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Sigh, I have no talent

by bah 12/4/2015

written by bah

Do watching YouTube videos make you happier or more depressed? When I watch these videos (not celebrities, mind you) but of “ordinary” people, I see so much talent- people who can sing, people who can dance, draw, play musical instruments, rap, beat-box, heck even people who speak well or people who know how to put on make-up to make themselves look like superstars (all those tutorials)! Maybe I should stop watching shows like American Idol and X-Factor…

When I look at myself, I don’t feel like I’m good at anything. I don’t have any talent. Ok, so I am relatively intelligent and I do have a […]

12/4/2015 5 comments

I want to so bad??

by sun prince 11/30/2015

written by sun prince

I’ve been feeling weird for a day and a half, and it’s slowly starting to get to me. I’m not a self-harmer, but right now I want to cut myself so bad. I want to feel pain. I’ve always been someone who is against self-harm and thinks that it’s “stupid”, but right now I want to feel something other than this emptiness and sadness. I’m not scared, I don’t care that it’ll hurt.

11/30/2015 9 comments

I feel like shit again!

by Ylem 11/28/2015

written by Ylem

I thought I was slowly getting better. I feel terrible all over again. Family is planning to go to the beach tomorrow, after visiting the cemetery. This just reminded me that we were at the beach 6 days before my brother died. He was talking about life, my life. How important it is that I hold on. But I cant. Not without him.
Just now, my parents told me that my cousin commited suicide because he couldnt deal with my brother’s death. They had said his death was an accident. He died just weeks after my brother died.
I see myself cutting tonight or getting […]

11/28/2015 9 comments

Disease.

by pondersaurus 11/27/2015

written by pondersaurus

I’m wearing my mood likea weight around my neck.
Everyday it gets harder and harder to lift my head.
I keep trying to do the right thing for everyone involved in my life,
But everyday the pull to stay in bed gets stronger.
I wish there were words to cure my disease,
But instead it just festers inside me, slowly taking me over.
Time between breaths has become far too difficult.
I can hear my number, it’s being called.

11/27/2015 0 comment

Protected: Lurking Indominable Maggot

by whiskered-fish 11/25/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/25/2015 11 comments

Him

by Take a Deep Breath 11/23/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

His mask- it looked as though smoke had curled around his eyes and his nose, daring to rest atop his cheek bones. Rosy lips broke into a blinding grin as he saw me waltz toward him. God he was handsome. A mope of curly black hair, suntanned skin and eyes so blue you could lose yourself in them. His dapper tuxedo emphasized his broad shoulders, long legs and toned arms… this man was mine. He rushed towards me and lifted me from the ground, twirling me round and round till we were breathless with laughter and life. I itched to peel his mask from his […]

11/23/2015 2 comments

Alone for the hoildays. :(

by BrokenAngel8 11/17/2015

written by BrokenAngel8

Well its less than 2 weeks away till thanksgiving the beginning of the holiday season and I am single for the first time in two years, feeling depressed from the overwhelming load of classwork and haunting thoughts from this time last year. I just feel so alone . To the point that I honestly think its pathetic. I mean I know I’m extremley pretty, nice, loyal, funny , hardworking and yet I am still here alone. I mean its bad enough that I sleep with the tv on just so I have a little bit of company at night. I am trying hard to stay […]

11/17/2015 6 comments

Tomorrow Here We Come #1

by Take a Deep Breath 11/13/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

Hello my loves! So the point of these mini stories I will be writing is I want you all to be able to escape into a tiny pice of beauty that I will be writing. I also hope to inspire each of you to find your own piece of beauty throughout your day 🙂

The sunlight pours through her bedroom window, its tendrils of warmth caressing her pale face. She can feel the heat wrap itself around her lips, nose, ears… that little smile perches on her lips. She gently stretches out across her bed, her tired joints crackling in protest. Slowly sitting up, she takes […]

11/13/2015 3 comments

cutting…….

by koki 11/1/2015

written by koki

I’m sorry if I am not allowed to ask this. Also sorry if this subject upsets or triggers anyone.

For those of you that cut,

do you do it quickly or slowly.
Is it one single swipe, or do you take your time and pick at it.
Do you always make a new cut or do you revisit old or recent cuts.
Do you feel what you would class as a normal amount of pain given what you are doing.
Do you dress the wounds yourself or do you ever go to the hospital afterwards.

I’d just like to know if I am the same.

11/1/2015 12 comments

hope …

by jadedkeizy 11/1/2015

written by jadedkeizy

If I wrote a book about the various house-hold chemicals you can use to kill yourself, I’d be a best selling author. I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve researched this method. But I stopped those plans and I am now taking medicine and going for counselling. My therapist shows me techniques on how to deal with pressure and it really helps. A little bit of positivity is starting to creep back in and the dark cloak on my mind is slowly being unfurled. But I gotta admit, I do have some dark days but I always find ways of controlling my thoughts. Something that […]

11/1/2015 5 comments

The edge

by unbrokenangel 10/28/2015

written by unbrokenangel

When you keep opening up and giving someone your all, then they turn around and fuck you over every time, it slowly starts to take a toll on you. You start losing pieces of yourself, and friends start to leave you. You slowly start to hate yourself because of what you’ve turned into and you eventually get pushed to the edge and slowly start falling off into a downward spiral of tears and other horrible things. You know they are the only one that can help you because they are the only one you want, but every time you just get hurt worse […]

10/28/2015 2 comments

21 poem

by alonelybird 10/24/2015

written by alonelybird

Slivers of life
Shaven off
Slowly taken
By a knife.
She shouted silently
As my last was gone
I fell to my coffin
For everyone to mourn.
To be in pain
All day long
Was my duty
In this plain old song.
Wasting away, peacefully so
Dieing my death
Finally you’ll know

10/24/2015 4 comments

I need help wit writing my goodbye

by Father-bigperm-dieing 10/20/2015

written by Father-bigperm-dieing

Jus want to have like a last will . So when I finally die I can have something behind

10/20/2015 9 comments

APPREHENSIVE HELP ME. !

by cocoki 10/17/2015

written by cocoki

I met this amazing guy who REALLY !!!! Likes me he’s only 7/8 years older then me but he is honestly so kind hearted and sweet And has the cutest smile and brightest eyes we have a little bit of a language barrier but I’m in contact with him but I live in 1 county and he’s in the other. What do I do I’m not good enough for him but is that my anxiety and lack of self worth I always say I want to aim for more and he’s everything a girl could ask for I always promise myself not settle like my […]

10/17/2015 1 comment

Protected: Taste

by Trix 10/16/2015

written by Trix

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10/16/2015 0 comment

Coward

by SlowDeath1 10/13/2015

written by SlowDeath1

The only reason I’m still alive right now is because I’m scared it won’t work or it will hurt. I know how I want to go, but it isn’t a guaranteed death…there’s the fact that I may be found, and there’s the fact that I just get really sick instead of dying. I’ve been researching to see if my method will really work or if I’ll just lay there forever with a messed up stomach. If I could be sure that I would just slowly leave, I would do it in a heartbeat.

I’ve said goodbye to everyone I need to. Only two people picked up […]

10/13/2015 19 comments

Thoughts of Her

by alonelybird 10/7/2015

written by alonelybird

To think that she would like me. Who would? Or could? I can’t and won’t.
I was almost convinced she did.
I tried to get to know her, slowly it was working, she appeared to be reciprocating; smiling, laughing etcetera. After a while we got to texting. It was nice for a few messages but then she told me she had to call her boyfriend.
Ripped.
Ripped my heart out, though it’s not her fault and I don’t blame her. I just thought we had stuff in common and we’d get along.
Every one said we’d be good together.
I guess she’ll haunt my dreams […]

10/7/2015 2 comments

Wishing, waiting

by Trix 10/2/2015

written by Trix

I’m trying to remind myself that I’m still that small bit calmer than usual. Things have changed; they’re still better. I’m still trying. I’m not sinking as fast or easily as I used to.

But I’m falling… The depression is agonising. I’m exhausted. My muscles are heavy, uncomfortable and sore. My mind is the same. I’m tired of closing myself off from the world. I’m tired of choosing between letting in the sunlight or being able to think slightly more clearly. It’s so sad to think that I’ve reached a point when a single car journey can set off all my ME/CFS symptoms and leave me […]

10/2/2015 31 comments

Isn’t it crazy…

by infinitely.spinning 9/30/2015

written by infinitely.spinning

…how one person can affect your life so much. I pride myself in being a strong person. I always have been. No one’s words have ever hurt me. Except… for one person. He broke my heart, left me with nothing. Called me names. Said I wasted months of his life. I found that he was the one person whom I can’t fight. He’s also the one person that can make me hurt like no one else can. He’s also the only person that can make me feel weak. It’s not healthy to have him in my life. That much I’ve figured out. But I’ve also […]

9/30/2015 14 comments

lost

by 4262B 9/16/2015

written by 4262B

As I lay in bed questioning my own existence, I look threw the window and see nothing but something which was once familiar but now is not. I’ve lost myself. I’ve lost sight of any goals or aspirations I once had, I’ve lost sight of my happiness. I hold back the tears and feel my heart drop to my stomach as I am slowly coming to realization that I don’t belong.

9/16/2015 4 comments

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