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by Marissa Kresge 6/21/2012

written by Marissa Kresge

Hello, I’m marissa and I’m suicidal, achoolic, drug addict, and anorexic. I’m 14 and I drink and do drugs every night. I make myself puke 3 times a day. I have suicidal thoughts every night.

I live with my mom and her husband(sadly my step dad) I’m verbaly abused by both of them everyday. I was several times physical. I have no control over my life. I’ve tried to runaway but I always get caught. I’ve tried to take my life but always get talked out.

My father wasn’t there at my birth and was really never there for me. He moved to Florida when […]

6/21/2012 2 comments

An intro – seems like so many days run togethor

by donotgiveashit 6/21/2012

written by donotgiveashit

This is first time I have ever posted on web about suicide, this is actually pretty cool. I will not go into all my problems, just to the point where as so many other times in my life, I question why am I living? I have lost really great jobs, decent marraige, etc. and now I feel alone. I also like many others here have seen countless therapists, doctors, been diagnosed with two different things by several doctors, bottom line – I am miserable, I hate where my life is, unfortunately I do not have the balls to commit suicide. I prayed even today several […]

6/21/2012 3 comments

I hate my family

by ej 6/20/2012

written by ej

They are terrible. My grandma is fucking crazy and she screams at me and chases me around. I live with my grandparents. My grandpa has no heart for the emotion of another human being. They used to beat their kids. My mom hit me really hard yesterday because of something stupid. I’m gifted but they tell me I’m not. They don’t encourage me or any of my talents or anything I do. They constantly blame me for things and make me feel like shit. I have no confidence. I don’t go out. I don’t do anything. I research and self-educate myself a lot but they […]

6/20/2012 3 comments

Wasnt sure but now I am.

by Johndoeman 6/16/2012

written by Johndoeman

I have tried to kill myself several times. I know I failed cuz I was holding back. Now I no longer feel the need to. I mean I have made a serious effort ( time in hospital and sanatorium) but I could have done it better and have made sure it worked.

Last month I had the privilege of spending 3 days with my father as he died an agonizing death. I am now certain there is no God. No more fear of the after life as I am now certain there isn’t one. Nothing mystic about dying now, we are just animals and we all […]

6/16/2012 1 comment

Last Weekend,Wish Me Luck

by sunbird 6/10/2012

written by sunbird

I havent been on here for awhile,not that I was a regular but I did post several times. If you want my backstory,please look it up under my name. I’m too emotionally tired to write it out again,so please dont post and ask me “whats wrong.”

I have tried yet another round of IOP and left feeling hopeful,only to have my world continue to crumble in the days afterwards. The people who are supposed to be my “aftercare support” are either pushing me further to the edge(if thats possible!!!) or looking at me blankly when I reach out for help. The source that i received help […]

6/10/2012 7 comments

Life sucks :/

by Marissa Kresge 6/6/2012

written by Marissa Kresge

So I’m marissa. I’m 14 and my life sucks.

My mom is a workaholic and drinks all the time. I only see her for 5 minutes in the morning and one Saturday a month.

My step- father verbaly and (once) physhicaly abused me. I hate him. He treats his daughter like a princess and makes me do all the chours.

My step-sister is the biggest ***** ever she punches me and she’s only 7! She constantly goes into my room and fucks it up!

September 14, 2012 I lost my aunt to a battle of cancer, melanoma. Life hasn’t been the same since. I cry every night […]

6/6/2012 3 comments

Completely empty and alone

by justindiowa 6/4/2012

written by justindiowa

My entire life seems cursed with pain, unfairness and shortcomings. My dad died when I was 14 and my grandparents were dead before I was born. My mom has tried hard to raise me right but she had to work 2 jobs my entire childhood and spent most of her free time with her boyfriend away from our home. In a nutshell I had to teach myself everything without much of a role model. During high school I turned to drinking beer and during my senior year I averaged an 18 pack of beer per night. My grades failed miserably and I never really had […]

6/4/2012 6 comments

The more days pass, the more sad I get

by missedtherighttrack 5/23/2012

written by missedtherighttrack

So, I’m going to be on therapy soon. For years I’ve been trying to cope with my past psychological traumas with heavy alcohol and drug use, had various sex partners I barely knew, nearly got killed several times, got injured heavily and got myself even more psychological traumas and now it seems they have reached their critical mass.

Worst is that I wanted to spray some positive graffity on the wall of my room and I googled “love” and ended up crying after seeing a whole lotta couples. But deep inside myself I am laughing about myself still being affected by my classmates making fun of […]

5/23/2012 1 comment

Getting closer

by missedtherighttrack 5/21/2012

written by missedtherighttrack

Yesterday I was drinking again, behaved like an idiot around a girl I was dating a while ago. Had a verbal fight over the telephone with my brother – told him that I was trying to kill myself several times this year. Then I had a talk with a friend and he told that the other people would very sad if I kill myself on the other hand I don’t believe that. I know that my funeral would be attended by a few hundred people but how come I feel like being nothing, I’m terribly lonely, I don’t feel like having a life at all. […]

5/21/2012 3 comments

My story.

by RadioactiveRoar 5/20/2012

written by RadioactiveRoar

So after keeping everything bottled up inside me I decided I have to share my real feelings.

Hmm…where to start? I guess when everything began.

I had just moved to this town in Texas because my father’s in the military. I was excited about the new experience. I had my heart set on going to this cool elementary school, Cielo Vista, but I couldn’t. So I had to go to Bliss, one of the worst elementary schools in the city. Thank god I was only there for 5th grade. Anyways, I was always a bit on the sad side. But when I got here, everything seemed to […]

5/20/2012 0 comment

I am tired of the struggle

by toolate 5/20/2012

written by toolate

The financial struggle just to exist is exhausting. My wife died over 8 years ago and I raied our two children who are in college. The politics around my job are horrible and getting worse thanks to some very misguided individuals at the state level. I have tried to find another job but the competitition is stiff and most employers want a younger person.

Thanks to the greed on wall street, corporations outsourcing Asmerican jobs, the governments huge deficiets and low interest rates our IRAS and 401K’s have tanked several times over the past 15 years leaving it with being no where close […]

5/20/2012 2 comments

Why bother

by frodor 4/16/2012

written by frodor

I was abused pretty early on by my father. Mentally and physically. He tried to kill me with a gun.Â It misfired twice. I used to think I was fortunate that happened, now I wish when heÂ shot, he killed me. I would have saved me a lot of suffering.

Went to school teased there as well. Stood up to them didn’t matter. Beat them up. Didn’t matter. Told school officials didn’t matter.

Then my mother abused me mentally. She checked out on life for a number of years by taking percocet and valium.Â Which left me at 8 to pay the bills. The money was there […]

4/16/2012 2 comments

My First Post

by mark800101 3/14/2012

written by mark800101

It feels like such a monumental task to explain everything that got me to where I am today. I simply don’t have the energy to write it right now, if ever. I don’t know.

Lately I’ve just been letting the days go by, I keep hoping something good will happen and change the current situation I’m in. I’ll explain the tip of the iceberg.

On February 20th, my best friend named jackie was supposed to video chat with me that night. We had just gotten off a stressful video chat during my lunch break that day. A few […]

3/14/2012 3 comments

hoplessness?

by robertcurrie 2/23/2012

written by robertcurrie

for about 5 years now i have had a struggle with depression, and only in the past 2 years or so have people found out about it. i’ve attempted to kill myself several times but never found the strangth to do it.
when people first found out about my depression they where absolutely shocked. It didn’t make sense to them, i was always the one helping other people with their problems. Hell i wanted to be a social worker or child psychologist for the sole reason of helping people with those problems. But now…. now everything just looks bleak.
today after a fairly minor argument […]

2/23/2012 7 comments

If I Die Who Will Know

by warrenkarlneild26 2/23/2012

written by warrenkarlneild26

“Enough is enough i can’t go on……”

I’m nearly fort-two, and suddenly i realized that if i was to die right now nobody would know. I have always felt this loneliness inside me since being a young child but until now i have never understood what lonely really was.

I’m going to end my life. I have tried several times before but failed in my attempts. I think if i try one more time i would get it right. I’ve searched the net every day looking for different ways to end it all, now i know i’ve been doing it all wrong. That’s why i keep failing.

I […]

2/23/2012 6 comments

she is the only one to make me happy.

by eatmyheartout 2/9/2012

written by eatmyheartout

just to get it out here,hey,i’m ricardo and i’m 15 years old(i know it’s pretty young)
i have been diagnosed with major depression about a month ago..
i had been heartbroken about 7 times by now and for the first time in my life i have found a girl who actually likes me for who i am,
at home i’m getting bullied for my appearance,i have a rather emo look..and my brothers can’t seem to handle me like a nomal person,
anyways,when i’m at home i don’t feel all too great,i have cut myself several times which i am not proud of,
my best friend […]

2/9/2012 2 comments

My last few weeks.

by Engie 1/17/2012

written by Engie

I am a 23 year old engineer. I became interested in this site a while back when I was feeling low. I am fascinated by all the stories. The things that make people depressed, stories of overcoming or triumph or despair.
This is my first entry. I guess I just need a vent. I don’t have any real reason to be depressed except perhaps only within the chemistry of my brain.

It has been a week and 3 days since I last tried to kill myself.

It was during the Christmas/New Year break that my mother discovered that I’d been dating an Asian for nearly a year. […]

1/17/2012 4 comments

too young to die yet too tired to continue

by blankgirl 1/15/2012

written by blankgirl

All the people that know me think that I have a “good life” . Yes, I do have the “good life” yet I feel so unhappy and guilty living it. The parents who love me and who provide everything as much as they can andÂ little brother I adore the most, even with them I feel somehow hopeless. I pity them. I pityÂ myself even more.Â Theres nothing to badmouth about my life, I`m considered to be the luckiest kid because my parents dont do drugs, there is Â roof over my head and food in my plate, good school, good clothes etc.

The friends who are not in […]

1/15/2012 3 comments

The walls are closing in …

by Dawg 12/30/2011

written by Dawg

… and the end game is near. It’s like walking into a cave and it keeps getting darker and narrower. I started coming to this conclusion close to a year ago. Like so many others, I had a decent and comfortable life that was turned upside down by the global economic meltdown. I’ve met adversity before and it does not scare me – I’m kind of a “roll with the punches” kind of guy.

A little background for you all – I’ve been married and divorced 3 times – 2 kids – a girl and a boy, each with a different mother. The girl is an […]

12/30/2011 28 comments

It’s about time

by nofeelings 8/31/2009

written by nofeelings

I’ve been trying hard to find a good reason that I should live.Â But, sadly, I couldn’t find one.Â I don’t wanna make things too complicated, after all, life is smiple.Â But, what’s a point if IÂ am not happy?Â Â I’ve been suffering from depression for more than 8 years.Â Nothing can cure me.Â I can cry several times a day, 7 days a week.Â My crying makes me so tired, but I just can’t help it.Â I’ve got no family, no friends,Â I tried to force myself to talk to others, but I hate it,Â I’m not confortable with it.Â I don’t wanna talk to anyone, and […]

8/31/2009 3 comments

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