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“Are You OK?”

by help wanted 9/15/2012

written by help wanted

That’s the question that makes me sick.

When I hear that question i want to kill whoever asked.

I don’t know how to make it any more obvious.

Do I need to put highlighter on my cuts?

Do I need to wear a sign that says “Suicidal”?

Or should i just make an announcement to everyone?

Because no matter how many timesÂ they ask,

The answer doesn’t change.

It was a no yesterday, and it’s a no today.

And guess what, tomorrow it will still be a no.

So quit reminding me that my life is shit.

If you have to ask someone if they are alright,

The answer is no.

…..

Now do me a favor please?

Ask me if […]

9/15/2012 3 comments

Music explains things better than I ever could

by justwhatiam 9/15/2012

written by justwhatiam

Let me tell you bout my month yall
Endless shoppinâ€™, I had a ball
I had to ball for therapy
My shrink donâ€™t think that helps at all
Whatever, that man aint wearinâ€™ these leather pants
I diagnosed my damn self, these damn pills aint workinâ€™ fam
In my spare time, punchinâ€™ walls fucking up my hand
I know that shit sound super cray
But if you had my life youâ€™d understand
But, I cant fold
Some poor soul got it way worse
Weâ€™re all troubled in a world in trouble
It scary to […]

9/15/2012 0 comment

Hahaha

by 2012 9/14/2012

written by 2012

I want to set myself on fire right now. For me, it’s the method I like the most. Fuck everything. I find it amusing that in a moment of dark despair, I end up getting bullied on a depression chat room. Not going to bother writing much this time, anything I say or do falls on deaf ears and blind eyes. After hearing sound advice from life, I think I’m going to go duct tape my mouth shut and save everybody the trouble from having to hear me.

I don’t care if you think I’m being serious or not. I’m going to die, you’re […]

9/14/2012 3 comments

Just when I thought it’d be gone…

by Abiron 9/12/2012

written by Abiron

Seems like it’s becoming a high priority again. Damn Eating Disorder…

Fuck swimming classes man. If it weren’t for having them every single day for two hours I could of had the chance to starve myself. I want to die, but I don’t want to die drowning. I’m pretty sure that’s an unpleasurable experience. When I was anorexic, I was 5’5 and 98 lbs, that was back in Dec.-Nov. 2011. 10 months have passed since then, today I finally had to weigh-in in school. Of course I had clothes on, and I weighed myself naked as anorexic. The scale popped out at 132lbs. My heart sunk, […]

9/12/2012 1 comment

I actually rarely really complain about things that matter.

by christina-- 9/12/2012

written by christina--

I dont want attention. I dont want anyones pity. I dont want people to tell me how I was wronged in this big bad world. I dont want people touching me, hugging me..
I dont want to acknowledge how hard I have been hitting rock bottom for months. Not months, years.Â Ive been hitting it over and over again, and I think I finally managed to break the ground and go beneath it.

What I really want is for someone to hold me. Not just a hug. I want to be hold all night to wake up in those same arms the next morning. I want […]

9/12/2012 0 comment

So today

by ewsharon 9/11/2012

written by ewsharon

I felt like shit. I mean I usually feel like shit but today was different. I honestly wanted to jump of the 5nd floor. I just need someone to talk to. Someone who will always be here for me. Someone who would be able to just listen and I can cry all I want and hrkwjdkejxkshdkwkdkanjskskskakskskkskqldnapjlkbkjhkijnbctyhjyd I just donâ€™t feel okay. And Iâ€™m really tired of pretending im fine. Iâ€™m tired of people stepping all over me. You know what I wanna do? I want to ignore everyoneâ€¦ Just not talk to anyone (except for like 2 people who I love talking to). Iâ€™ve been […]

9/11/2012 0 comment

I Played R. & R. and I won.

by MsRavens 9/10/2012

written by MsRavens

I played a few times….

No biggie….

Â I was a stikler on even numbers, so I decided to break that OCD trait.

Â That was my purpose of playing that russian game.

Â It was not the cause.

Sometimes I wonder if there truly is a plan for my life….

Sometimes I wonder if it would be wrong to continuosly test this theory…

Â sometimes…

(Ppl will read this as though it is a poem..Â it is not. I centered the shit)(Ppl dont need to read my page, I’m no faker.) But if one needs inspiration… be my guest.. […]

9/10/2012 1 comment

I dont know

by StringPuppet 9/10/2012

written by StringPuppet

I’m sick of waiting.

I’m sick of having my heart broken again and again.Â This year has been horrible.Â I started off telling someone something and having it thrown in my face, and then recovering from it only to find myself falling for the same things all over again with someone new.Â But this person is different, yet I have to wait for her, but she will disappear from my life.Â I don’t want that…

She makes me want to strive, but then not being there for her makes me sick, I’m being to obsessive maybe.

I feel empty without her, she’s special, and I don’t want this […]

9/10/2012 2 comments

Not today..after all

by Russianboy91 9/3/2012

written by Russianboy91

Well that is it. I skipped class today after just another shitty day without talking or knowing noone in this huge class of over 100 students and already by now everyone has study groups. After that moment something glitched in my brain and I simply did what I always do. Escape. So I took the first bus home. I was so pissed off at myself that I turned to the closest mall and told myself that I would not be a ***** any longer and go through with taking my life today..so I bought a six pack of ice cold Heinekens and a bottle of […]

9/3/2012 0 comment

Bad start

by TarotXIII 8/30/2012

written by TarotXIII

Well what a good start since last week.All seems to be going down shit.Can’t find any roommate.The two people who were supposed to come never came.I had to call them and they told me “oh sorry about that but we found something else”.Thanks for the call…Next I had my internet and phone ordered up but they never activated my line.I had received the router and all and they told me on the phone that my order was inexistant…

A girl then came to visit the rooms I had for rent just to be gone after only 5 min,sighing all along and giving that fucking glare everyone […]

8/30/2012 0 comment

Today is the day.

by kteixeira 8/29/2012

written by kteixeira

Well today is the day, im finally leaving this horrible life of mine. I have discovered somethings recently that have become the straw that broke the camels back. So im taking care of the problem, and that problem is me. You can call me selfish, i dont care, i know i am. If its selfish to end my life to end the pain and lonliness i have been dealing with my whole life, then so be it. No one will miss me, because i dont give a shit about anyone anymore. People say that killing yourself is wasting god’s gift. Well i dont believe that […]

8/29/2012 11 comments

I’ve come to the point in my life where I’ve realized there is no point.

by pasquelina 8/27/2012

written by pasquelina

Since I was 14 or 15 I’ve detested living, but for the most part I’ve hung in there for other people. I tried back in 2000 (and obviously failed) to overdose on xanax. Apparently, I didn’t take enough. When I woke up I was PISSED. I ended up in the hospital for 3 weeks. The last several years of my life have been as far from positive and happy as it can get. Lost my job and after living in another state for 16 years I had to move back in with my parents because I have NO money left. My father will not speak […]

8/27/2012 10 comments

I just don’t want to live!

by Viktor 8/25/2012

written by Viktor

Hello, my name is Viktor D.
I’m from Serbia, and I have a lot of emotional problems, along problems with people.

I am a metal-head and people who don’t know what metal is and how good metal-people are, and that they also have emotions, and can be soft and good to other people and nice, polite etc. but when I see other people who don’t understand what it is, and when I see them make fun of it and me and my friends, it makes me burst with rage, but then I understand that even if they somehow get better and start to understand, there are […]

8/25/2012 3 comments

I can’t wait to leave….

by ihatethisblacklife 8/18/2012

written by ihatethisblacklife

I am so ready to leave. plan on my daughter’s birthday (yes, a daughter that I don’t get to see) to leave this pathetic fucking life. Funny that so many believe in a fictious god, but think (because a dumb book) that you will be damned if you leave this crappy shit earlier. There is no god, and there is nothing after this bullshit. We are just like any other animal on this planet, look at all of our actions. We go to war for what reason? There is more than enough land on this planet to live. We keep others financially strap for what […]

8/18/2012 5 comments

Just so over it all

by thequietheart 8/16/2012

written by thequietheart

I’m not sure how this works but I feel like venting. I’m 25 years old. People say I’m pretty but most of the time I can’t stand who I see in the mirror. I’ve beenÂ reading posts on this website over the last few days and I was surprised to see my thoughts and feelings expressed so accurately by random people all over. You know when people say oh everyone’s felt like Â that, like that’s suppose to help but this actually is kind of comforting. Anyway back to venting. I had a car accident this mornin and physically I’m fine but in every other way I’m […]

8/16/2012 5 comments

I feel like tonight, mabe i can wait a little longer

by Atlanta 8/15/2012

written by Atlanta

Im done with this shit, i refuse to let my heart get broken again, i get so high on pain meds but im not gonna even attempt to move on this timr.

8/15/2012 1 comment

I lost my last possible chance at happiness

by kthxbai2u 8/15/2012

written by kthxbai2u

After all the bullshit, the hospital, etc. I felt no more ‘better’ than I did before all of that crap (read my other posts to find the other shit I have been going through). I actually feel much much worse than before (this post explains most of it).

I was trying to find just one reason to stay alive, and figured I could make one with my XGF. I figured we could try things again. I figured I could stay permanently, and make the kid’s life better. Now that she has no chance, the poor kid will go through “father” after “father” after “father”. She claims […]

8/15/2012 1 comment

Sometimes I feel like the world’s on my shoulders, everyones leanin on me

by bleedtokwuralive 8/11/2012

written by bleedtokwuralive

Feeling the choking effect of too much stress today!! Not good for my anxiety issues at all!!! Broox dad is suddenly wanting visitation rights with him after 2 years!! He’s hasn’t held him since the day he was born and suddenly he deserves every other weeked? My answer to that is fuck you!! Why should he be allowed to walk back into his life whenever he wants?? It wasn’t fair to Broox when he walked out on im and it’s fair to Broox to let him walk in and out like that all the time!! I’m terrified that his family will try and take take […]

8/11/2012 1 comment

What am I even here for?

by itsaugustagain 8/10/2012

written by itsaugustagain

There’s very few people who know me really well. However, those who do know that I am, in fact, a shitty person. Everything about me is shit. I am selfish, ungrateful, bitchy, rude, and anything else with a similar negative connotation. I am not a good person. The worst part is that sometimes I don’t even notice it. I’ve hurt the person I care about the most. I’ve failed them. I’ve also failed myself. What’s the point of living in this world when you’re not benefiting it? I’m not going to do any good for anyone, so why should I be here? I despise myself […]

8/10/2012 7 comments

I don’t even know anymore.

by misspent 8/2/2012

written by misspent

In October of last year, I was going to hang myself. I was living over six hours away at school. No one I knew there. Grades dropped to an all time low. Before I could do it, my mother withdrew me and brought me home, yelling the most obscene things at me. She knew nothing of my self harm or plans, and she made me feel like worse shit than I am. I went to the local high school again. Things got worse, but also better. I got a girlfriend. A good friend of mine died. So did my grandpa. I can’t bear to outlive […]

8/2/2012 4 comments

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