childhood. It seems that I have a tendency towards depression. Well, the years have passed and I imagined killing myself in so many ways that I can’t even remember them all. Now I’m all alone but I’m fine with loneliness, in fact, I think I want to be alone. I’m sick and tired of this crazy world and all the people, I want a […]

7/10/2012 1 comment

Dont know what to do

by blakeabiliion 7/5/2012

written by blakeabiliion

I’m 26. Bipolar, student, mom. When I was a teenager my father shot himself and survived(thankfully) in our home. Every since that day my life change forever. I wasn’t the happy girl anymore. I thought as I got older things would get better, but my husband recently left us. I was abused in just about every way, but I am beyond sad over this loss. I constantly think about death and suicide. I also feel like a horrible parent. I wanted nothing more than to have a happy family for my son, but our home life was a nightmare. But now I have no one […]

7/5/2012 2 comments

Dont know what to do.

by Shhhimsleeping 7/1/2012

written by Shhhimsleeping

Starting off im a male, 21 years old, names not important. Basically my story is my life isnt as bad as others im sure of that but yet I feel this tremendous pain inside me. Im currently in college to become an architect best in my class and have already had job offers. All this but I come from a not so nice family wanted to get away from them ive had problems with this in the past I’ve been to therapy for this whole wanting to commit suicide since I was young about 13. Its a little funny cause my parents used to […]

7/1/2012 5 comments

I need just one…

by Earthshaker 6/30/2012

written by Earthshaker

I rigged my rope about an hour ago….in the front yard. I just need someone to say something nice to me before I leave.

6/30/2012 14 comments

The story of my scars

by lostchild445 6/19/2012

written by lostchild445

A storyÂ
These scars tell a story
A story of me
My life, my feelings, my history
Each scar has it’s own meaning

This one on my wrist was from the day you kissed me goodbye and left me to die

These down my arm are from the months of self harm ending with an attemptÂ

These circles on my arm are lighter burns from the zippo I carved with your name on it

These scratches here and there are from the times someone else was there with me but yet I felt aloneÂ

This one on my chest is from where I was stabbed, this ring around my wrist […]

6/19/2012 0 comment

Death

by lostchild445 6/18/2012

written by lostchild445

I’m not even afraid of dying. I think I’ve proven that much. No, I’m afraid of failing again. I can’t look everyone in the eyes while laying in a hospital bed again. Call me heartless, but idc what happens after I die. It’s the failing I can’t do again. It seems so easy to die. Every day theres stories on the news about someone who died quick and unexpectedly. Yet when I try, its slow and ineffective. It’s not fair. I’m no stranger to death. But he refuses to take me. I wish he’d take me. But all he does is sabatoge me. No firing […]

6/18/2012 2 comments

Suicide Attempts

by thisfreak 6/16/2012

written by thisfreak

Hi, my name’s Mady. I’m 14, and I’ve tried

killing myself 4 times. I wouldn’t say I have the

roughest life, but I do go through a lot of stuff.

And, like everyone I have bumpy roads. Many of

them in facr. The first time I tried suicide was a

couple years after I started cutting. First time

I cutÂ myself, I was around 10? And, first suicide

attempt I was maybe 11. The first time I tried

cuttingÂ myself ’til I died. I was sorta hoping I

would bleedÂ to death. I don’t know what I was

thinking.Â Second time I Â was maybe 13, and

tried drowning myself, in Â my bathtub. It didn’t

work out bedcause my little sisterÂ walked in.

I […]

6/16/2012 2 comments

The sunset limited

by EvilBritBrat 6/14/2012

written by EvilBritBrat

If you don’t know, The Sunset Limited is a movie, about a suicidal man with two very famous actors in it. Its defiantly worth a watch.

Anyways, I feel like Tommy Lee Jones in that movie. Nobody gets me, except for the people on this site! I’m living in a constant state of agony as I have never felt in my life. As some of you know I tried to hang myself yesterday. I landed on with my feet on the floor the first time I tried due to not calculating the rope position properly after the noose was tightened it left too much space. So […]

6/14/2012 3 comments

Going blindly

by TarotXIII 6/5/2012

written by TarotXIII

Right now I’m only living because I am alive.To not waste what I consider a magnificent oportunity to discover,feel and enjoy everything that moves your heart.Yet no matter how hard I look,no matter how hard I search,I can’t find the rope to guide me trough the maze.I feel so alone…Everyone around me seem so far away,like I was in a different dimension overlaping his one but I couldn’t be touched.I can’t find what moved my heart anymore.Everyday seem wasted.I think: “If I was going to do nothing again,I should have stayed in bed”…Worthless chatter “It’s finaly geting hot outside!”…”I love the cold…”.Everybody looks at me […]

6/5/2012 2 comments

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