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I am in hell

by minky5 1/8/2014

written by minky5

My foster mother keep bribing me to tell her what’s wrong. But for some reason, I keep refusing. She kicked my leg and said, “Come on dear, please tell me!” I just got up and walked into my room, having a good hard cry. I never hurt so bad since I’ve been in foster care for a month and a half. Just fuck it all. Fuck life. I’m fucking over it. Kill me now. I’m done.

And to make matters worse, I found out my boyfriend was cheating on me, so I broke up with him. Now I’m alone because I had nobody else to talk […]

1/8/2014 4 comments

Young Suicide

by smash2204 1/7/2014

written by smash2204

This is a poem i wrote about a child becoming an orphan and it causing them to be depressed and consider suicide. This stuff might seem out of order to some people but this stuff does happen and suicidal thoughts can occur to anyone, any age for any reason. Life can seriously suck sometimes.

Lonely am i,

I can’t bear their cries,

Of laughter and happiness,

While i have tears in my eyes.

I want to shut the world out,

Be locked inside,

Â From the joyous surroundings,

Because recently my parents died.

1/7/2014 10 comments

I can’t take it anymore.

by minky5 12/31/2013

written by minky5

I’ve been crying for the past two hours. Why can’t I stop crying? 🙁 I want to just stop it all. I feel so depressed over drug abuse from my dad. Earlier my dad was high on drugs and he threatened to throw my eleven year old brother out on the streets. Later, I shouted at my dad because he said he was going to throw me out too.Â I shouted at him, telling him he was nuts. Dad said he’d rather be homeless than live with me and my brother. Now I’m scared. I’m seriously thinking about telling the fucking police because I can’t deal […]

12/31/2013 4 comments

alone once again

by deadontheinside 12/26/2013

written by deadontheinside

I’m alone with my thoughts again and I have no where to go even in a crowded room or next to my boyfriend I feel so distant and unlove even when I’m told I’m beautiful I feel so ugly even if someone sincerely says they care about me I turn around and say I’m unlove and unwanted. I’ve always hated being this way, but I don’t know how to change. The only thing I want to do right now is cut all ties and end my life, but I know its not right to think or even say. I’m just so tired, confused, and depressed […]

12/26/2013 4 comments

Is it good that I want to die?

by Lang10 12/20/2013

written by Lang10

I have like to have to die this world is to hash for to handle. When I think of way to die or kill myself, I laugh as if all my pain is freed from my soul. I ask anyone out there is this good?

12/20/2013 3 comments

Running out of time… And pretty damn thankful for that.

by unsocialfreak 12/6/2013

written by unsocialfreak

Okay i’m being completely honest here, no sugar coating anything alright. I have just come across as a huge disappointment in my entire family and every time i try to regain any self confidence it just plummets back down. I’m tired of everything and i’m not scared of the future anymore because i’ve decided that i will not have a bright and wonderful future anymore because i’m done. I may not live past 20 and I guess somethings happen for a reason and my reason is that i’m useless and i no longer have any significance to anyone. Not my family or my so called […]

12/6/2013 2 comments

life of a mulatto

by a_mulatto 12/4/2013

written by a_mulatto

I’m just an average teen with an unusual problem. I have the heart of an caveman. Sometimes I sit still hold my breathe just to see if my heart is beating most of the time its seems like its not. I could watch someone get hit by a car and just stand there and laugh. My soul is so dark that the only emotion joy when others get hurt. I think of killing myself everyday. I look for suicide methods and when i look it over i smile and say that’s a good way to die. I would kill myself but i have no opportunity […]

12/4/2013 0 comment

No Joy

by perpetually sad 11/28/2013

written by perpetually sad

There is just simply no joy left in my life.

I’ve been in therapy a few times. And I eventually do see improvement, but it takes years of work; painful work. And it’s expensive, it sucks to throw a lot of time and effort and money into this just get up to a baseline where I can function.

I have cycled back to hopelessness, despair and a deep depression again. I think this is the worst yet. Added to my black mood are some financial hardships that are becoming overwhelming. We can’t register the cars, our health insurance has lapsed. My husbands’ income is commission only and […]

11/28/2013 20 comments

I can’t stand it anymore

by thiswilldude 11/5/2013

written by thiswilldude

Birthdays: supposed to be a day whereon good wishes help one to have a better day than usual. I am in trouble this year, today has been awful.

Everyday I wake up, go to the gym then to work, all the while trying to forget how lonely I am and how people do not help me feel less lonely. I get invites to other people’s birthdays and various nonsense, on mine, just like every other day, nothing. People Have no problem telling me what they need from me and criticizing me when I don’t provide it.

I am […]

11/5/2013 0 comment

So Far from Me

by zebragirl1984 10/23/2013

written by zebragirl1984

I cried when I read this. This poem means so much to me, because even though we are under the same sky, you are so far from me. I know the time will come when you are next to me, but until then…My Angel, My Sweet…I will miss you with every ounce of my being.

My Angel, My Sweet

My Angel, My Sweet,
How I long for us once again to meet.
How I long to run my fingers though your hair
and to smell your suculent perfume in the air.
Oh how I long to feel your face,
and to sense your gentle presence all over […]

10/23/2013 10 comments

I Miss You

by zebragirl1984 10/23/2013

written by zebragirl1984

I found this online and it captures how lonely I feel.

I Miss You Dreamer

You don’t know how bad I need you here with me,
I need you more than anything more than I need to breathe

How do I last now that my heart has grown so cold,
Being without you its like my heart was put on hold

How do I stay warm without you to hold me tight,
I wish I was in your arms and everything was right

When I’m with you my body becomes weak,
I want to say I love you but its really hard to speak

I get this amazing feeling from […]

10/23/2013 0 comment

I Did This…

by renegadeRaenbow 9/13/2013

written by renegadeRaenbow

Whenever we’re little, why is it that we wish we were older? Much older? Why didn’t anyone warn us of this? The adult life is so sugar-coated and isn’t as glamorous as it’s made to be.We wasted out childhoods on wishing we were done with it, when in all actuality, we would give up anything just to go back.

I first tried to kill myself when I was fourteen, after 3 years of cutting. My parents split up, I lost my 8 day old nephew, my sisters moved out, I lost my friends, and I had nothing holding me back from suicide. I was put on […]

9/13/2013 2 comments

I’ve heard/read it all.

by whyohwhyidoeventry 9/11/2013

written by whyohwhyidoeventry

And here I am. Writing on a website my feelings of sadness.

I have no friends. No one to talk to. A crazy family that I live with but try to avoid because of my disagreements of their lifestyle. Im a very stubborn person. I feel that Im broken as a result of my own family. I feel mental anguish. I have RSI in my wrist from too much typing, writing, mouse clicking. I am on medication for something that was caused by my family. I despise medication. I havent had real friends for 7 years. Ive been depressed since I was 16. Even though […]

9/11/2013 2 comments

Alone

by renegadeRaenbow 9/8/2013

written by renegadeRaenbow

The scratching and the biting,
The screaming and the fighting.
The hollow words
Fly like wingless birds
Into endless spirals
Of full-fledged denials
And I find myself crying, alone.

I push you away
Yet I want you to stay.
Why is it so hard
When I’ve already come this far?
Caught back in the lies,
Truth pouring from my eyes
And I find myself dying, alone.

My wrists are untouched
But my legs, not so much.
I could sit in this madness,
Divulge in the sadness
Creating the cuts,
Loosening bolts and nuts
And I find myself, alone.

I’m alone in the sorrow.
I’m alone til tomorrow.
I’m […]

9/8/2013 0 comment

Ramblings

by David 9/7/2013

written by David

It’s been a tough few months for me lately.

Some days i hide it well, others, not so much.
Some days I am sat on my own in my bedroom and I feel so low I have no idea where to go or what to do.
I consider whether my next breath is worth taking dozens of times a day.
Some nights i go to sleep and admit to myself that not waking up; well it wouldn’t be so bad.
Sometimes i will try to talk family or friends but they are always seeming so happy that I don’t want to spoil their day so I […]

9/7/2013 4 comments

Same Shit, Every Fucking Day

by SameShitDifferentDay 9/1/2013

written by SameShitDifferentDay

Every day I wake up and go through the same shit, nothing necessarily bad, nut nothing good, ever.

Every time I think something good is gonna happen and make stuff better, it doesn’t, and I just end up feeling worse.

I have a lot of friends, and I’m pretty popular, but every fucking day shit gets worse.

I used to be laidback and funny and outgoing and just a nice fucking person but everyday my patience runs shorter and I’m starting to become so paranoid and I get losses off so fucking easily anymore.

This has been ongoing for the past 6 months and it really hasn’t snapped into […]

9/1/2013 12 comments

Life Story

by XSuicide ThoughtsX 8/31/2013

written by XSuicide ThoughtsX

I grow up with my mom yelling at me my dad coming home drunk, high, he would come home angry, he would always attack me or my brother or even my mom. I guess all the anger and sadness i have in me is because of him he abandon my family. These past few years have been the roughest i haven’t seen him in 4 years. I wont see him for another 8 he got arrested. My mom and my me havent been getting along always blaming me for everthing it sad when your own mom even says she doesnt want to be alive because […]

8/31/2013 1 comment

harmless or harmful

by i.am.not.for.this.world 8/30/2013

written by i.am.not.for.this.world

She seems harmless enough, has the same problems as me, suicidal the same kind of tastes and personality but she is fragile and vulnerable to a point that exceeds my own, so i wonder……would it be such a terrible thing to be with her, would we crumble and end up destroying ourselves because we couldn’t handle each others sadness and attempts, would this relationship be a bad thing?

would we be harmless or harmful together, i do not yet know, i feel as though when meds come i will get better and she may too and then we could conquer this hard part of life together […]

8/30/2013 6 comments

This is what I think of when I try to sleep.

by Kallian 8/29/2013

written by Kallian

It isnâ€™t my intention to hurt anyone, and I apologize in the case that I actually do. Letâ€™s just face it, Iâ€™m not cut out for living. I canâ€™t do things right, Iâ€™m useless to my parents, Iâ€™m only someone to make fun of, and Iâ€™m just hated by a lot of people.

My mom, Kathy, she constantly makes remarks proving just how useless I am. For example, we would walk into the Air Force Academy Clothing Sales store, she would see those stupid â€œMy daughter goes to the Air Force Academyâ€ bumper stickers, and she would make the comment: â€œI wish I could put that […]

8/29/2013 3 comments

I really don’t know what to do…

by Ann 8/27/2013

written by Ann

It’s taken me my whole life to realise that have never been “happy.” I was never happy as a child, tween, and now into my teenage years, my sad feelings have developed into anxiety, anorexia, self harm, and suicidal thoughts. I turned to drug use and alcohol. I still smoke and drink a lot. I have these sleeping pills and sometimes I just hold them and think about how easy it would be to just go. I am disgusted by my body and spirit. I think sometimes, it’s not worth living if I can’t even love myself. I have been trying to like […]

8/27/2013 5 comments

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