Today’s just been horrible.
I always say to myself that I don’t think I could kill myself because of how my family would feel, but today I really couldn’t care less. Not a lot to say, but today I realized something I didn’t realize before
I am definitely, 100% sure that at some point I’ll take my own life.
Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow,
but soon.
-V
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I’m sorry to hear that you have got to this point. But are you sure that you will find peace after you die? I understand that you cannot bear anymore living and you are ready to die. I felt the same. If you can’t find reasons to live, just do it. But there is always something to live for. There are people who live only because they like to watch movies for example. Death tells me nothing. The afterlife tells me nothing. So why to risk everything for something you know nothing about?
I found that once I reached this point I could then use my life as a currency or almost like a poker chip. Basically I found that once I removed the reservations I had about how people would react to my suicide I felt empowered. From that point on I could take risks that I would normally never indulge in. At the end of the day no consequence is inescapable when you have suicide as a way out.
Now remember this, no consequence is too harsh to redeem yourself from, and as far as solutions go, suicide is a fools solution for a perfectly solvable problem. Also remember, that every moment of prosperity and growth could end in a low point. Lastly, long periods of prosperous drought can be reversed in only a day, and if you hold out one day your situation can be changed, but not without effort.